I try to change for you 
but I DON'T THINK I'M FUCKING ABLE TO

I hid all of our photos

Told you so (ft. Yung T)

Tell me girl how long has this been
Going on between you and him?
I let my guard down again and you went behind my back and stabbed it
No we cannot go being back to friends
I don’t want to see you ever again, I am so done

I should never have forgave your ass
I knew one day we’d crash we took it way too fast
Begging for forgiveness and to take you back
But I don’t think so, uh uh, it’s too late for that
You used to be the love of my life
Until you turned into a person that I just don’t like 
I was up at night alone while you were with your other guy
And when I finally found out you still had the nerve to fucking lie

I’ve been screaming at the top of my lungs
Do you even hear me?  
I don’t think that you hear me
You never listen to a word I say
I did you dirty but you did me in the worst of ways

Running off of fumes I’m about to break down
Blocked you on everything, won’t have to see your face now
I’m done trying, you think I’d be crying
But ever since I said goodbye to you I have been thriving
But I won’t lie I miss being around you
But I know that I’m better off without you
I won’t lie I miss being around you
But I’ve been doing so much better without you

Tell me girl how long has this been
Going on between you and him?
I let my guard down again and you went behind my back and stabbed it
No we cannot go being back to friends
I don’t want to see you ever again, I am so done

why can’t you just be honest

You fight harder even when I want to give up
How could someone special like you love me this much?
How are you not sick of me?  I'm asking myself
Why do I do these things that I do to you?
You keep me happy I just hurt you
Your family telling me that I do not deserve you
Your friends telling me to fuck myself and to be honest
I agree with everything they say

Had a good girl but she came at a bad time
She took back her love but she will forever have mine
I'm no good for you, doing all the things that I shouldn't do
but still I love you so and I'm willing to do anything to prove it's true to you

Yung T:
I don't get it why do you still love me?
Everybody else hates and always judge me
Even when I cause you pain you still care 'bout me
and I just hate myself I always doubt me
Don't know what I should do
Just wanna find the truth
But I'ma try for you
Don't forget that I care too

You fight harder even when I want to give up
How could someone special like you love me this much?
How are you not sick of me?  I'm asking myself
Why do I do these things that I do to you?
You keep me happy I just hurt you
Your family telling me that I do not deserve you
Your friends telling me to fuck myself and to be honest
I agree with everything they say

Why (ft. Yung T)

Why did I let myself become so damn attached to you
I act like don’t feel a thing but it’s killing me knowing that we’re through
It’s like everything I do is wrong, I fucked up now you’re moving on
Everything I put you through 
I wish I could take it all back

I wish I could I could take it all back
But we both know there is no changing the past
I just need start facing the facts
No matter what we try it ain’t gonna last
I know that it’s for the best but i still wonder
Why’s it gotta be this way, it needs to change 
but I don’t see a way out of this one I think it’s fair to say we’re fucked 

Do I need you?  Or need you out my life instead?
All these questions and thoughts racing inside my head
It’s 4 am and here I’m thinking about the time we spent
I try to sleep but end up staying up all night ‘cause when
I close my eyes all I see is your face
Don’t know how I even got you in the first place
You treated me the best, I treated you the worst way
Yeah they were times I treated you good but you deserved great
And I just don’t understand
It’s like one day I want you out of my life, the next I’m begging for another chance

I wish I could take it all back

Sample used
Xavier Wulf - Independentstry Over The Industry

don’t need the fame uh but now it’s too late 
jealousy hitting it proves that you fake 
it’s now a trend to go out and just hate 
always trynna ride my wave 
bitch just stay right in yo lane 
i don’t do this for the fame
i like doing shit my way 
they always running there mouth 
because i made it out 
all these bitches go crazy just to get some clout 
i ain’t into that shit cause just i fuck around 
if you keep talking then you’ll get slumped to the ground 
do not need help i do this on my own
make my own beats man i’m in my zone 
pray for the worst and i ain’t even grown 
they hating on my shit but still watching me on they’re phones yuh
ay hate means i’m doing it right uh
never gon stop living life uh 
stuck cause yo future ain’t bright 
want my downfall so i flex all my ice

No I’m not like the average, they telling me I have a gift
I’m passionate about this rapping shit so how much cash I get will never matter bitch
All I want in this life that I live is to keep on getting these songs done
And inspire others in the long run and if you think I’m bluffing you’re on one
Working on my craft while all you do is slack 
Yet better than me is how you act, that kind of ignorance makes me laugh
People really getting mad saying don’t do this or don’t do that
Get the fuck off my back I’m not gonna fall into your trap
Speakers banging a playlist of my favorites
a lot are underground or way too underrated
but that’s okay with me as long as they’re making real fucking music I genuinely can relate with
I’ll be staying independent, and if it I say it then I meant it
Never paying attention to the plays that I’m getting or giving a fuck if my names getting mentioned
They try to label us and make assumptions but it’s okay because while they’re wasting up
Their time and energy throwing shade and judging, we stay doing what we do we never gave a fuck

