thought it’s bad 
baby it’s worse 
swear to god im cursed
put me in a hearse 
before it gets worse 

fuck me up baby it’s fine 
it’s not even the first time 
you take lines every time we FaceTime

worth it baby was it worth it 
like you told me it could’ve been so perfect 
you impress me , you depress me 
teddy suicide , bitch I envy 
wanna be friends , I’m not friendly 
why is everyone pretending 

Im codependent 
wanna end it
I’m still your friend but 
I’m still dependent

codependent

tears freeze on my cheek  
don’t mind me
if you were in my shoes you’d feel just like me 
I don’t wanna go 
but you don’t invite me
what would you do if you were like me
I miss the way that you would hold me
every night with you I felt less lonely 
I don’t wanna go but you told me
baby that was the old me..
every night without you, you haunt me
baby what would you do if you were me
what would you do if you were me 
what would you do if you were me

if u were me

[alice: “I hardly know sir! I changed so many times since this morning you see”
caterpillar: “I do not see.. explain yourself!”
alice: “im afraid I can’t explain myself sir , because I’m not myself you know.”]

i feel so pathetic 
thinking of you all the time
gives me fucking headaches
nothing really feels right
wether im alone or by your side 
i wonder how often you lie 
maybe im stuck but so are you 
sorry im “perfectly imperfect” for you 
i don’t exist when you’re not around 
so much better lost than found
 
chorus
take me and break me 
fake me you changed me 
ache me snake me 
you make me so crazy

im safe here all alone 
no one can can hurt me 
I do that on my own 
it don’t concern me 
pretend to care 
stop pretending 
you’re not there 
is this the ending 

I admit it I really fucking miss you 
at least who I thought was you 
nothing feels real 
I just wanna heal 
I miss our time together 
every fucking night in December 
you made me feel like we’d be forever 
but you took my heart and put it in a blender 
I don’t exist when you’re not around 
so much better lost than found

chorus x1

[alice: “well I can’t put it any more clearly, for it isn’t clear to me!”]

perfectly imperfect

what’s there left to prove
please tell me the truth 
tell me you feel it too
all I think about is you
so wat else is there left to prove 
all I know is that it’s you 

you think what you want to 
i know your brain tortures you
was it about us or just you  
there’s nothing left to prove 

unsaid? It’s in your head 
didnt you say you wanna try 
what’s the point if we just sit alone and cry 

it’s really not fair
you just hold me there 
why should I even care

is it useless
all this time I fantasized
was it fruitless
i don’t know but I wanna die 
i miss you by my side 
i wish you wouldn’t lie 
that look in your eyes 
makes me wanna cry

broken remnants of a love song

you make me feel insane
you make me go insane 
itll happen again and again..
do you even care 
why are you still there 
baby wheres your head 
i cant get out of bed 
i dont know 
baby where to go 
i dont wanna go
i dont even know
make me feel insane 
make me go insane 
i gues well do it again 
again and again

again prod.jacko

see right through your eyes 
always wearing a disguise 
leaking from both sides
somehow still collide 
how could it be nice 
walking on thin ice 
never realize 
always wearing ur disguise 

guess ill be what you needed
a corpse girl whos rotting 
then think its so easy 
guess ill just leave you before you can leave me 
i feel so obnoxious i feel so deceiving 

ive got to go away from here x3
where do we go from here

happy for you

25/1/25 hate how this sounds but I decided I don’t care anymore also she let go 

Idk what you think about but I know what I can’t live without, without a shadow of a doubt.. 

i know what I’m fighting for 
u don’t seem sure anymore 

you don’t recognize me it seems 
but you look for me in every1 you meet
i hope u find what you need 
i wonder why u still doubt me
I guess I’ll see u in my dreams..
I guess I’ll see u in my dreams

maybe someone else is on your mind 
you don’t seem to give me the time 
were you ever really mine
or was it all in my mind 
im still here trying though you’re out there lying 

cupid got me in a chokehold 
how could I let go?

U don’t recognize me it seems
I hope you find it is what you need 
I guess I’ll c u in my dreams..
I guess I’ll see u in my dreams

I feel like sylvia plath

a love letter to my inner child 

baby stay right where you are 
you know that i wont go far
Im with you wherever you are
softly tears fall from the star

you know that i wont go far
im with you wherever you are
softly tears fall from the star

lalalala
baby i wont go far 
you know wherever you are
with you wherever you are
call me and i wont be far

not so certain (ik)
not so worth it (ig) 
was it worth it(dk) 
i dont deserve it ..
guess you saw it 
now i want it 
baby clock it 
its just that honest..

energy siphoned

Gottta be highaf when I listen ts so ass stg triggers ts outta me but oh well shits raw life sucks life goes on

no i swear im fine ..
cant take back how i made u feel that day 
demons brought me to places i cannot say 
just tell me everything will be ok
i swear i love it when it fucking rains
u took my heart and u slammed it on the floor
baby whats the use ?
I’m just a ” braindead fucking whore “ 
cuz thats all youll ever make me
you say you love me but baby you dont chase me
i wanna be with you every single night 
even though i know we’ll fight 
i dont wanna fucking fight 
cuz everytime ur right ..
Haha

everytime ur right 
every time we fight 
i dont wanna fight 
you always think ur right .. 
whats the point of talking 
Why did u rip up my stockings 

did i deserve it ? baby was it worth it?
was it worth it ? Was it fucking worth it ?
am I worthless? Am i fucking worthless 
baby was it worth it 

baby was it worth it 
was it all no purpose 
what the fuck is worth it 
baby was it worth it 
i dont wanna do this 
baby is it worth it 
Baby was it worth it 
Was it worth it 
Was it fucking worth it

worthless / not that it matters now 31/12/24

i hear your voice and it haunts me
i feel your touch but I’m sorry
don’t know how it got this boring 
i know it’ll never be enough 

i see through cracks that you hid well
get high and return back to hell 
forgot to hide in my shell 
i know it’ll never be enough 

sort through shit like it’s working 
feel through pain cuz im hurting 
talk to me once you’re certain
or it’ll never be enough 

run through the days like a circus 
was all the fun really worth this
count down from ten 
have you heard this 
or it’ll never be enough

be enough

⊹ (:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) ⊹
the self will be defined from the outside in

dirty4ngel

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