i dont wanna talk about it !!!

lets all go down in the basement
im sorry
remember new york city?
hear it swell from background noise
into a sound so pretty 

now that is something 
i think was worth it 
perfect lines to remember 
how i keep record

louis vuitton collar bomb 
wrapped around my throat  
it snapped closed 

let me take you outside for a walk to the corner 
it smells so good 
i want you to see it at least once before you die

Louis Vuitton Collar Bomb

walked back at the right moment 
we said good night then said good morning
stretch tired muscles in the inner sanctum
bless the meal before we eat we need some tea
smoke weed in secret meetings
remember the first thing u said to me
u said that youll press delete
that light is the only thing guiding us
besides the sound of the foot prints in front 

and i dont mind that you gave me a fake number to reach after you left 
i called and talked to those people instead

High Definition Cry Repetion

and after all what are your true friends for?
i see a large liklihood i drown in my blood 
i could die 
now if i cut my hair im going back on my word
i paid attention i didnt mean to keep putting it off 
if anything im really not im really not
im sorry
i guess somethings you just cant assume to know 
i should do some things but i cant bring myself to 
if only i had listened to you

Evil Clone Sees You Alone

Cotton Candy Soldier On Leave

walk around like a lawn mower 
hungry for something that covers the side walk
im not a robot i am a machine
i am entirely covered in grease 
my lack of intelligence leads to irrelevant ramblings 
please im begging to get a disease
i dont need no legs ill just drive where i please
 
if one day something comes up ill lie my weapons on the floor
give back and pray to god ill love MY neighbor next door 
im a good person 
im programmed to know that 
and throw back the ball in your court fast 

i let you hold my replica in case i lost it
and sure enough i cant find it now
is anything ever good enough for me?
get high just to get so down 
if anything i need to keep my mouth shut 
my golden gun is brown 
buried outside somewhere only i know   

activate me 
fill up the cracks with tape and gum
will i relax? my face is numb 
im waiting for something to change 
ive been waiting so long 

sex sells! 
ive been buying
my whole life is just one good experience
die happy
hang over 
im delirious
im sober  

for our troubles the meeting is on time
im sitting right beside you
ill remind you when its over
you dont need to open up your eyes

Non Knower Lawn Mower

please stop talking
im obviously not the person that you thought i was
i think too often about the possibility youll murder us 

grip fate like its too late
talk to it like you got nothing to lose
charge a true rate 
livable wage 
give in to your rage
go postal post apocalyptic video game 
epoxy epoch together where the trees talk
keep the secret observe how my knees walk
bow legged and pigeon toed
i wont to make it
i already chose 
i went naked forgo my clothes  
you cant hide!
so come on in and get baptized
youre not a bad guy
you had a chance to act right
i admit it was kind of a whack try
things tend to blend in grey when you observe in black and white
but at the end of the day as long as youre saved you can go back to life
its too late too for me too many mistakes
im going to a place that i dont even believe in 
four season red ember bleating delay tape
lets stay safe no decay today 
oh no stay away 
im amazed you made it this far 
but do you remember which way you came  ?

im really sad

PLZ STOP TALKIN

power surge
after hours
sour sucker
pucker up
motherfucker

i didnt forget what i just said
   
i got two bucks for beer
oh wait thats in the rear view mirror 
broke and sad 
we spoke to the only bitch  who understands me 
hold my hand as we both unfold and open up
enough to shelter me frm the wind 
like a second skin
its getting closer let me in 
i like the taste of this medicine 
a cold touch left on the tongue to be remembered when i die 
ill lick my lips and remember a bitter sweet time 

im not feeling around in
the dark for crumb 
ill wear hand-me-downs 
ill stand around with my hands on my button
ready press it in and self destruct 
steady ahead through the red light
get next in line mock execution 
dead online 
get yr head on right 
photo sensitivity 
cant open my eyes to     
check authenticity

SOUR SUCKER POWER SURGE

LIQUID BOOTY SICK WITH COOTIES

lay low now
after the circle breaks 
wrong time wrong place
i thought it was a parable 
so i launched it into space 
icky slump, thats bad
i made it off the back board 
i made rock, i made jazz 
i never told you the reason we couldnt go there
i walked through yesterday 
i turned my nose up
thats my story 
people die here everyday 
im not a god i just want my coffee  
explosive devices
why does it come around when only i can see it?
im high off the fumes from this fire
after this ill be reminded of how i once felt
watched it wash over myself 
felt good so clean 
absolutely a good thing
so id like to feel better right now
feeel it float right up my throat