Misunderstood - (ft. Yung T)

yung t -
I will never forget the day that I met you 
I will never forget all the shit we Been through 
But I wish I can forget you found someone new 
And Now all this pain will come back like deja vu 
Why’d you do that to me 
The pain hurts me slowly 
Things are going bad 
You don’t care about that 
You blocked me snap 
Now you never call back 
I did nothing wrong you blamed me now I’m sad 
You left me now I’m sad 
Wish you can come back 
I wish you can come back
Why’d you break my heart like that 

me -
You blame me now I’m sad
You making me so mad
Replacing what we had
Them good old days ain’t coming back
All the things you’d tell me, nothing was true
Now I’m hearing you found somebody new
You moved on, I’m just a thing of the past
a name you’ll soon forget
You said I’m not right for you but we both know that it’s true that nobody can love you the way I do
Now it rains and it pours, I swear I’ve been here before
All this pain’s coming back like deja vu

Yung T - Deja Vu (ft. Devin Thunder) prod. jody

MUSIC VIDEO
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Tvts-pSMM4

Story of my life
My heart hurts, it’s gonna be another lonely night
You say that nothings changed but I haven’t heard from you all day
Everything felt so right at the time but now I couldn’t feel more wrong
Had a feeling that this wouldn’t last for long
But fuck it I’m doing better now you’re gone
It’s been a while since you’ve shown love
Probably thinking that I need to grow up
Why do I think about you so much?
When it’s obvious when it comes to me you give no fucks
What we had I never thought that it would end
Treating me like a lover, then it’s back to a friend
But it’s whatever we don’t have to pretend
I’m not trying to hear you justify your actions again
I get it everything I say is wrong
Fuck these games, no longer will I play along
I’ll give you what you want, today’s the day I’m gone
Screaming the lyrics to my all favorite songs while I’m
Riding off into the night just to get you off of my mind
Looking at the sky like why oh why did you send this woman to me?

We only have so much time and energy
I’m through with wasting all of mine on you

Don’t bother asking for another chance ‘cause all you’re gonna hear is na na na


Sample used
waterfront dining - bonfires

Missed Opportunity

I’ve had many long nights, I’ve had some fucked up days
I used to want to run away but felt so stuck in place
Used to think I don’t have what it takes, but now I know I do
Used to feel so weak but now I’m feeling bullet proof
Used to live in the dark, now i got a glow
The old me died and I turned into an angel
People saying damn Devin you done changed bro
Friends and family saying they can’t wait fo’ the day I blow

Used to be scared to be myself but now I’m brave enough
I look at my past and I think god damn them days were rough
I’ve put all my loved ones through way too much, 
it’s time to make it up, I’m gonna make it up
Everyone can see that I’m doing good now
I can feel my grandma smiling when she look down
Fuck fame and fortune I do this cause it’s fulfilling
But deep down I know it’s coming so until then I’ll be cold chilling
Smoked out looking at the stars, Knowing one day ill be going far
Get on the mic start pouring out my heart, now everyone saying I’m going hard and making art

cold chillin

A lot has happened this past month so I’ve been putting music on the back burner.  I’ll be back and with happier songs.. it’s just I’m so fucking tired all the time now

How in the hell am I going to get out of this mess I got myself in
I got red flags showing there’s too much I’ve suppressed, things I haven’t dealt with
For too long
Now I will forever stay sleeping in this bed I made
With no one laying next to me
I’m getting too used to waking up alone

Looking at the time like damn you need to slow down
Feel like I was 18 just a couple years ago wow
I’m feeling old now, wanting nothing more
Than to go back and find what I should’ve been searching for 
Is it too late? Am I too late?
Somebody give me a sign before I lose faith

I just had a panic attack
Couldn’t catch my breath so I ran to the back
I wish I had somebody to help me fight this
But I don’t want anybody to see me like this

We freestyled about nuts

Truck nuts bitch I let them spark
I got them wheel them around just like that episode of South Park
in the cut, fucking all these beats up
They once hated on me now they all up on my NUTS
Going crazy in this bitch I belong in the nut house
I’ve lost it, I’m going nuts while yours still haven’t dropped yet
Where’s your balls bitch, Start a mosh pit
This that knock the person next to you out on the spot shit

bitch i pull wit the nuts 
and i whip it while i fuck 
you give me like 18 dollars then i’ll smack it on yo butt 
don’t care bout none of these sluts 
yeah i know they down to fuck 
they all on my body cause they know that i like to go nuts 
yuh i’m going crazy in this bitch uh yuh 
i go nuts whenever i jam to music uh yuh
bitch i’m always down to mob 
we gon pull up to yo block 
but we not gon fight we gon go nuts 
yeah we just like to rock

