"Be of good heart, cry the dead artists out of the living past. Our songs will all be silenced. But what of it? Go on singing." - Orson Welles

For my true friends and all those who wish to co-create a better world. Despite all we've been through, the truth is that joy, pleasure, and love are real and still worth reaching and fighting for. Deep love and respect to GriffinGrrl, Wesley Holmes, Kadeejah Streets/Innerflight, James Sorrell, MyKael D'eva & Ric, Courtney & Scott/Dusty Booty Ranch, Riz&Rob, Zeebo/Aivilo/Tremulant, Mz. Artiz, Blaze, Konifer & ELLEM, Camp Conception, Trev/Das Sind Wir, Jenö/Garth/Thomas/Markie/Wicked, Kinjo/Makes Me Human, Ernie Ayers, Alfonso Tan, and everyone who has believed in and encouraged me to continue mixing music. Big thanks to All Day I Dream, Lee Burridge, Sebastien Leger, and Roy Rosenfeld for the faith and optimism. RIP Thich Nhat Hanh.

This mix is #1 in a suite of five completed mixes for spring/summer 2022: "Sonic Apothecary: spaceotter's Endemic Medicine Suite," an audio analogue to recent advances in psychedelic-assisted therapies. Like the physical medicines, these mixes are intended to sonically aid recovery from grief, trauma, loss, anxiety, despair. Each mix has a specific flavor; I hope one or more will speak to you. More soon.

psychedelic love affair 6: the return

"Being menial, how can we let vastnesses strike through 
Our fastened nerves, or see — being the ordered smallnesses
We are — the whole spill, squeeze, and boiling without
Losing heart, mind, or being
Insinuated — hugged or struck into the unwanted
Northless utmosts, the Southless balconies between
Gables of dust, rotundas of sun? Can it be our comfort's

Derived from our dumbness?"

- Alice Fulton, "The Fractal Lanes" from Powers of Congress

The deep playa is a direction, not a place. What began as a bike ride into dusty darkness became something else altogether. This mix is in memory of all the times I needed to ride into trackless oblivion to get the fuck away from other people, and more importantly, to get away from my own idea of who I am.

RIP Thich Nhat Hanh

The Fractal Lanes

"You look like MC Hammer on crack, Humpty..." - Digital Underground

Thanks to Black Velveteen (@blackvelveteennow) for hooking this up ❤️😘!! This Proton Radio Amplified mix comes from a group of tracks that I have loved embarrassingly much and played over the last months at Pacific Northwest US parties like Habitat, Diffusion, Luminosity, Breakfast Club, DROP, and Courtney's Dusty Booty Ranch burner birthday rave at an abandoned bank. These days, vintage matters less to me...COVID changed time, and quality matters more than currency. We are prospectors for the good in this journey. Track list for the voyage:

Baby Wants to Ride (intro) - Frankie Knuckles & Jamie Principle
Temple (Simple Symmetry Remix) - Paresse
Right 2 Left (Red Axes Remix - Extended) - Diplo & Melé
Che Che - Simple Symmetry
Macrodose - Lubelski 
Clouds (Original Mix)- Doc Martin, Joeski
Cosmo - Marc Romboy	
Erotic Polymorphic Experience (Jamie Paton Remix) - Theus Mago
Somatik (Pig & Dan's Acid Journey Remix) - Ashbury, Haight 
I Feel Love (Monkey Safari Remix) - DJ Pierre
Sympathy - PALMFooD, Mia Mendi
Confidence (Adam Port Remix) - Daniel Stefanik
OAR003-B - Oni Ayhun
Siren Song - Luke Mandala
Over The Water (Tim Green & Izhevski Remix) - Tim Green
Casa (Axel Boman Dub Mix) - Dinky
Jewels - Alex Niggemann
Portal - Aroma Pitch
Best View  - Silky Raven
Muzik (Version 1) - Blake Baxter, Marc Romboy
The Little Soother - John Tejada
Tuesday Paranoia - Shonky & Jennifer Cardini
Happy Cycling - Boards Of Canada

Keep looking for the GOOD. ❤️

Proton Amplified 2-2-23: spaceotter

A re-creation of my Caravan 6-2-23 set with unhurried transitions and a few bonus tracks I wish I'd had time to play. 

Tracklist upon request.

