PIGEON

PIGEON (prod.pranav)

DO-SI-DO

DO-SI-DO (prod.pranav)

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PAIN I INFLICT FT. KASHIMOTU

lyrics:

Since we last spoke
Well Id got tattoos 
Id become someone you never knew
They cover my throat
And hug me like glue
Something i knew you’d never do
When the lights go out
well I only see blue
I only see pictures of me and you
Well that iPhone now
Well I broke it in two
Ive torn out its screen so I never do

And as rain hits my head
I think of the old bed
And all the prints left frozen around the room
I forgot just how to eat
And every time I try 
It tastes just like 
It tastes just like her
With rust on my bones
And oil on my shirt
I build back my home
I cauterize and let it burn
for Every day this fails
There’s one time it’ll work
And that much I know
So tell me just what it takes
And ill make sure it gets done
oh i Swear to god ill leave nothing left in between us by sun
so I shot a round at the moon
And ended up hitting stars
And they fell down in the backyard last night and they left scars
and Despite what u think
Well Ive never changed
Ive always been this way
Unbearable
My hair falls in the sink
And cold lines my scalp
and The pain of this needle 
Is terrible

Since we last spoke
Well Id got tattoos 
Id become someone you never knew
They cover my throat
And hug me like glue
Something i knew you’d never do
When the lights go out
well I only see blue
I only see pictures of me and you
Well that iPhone now
Well I broke it in two
Ive torn out its screen so I never do

since we last spoke i got tattoos (mxtthxw)

seems i made my heart to mince meat
i just miss the feel when you kiss me
cry in front of my friends in the backseat
i’m so tired it’s not that hard to see

i’ll never know when it’s my turn
search for the feeling that i yearn
won’t be a stone i leave unturned
light all the bridges i’ll let them burn

not sure if it’s fine to still cry about things that i thought i was over with
and you aren’t mine i still wish i could call you and get this pain over with
cause every time that i see you on my phone don’t know if you’re missing me
one thing’s for certain the one thing that matters is you’re not forgetting me

cause i told you that i love you first
nowadays i’ve been feeling the worst
i’m sorry the thought of you doesn’t hurt
just missing the feeling you would return
salt in the wound guess i’ll let it burn
i need my penance there’s more to learn

i’ll never know when it’s my turn

i’m one with the birds again
i’m one with the woods again
i know it’s better off that,
that i did it myself again

penance

Lost something I never had
Wish I could just take it back
Words and phrases never said
I'd say we'd crash
Please wish it fast

Why are you sad
Why not be glad.
I'm back in your life
I thought that I might.
Lie down for the rest of the night

We sit silently
Hear the voices come out
Noone is speaking so what am I hearing
When I find the meaning
What I've been meaning to say
For so long I just wanted someone to stay
Break it up and replenish, replace
Feelings are mutual but look at your face
Whimper with sorrow you're wanting to stay
Looking at you now such a beautiful change
Showing love in every single way
Talking touching and feeling my vain
I'd Make you crippled just give me the day
Walk away try to walk away

Who I am and who we are are so fucking far
I know I like you, you just simply are
The person I've wanted so why stress, laugh
At all these improvements you've made so far
I can't believe my eyes are being disproven
All this movement from small little include-mints
I hope you know I love you
Not all the time but I'm sure we'll get through it.
I don't feel love
So when we feel us
I'm not sure what it is
I know that what we did