NUTS

I dont worry bout nothing I know that my higher power got my back
Even when I feel like giving up, i keep in mind that I’m on the right track
If you were to ask me if I could go through all of this before I’d be like hell na
That’s the reason I fell off, well now I’m bout to prove myself wrong
Adrenaline pumping through me, got my body shaking
lost my patience, I’m no longer waiting, i gotta make it
Some are okay with enslavement but I won’t tolerate it
All we have one chance so if life gives you a shot, you take it
Cause you don’t want to wonder what could’ve been
Had you actually went to all the places you should’ve went
Cause you don’t want to wonder what could’ve been
Had you actually went to all the places you should’ve went

Even when I was blocked I wrote, I never let that stop my goals
Sure I’d get low from time to time but I still never lost my hope
I got quite close when life would discourage me 
But now I’m living worry free and loving where I am currently
That’s facts, it feel so good that I can finally say that
Because these last few years I got lost and didn’t think that i would find my way back
Well here I am, look at me now, who would’ve thought i had it in me
Oh yeah that’s right, no one but me, that’s why I had no other choice but to keep it
100, 100, I’m keeping it 100
I kept my fucking head high now better things are coming
100, 100, I’ve always kept it 100
That’s just the truth, I paid my dues, now none of you can say nothing

it’s second nature

PRODUCED BY FRIENDZONE

i know it cannot be like this forever, ive always known i deserved better
ive fought through a lot for a spot at the top and i’m not gonna stop till i get there
i’ve spent years in a place where most wouldn’t even last a week
watching my life as it passes me by thinking damn there’s still so much that i gotta see
my life isn’t perfect and i don’t want it to be, i’m just asking for some comfort
all i ever wanted to be was somebody that inspires others
enough to face their fears, go out there, and put on a show
i know exactly how it is because not too long ago
i used to be so afraid of the world i couldn’t show my face
felt too out of place and that i just couldn’t control the pace
but i don’t care anymore i gotta change before it’s too late
id rather risk everything than let this potential go to waste

catching myself overthinking again, i feel like it’s all i ever do
i need to quit that, i need to get back on top of my shit before my time is through
i’ve always known that this couldn’t be it and that my life was meant for more
and if it’s meant to be, we gonna get there eventually like i said before
i know there’s times it seems hopeless and that you’re in an endless loop
and no matter how many times you pass life just keeps on testing you
i’m right there too still i keep it moving like I got nothing left to lose
just keep doing what you’re meant to do and i’m telling you life will bless you soon
you’d be surprised if only you knew just how much you’re really needed
believe in the words that i’m speaking, i mean it, i’m hoping that this helps you see it
nobody out there can match your uniqueness, so you gotta go out and show them what you’re all about
so many hidden gems that still haven’t been found so no stone getting left unturned as long as i’m around

everyday shoot the dice, do it without thinking twice
got these visions in my mind that you know ima bring to life
and i’m not stopping till my family living right
i tell them no worries just give it time
we gonna get there when the moments right
and that moments right now
everyday another chance to switch up your lifestyle
yeah it might sound cliche and it’s easier said than done
but if i can do this, so can anyone
cause i got same thoughts on my mind, for years i been falling behind
but that’s never gonna stop me from trying to get all the things that i want in this life
gotta change yourself before you make your life change, don’t stress about however long it might take
gotta keep in mind life ain’t no race no need to rush, you better off moving your own pace

Shoot the dice remix ft. Main Attrakionz

Wasting my life running circles in this rat race
Giving it my all still keep ending up in last place 
Giving it my all with nothing really show for it
I’m just trying live my life but can barely afford it
Been feeling like a broke loser with no future
Dwelling on the past and the things I wish I would’ve known sooner
Stressed out losing weight like a coke user
Wondering why can’t things just go smoother
All I wanna do is help everyone else
but i’m over here struggling trying to figure out how to do that for myself
Grew up poor as hell and nothing’s changed since
I got like 8 cents and I still gotta pay rent
So how am I supposed to make ends 
when the very moment I do there’s always somebody who wants to take them?
Underestimating my current situation
I’m barely scraping by but they don’t take that into consideration
Got me thinking about them brighter days
when I wasn’t judged for or taken advantage of whenever i get paid
regret it hit me like tidal wave when I think about the time I wasted working my life away at 9 to 5s I hate
feels like i’m stuck inside a cage that I can’t break out of now matter how much I try to find some kind of escape
I always gotta go through so much shit first
Feeling like I’m Dufresne and it drives me insane like
I just don’t see why they gotta empty me of every last penny I work hard for every single week
getting weak about to bleed to death feeding this leech
that just keeps getting hungry for more, fuck greed

Fuck all those who take everything that I make
helping yourself to a gourmet buffet stuffing your face while I scrape away at the scraps on my plate