PUNK SHOW AT THE LIMINAL SPACE

lol

hole in one
congrats! you spilled your soul 
put it inside you never decided if it belongs in a hole 
im not fucking trusting anyone i prefer to be alone 
im not a dud, im just a dumby, im fuckin up im almost done   

i put my feet on the dotted line
cia watching me out of time
confront the strangers i wanna die 
im just a coward i run and hide 

tell you only when it gets too much (im drunk)
i fell into a rut, ive had enough (im done)
put a little ice pack on when the back of my thighs still burn from running 

maybe its just a coincidence 
finding the meaning in something so meaningless seems like a talent thats limitless 
i should just fall my face
why did i call it a phase?
watching my own brain
go and deteriorate
real times X 1.5 
i like to live fast so i can grind my teeth better
someone come take this from me 
shoes to small, hurt my feet, keep running 
who to call when i feel them coming?

DUCT TAPE DOGGY

ya


focus
brain needs fuel
its chugging and choking
i need a smoke to calm my nerves
i need to focus 
oh fuck my lungs exploded
i got insurance now
im sure its how ill fix my life and make it all worth it somehow 
how is my driving?
i count down the days im so close 
i hate flying but i really fckin hate the gas prices 

im not offended its just i that i found out i fucking hate you

youre a psyop
two eyed cyclops
rude guy whos life id like to die a lot 
im on the brink, god
you are my ink spot

Hows My Driving

i saw them wave back
pretend i dont notice
i want to relax
i want to say something honest
how hard its become
organize special interests
move on to the next one
i thought we all expected the worst from me 

i dont really think you understand what i am saying 
its my fault for talking with my mouth full 
praying for a safe return from 
air escapes my sternum
not the last but its my first one  

im so hungry 
i sacrifice gods
open the mountain tops
reach inside and see what i got 
hey baby get bent
no wait i apologize 
thats not what i meant 
ill retract my other lies 
if all we get 
is what we deserve
ill meet you back after my feet hurt

the decorations are spreading out from each side of me 
ill make the pattern match 
ill change that my body processes proteins
a weapon to react
and later after i nap ill support the whole team

STUN GUN LASER TAG

DECAPITATION MACHINE

HEAD START DEATH MARCH

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SMASH AND GRAB

help im listening to radioheads whole discography in chronological order

CLOUD CATCHES FIRE

check out this ai artwork i made thought it was kinda liminal!

TESTING THE INDIGESTION

ICE SKATE BLOOD BATH

i dont wanna be myself 
i wanna be someone else 
right now, i know 

i changed my mind, ill go to hell
just feed me and keep me in a cell
spend everyday needing so much fucking help
ill tell you the secret and see if you tell 

im not afraid of falling anymore 
i stare at the face 
i ignore features that look the same
theres a hook in my face
pull it out another one forms behind it
instantly cut off circulation
i feel my eyelids flutter as i struggle to sit
i just collapse to my knees in a fit
coughing, laughing, dry heave
punch my fist against the seat and the lid 

theres a message in here somewhere !
changing lanes
ill stay in mine
you stay insane
i love this crowd
dog bites man 
man drops a hydrogen bomb on the ground 
i got a sweet tooth 
i like it when i find hidden objects
i see you
underneath the grass
rubbing against me 
touch it, whats the difference?
ask me if its empty
over turn the glass and get every single last drop out 

oh god its fit right in the palm of my hand now 
rejected blessing i see the angel it shines down
im happy to have the plaque scrapped from my teeth
i added gems to my canines
im playing with them as we speak 

i lie and i steal things
try to be revealing 
off putting !!!
show me where i lost footing
lip service
cock sucking dick circus 
ill be at auction but all of this shits worthless

