DILF VOLUME 31

This album is dedicated to the people that used to love that tried to silence or harm me.  The ones that would take their love away from me and bread crumb me when they needed something. the ones that told me I was too old , too fat , disposable and that something was wrong with me. 
  


But these fuckers can live in sunlight. 

One of the reasons this project took so long was because I let these vampires into my life, my heart and my bed. 

I was also in a brutal 9-month court battle with my ex-partner, and to make it worse I was not prepared to learn more of his lies as the courts unfolded his true colors.  

A complete con artist and psychopath. 

I’m talking Lifetime may be buying the rights soon. 

The most surprising part was learning he had a plan to kill me at the end but did not go through with it.  Yet he got the drugs in me then raped me when I was groggy and filmed it for his collection. Which he used to bait guys on Scrif and Grinder. 

Imagine having someone inside you and holding you thinking you found your partner , to later on finding out that he wanted you gone band was filing you without your knowledge


And who do you talk to about that ? If I heard someone talking about that I would think they were insane.   So I kept it to myself.  

 And I had to process this while I was working ain a Covid ICU putting people in body bags at the hospital. 

I Then I did something stupid.  I sent my ex groceries. My thought at the time was I was hoping it could just stop his insanity.  It took it to another level.  I was not allowed to do that so he filed the complaint and I was put in the general population of the Baltimore State Prison. I was the only white guy in there.

Just when I thought there was no way he could hurt me anymore then he did. It went to a whole new level. 

When I finally got out and was able to get home;  I bought a bag of blow, a bottle of vodka, and a few razor blades and I sat in the bathtub. I was planning on taking my life.  

Until I saw my dogs all sitting in the doorway looking at me. I crawled out of the tub and layer on the floor with them. I cried all night.  They never left my side.  

It was then that the universe forced me into a fire I did not want to go into. Nor one that I thought I had the strength to endure.  Taking a true look at myself and asking why did I let this man do this to me.  

It would of been easier to play the victim. But I gave him the scissors multiple times , hoping I would get difficult results. 

I died that night , I do not mean physically, I mean spiritually. 

I have never been in so much pain , so alone or scared.

I had given all of myself to someone who I just wanted to love me.  

Isn’t that what we all want? 

And just like my father that rejected me for being who I am. 

When I looked in the mirror , I saw a broken 50 year old man but inside was that 4th grader just wanting to be held.  To be told it’s going to be ok and mostly that I was loved.  

For 50 fucking years that’s al I ever wanted. 

And what a cliche it is but quoting the Wizard of Oz when the good witch tells Dorothy. “ you had the power all along “.

Loving yourself , setting boundaries and staying far away from toxic people has to be the hardest lesson we face.  

Many choose to numb themselves with sugar , drugs , sex and /or alcohol instead of looking in that mirror.  

Fuck, I did for 50 years.  

Not anymore. 

This album, set or whatever you want to call it is my story. It is my walk through the fire and my rise from the ashes on the other side.

Nobody will ever take away my confidence again.  

If this speaks to you.

I'm waiting on the other side. 

The cool thing about when you get over here…

you will be "UNFUCKWITHABLE 👆"

🙏🏻
Bill Bennett

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I have over 15 years of remixes. I will be updating this podcast every 4 - 6 weeks. I have to remaster the old tracks and that takes time.  I will put an asterisk* by a song/remix that is a new entry. I will also put a date here that this set was last updated.


Last Update May 11, 2022

DJ Bill Bennett 
Vault - Unreleased Madonna Mixes
PART 1
Ghostown 
Hung Up
Till Death Do Us Part 
Love Spent
Masterpiece
Open Your Heart
Give It 2 Me
Into the Groove
I Don't Give A ...
Express Yourself
Music
Holiday
Everybody
Lilke A Prayer
Devil Prey 
Girl Gone Wild
Burning Up
Sorry 
Miles Away
4 Minutes
Celebration 
Issac
Vogue
Erotica
Paradse Not For Me
Sky Fits Heaven
Love Spent 
Borderline 
Take A Bow 
Inside Out 
Get Together
Ray Of Light
Nobody Knows Me
Think Of Me
Spanish Eyes
Hold Tight
Ce;ebration
Lucky Star
Holy Water
Youll See 
Borderline 
Let It Will be 
Paradise Not For Me 
Deeper and Deeper
Rebel Heart 
Power Of Goodbye
Whos That Girl
American Life
Over And Over
Lucky Star
Mother Father
Wash All Over Me
Oh Father
Give Me All Your Love

PART 2
Bill's Intro*
Borrowed Time*
Interlude For Fans
Turn Up The Radio *
Causing A Commotion*
Secret *
Jump*
Live To Tell *
Addicted*
American Pie*
Like A Virgin *
Frozen *

Best Of Madonna Remixes

My passion for creating music is a thing of the past.

Or so I thought.

I imagine a painter gets the same therapy by starting with a blank canvas and then creating an image using different mediums and colors.

My colors have always been sound. In high school, the synths of HOOKED ON LOVE by Dead or Alive, and the beats of Man To Man Parish played in my room as I taped Farrah Fawcett posters over my Steve Kelso Colt Posters.

Living in fear daily of what would happen if my father found out I was gay.  Music saved me then, and I guess it still saves me now.


Locking myself in a room for hours, maybe days and just being in a matrix of possible sounds calms me.

When I started this mix, I had no intention of sharing it.

Many people will hear sounds, and call it not music.

But  a few of you, that see the world in a different light will enjoy this ride.  

It's my fears, faith, hope, anger, and resolution in a 3-day therapy session.  

Hope you enjoy the ride.

Sounds From My Bedroom

Fame

Shallow
Bloody Mary
Bad Romance
Paparazzi
Abracadabra
Your Song
Dance In The Dark
Teeth
Sch3ilbe
Rain On Me
Alejandro
Telephone
Applause
Just Dance
Disease

Lady Gaga Remixed

Strung Out (A Song of Redemption) MASTER

Wrong For Me

Worthy

From the double album Fire & Ice now available on all online platforms

Don't Call Me Daddy

Let Me Lift You Up 1

Holding Water

Walls We Build

Ichor / studio version

Stuck in the Stages

Ahimsa Feat Angie Hunter

Kiss Me , Please...

13 Months

Soul Mate ?

Gonna Be Free

Sexting

DILF TOUR LIVE IN LONDON

Live In London Part 2

Pandora's Box Live Rehearsal

Crabs In A Bucket

You Can't Unsee It

Invisible Lines

Silent House Final Version

Not My First Rodeo - DJ Bill Bennett After Hours Mix

Not My First Rodeo Bill's Do A Bump Mix

When Sex Becomes A Weapon - Club Mix

Super Empath Club Mix

Upside Down World

Handed You The Scissors - Remix

Nobody Is Coming To Save You

The Guy That Loves You...

Wrong For Me (But Oh So Right)  Remix Album

Drowning - Remix Album

I f***king love this set. No commercial pop vocal crap.  Pure art with music.   Enjoy

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Remixer, Producer, Vocal Artist. You can find my finished work on all online music platforms under " DJ Bill Bennett" Here you will find my catalog of demos. All songs written and owned by DJ BIll Bennett LLC

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