Leave the chaos behind

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Peace Within

Off Cameras

you make me feel like a girl 
with a crush and a blush
because she knows
love is destined to explode

you make me feel like a girl in love

never enough for me to 

make me look 
like a girl
make me feel 
like a girl

that’s all  of my making 

when you make me feel
like a girl in love
you make the girl real
you make the real  girl in me

love is always real
some people don’t see
make a girl feel
some people never free

make a girl real 
you make the real me
you make this girl
in love

you make me feel like a girl in love

you make me feel like a girl 
with a crush and a blush
because she knows
love is destined to explode

you make me feel like a girl in love

never enough for me to 

make me look 
like a girl
make me feel 
like a girl

that’s all  of my making 

when you make me feel
like a girl in love
you make the girl real
you make the real  girl in me

love is always real
some people don’t see
make a girl feel
some people never free

make a girl real 
you make the real me
you make this girl
in love

you make me feel like a girl in love

you make me feel like a girl 
with a crush and a blush
because she knows
love is destined to explode

you make me feel like a girl in love

never enough for me to 

make me look 
like a girl
make me feel 
like a girl

that’s all  of my making 

when you make me feel
like a girl in love
you make the girl real
you make the real girl in me

love is always real
some people don’t see
make a girl feel
some people never free

make a girl real 
you make the real me
you make this girl
in love

you make me feel like a girl in love

girl in love (2025 remaster)

Sorry if I float too far,
I’m not aiming for par.
My Curiosity’s tuned like a radar—
hands in the dirt while I scan the stars.
I’m not lost, I'm out of range,
where real questions roam
I wondered why—
and they asked me why?
Talk about, caught up in the lie.
with no care to reply,
I turned to AI,
then notes turned to song
putting creativity where it belongs
no other way it could have dawned.

Some days I just ponder,
let my mind wander,
enjoy life’s wonders—
from the plants
to the thunder,
from the stars above
to what lies down under.

'Cause the mind is made to wonder,
and the body’s made to wander—
like a mobile transponder,
linking across ponds:
brunette to blondes,
kings to pawns,
sharks to prawns.
Signing out each night,
reporting in each dawn.

So, sorry if I float too far,
I’m not aiming for par.
Curiosity’s tuned like a radar—
why keep your head in the dirt,
when you can scan the stars.

Out of Range

MUSIC VIDEO NOW OUT https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=owcxhZ5Icew
I ain't whole, but I'm holding it together
Better than yesterday
Beat drops, soft laugh
Call that progress

Used to sleep with my fists clenched
Woke up like I fought myself
Uh, therapist said
That's progress

Didn't feel like help
I water my plants now
I answer some text
I forget slow

But I forget less
I'm not a phoenix
But I rose weird anyway
Ash is still in my hair

But I showed up today
I'm healing
Not cute, but it's mine
Messy little miracle on borrowed time

Stitches show, but I still shine
Don't need to be perfect to claim what's mine
I'm healing
And it ain't always clean

It's dancing with ghosts
In washed out jeans
I laugh more now, like really laugh
From the belly, not the mask

Still freeze up in grocery lines
But I shake it off
Baby steps count when you've crawled that far
No epiphany, no lightning crack

Just one quiet morning
Where I didn't look back
No spotlight, just soft light
Peace don't scream, it whispers right

I'm healing
Still tender, still wild
Still got questions, but I wear that smile
Blood and soil, roots in the grind

I'm not whole, but I'm finally mine
I'm healing
I'm healing
I'm here

I'm still here


Everything I Didn’t Say is a dark pop and emotional pop album exploring the silent struggles we carry beneath the surface. Across 10 deeply personal tracks, it captures the journey through overstimulation, trauma, healing, and acceptance. Blending haunting piano melodies, cinematic synths, minimalist beats, and vulnerable lyricism, this record creates an intimate, raw space for reflection. From the chaotic anxiety of Overstimulated to the soft resilience of Soft Armor and the aching closure of Splinters in Winter, each song reflects a step in the healing process — imperfect, beautiful, and painfully real. Perfect for late-night drives, introspective moments, and anyone piecing themselves back together. If you've ever struggled to say what hurt you most, this album was made for you. Stream, comment your favorite lyric, and share it with someone who needs it. #darkpop #altpop #emotionalpop #traumarecovery #healingmusic #newmusic2025 #voxthaera #independent #artist

Healing

When fear has its hold on you
You’ll feel it’s chill before the warmth
(Before the warmth you’ll feel the chill…)
But if you let it take hold
Hold you it will
For as long as you get comfort from its embrace
It will hold you close (hold yiu close)
And steal your will
Your will. (Your will)

Hold on
Hold on
Emergency crews reported on the scene
Repeat and repeat again
Until numbness takes control
Fly away. Let go. Never to return
To the you, you used to know

Repeat and repeat again
Until numbness takes control
Fly away. Let go. Never to return
(To the you, you used to know)

The stress kills
Calm down they say
But the pills they gave me
Take my confidence away
I want them to comfort me
And perhaps they do
But the numbness invades my every move

Hold on
Hold on
Emergency crews reported on the scene
Repeat and repeat again
Until numbness takes control
Fly away. Let go. Never to return
To the you, you used to know
When fear has its hold on you
You’ll feel it’s chill before the warmth
But if you let it take hold
Hold you it will
For as long as you get comfort from its embrace
It will hold you close
And steal your will
Steal your will
Your will
(Your will) 
(Steals you)
[fade out]

numb

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Soft rap style with final question to Why??

Lyrics song by Sas.duet with Joy. 