My mom stressing tryna catch up and it’s never ending
I wanna help but we both in debt and I’m low on credit 
Feel so pathetic, I’m helpless and she’s overwhelmed
she’s always out working hard but it’s easy to tell
she’s needing the help, she’s needing a break
but can’t cause the man keeps taking every thing that she make
sitting comfortable one day, struggle the next 
living from check to check, just to pay bills until none of it’s left
And it just never ends
Under stress from the pressure until she struggles for breath
If only I could find a way to pick her up from this mess
I make a million I’d split it and give my mother the rest

It’s nothing less than what she deserves
I just want the finer things for her
It’s nothing less than what she deserves
I just want the finer things for her

I barely see my dad his job is other home
Last time him and I spoke was months ago
I still love him though, always have and will 
He wasn’t always there but he was always paying bills
Making sure we had a roof over our heads,
Were well fed and told us stories before going to bed 
I always knew he doing his best he could
‘Cause I saw too many kids grow up with dead beats 
Or even grow up without one
Ones that were never around much
That’s why I’m truly blessed I had one that would do his best
And for that I wanna give him something to be proud of
‘Cause now I’m the same age he was when had me
And right now what I need, having kids is the last thing
Far from ready and I’m sure he was too
Grew up with only a few bucks forced to make do

I don’t know how they did it man, matter of fact I don’t know how anybody does it.  Especially nowadays with how expensive it is to just exist.  Like I don’t know how I’m gonna even get my own house.  
I’d work more but when it involves all my time going towards a job I’m not passionate for leaving me with little to no energy to live my life? No.. it’s ridiculous 

I’m feeling burnt out and my body hurts
Underpaid, overworked, never get what I deserve
I’ve always been one who puts others before myself
Just to never get anything in return
Na all get’s neglect, disrespect, ditched, and left hanging with my finger tips on the edge
Tired of living in debt and being treated like less
I know I’m worth way more than what I see on my check

FUCK GREED

Produced by Braddy Skema

https://youtube.com/@braddyskema?si=pwkVM9-EYD04rc9N

These people wanna talk shit but ain’t saying shit
It’s whatever just keep Damian away from it
Cause I’m not tryna hear you speaking a word
Im tryna make sure the peace is disturbed 
for all the people on earth
Constantly on the search for a reason to murder
Run your mouth, I’ll make you put your teeth on the curb
Show up to your funeral, steal to keys to the hearse
And run over your fucking family while they’re leaving the church
kicked out of school cause I had all the teachers concerned
Did a bunch of drugs and forgot everything that I learned
Grew up fucked up, always treated the worst
Think of the world and I fantasize seeing it burn
welcome to the mind of a maniac
This rage I have is why it don’t take much to make me snap
Heard someone say I’m whack, found out where they’re staying at 
And decided to take an axe and split their fucking face in half

Giving people chills whenever i walk by
Giving them a glimpse of evil when we lock eyes
You really wanna start something I’m the wrong guy
Everybody on some bull shit, now I’m on mine
Giving people chills whenever i walk by
Giving them a glimpse of evil when we lock eyes
You really wanna start something I’m the wrong guy
Fuck with someone else if you tryna live a long life

I’m ill with it, real sick in the head
Ima pop up in your nightmares and have you pissing the bed
While I kick it with Fred Kruger betting on who’s gonna get to ya 
First and fuck up your world like Lex Luthor
run up on ya revolver drawn rocking a balaclava 
say hello to my little friend, I call him the problem solver
and this my sledge hammer, I call it the skull crusher
covered in blood like metallicas kill em all cover
Don’t take this shit as a big joke or you gon end up with most of your limbs broke and a slit throat
It’s not taking much persuasion for you to get smoked
One wrong move, I’ll snap your neck like a wishbone

Giving people chills whenever i walk by
Giving them a glimpse of evil when we lock eyes
You really wanna start something I’m the wrong guy
Everybody on some bull shit, now I’m on mine
Giving people chills whenever i walk by
Giving them a glimpse of evil when we lock eyes
You really wanna start something I’m the wrong guy
Fuck with someone else if you tryna live a long life

Ice cold
One look in my eyes gon’ send you directly into fight or flight mode
Get your life stole, fucking around you’ll see
Mask on like Halloween, I’m tracking you down with ease
When I’m calling you better pick up the phone bitch
Or get your ass beat worse than my last ho did
I’m iller than what went on in H. H. Holmes crib
Even I’m like what the fuck when I hear my own shit
Like damn that man has lost his sanity
Oh yeah that’s right I almost forgot.. that man is me
I need to plan a meeting with a therapist
My mind I don’t know where it is, can’t look in the mirror I’m scared of it

