the northern wall,
never let me go
it was coated with ivy and
covered with snow

and the wind was
rushing past my ears,
blowing around 
doubts and fears

i like her, i wanna 
keep her around,
but this summers
so much cooler underground

such a terrible mistake,
i'll say i'll forget you 
at the wake

you dug your fingers in
pulling the bullet from you head
clattering as it hit the floor,
god is dead

what transitions us to the monsters
that we feared as little kids?
exultations to the tormented,
of whom we are rid

i like her, i wanna 
keep her around,
but this summers
so much cooler underground

such a terrible mistake,
i'll say i'll forget you 
at the wake

out in this darkness anything
could grab me and i'd
let the claws sink in if
only they would have me

now, softly, 
starlings cry above me, 
i awoke
hoping i'd love me

i like her, i only need
her for awhile
i miss her magic fingers
and her crooked smile

this summers so much 
cooler underground
hell is heaven for the devils,
i hear their trumpets sound

spitfire

it used to make me sick
just to look at me,
before i go
can you tell me what you see?

lucky, she got a good one
for free,
the veil between 
god and me

was it an illusion, or
a dream manifest?
she couldn't keep her heart
from starting

as a hand slid down her waist,
she slid past the wainscoting

won't know if they'll come until they show,
yeah, maybe no one is gonna be there

i simmered in my skin,
gritted my teeth,
it hurt because i wanted
to change and

make myself into
someone else,
but i started to feel braver, and

she feels like heaven,
looks like a Faberge,
she's pushing her way
through the bodies

and i'm watching her
it's like a ballet,
and we can't give anyone
what they're wanting

won't know if they come
until they show,
yeah, maybe know one is 
gonna be there

but haha,
i'm not dead yet,
i wonder if i'll feel it,
wonder if we've met

haha, 
i'm not dead yet,
i hope that i don't go no where,
i hope my body forgets

haha, 
i'm not dead yet,
i wonder if he'd take it,
wonder if i'm worth the bet

haha,
i'm not dead yet,
watch her stumble 
to the bathroom at
the party,
wonder if she
left

the party

it's 3 in the morning, 
i try and sleep in the evening  
held down, i've been cut open, 
sown up, i keep bleeding  

it's 3 in the morning, 
he meant nothing, 
he demeaned me  

i'm sorry i slipped in the water, 
i can be so heartless when i
 feel the need  

don't smoke those cigarettes, 
is there nothing left? 
where are your friends all at?  

i called you my guest, 
left this house a mess 
and you know that i can't come back 

it's 3 in the morning, 
some lessons burnt learning, 
but at least a light is still on 
at least there's a fire burning  

don't smoke those cigarettes, 
is there nothing left? 
where are your friends all at?  

yeah, i called you my guest, 
left this house a mess and 
you know that i can't come back  

thought you were cut out for more, 
waiting on your next score 
you threw away your secret stash  

our tears fill up their wells, 
they fund our crying spells 
and you know that i need the cash

witching hour

we moved around until we found
a place where we could grow,
but we never sent roots down
cus there was nowhere for them to go

we live by woodlawn, hs 
where the kids grow up
and discover their vices when 
they believe they're not enough

and through the woods we see
the lights and sirens blaring,
stalled at an intersection,
wishing we had the daring

what's been buried beneath them
has finally been forgotten,
broken teeth and crosses 
in a world they're lost in

woodlawn, hs

this is what numbness is like,
tie the drawstring tight,
you couldn’t handle this shit,
that’s the joke, isn’t it?

the aching supports,
a sign it's getting worse,
4 miles away, for sure,
my eyes were sore

it goes further, goes further
turn the lights off, take your top off
you heard her

it goes further, goes further
the way he’d hoped for more,
straight murder

i don’t want to walk
eyes down, like
i’m running away

it’s hard to stay,
pathologize what I say
when I do

i'm always watching
what i say with you

this is what numbness is like,
13 hours of sleep a night - 
but it's worth it, isn’t it?
arms outstretched for it

the breaking supports,
oh god, I’ve made it worse,
i'm a 404,
you're shut out, wanting more

it goes further, goes further
take your top off, take your skin off,
you heard her

it goes further, goes further,
if you could feel how it felt,
straight murder

i don’t want to walk,
eyes down like I’m 
running away

but it’s hard to stay
pathologize what I say
when I do

i’m always watching
what i say to you

her pathology

the first time i saw you
my head was a mess,
i sat down in the booth and
smoothed out my dress

i don't know what you wanted
or what you expected,
but i know we both felt alone

you climbed into my car and
for the first time i drove you home

oh but if i, oh and if i, oh
but if i had known
we turned down your street
and you put your number in 
my phone

just when it started getting good
they lit up your screen,
you told me to swallow my fear,
said, "you are all i need

i don't know what you wanted,
or what you expected
but it burned like you 
wouldn't believe

tender trust, torn away like a limb,
all i could do was bleed

oh but if i, oh and if i, oh
but if i had known
in tears, i held you like the first time,
you kept their number in your phone

oh but if i, oh and if i, oh 
but if i had known
the first time i saw you,
the first time i saw you

exquisite tenderness

caught me wishing,
summer swelter and 
i can't sleep

turned out the lights,
picked up my phone,
she had something to say to me

she said, "i've got your number,
i'm in the fears you're voicing,"
picked up the phone and she said

my love, my love
don't fall asleep,
running through the aisles
i've got no more tears to weep

caught me wishing
i could let go and land
on my feet

caught me wishing, in my dreams 
i have everything - holding conversation, 
an ovation at the ease

she said, "i've got your number,
i'm in the fears you're voicing
and if you look around they all
had better choices!"
she said, "i've got your number,
i'm in the fears you're voicing!"
picked up the phone and she said

my love, my love,
don't fall asleep,
running through the aisles
i've got no more tears
to weep

lily stewart

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