lyrics:

Just holidays
And barely those holidays
Our good terms
Are not immune to decay 
I tried but im still away
And you’ve been fucking his brains out 
Don’t look at me as if there was a sorry to say

I would care but
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

 Ive never met someone so geared on my failure good job
At least I squeezed some meaning into ur shitty life huh
When I die an early death I hope that u can cope when the hatred in ur heart is now evicted with my pulse

Break the home
Breaks my bones and see my soul snapped too
Im alone most the time ur not restricting anything new
I like getting scary I do I know ur tryna be a boss good for u
What the fuck they turn me down for
 I am never going out more
I guess he wasn’t a regular guy
I hope u choke on ur vomit and die
My messages aids I do not open them
Im high as fuck from this bud its like opium
I don’t wanna live to get by
Ur literally here once and its over after that u fucking idiot do what u want ur done after this u fucking dumb ass u suck I fucking hate u
 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

Im torn apart and I am dirty
If its like this fuck 30
I wanna die right now
Baby im sorry im fucked I can’t talk right now
She lies
She just loves him to death
I dont compare to that hex
I suck the tits off her chest
Times waits
For nobody
Crossed lines
Become common knowledge
Bullshit u were with friends that’s bullshit
I was the culprit before
I feel projection in my point of view
  
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

better_off_nUmb (splashgvng)

the tallest man on earth - honey won't you let me in (guardin cover)

s/o chxse bank
rip summer
got some new shit for y'all real soon
<3

august (prod. chxse bank)

lyrics
--------
i've been on my toes
cause you never know
where your time will go
if you'll ever fold
cause the cards inside your hand
disconnected from your soul
i've been moving slow
hoping that the rain still contributes to my growth
i can feel the glow
sitting in my chest like a bomb about to blow
lightwork
i ain't pay the bill in weeks
i've been writing down these verses on my sheets
getting cozy on this god damn beat
cause i know you mother fuckers gonna sleep
not the way you prolly think  
off a sedative setting in while you blink
and the words that you've been saying i'm spitting out in the sink
tryna down it with some water now everything lookin pink
like a vessel in your eye i'm poppin off inside the ink

lack of zinc got you mother fuckers confused
cloudy vision consumed
mix it with the henny that's a dumb move
come thru we can talk about it sometime
working on this album till the sunrise
i've been on my shit
checklist when it come time
on another project checkin outta my mind
i don't need to think cause i only do it sometimes
time will tell my story if i ever get these lines right
write until my wrist hurts
damn this screen is so bright
fill another script full of words not the drug type
john carpenter how my flicks flamin my pipe
imma set the scene really quick
lemme paint it out how i like
i fight through a constant battle with depression
self mutilation, aggression, the wreckage of my compression
the pressure been comin' in this music is my obsession
i'll do this shit everyday until i reach my ascension
for real

used to mop the floor now i'm flooring through the hills
it's a crazy fucking world when you live through what you feel
i won't ever take a break cause the music's how i heal
i ain't ever had my doubts that's how you know that it's real
that's how you know that it's real
that's some lightwork
stocked up like a night clerk
one day people gonna know my name through these cyphers
i could be the king it depends on who dies first

lightwork (prod. chxse bank)

This song is for you, and the person who can never see you for who you are. Maybe they don't agree with who you hang out with. Maybe they don't like the music you listen to or the clothes you wear. Maybe they don't like who you live with, or who you voted for, or what you do for a living. Well, we don't care about any of those things. We appreciate you for who you are, so forget about them, and come listen to some cool music. 😎
Special thanks to @julia-gromskaya-385505773 for helping with the arrangement! She has her debut song coming out soon!

Blue Jeans

You came down the stairs to where I was
I showed you things that I had done
Then we played that song that you had loved
In that summer on the bus
It was hot
it was great
And those blue jeans were the craze
Then you stopped and felt the shame
You closed off and left to pray

So you’ll never know the real me
You only believe what you cannot see
Missing everything that’s real and free
Hoarding your gold for heaven’s streets

A few months later we are at your house
I shared a song I wrote out loud
But all you said, to fill the void,
Was “you’ll never make it with your voice”
I was shot
Full of hate
Tore those blue jeans just to say
That my love began to fade
But you forgot and went to pray

So you’ll never know the real me
You only believe what you cannot see
Missing everything that’s real and free
Hoarding your gold for heaven’s streets
But what if I'm wrong?