Damian - Glimpse of evil

My voice was ass but ig it isn’t too bad for my first song

Why'd you come in life?  Oh yeah, that's my fault
Now all because of you I'm dryin' my eyeballs 
Every hour and every minute
I feel like a coward and yes I admit it
I feel it devour my soul when I vision
my life bein' without her, I don't want to witness
Her leaving.. it just kills me
I used to and still think that her and I had the real thing
But now it seems like there's no more bright future
Or her by side, that's not something I'm used ta'
Fuck!  What's the reason why I even try?
I love her to death, na literally!  She's killing me inside!
Eveybody's always telling me I'll be alright
But the times I've shared with her can't seem to leave my freaking mind!
God damn girl I love you
From the moment we first met it was like a dream had come true
But truth be told, you and I been through a lot of shit
It's clear as day and here to stay -

Something's gotta give, somethings gotta break
But all I do is give and you do is take
Somethings gotta change, but I know that it won't
No reason to stay is a good reason to go

What we had was beautiful, but you took it for granted
I never could understand it, why'd you do all this damage?
I feel I'm losin' my manhood all because of this
I want to hate you but I'd kill for one more hug or kiss
Damn, what'd you do to me
I'm usually so level headed, but when it comes to you I lose it, see - 
I'm crazy for you but it's obvious it causes too much grief
On both echothers ends and don't you lie, I know that you agree
Yeah, it's hard ain't it? Our relationship just caused anguish
And ended up so heart breakin'
I wish I never friended you
I wish I could forget you boo
I wish I had no service when I first had messaged you
Change is part of life, we have to accept it
It's time to leave the past in the past and forget it
Even though it's hard we gonna make it girl
Cause somethings gotta give say it girl

Something's gotta give, somethings gotta break
But all I do is give and you do is take
Somethings gotta change, but I know that it won't
No reason to stay is a good reason to go

I feel like you're the only one who should be my lover
But deep down I can see how we're no good for eachother
And even though there's times I never could see another
Women replace the very spot that you have stood in, I wonder..
Why'd something so beautiful turn to something so ugly?
Why does it feel like you're already moving on?  Why do I feel you don't love me?
Why this and why that, why do I have to keep asking why?
Why are we dragging this on, why am I making this song?  Why??
Huh... fuck I cannot take it
I'm going apeshit, I feel my feelings being played wit'
Constantly anxious, all your hurtful words have made it - 
Plain as day that it was a mistake we ever dated
It's time to face it, I really wish things were the opposite
Even though it's toxicness, you're something I don't want to quit
I'll love you 'till the very end and no that's not a fib
But let's be real baby girl.. somethings gotta give..

LYRICS by Devin Thunder
INSTRUMENTAL by Beats With Hooks - Rap Instrumentals
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Im1Dw366G0s
COVER ART by B Oliver

Something's Gotta Give

she made this happen.


I need the answer to all this pain before all the shame comes back again
Meeting my maker waiting in vain before all the pain comes back again

From the moment she wakes up she feels nervous
Always wondering if she will find her real purpose
She's barely sleepin', constantly she carries demons
You take one look at her and you can tell she's fairly beaten
She hates her life, she hates her brain, she hates this hell
She's compelled to deal with but most of all she hates herself
She wants out this planet is way too much for her
She's feeling like the weight on her shoulders are crushing her
No one deserves the type of pain she goes through
A broken woman with no money, no food
Nobody, and no home, her brains a whole zoo
And if nothing changes she gon' loose control soon
Every day she's under the weather
Putting on a fake smile hoping stuff will get better
She.. can't take the bitter pain.. so she downs a drink
Her heads down.. she's looking at the ground and thinks

I need the answer to all this pain before all the shame comes back again
Meeting my maker waiting in vain before all the pain comes back again

Generalized anxiety, petrified by society
She wants some advise but she's scared of sharing her privacy
Try so hard but all the pain is undeniably
Too strong for her to move on, it's spiraling
Out of control, all this sorrow's drowning her soul
She's always feeling like there's something bad about to unfold
And she can't explain it, so no one understands her
Why's it gotta be this way?  She really wants the answer
She's pani-cking over the slightest things
Over thinking eve-ry single thing happening
It's maddening and it makes the girl wonder why
Life is worth living until she'd rather curl up and die
She - just feel like she ain't the same
She lays awake since she can't control her racing brain
She can't take the pain so she downs a drink
Her head's down she's looking at the ground and thinks

I need the answer to all this pain before all the shame comes back again
Meeting my maker waiting in vain before all the pain comes back again

She has no home but lives in her head 
Her worries and anxieties have got her dripping in sweat
Wishing for death, and don't you all be calling her crazy 
You would too if you were forced to have her thoughts on the daily
I hope she knows that there people who care for her
Cause it kills me knowing that she feels like no one is there for her
I mean damn.. I'd love to offer some help
But that's a little difficult when you have problems yourself
I know how it is, yeah I've tried for years
To fight the tears I've shed from living with this life of fear
It's like my hope is shrinking all the while my problems grow
But enough about me, I'm just letting her know she's not alone
I just.. I just wanna see her smile
I just need to see her happy man it's been a while
I just need to let her know there's hope for both of us
But most of all.. I just..