Caravan Set 6-2-23

A tribute to the utopian vibes of the early 90s...my generation's visions of a better world. Those dreams are still extant, latent in the current world. A conversation between the current moment and the past. (Reissued...original iteration was on the Conception Soundcloud page which I didn't want to pay for anymore.)

ConceptionCast1: spaceotter ("Erstwhile")

Closing out Seattle Pride 2023 with some of that housey house.

Flammable Pride 6-25-23

There are times when your ass needs to cash the checks your mouth wrote. After 17 years digital, it was time to mix an all-vinyl set, thanks to Brit's 90s black light birthday rave. There were train wrecks but it was fun and a massive adrenaline rush when I landed a mix right. (This is not the live set, but the test mix with the same rekkids, recorded at home.)

Special thanks to: Wesley Holmes, Chris Buening, & Mark O'Brien for vinyl gifts played here, to Kadeejah Streets for finding turntables for me, to the Wonder Twinz & Black Velveteen for encouragement. And to Brit & Shaun for coaxing me into some growth, and finally exploring those vinyl roots I always meant to. Ready let's grow!

That 90s Black Light Rave (vinyl set for Brit's birthday!)

❤️‍🔥 Sunday night in Seattle means one thing: Flammable. For 30 years, Flamm has been our friends&fam tradition of house music to close out the weekend. Weekly dance church, served hot.

This past winter solstice 2023, I played a fun set at Flamm that I decided to whip up into an otter-style 4-hour House buffet, including many tracks I didn't get to play that night. Bon appetit! ❤️‍🔥

❤️‍🔥 For the Love of Flammable ❤️‍🔥

Some new & classic otter tracks from Diffusion's Panacea 2024 gathering in the mountains. Big ups to the Diffusion crew (especially Zbo & Monotropa), Wesley Holmes, GriffinGrrl, Shaun Whitcher, and all my awesome friends who showed out. Thanks to Alex LGSP ( @lgsp-music ) for encouraging me to recreate this set.

spaceotter @ Panacea 2024

This one night at Diffusion on their amazing sound system...direct support for the incredibly lovely Isabeau Fort (@isabeaufort) from Berlin. Thanks to Zbo, Brit, Whitcher, Matt, Renba, Tek, Jules, and all the crew and friends who showed. Love always to Kadeejah, Wesley, GriffinGrrl, Alfonso, Wonder Twinz, Black Velveteen, Riz&Rob, Dana Dub, YourHouse, Kobalt, and so many others who make our scene so great.

Dedicated to my brother.

Diffusion 9-28-24

One night at Forest Creek for Reflect's Afterglow Festival (October 11-13, 2024) in the Cascade Mountains of Washington State. Thanks to Trent/Citrus Age, Erika/Copeland, Jared/Sloth, Samadhi Flow, and the whole Reflect crew for having me. Big thanks to Rave Daddy Otter Dan for taking such good care of me. And to everyone who showed especially Courtney, Todd, Scott and the DBR crew, my loves Black Velveteen & Lexi, Susan for being a great age-appropriate old school rave buddy, and so many people for grooves and great conversations. And a very special thanks to Jen Davidowitz for inspiring me to recreate this set.

Reflect "Afterglow" 10-12-24

One Halloween night at the local Seattle men's sex club.

Acid Baths: Live @ Steamworks 10-26-24

My intention for this mix was to create a psychedelic battering ram to the current state of horror and despair. A spring breakthrough.

- Thanks to visual collaborator Brian Akey for the incredible graphics! Instagram: bakey_graphics
- Love to the Radical Faeries who inspired so much, including the concept of the Psychedelic Love Affair--imagined as a party where you can dance, make out, relax, fuck, do yoga, sleep, massage, eat, thrive, live, exult, empty out, fill up again...all to gorgeous melodic music on the psychedelic edge of house and techno. #WarmWeirdMostly.
- Mad love and endless respect to Jenö, Lily Ackerman, Roman Flügel, the Mayan Warrior, Ginkgo, Jerry Bonham, Powel, and especially Lee Burridge (and Robot Heart) for exposing me initially to so many of the flavors I used here.
- Mad love to giraffe Mark Lippert for concept consultation; to Erin O'Connor-Drew, Wesley Holmes, Kadeejah, Finn, Biggie and Scott Burdette for the love and support.
- Quote from my favorite play & movie, John Guare's "Six Degrees of Separation."

Download at hearthis.at/spaceotter

3/20/17

Psychedelic Love Affair

You are not morning. 
You are late afternoon. And that's why
beings love you. 