(motorboat cough cough) whoa! couldnt begin to imagine how that happened
hey, look over there! 
spit in a napkin!
are you kidding? im asking
are you shitting in my hand or wishing on black magic?
you didnt understand
sometimes its okay to match the energy of your worst man
im the dead spy, i got two red eyes
ill let you guess why i stare out my blinds paranoid
people around me notice and im afraid that theyre annoyed
or think im crazy, and maybe theyre right
backdrop: illusion of contact
age it until it tastes like a safe ride
take you home in the back of a sports car
godly intention so pure as im sure that yours are

i dont wanna be myself
i wanna be someone else

Numbing Agent

Bag Of Bombs

ACROBAT OVER A VAT OF ACID CRAP

Blood Soup

treading on 3d printed egg shells
i found my wallet with no money in it
i thought i called you but i probably didnt 
i picked it up and held it in the light to check the watermark
i hope i die before the slaughter starts
i dont want to get too old 
remember where you are 
the next time you hold a close, trusted friend, or gas station

its all refurbished
there isnt any way to get rid of it now

its all repurposed

i need special bullets 
i need to practice how long i hold it
its always moving
i learned to shoot at a dead body pinata
making some adjustments
just when i thought i had enough
eruption
i dont wanna get too old
not a vegetable
id rather die something gory


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A Close Trusted Friend Or Gas Station

i can't tell 
i need another sign right now 
give the dog a long walk 
and i'll see it dropped in a most convenient spot 
i'll drop to my knees and i'll eat a rock 
i don't need these teeth anymore anyways
i've already eaten today 
i'm not hungry but i'll stuff it down
purge myself and fuck around 

i can't tell 
i need another sign right now 

lay my head on a bed of nails 
i'm not scared, i'm lonely 
i'm not here 
i only long for advancing myself
standing right by hell 
i forgot how it sounds but not how it smells 
(it smells like shit)
but i kinda like it 
at first sight it's not that exciting
peripheral vision 
lost my mind with too much literal thinking 

i felt fine 
i licked my fingers to get all the slime off
all this time lost
i grabbed a fistful of nothing 
and held it up
still burned my hand 
plunged in water, the steam rose up  
another incoherent 
pause! what did you say? 
i didn't hear it
i've been hiding my jetpack
guided by sliding into the leg straps

Toxic Droplet

I Only Smile When I'm Laughing

Cave Dweller

I Really Shouldn't Say (What I'm Thinking Before I Think About It More First)

this is a song that was written in 2016 over a beat made in 2019 revisited in 2021.

lyrics:
my instinct tells me i smell like fresh meat
and i better be ready to defend myself if i need to
although ive never been in a fight
im weak and youre right
im sorry i didnt believe you
and ill apologize a second time
when i see you
because im sure it will lead to
the unbearable feeling that we are both only the same
and both totally insane
i feel it next to me etching itself into my skin
so i can start to act like a small part of myself again
youll see it too and know that its a preview
as we stand totally frozen and try to regroup
and after everything melts away into something else
well find another person and offer them all our help 
stepped with the wrong foot first
now it hurts to walk
ill walk it off stop talking shit 


i drank the blood but im still human
still want to do drugs 
i drank the blood but im pretty sure that i didnt drink enough

its shallow here
vapid
all my strength was sapped when i strapped in
i got tired so i napped
and when i woke up i found all the feeling was back
yeah at least it was until i needed it
squeeze every last bit of lust out of my bleeding tip
isnt it funny how quick they switch it in their minds 
when collective conscious isnt enough to get by
i know i know i know
humans cant fly
thats why they clipped the wings off every damn time
i didnt mean to abstract myself
im the sum of my goals subtracted by my shelf life
i helped drive the price up
so i must die!
i struck out blindly and touched my own rough side

i didnt mean to get frustrated
but sometimes i just fuck up and i fuckin hate it

Fresh Meat

chunky chunky!
move your little funky behind
i know you wanna see mine!

Freeze Frame Fuck Face

my death hoax played out
theres delay now
okay, ask them how to stay back
and let someone else invade our playground
my tongue obeys searching for flavor on my taste buds
the way they looked at me
betrayed the taste of fake blood

i dont respect the process

i got away
i shot a stray bullet into the air
another in a grave
i stayed away from under the stairs
im scared of what i am
is there another method of search
reductive strategy 
and that would be the place that it hurts
along the ridge
i want a kiss
to cover the burns 
i took my bandage off
and handed it to someone i hurt
i heard i came too close
well i dont think i managed to stop
i think i listen well
when there is no advantage to talk

diet tea other cola

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