-Why ( That Day ) 

Twenty four years 
Have been 
And gone
From that day
And I still 
Don’t know 
Why?

It’s hard
To not forget

That you didn’t 
Care
 You didn’t try
Too see if 
I 
Was alive

Why?

Why did 
You leave me 
All alone 
To die

Why did you 
Leave me
To be with 
Another 

Why?

Twenty four  years 
Have been 
And gone
From that day
And I still 
Still till
this day 
Don’t know 
Why?

Not knowing 
If you knew
That you 
Left me 
left me to die

Why ?

Why did you 
Leave me
To be with 
Another 

Why?

Not knowing 
If you knew
That you 
Left me to die

left me 
To be with
Another 

didn’t try
Too see if 
I 
Was alive

You Came back 
Into my life
Telling me
Of your love 
For me 

To tell me
Wedding bells
Rang 
For you

When it 
Should have been
Me and you

Why did 
You
Leave me 
To die

To be 
With another

Not knowing 
If I had died
Why

Twenty four years 
Has been 
And gone
From that day

And I still 
Don’t know why,
why
to this day 

That You left 
me 
To die 

Why ?

Wedding bells
Rang 
For you

When it 
Should have been you and 
me 

You didn’t 
Care
About me 

So you left me
 to die.

my life 
Has 
Never been 
The same 

able to
To forget

Able to 
Truly love 

To believe 

That someone
Who said 
They loved
You

Left you
To die 

Why?

Did 

you Leave me

to die? 

To be with
another 

Wedding bells

rang for you 

You came 
back 
into my 
life
to 
tell me
that you 
still loved 
me.

Why ?

You left me
Left me
to die.

You Call that Love???

A part of 
Me 
Couldn’t and hasn’t recovered,
From that. 

I just slowly died
Inside.

Why Bozana? 

Please tell me before I die, 
Why YOU left me to DIE
When you closed,
when you closed the 
door behind you,
when you close the door behind you.


One day we will come,
face to face
and I will ask you,
why Bozana , why,
you took that chance, and 
YOU LEFT ME TO DIE

Why? ( That Day )

A dark alt-pop descent into obsession, ritual, and quiet emotional collapse.
“You fake me real. A deal is deal. I take the pill.”
Lyrics, pain, and quiet destruction. 
For fans of dark minimal wave poetry.

The Pill (A Deal Is Deal)

Living on My Deathbed

All the best days of my life have passed me by
This messed up world still wants my best try 
Give a hundred percent
You gotta pay rent
Drag your ass to church on Sunday, repent

I’m trying
Why does it feel like I’m dying? 

I don’t want to live down here but baby I’m stranded 
These are the lousiest cards I’ve ever been handed
The rain pours down, the ground gets wetter,
I wear this shame like a scarlet letter
Painted on my head
Living on my deathbed

The doc gave one for pain and one for depression 
‘Cause I’ve never been good at cleaning up messes
And now, I’ve got bills
To pay for these pills
But I never get better, they’re making me ill

He’s lying
I still feel like I’m dying 

I don’t want to live down here but baby I’m stranded 
These are the lousiest cards I’ve ever been handed
The rain pours down, the ground gets wetter,
I wear this pain like a barbed wire sweater
Hanging by a thread
Living on my deathbed

I’m filled with holes like a pair of blue jeans
I patch one up then rip a new seam 
Then drive off course into the well
I swear rock bottom feels just like hell
So far down and there’s no way out
I claw the walls and I scream and shout
I curse at God and he yells right back
You’re gonna learn never talk to me like that

I don’t want to live down here but baby I’m stranded 
These are the lousiest cards I’ve ever been handed
The rain pours down, the ground gets wetter
Thought it couldn’t get worse but I should’ve known better 
Just like I said

I don’t want to live down here but baby I’m stranded 
These are the lousiest cards I’ve ever been handed
The rain pours down, the ground gets wetter
I wear this shame like a scarlet letter
Just like I said
I’m living on my deathbed 

Lyrics © 2025 Brooke Justus. All Rights Reserved.

Living on My Deathbed

I'm used to making hyperpop music, but I started to get bored of making the same songs.
I'm a fan of 80s pop 90s r&b so I attempted to make a song with that vibe. 
That's how I came up with this song "dream of us".

It's my first attempt outside of my usual genres.
I hope you enjoy it.
if it gets good attention then I'll definitely put a lot of effort into making more songs like it. 🖤

dream of us

Ticket to nowhere

My Music, My Lyrics, My Style. 

An ‘event’ on December 16, 2024 opened emotions I kept hidden from everyone & more so myself, back 24 years ago. 

That “event” I speak of in 2001 has been the major driving force to me writing lyrics again but turning those lyrics into something much more, bigger than just music. 


I am VERY Appreciative of your likes, comments and support to my music . 

THANK YOU 🙏 ALL. 

Music written by me, incorporating the different styles of genre that influenced me in my music journey.

Soul, R&B, Disco, Dance, Rock n Roll, 30’s, 40’s, 50’s, 60’s, Rap, Hip-Hop, Euro, EDM, Trance, Techno. Club mix and Love songs. 

Music about life, love, hope, wishes, pain, sadness..

Written with emotion & feelings. From the heart 💓 

Songs in a couple of languages! 

I have now been able to bring my voice out ( with other voices ) and the lyrics I write has enabled me to achieve the style of music & song(s) that suits my individuality and to convey to the listener what I want to convey with each & every song I write. 



Love Sas  ❤️ aka Dj Sas .

Why? ( That Day )

Sas

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