You came down the stairs to where I was
I showed you everything I loved
And we talked for miles and lost the days
It didn't matter what was faith
It was fun
It was great 
And our blue jeans were the craze
Then this dream began to fade
I woke up and walked away

So you’ll never know the real me
You only will see what you want to see
Missing everything that's real and free
Living your lies religiously

Blue Jeans

@qawikamri
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
@killedmyself

lyrics:-
Qawi Kamri
Everyone's just sad now
Everyone's just broke now
No one's really different
Everyone's the same now

Xanny just to fit in
Wrist starts to slit nah
You just want a hit
You promised to quit
Don't really believe you
is that even a choice?

9TAILS
like is that even a choice
woah
filter through the noise
when i speak its not my voice
oh polo
pony on the chest
check the goose its on the vest
vvs is on my neck
run a cheque
make it back
get a couple compliments
dripping sauce
when i walk
all this pressure break my neck
break the bank
break a sweat
im not coming over yet
walking home
in the rain
this is good as life'll get

SPOTIFY

No Divergent. (w 9TAILS) (prod. killedmyself)

produced by @anobodyreally

art found at sad-space-kitten.tumblr.com

lyrics:

its 30 below
i see the blue in my toes
i feel the ice in my throat
and ive never been this cold
baby dont go
just when we start to see the light
clouds come block it out
the timing never fucking right
plaid green sweater
couple loose threads around the wrist
hole in the back
thats what i get when everythings thrift
ripped black jeans
and some bruises on my fists
my eye turned black
thats what i get when everythings shit

dont face the door
focus on staying warm
weve all been here before
but that doesnt make it easier

broken but wanting more
they had to silence u and
i couldnt take the pain of
having to know i cant help u

i cant help u
i cant save u baby
dont know how to

but dont worry maybe
we could find someone
that might know how to

flashing lights
streetlights when we in the benz
what was that
could u run that by again
going fast
not paying any attention
saw my page
now im always in their mentions

not my type
dont know why she wanna go out
i stay inside
and no u cant over to my house
got shit to do
u know im working all the time now
all these words
work their way into the songs now

woah
change my mind
all the time
i feel shit
now im fine
got so much of this free time
and i dont even count the nights

no
i wont text
i wont phone
think too much
when im on my own
i think its best
if you said u would go 
i think its best
if u leave me alone

im still walking home
think im freezing through my coat
where have u been
where should i go

dont face the door
focus on staying warm
weve all been here before
but that doesnt make it easier

broken but wanting more
they had to silence u and
i couldnt take the pain of
having to know i cant help u

warm (prod. ʎpoqou)

Ｉ　ＪＵＳＴ　ＷＡＮＴ　ＬＯＶＥ　ＢＵＴ　Ｉ　ＦＩＮＤ　ＩＴ
ＩＮ　ＤＲＵＧＳ　ＩＮ　ＭＹ　ＣＯＡＴ

//この曲はあなたのことです//

show my mans some luv @tothegood

lyrics
--------
your love can't save me now i'm broken
lost and was never found i'm hopeless
your love can't save me now i'm broken
i'll never come around you know this
i'm broken (x8)
i'm tired of loving someone
who don't care bout enough
so i take my drugs and i
numb the fuck up love

your love can't save me now i'm broken
lost and was never found i'm hopeless
your love can't save me now i'm broken
i'll never come around you know this

this was a curse from the get-go
my head is a trip and i feel like i'll let go
of everything that i care about
and if i wanna leave then i'll get the fuck out
and i'll pack up my shit and i'll go
run with the feeling of feeling alone
missin' your touch when i know that you don't
i just want love but i find it in drugs in my coat

and i hide inside
and i cry every night i'm alive
cause the flesh in my chest is a lie
when i smoke and i look to the sky
this'll be the end of everything we know
i can't really think about the future and i won't
waste another day inside just scrollin' on my phone
stitch my broken heart and then you wrap it with a bow

your love can't save me now (x4)

follow tothegood

pyramids (prod. by tothegood)