I need the answer to all this pain before all the shame comes back again
Meeting my maker waiting in vain before all the pain comes back again

INSTRUMENTAL 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JIwNJrZh4jg

The Answer

Just breathe... everything will be okay
I'm not gonna let one single thing get to me for the whole day
𝒐𝒉𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒔𝒂𝒚?
Fuck you bitch just go 'way!
𝑵𝒐 𝒘𝒂𝒚.. 𝑰'𝒎 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚.  𝑰'𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑫𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒏 𝒖𝒑 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒚𝒐' 𝒃𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒏

I just wanna call a quits, what am I still trying for?
Growing sick of all the shit, I can't do this anymore
People out there havin' fun, I am not enjoyin' shit
People say that life is great, I don't see the point of it
Boy is it - difficult, why am I so miserable?
Why is everybody's personality so fictional?
It is so - pitiful - I hope death is coming quick
I can't look at my reflection without getting fucking sick
Fuck this shit, fuck this shit, I have had enough of it
How does anybody even try when life is a such a bitch?
All of this depression.. why?  I just want a better life
Cause the shit I've been through got me wonderin' what death is like..

No no no no!  Now don't you be thinking like that
You put your chin up and fight back and you'll eventually be on the right track 
Don't sweat it dude, when they say it's all inside your head, it's true
Hard times are part of life, you just have to not let it get to you
*But it's hard* well of course it is!  No one ever said it'd be easy
It seems cheesy, but stayin' postive does help, believe me!
We're in this together, you and I
Just ignore all the demons all they do is lie
And quit that talk about suicide
You're still young, it's too soon to die!
Think about this, how would your friends and your family react
Cause if you go through with it, you will cease to exist and there is no way you'll be coming back
I know it's hard being trapped in your head
I know you're sad and you'd rather be dead
I know there's days where mad and depressed and you don't feel like gettin' your ass outta bed
But.. you must fight
Through the days through the nights, we can do this you and I -
𝑵𝒂 𝒇𝒖𝒄𝒌 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒏𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒆, 𝒅𝒐 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕!
𝑳𝒆𝒕'𝒔 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒖𝒏.. 𝒈𝒓𝒂𝒃 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒈𝒖𝒏.. 𝒍𝒆𝒕'𝒔 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒖𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆
Don't listen to him!  Come with me! 𝑺𝒉𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒖𝒄𝒌 𝒖𝒑!  𝑪𝒉𝒐𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒂 𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆!

What the hell is wrong with me?  My soul is an empty pit
Starting to feel as if I'm too fucked up in the head to fix
People they try helping me but all they do is toy with my head
I'd really enjoy some silence but can't keep these voices quiet
That's why every night is long and everyday's a lonely day
I just want to end the pain and death seems like the only way
Sick of feeling sad and numb and sick of feeling bad for nothin'
I'm just sick of.. ahh just fuck it.. I'm just gonna grab a gun and -



INSTRUMENTAL by Russell Fletcher
Soundcloud -
https://soundcloud.com/newagedrummer2046-1

COVER ART by Devin Thunder & Horny Hat

Two Faced

Tippin' henny 'till it's all gone
Marijuana got me so stoned

[Verse 1 K.O.P]
Fuck the henny I'm drinkin' Jack
Got everybody lookin' like the king is back
I been sippin' on a drink while smokin' on some weed
And I really think that - I'ma go full blast
And let every body have it, I'm snappin' back with the maddness
'Cause I'm the king motherfucker, never less than fantastic
For those listenin' and made it passed this - 
Level of life, I better pour another shot 'cause this shit be nice
Ain't nobody no what I deal with, but that's why I say "fuck everybody's feelings"
Man I got fed up trying to make shit right, but I'm never good enough
It used to hurt - 'cause all I want is love
But I give it to myself when I have nobody else
And I'm done - dealing with the bullshit
I'm pissed, I get hit, then I dip
Why the fuck should I stay when the stress has got me sick?
Can I really say it's worth it in the end?  Hell.. I don't know but I know where I stand
I'ma keep rapping with a bottle in my hand, 'cause I'm the King motherfucker and this is who I am

Tippin' henny 'till it's all gone
Marijuana got me so stoned

[Verse 2 Devin Thunder]
I stay high and stay low key
People act like they know me
But fuck it I'ma do my thing while making moves with KOP
Tell me what you gonna do 
When you see us come for you?
Puffin ganja while we chuggin vodka like a Russian dude
Life is a bitch so we get high
That is just how we live life
Drinking until we rowdy, screaming out nonscence just like 6IX9INE
Scooping up a shawty with some thick thighs
Give that trick a quick ride
Then toss that hoe aside cause ain't no bitch is stopping this grind
Rappers on our dick, we stay lit, and don't give shit
Never chase a bitch, getting rich is first on our list
Going hard when we write these bars, smoking dope when life seems hard
Cause like I've said before - life's a bitch so every single night we are