You are the warmth of a thing past its peak, 
the growing fuzz of possibilities for transformation 
from the light's late gaze into something 
less clear. 

You are a meadow caught by a sudden 
dazzle of solar photons, lazy
and majestic. 

You don't hold promises, 
or negotiate means of keeping them. 
 
You are the scuppered sound of a rower's oars
kissing the tops of the waves 
as they recede. 

You are the gentle gleam 
on the belly of the plane 
as it hums by.  

You are not night. Your warmth may last 
long into darkness, but you are not that mystery. 
You are not the hard-baked glory of noon. 

You are the late gold miners chased 
but never found in solid form. 
You are the late afternoon. 
And that's why we love you.

     - spaceotter meadowmancer

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"Being menial, how do we let vastnesses strike through
Our fastened nerves, or see -- being the ordered smallesses
We are -- the whole spill, squeeze and boiling without
Losing heart, mind, or being
Insinuated -- hugged or struck into the unwanted
Northless utmosts, the Southless balconies between
Gables of dust, rotundas of sun? Can it be our comfort's

Derived from our dumbness?"

    - from "The Fractal Lanes" by Alice Fulton

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Always thanks to Wesley Holmes, Erin O'Conner-Drew, Jeremey Linden, Kadeejah Streets, Jenö, Lee Burridge, Chris Howarth, Brother Michael and the playa.

Psychedelic Love Affair 4: Deep Autumn

A postcard from the end of this madness.

Mad love always: @jenovoid & @wickedrecords005, @leeburridge & @alldayidream, @sebastienleger, @toddterje, @mira_kater, @johntejadaofficial, @redaxes, @simple-symmetry, @multiculti Records for pushing this thing farther...

...and to spaceotter ultra-homies @eoconnor & Nate & @traincarhouseparty, @wesley-holmes & Jirrian & Winter & Julie @discodancin & Katie & Brian & @flammable_seattle, @kadeejah-streets & Lauren & @seandonoghue-neider & @innerflight-music, @griffingrrl & Noah & Roxie, Daddy Robbie & Brooke, @robwinter & Finis, @mrlinden & Kerry & @hectorjrodriguez & SCOHM, Mieko, Riz & Rob, DJ momma @dj-dana-dub, @pure-noise & Drew, that giraffe dude @marquis-liberty, the Faeries, Board of Deacons, @shameless-audio, Bounce Bruch, @chase-cuntersson, Coliscious & Matt, @hyasynth & @nark & @sappho-presents-chingo & Dez & @derekpavone & @bottomforty, Scott & Dono & Baker, @starborne, @mirror-web, @kinjo & @milesmercer & Grounded, Daddy Bryan & Will, Camp Conception, @buckmode, Scott & Courtney & Todd & Hairball & Dusty Booty Ranch, the Pezzners, Steampup & Papa Smurf & PickleBackers, PS Otterfam, Daddy David at the Vault, Holly & Michael, JayCray, Michael S., Michelle & @karl-kamakahi & Soft Option, Michael Binks, Jerrod Bohn, Double Scorpio, Scott & Randy, Kathleen Fab & John, @alfonsotan & Todd, @andydwarren & @ginkgo, @taitmodern & Meow Meow, Jerry & Space Virgins, and my burners everywhere )’( !!!

Psychedelic Love Affair 5: The End of the Madness

Opening set for "A Night in the Desert with Bottom Forty," Friday night, BAAAHS @ Comfort&Joy, Burning Man 2018. Opening for Stormy Roxx, Nark, Tim Sweeney, Kodemul, Mr. TC and Jennifer Cardini.  I kept Ultra's fire dancing announcements because I fucking LOVE Ultra. 

The set starts with a special tribute to Larry Harvey (RIP) at the beginning,  from his documentary "Burning Man" (1991), talking about the origin of the event in 1985, from which I learned that the event literally started on my birthday (I won't say which one).

Thanks to Kevin/Nark for bringing me back on and finally finding the recording after 8 months! To BAAAHS for having us, to Comfort&Joy for hosting the fire performance & opening. To Frank Agrario, Moodymanc, Wesley Holmes, Kadeejah Streets, Jenö (always Jenö), Nark, Chase Cuntersson, and Karl Kamakahi for help with track curation and general nurture. To Daddy Dean and PS Otterfam. To Conception, Dusty Booty Ranch, and Picklebackers. To Larry Harvey and all the early burners, whose vision impacted all of our lives.

