if you see it you see it

piano by Omar ❤️

way out (rough).

summer nights in the city with a zoogy and some wine
the stars are starting to show up but our energy divine
our bodies melt in the grass and I was yours & you were mine
you taught me love with your pupils now our souls are intertwined

nervous walk to the crib because you thought my mum would mind
cause you the first in my house and lack a melanin design 
but ain’t no one gonna take my heart away our love is blind
im telling you you my home that mean loving you ain’t a crime

take you to my space and our bodies drop on the mattress
you show me the work of God and I start to paint on the canvas
our bodies melting together we got the rhythm of dancers
i hear you calling the heavens I think I found me the answer then I wake up,

to a reality where we don’t ever make up 
Too many miseries to call you so I stay put 
It’s hard to fuck another woman when we made love
but I got memories to hold me till my days done



when I slip into your mind don’t be clouded with regrets
take it to the start when you knew me at my best
know you’ll heal in time when I lose you to your next but
open up your heart cause i hope you don’t forget 

hope you don’t forget (bout me) 
hope you don’t forget



autumn nights in the city with a baggie and a rave
we heal our hearts with a boogie, for the dizzle im a slave
leave my worries behind me with the woman that I crave
on demon time when I see you it’s a struggle to behave 

I ain’t felt starry eyed since when I came across your face
You slow me down in my tracks and still you make me wanna chase
Room is fading away our tongues touching in an embrace
The bubblegum on your lips I can still remember the taste

We headed in the stalls, you telling me I’m your all 
I say I want you as mine cause without you I get withdrawals
You tell me it’s about time, cause you waiting on me to call
We rip the clothes off our back, and back into you where I fall

I fell, headfirst into the deep end
Start to drown and my body start to weaken
And if I had you I could probably find the peace in it
Instead of living with the fact we couldn’t be friends.


when I slip into your mind don’t be clouded with regrets
take it to the start when you knew me at my best
know you’ll heal in time when I lose you to your next but
open up your heart cause i hope you don’t forget 

hope you don’t forget (bout me) 
hope you don’t forget

distantjay - DON’TFORGET (demo)

distantjay - theglow (demo)

distantjay - happilyeverafter (rough)

distantjay - The One That Got Away (demo)

distantjay - temptation (can’t force it demo)

distantjay - lift me up demo

distantjay - out of fuel demo

distantjay - the joneses (demo)

distantjay - SAYURNAME (demo)

distantjay - nightshow (demo)

distantjay - TOXIC w/ tee (demo)

distantjay - NORFSIDE (demo)

distantjay - STATISTICS (draft)

distantjay - U&I (demo)

distantjay - holdmedown (draft)

distantjay - easierdonethansaid (demo)

is It safe to love
somebody again?
i lost me a home
i lost me a friend 
is it safe to love when
im scared of the pain?
wish somebody warned me
i won't feel the same
im scared I can't help it
in hell's pit
im worn and torn and helpless
i mourn then scorn, too selfish
to transform the cards im dealt with

distantjay - ISITSAFE? (draft)

something about you
that makes my blood boil and both chill when I’m here without you
those moments of frustration debating if I should doubt you
the venom in your words and the numbing pain that i plow through
and what the tears will amount to 

it’s a heavy burden being the person that you’re deserving of
when the hurting you serve cause the will to work to get murdered off
words regurgitated, the same apology heard enough
when the girl who you thought was your person's who u feel furthest from

stuck feeling worthless when I don’t have you for purpose
used to treat me like a gift now you wanna return your purchase
wounds we could’ve healed that weren’t fit for doctors and nurses
left our feelings in the dirt till there’s nothing left to be nurtured


maybe loves what holds us back.


something about you
that made intrusive thoughts of despair more easy to spout to
i got so used to listening didn’t talk till I was allowed to
u taught me to express the repressed emotions I’m bound to
i lost myself till I found you

something in your allure that convinces me your the cure
absence makes the heart grow much fonder - of that, i’m sure
meaning to life not beside you becomes obscure 
i hate the waterfalls that pour when i'm longing for mi amor 

my feelings get eclipsed to fulfil your full satisfaction 
conflicted by your addictive mix of poison and passion
have to ask myself are you an attraction or a distraction? 
cause you got a heart of gold but a nigga going for platinum

maybe loves what holds us back.

distantjay - HOLDUSBACK (rough)

distantjay - LDS (rough)

distantjay - GETTING OLD (rough)

distantjay - isitmine?

there’s a woman with the sweetest soul
said she’s free to hold if i need her when im deep in holes
sees in me some gold, all the while i see me decompose
Feel her tryna put her arms around me but my feet are cold

conversations of a deeper tone, 
only female I could ever weep to or be keen to phone
Because i Usually keep my secrets on a need to know
probably part the reason why we never seem to beat the lows


see she’s the fairest dame, that dare i say could bear my name
Together we’re a pair of flames, I pray the Lord’ll spare us rain.
And still it scares my brain, affection brings an air of shame 
cause I'm full of despair and she’s the type to try and share my pain.

And she got traumas but they never left her cornered
Now and then it haunts her but she handle heat like saunas 
Look at her in awe the hell she went through made her warmer
Make me put my wall up even though im gonna mourn her

See men were never safe for her to trust 
They either fake or filled with lust or never made her feel enough
Or even laying hands on her so much she shaking when i touch.
When she relay their wicked ways I’m feeling hatred and disgust
My mind is racing wondering why they ain’t graves or even cuffs

She don’t complain or even fuss but in her face I see the rust
Where I graze I see her blush i wanna save her from the rut
If I was braver i would say we shouldn’t be blazing any kush

The spark was rare, many women can’t compare
She offer me her heart to share, i wanna but its hardly fair. 
Darkness that i harbour harms because always i’m halfway there
My father only taught me to depart and so i park it there


I dont know if i can love back
Love ain’t just emotions, you know you must act.
Heart’s too dead and cold for her to touch that
Know me and my woes wont Win her trust back


But it’s a lose-lose.
She goes from getting used to me to feeling used too
My ego bruise at allegations that i prove true.
Im too confused to even answer for MY moves but

Maybe she’ll hear me calling through whistles of the wind
And reminisce on every kiss and every ripple in my skin
But then again she might resist due to the Blisters of my sins 
Cant get pissed if she’s dismissive, i went missing yet again

With her or without her, I can never leave the covers
Seen it with the others when the flutters turn to stutters
Wish i could erase her but we never used the rubbers
Another broken brother turning lovers into mothers

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