Tippin' henny 'till it's all gone
Marijuana got me so stoned

INSTRUMENTAL by 23:59
Free Sample Type Beat With Hook 2017 “Stoned” | Free Trap Instrumental With Sample Hook [23:59]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6dkLdB6JP5Y&list=LLyzNh8Rqeons8Tly_ii-PKQ&index=73&t=0s

Sippin' (ft. K.O.P)

I look at my reflection in the mirror
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error
I nearly left the real me on the shelf
Ohh

Verse 1
I'm feeling frustrated, day by day I can't take it
My mind is always racing and I just want to escape it
Is the world against me?  Or am I simply going crazy?
They say you have to love yourself but I have grown to hate me
Cursed at birth and I'm struggling to break it
I set these goals but there's still times I wonder if I'll make it
I just want to say just fuck it, take a couple bags, and stuff a case
Full of everything I need and say goodbye and run away!
Damn.. life is so grim
If nothing changes I'm gonna lose it and break every single known sin
I'm feeling closed in, patience has grown thin
It's hard to keep it when you hate it in your own skin
Huh.. yo this battle has me stressin'
The wrath of this depressions coming back with an aggression 
My eyes are on the ball but then the pass gets intercepted
So every morning I wake up I ask myself these questions when I - 

I look at my reflection in the mirror
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error
I nearly left the real me on the shelf
Oh

Verse 2
I wake up and get dressed then gaze into my reflection
It only takes a second to notice my imperfections
Feeling drained from depression, I'm afraid of rejection
Stressin' and obsessin' about obtaining exception
Man it's rough, I've had enough, this shit's tough
I huff and puff about pointless stuff, I want to give up!
Blatant statement.. I hate to say it, but it's true
I'm just another clueless kid who don't know what to do
It's like.. I try my best, but it's hard when your life's a mess
And you're forced to be putting up with this kind of stress
Why can't my mind just rest..?  I'm sick of overthinkin'
But the more I try ignoring it the more it sinks in!
I.. just want my thoughts straight
'Cause all these trials and tribulations is the reason I've lost faith
But if God's real will he help or let me slide by?
I don't know these just some questions I ask every time I

I look at my reflection in the mirror
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error
I nearly left the real me on the shelf
Ohh

INSTRUMENTAL - Beats With Hooks - Rap Instrumentals
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jeesmv1C1is

My Reflection

My heads been in space, it's been a little while since I've seen your face
We were so close but then you disappeared without a trace
I shouldn't sweat it, I got many other things to do
But every now and then I still can't help but think of you
I thought you were my one, I thought you were my only
I should've paid attention to what everybody told me
But I can't take that back, I guess that's lessened learned
Rest assured I'm done, fuck these hoes, especially her
Feeling pretty numb within, never want to love again
So I'm sorry baby girl but please let's just be friends
'Cause I've had it with the sufferin', it haunts every day
I think I'm better off on my lonely anyway 
You were like a sidekick, but then you turned into an enemy
I'm not too sure if I'll ever be the same again since you've left effect on me
Destiny's something that we can't control so it's best for the both of us to simply let it me
Most of the time it don't get to me, but there's still times I get lost in these memories like -

I used to enjoy your company
Why'd you come in my life just to leave?
I thought that you were the one for me
I guess not... (guess not) no..
What we had was truly wonderful
But now I've seen you've let your colors show
I dont mess with any ho now
But its okay I'm on my own now

Heh.. yeah, it's sad but its true
You'd understand if it happened to you
It's not the best feeling when you give your heart to a person who's just gonna crack it in two
I feel so ashamed I was acting a fool, now loving is something I have to refuse
Made it out safe but feel battered and bruised
Now I'm trying my hardest to patch up the wounds
Damn, it's not easy though, but then again who said it'd be?
Every single damn memory of it's preventing me from ever getting sleep
Yes indeed it's pretty clear we weren't meant to be so it'd be best if we just go our separate ways
I've had it with all of the stress and the pain
you caused me to deal with everyday
We fell apart and I could not believe it was true
But now I can't believe I ever even loved you
Forgetting everything about us is a must do
Gave you all my trust boo but now I'm all like fuck you

I used to enjoy your company
Why'd you come in my life just to leave?
I thought that you were the one for me
I guess not... (guess not) no..
What we had was truly wonderful
But now I've seen you've let your colors show
I don't mess with any ho now
But its okay I'm on my own now

INSTRUMENTAL -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=of9DtiCQDuc

On My Own

just saying what's on the mind..

ok (Official Music Video) - 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uxVAxFIKMBQ

INSTRUMENTAL - 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SAbWn6FcjEE&index=25&list=LLyzNh8Rqeons8Tly_ii-PKQ&t=0s
LYRICS - Devin Thunder
COVER PHOTO - Devin Thunder

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[Opening]
I can't even lie
I think I'm gonna lose faith
I know I need to try to obtain a peace of mind but I'm terrified it's too late
Sick of being stressed out
Getting closer to the edge now
I... huh.. fuck don't even know where to start

[Verse #1]
How the hell it get so ugly?
Petty stuff be getting to me
I'm not thinking straight my head is rushing
Filled up with these voices always telling me that death is coming
Got me thinking 'bout the old days
Just reminiscing when everything was okay
Where the only thing expected was to go play
Make friends and don't come home late, uh.. it was so great
But now and days it's this and that
You grow up and you're own your own, that's just a fact
You're forced to pick a path or life is gonna kick your ass
Yeah I know that's how it is but damn man this shit's a trap
And I'm just tryna stay strong 
But it's pretty hard when this the way you feel all day long
I just want the pain gone, will there ever be an end?
Will I ever feel like me again..?