You just play with my feelings
Knowing in so hurt but yet you never fucking learnt
Quitting addictions and making up my worth
I swear I'm trying it just makes it hard to work
For someone who so such a fucking curb
Wanting to stomp you out sometimes it makes me start to hurt
I've done so much and it just simply wasn't worth it
Managing to change but I'm still not fucking perfect
I love you so babe, please make me fucking worth shit
I know I can change if you just want to stay I'm sorry I won't complain
I want you here with me through all the thick and thin
Giving up and giving in are two different things

meaning of myself

I was waiting on the outside
starting raining ill subside
watching you meet with another guy,
Id cry.
Why did I not see this coming
How can I be so foolish?
how can I not see you hurting
stupid fucking idiot, just die!
I was lost but at least I tried
I gave you my everything you took it with pride
we lost ourselves to these stupid ties
should of cut them off when you picked up the knife
I was waiting on the outside
starting raining ill subside
watching you meet with another guy,
ld cry.
Why did I not see this coming
How can I be so foolish?
how can I not see you hurting
stupid fucking idiot, just die!
I was waiting on the outside
starting raining ill subside

foolish

talking about these feelings boy you know its all crap
issues arising the premonition im fighting
the demons are trying but im living my life
with these bronze, gold and diamond

intuition i knew it was coming
the fallin of love i know its coming
love dont last forever get to running
what did i say when we was fucking

kinda strange how you change
one month love the next you hate
love dont last thats what i say
love dont wanna die its change
fucking hate the things we say
and i hate the way we play
better yet
"all these feelings are fake"
what in the fuck did you say
i loved you from the start now you wanna play some games

i dont think you should love me you should leave
go and fuck some bitch beside me
like me like i like you thats a lie
love me like youll just hide

fucking screaming in my soul and the feelings dont resolve
i hate so much of life
and i wanna fucking die
thats right i.. i dont really feel okay, im "feel alright"
i dont wanna live a life with all this impatience in my mind
switch up,
now im testing my limits
im deviding my business
between limits of division that i listed
in my page
im writting down names
but i know they won't die this time
cause im not a fucking demon in disguise
HOW THE FUCK DID I SURVIVE?
HOW THE FUCK HAVE I LIVED PART OF A LIFE?
IVE DONE NOTHING WITH MY TIME
IVE DONE NOTHING TO DO RIGHT.
ive done nothing to do right
Would you mind if i set sight
See my body is so light
Throw me off the bridge to fly
looking past your bright brown eyes
i dont see a fimily smile
to death i will part
to death i will lay

undetermined

I still think about the past
why we didnt even trust
our instincts they didnt last
we should of made love

we didnt even talk
separate ways that we walk
spoke on and off but the truth will always stalk
my mind broken from time to time
Ive loved you for a very long time
i would ride with you on cold night
talk to you about this whole life
how we doing hows its been
all the conversations leading to dead ends
i wish i could take it back
one more chance to take it back
say there and then
i want you by my side please let me back
would you let me have one more chance
one more time to make amends

remember all the days we used to spend when were awake
now i sit back in the rain feel my my body start to decay
life is wasted on the liquor chilling in my brain
how i sit back and remember all the other dark days
im one step from the ledge with regret inside my brain
how im closer to the end wishing for some better days
knowing i could never change how you felt ill wait
never knowing the outcome of the broken castaway
lay me down and let me sleep my life away
watch the whole world crumble down i start to dissipate
standing in the mirror, foggy glare in despair i stare

Past Life

I would be down in the coffin
rotten to my bone I know you won't stop it
with the tears that you would've cried
I know wouldn't miss me if I were to fucking end my life

but don't you die for me
I won't die for you
I would leave everyone behind you know the truth
I know that we don't talk that often
but I want you to know that I still care for you~

cause every single time I look to the sky
I can picture your face and your smile oh
I dont want to live a life without it though
I know it hurts but every single day it just go's

and I hope that you live
and I hope you find love
cause every single moment I dont wanna give up
and you know what I need
do you hope I say "please don't leave you mean so much to me"
please don't leave me again I know

I don't wanna live a life without you
every single time I find a way to find the truth
nothing hurts more than knowing you'll never love me
cause every single time I feel like always stubbing

I feel like I'm nothing more to you no more
i can't forget the times we were so close
they ask why we didn't get together in the end
Honestly I don't know cause
I'm still in love with you
and everything I know is true::

meaning of myself

koru

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