ＷＨＡＴ＇Ｓ　Ａ　ＨＡＢＩＴ　ＴＯ　Ａ　ＲＡＢＢＩＴ
ＩＦ　ＨＥ　ＣＲＡＷＬＳ　ＯＵＴ　ＯＦ　ＨＩＳ　ＣＡＧＥ？

//あなたは私に死んでいる//

lyrics
--------
droppin' my friends like flies
i'm so mortified
i don't trust my sense of lust cause love ain't what i find
cue the voice inside
kill my fucking mind
smoke embellishes the curtains in my room at night
i'm just lost in my
head and i know why
you don't care but i declare this love will never die

i can help you isolate the fears you hide inside your brain
let it rain
i know pain
i know blood will always stain
i know crimson isn't cute when it's the color of your veins
what's a habit to a rabbit if he crawls out of his cage
what's a room key to a lock if all the doors just look the same
i'm so restless fill my chest with smoke and cyanide and shame
all my limbs work on a whim so please can someone light the flame
fuck my conscience gets so nauseous every time i hear your name

so you packed your bags that night
sewed up your wings to fly 
repetition kept me quiet but i got so high
nothing new in my 
realm i guess i'm fine
that's a lie
that's a lie
that's a fucking lie

how do you sleep at night?

follow redrose

trust me (prod. by redrose)

guitar, production -https://soundcloud.com/poppytears

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s for jumping on this one with me  

"Behind Screens" full album: https://open.spotify.com/album/25XjozBMStYBDrlGk3wqHw?si=xAQ3iCJaTb6kz4hOhSMS0g

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/familypet
https://soundcloud.com/4ever-falling https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s

cover art: www.instagram.com/kenny_ravee/

Bandcamp link: https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/track/healthy-relief-ft-9tails-remastered

love you all

LYRICS: 

9TAILS:
not much i can do
pretty girls always needed more acceptance from you
i told her I'd
love if we ran away
cheap grams and cheap faith arent much of a reason to stay
and we could come back anytime but my souls had enough for today
enough with these moodswings i love you i love you but please go away
she feeds me real great
i can only wait so long
i can only show you once
december weather got my fingers numb
we end with the day
were gone with the sun

Poppy Tears: 

You call yourself a rockstar 
and you can't even play the fucking guitar
I know it isn't in your heart 
couldn't give two fucks about the art

we all fade away like a picture losing colour inside it's frame 
are we all waiting for the day, the day we look back upon what we made

like was it worth it 
Am I deserving
I'm still learning 
with death I'm flirting 

I slow my heart rate 
I've made that mistake 
feel my bones shake 
and find my own lane

✧ spotify ✧

healthy relief w/ 9TAILS (prod. poppy tears)

produced by sarcastic sounds

lyrics:

Seen a free man get down and kiss the road
For mama to be sleeping sound how far you'll go 
Take the tongue out my mouth cut off my toes
Take away all that skin and leave me cold

Plenty thing bout this life I'll never know
But that's more than fine
I just need to know the formula for getting by
So many codes
The wise could supply
Making millions to suicide
No one can hide
Order number 9
To the private jet
It's such a large divide
But I guess that's the prize we fetch
Everybody want it all
Jealousy our ready set go
Doggin like it's petco
Dodge the lasers get low
The slightly graze my suit coat
They taking heads now
Crazy how far people go
Just to get the bread now
Guess it's always been that way
My head just figured it out

Seen a free man get down and kiss the road
For mama to be sleeping sound how far you'll go 
Take the tongue out my mouth cut off my toes
Take away all that skin and leave me cold

I wanna ball ya
Maybe I'm looking to god
Give it a shot
Give it my all ya
Taking my time I don't fall down
Money is maxed out
Came for the love is a ghost town
So proud
Making the music is deep down
Without the money I'd freeze 
I couldn't eat
I wouldn't be here to speak now
I hate it but that's how we worked out
I can't trade you seeds and get some fur pelts
Have to drop a rack and rock the goose until the snow melt
Price you pay for living by the snow belt
Wasting away
I will never bow down
Until it's if I don't I let my fam down
Wait for the day
People say you sold out
Just to keep a morning shower and a clean mouth
I can't erase
All the moves I made now
Calendar my life and make the days count
All I can say
Is man I'm feeling great now
I forgot how a smile on my face felt

Seen a free man get down and kiss the road
For mama to be sleeping sound how far you'll go 
Take the tongue out my mouth cut off my toes
Take away all that skin and leave me cold

the tallest man on earth - honey won't you let me in (guardin cover)

Enkadzs