[Hook]
That's all I want, that's all I need
I always get these thoughts before I fall asleep
I wanna go take a trip back to them old days
Where there was no pain and everything was - okay

[Verse #2]
I'm lost without a clue, I'm running out of options and I don't know what to do
I have so many goals and yes I want to see them through
But I'm never in the mood to ever leave my room
So God - damn - Why do I even try?
There's times I've looked up at the sky and started screaming "why?!"
They ask me how I feel but I'm to scared speak my mind
So I just keep it deep inside and now it's eating me alive!
I'm in a race with a broken foot
I ask for help but get no input
I act like everything is going good
But that all changes rather quickly when I take a closer look
I'm feeling so trapped
I wanna go back
Said I want to go back
I just really want to go back!

[Hook]
That's all I want, that's all I need
I always get these thoughts before I fall asleep
I wanna go take a trip back to them old days
Where there was no pain and everything was - okay

[Ending]

(×2)
Hey hey hey (×3)
I miss them old days

Stay away Lucy.


Poor ol' me: Hello?
stupid Lucy: Um yeah, where the hell you at?
Poor ol' me: Huh sheesh not this again.. I'm literally just chill -
stupid Lucy: Mmhm mhm yeah right.  You're at that other girls house right now, aren't you?
Poor ol me: What? Y-huh-you know what?  Man, I've had it with your crazy ass..

There was this girl blonde hair with a certain vibe
And for that reason I just couldn't put her aside
I'd gaze at her, feel my heart race faster
It was lust and I just knew I had to have her
Phew.. she put me in a trance
I walked up and I asked, "Hey, you wit' a man?"
I had a feeling I shouldn't but didn't give a damn 
'Cause little did I know the stupid bitch had a different plan
So I shrugged and I thought, "Shoot, what do I got to lose?"
The thought of her is stuck inside my head, she's hot as glue
So absolutely I walked up smoothly and introduced me
She's such a beauty and she goes by the name of Lucy

And now before you know it both of us had got together
The way it was at first you think that it would last forever
But if that's what you thought, boy I got some shit in store for you

Now fast forward to a couple months
At first she was cool now she's totally fucking nuts
Blowing up my phone, bitching at me just because
She got a little hunch I was out messing with other sluts
Yo what the fuck Lucy why you gotta be like that?
Throwing them tantrums always acting a freakin' brat
Just please relax with your geekin' ass, you need a nap
Breathe and have a chill pill girl, you need some treatment - bad!
And that's without a doubt
Every hour you get grouchy and cause a verbal bout
One night Lucy and I were shouting so loud that the sound woke the town 
and we were downstairs in the house
Like wow really now? Why you always starting shit
You crushed my heart to bits and stomped on every part of it
So I'ma make sure - your stuff's at the door
Once your - free from the ward - 'cause I don't mess with you no more
Which reminds, I think I better wrap this up
I'm only writing you to inform you I've had enough
I'll see you in hell, but I hope you're doing well
Anyway I better get this letter to the mail

So this is it, you'll never play me like the fool again
Especially now you got yourself inside the loony bin
So I don't really think we have a choice but bring it to an end
Oh and if you ever think we have another shot at love
Then you must be way more crazy than I thought you was
Once you get out I'ma have to change the locks because -
I don't wanna fuck with you again 

Bye now, bye..
Bye Felucy..
Never wanna see you again
I didn't enjoy the time we had together
Enjoy the loony bin
Freakin'.. a few screws Loose-y..
Lucy the lunatic..
I don't love Lucy



...bitch.

Letters to Lucy

Music Video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aGE3qVQwOiE

No Cap

i'm just doing my own thing

thought we had a future together and that it would last now that's all in the past..

all in the past.

are you there

run and run and run it's all i know how to do

i don't know where to go

Out of love ft. Devin Thunder

put away your keys

Starry Eyed (ft. K.O.P)

video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o7DRl4SqcEE

prod. 4lexf

forget you better
would be perfect together
but your hurt me so good
that I had to leave you

it's over (ft. k.o.p)

girl wtf is up with that

video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bBVjezoOsGY

prod. caspr

girl wtf (ft. k.o.p)

i'm sorry i can't be saved.. it's just too fucking late

Devin Thunder

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