Cancer swallower, 
you've wasted away 
in breaths as black as 
your lingering days. 

Once abandoned 
to the sheltering ruins 
of your ashen soul, 
the smoke alone raised you 
as its companion; in houses 
only understood when 
wholly unspoken 
as ceaseless others. 

"Slowly now, stop breathing.” 

The stigmata suited you; 
as did the transcendent 
ache of saints bisected from 
flesh to billow as spirits. 
To this comfort, 
you returned; 
in kisses pursed 
from thieving mouths. 

Cancer swallower, 
you’re wasting away 
in breaths as black as 
you’d want me to stay.

Triangle Mammoth - Cancer Swallower

Tall Ice Lung - Tandang Sora Aoi

"See you next summer!"

This isn't the way I remember
our last few semesters.
A shot to the head sounds much closer
to the ugly truth.

See you next summer.

We’re pretty shitty people and this is what we do.
I think we’re alcoholics. Do you feel that way too?

“I think I have a problem."

Dead drunk on the Harley’s porch,
wasn’t that your favorite course?
It was mine and it felt awful.
If you kissed the dirt, I just had a mouthful.

I think I have a problem.

We’re pretty shitty people and this is what we do.
I think we’re alcoholics. Do you feel that way too?

“Don’t run away.”

I’m swear I’m not a sex offender
and whatever you saw wouldn’t matter.
That’s just to say we’re best friends now.
You and the rag I just pulled out.

Don’t run away.

Tall Ice Lung - College Smokers (Dear Sam, I'm An Alcoholic)

Don’t take it so hard,
I still believe in you.
We all make our mistakes,
and you’ve seen mine too.

If you pay attention,
you’ll know what I mean.
It just takes a bit of practice
to not be what I’ve been.

I was insecure and afraid of 
ever wanting more.
You don’t deserve to be deprived
of the hopes you need to stay alive.

Don’t take it so hard,
I still believe in you.
We all make our mistakes,
and you’ve seen mine too.

Life always gets better,
but only if you want it to
and it never made much sense until
the day I had you.

I was insecure and afraid of 
ever wanting more.
You don’t deserve to be deprived
of the hopes you need to stay alive.

I was insecure and afraid of 
ever wanting more.
I don’t deserve to be deprived
of the hopes I needed to stay alive.
I hope this touches you the same way
these words once touched me.
It takes time for one to grow up
into the person they want to be. 

Tall Ice Lung - Sons And Daughters

Lyrics:

"Disassembly is not a default state, at least not for the human in context; lensed from birth to embrace wholeness, we’ve since learned to shun dismemberment. 

Are you the sum of who you are, or just an audit of your missing parts? You’re human, all flesh, all bone; never considered by your pieces alone. 

Find no shame in how you were born, or the accidents you’ve lived through; with bodies shaped by fate or disease, structure may alter but not your agency. 

Let that wreck of nerves remind you of what doesn’t kill you. What disappears may never again ache as it once did; from vitruvian birth to asymmetry, all life remains valid. Circle around that memory once more and walk the fuck away. 

It’s just the body you’re in, the pulse you feel is all your own."

--

Split single from Love in Athens and Cigarettegirls

Credits:

Released 15 August 2015 

Love in Athens - Music, lyrics, vocals, and production on Ghost Hands 
Cigarettegirls - Music, lyrics, and vocals on I'm Not A Commodity 
Into Entropy Recordings - Mixing/mastering on I'm Not A Commodity


Love in Athens - Ghost Hands

Written in 2009, rerecorded in 2016.

Lyrics: 
"How I wish I met you sooner in my life. Somehow, I still believe that loving you feels right. How I wish I met you when we were still kids, so I could say I loved you dearly ever since. I could go on and on about you."

Single

Tall Ice Lung - How I Wish I Met You Sooner In My Life

Tracklist:

01 - Scoliosis Backbrace
02 - Corpse Medicine
03 - Double Tuck
04 - Velvet Thunder

Lyrics:

Scoliosis Backbrace

Life swallowed enough of these years to match the angle of my spine. Ill-spoken, but lest we forget, I’m half-bent and close to caving in.

“You are worthless. You are scum,” you said.

Why do I still wake up?



Corpse Medicine

Outside/other/apart, you draw yourself in a silence that traces weariness on the outlines of your tired face; in the absence of speech and wills that soon break.

Wounds once stitched in light and shadow open up to spell your shame in blood and marrow; at once outside, othered, and parting as spirits do from their lingering corpses.

You will soon settle in the ache of injuries that cease to convalesce; abandoning all warmth, all care, and comfort. This is your life and you’re worse than dead to me. Don’t pretend this is alright.

I'm left outside, othered, and apart.



Double Tuck

"Each time I call to you, seasons echo back in full; names written in trails, and returning as loving truths."



Velvet Thunder

Breathing hums seismic beneath the surrogate cradle and its familiar tongues unravel in the yearning of the north. Culled from the ends of unlived futures, they shattered to birth clouds

Articulate, if subvocal, avalanches trail on hushed. Prismatic veils enshrined love’s immediate brokenness as we devolved into vestiges once vital, now merely mourned.

Lust in the confusion of you, all words become vapor.

BEAST JESUS - IN VARIOUS STATES OF DISASSEMBLY (FULL EP STREAM)

Yearswallower - 000

All music by Tall Ice Lung

Lyrics:

"Does it scare you to know that all this time, I've been falling for you? It's not that easy to show, so there's no point in hiding the truth.

Well hello, miss. Look back. There's a boy who loves you here, and that boy is me."

Dead On A Non-Working Holiday

Tall Ice Lung - Dead On A Non-Working Holiday

I basically fucked with Pilita Corrales' Maalaala Mo Kaya.

Terror Drone - Will You Remember (Pilita Corrales Remix)

New and improved version, mixed and mastered at Saturnine Audio.

Hellsong United - TANGINAMO 2017

Triangle Mammoth - Somatic Tremor

Just a really old track that I lost when my old Mac died. Not properly mixed/recorded.

Lyrics:

"With endless sidewalks to a looming office window, we could lose
ourselves in traffic and sink with a thousand swirling light streaks.
It would seem to make sense of the dense asphalt sea breaking still on
each wave for a beach set in concrete.

Could I still see you even if the sky blacks out? In parked cars, the
haze, the contrails and the sound of you in hours. I'll see you, as
far north as it gets in the south; through the wash of the earth, past
the dirt and the dismal downpour. 

I'll see you tomorrow. 

I'll see you.

See you."

Walking Marriages - Ayala Cor Paseo (Demo)

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