Burning Man 2018

Live on BAAAHS Friday Night 8-31-18 (Burning Man 2018)

spaceotter's mix for DJ Robby Clark's Emerald City Brunch internet radio show, 10-7-12. Deep! (http://www.trance-domain.com/index2.html)

Tracklist:
1. Stand in for Love - Wil Maddams
2. Sedara - Tanner Ross, Sergio Santos
3. Lose My Mind - MANIK (NYC)
4. Still Music (Motor City Drum Ensemble Remix) - Steve Bug, Donnacha Costello
5. Eternity - Roberto Rodriguez (Manolo)
6. Yeah - Kenny Dope
7. Handle the Change - Wil Maddams
8. Ra-ako-st (Todd Terje Extended Edit) - Lindstrom
9. High U Gonna (Wesley Holmes edit) - Den Ishu
10. Fly With Me (Part One) - The Freaks
11. Sweet Sensation (Lone Remix) - Shades Of Rhythm
12. Free Bassin - Demarkus Lewis
13. The Sweetest Thing feat. Daniel Solar (Vinyl Cut) - Alex Niggemann
14. Running Man (Dave DK Mix) - WhoMadeWho
15. Do You Know Who You Are - Shane Linehan
16. Breaking - Kyodai
17. Leko - KiNK
18. Reach (Alte Schule Acid Instrumental Mix) - Michael Laven & Heiko MSO
19. Ribble To Amazon - Julio Bashmore
20. Ignorance Is Bliss - Claude Vonstroke & Eats Everything
21. In the Flowers - Nick Harris
22. Legacy feat. Derrick Carter (Yousef Terrace Remake) - Yousef, Derrick Carter
23. Keep Groovin' (Unreleased Mix 1) - DJ Sneak

Emerald City Brunch feat. spaceotter, 10-7-12

Live at Electric Tea Garden, Seattle for Family Tree 3 1-24-15. This ended up being the Now Serving podcast episode 1. Photo: IRDeep

Now Serving Podcast

Family Tree 3 @ ETG, 1-24-15 (Now Serving Podcast 1)

A particularly wild night at Electric Tea Garden in 2013, "Proper" with the De La Creme crew and two costume changes during the set. Thanks to Karl & Xan for asking me to play.

Proper Saturdays @ ETG

Proper @ Electric Tea Garden 2-2-13

Live at the Seattle Erotic Art Fest, Pride afterparty 6-22-12, opening for the one and only Dave Pezzner. Photo by Michael Holden.

SEAF Pride Afterparty 6-22-12

Recorded live at Kit's burner 50th birthday party, August 2015. HAPPY BIRTHDAY my burner sister...sorry it took me so long to find the recording! 😘❤️

Kit's 50th Birthday Mix (August 2015)

Live at Seattle Steamworks gay bathhouse (back when it still had a steam room), summer 2013.

Ode to Steam (Live @ Seattle Steamworks 8/13)

Live at Kremfest on the Tremulant Stage 9.21.19. This was transmit as a prayer for grace, sent in the midst of personal shock and despair.

Thanks to Kremwerk and the Tremulant crew for having me, to Crate Radio for the recording, and to Binah for getting it to me. And thank everyone who danced or nodded dreamily along.

Tremulant Stage @ Kremfest 9.21.19

A mix from November 2016, which needed a little fixing. I remember walking around stoned in West End Vancouver, listening to this in the misty rains.

This was the precursor to the Psychedelic Love Affair series, with all of those trippy musical ideas bubbling up, but I didn't have the concept or words yet. So, I'm thinking of it as Psychedelic Love Affair 0.5. I added a couple fixes to the mix to areas that have always bothered me, retouching an otherwise exceptional journey. The results are pretty euphoric.

I hope you enjoy this mix as much as I have. It's a secret favorite, and I'm delighted to share it, burnished to greater glory.

Introversion2016 Retouch (PLA 0.5)

Audio rip from an afterhours livestream I did for the Seattle Church of House Music, late Saturday night/Sunday morning March 15/16, 2020. Deep & dark.

SCOHM Afterhours Deepstream 3-16-20

This mix is dedicated to the life and memory of my friend Domonique Green, who passed away in the Mission District of San Francisco in June 2020, as well as to the #BlackLivesMatter movement. Please donate to Black Lives Matter Seattle-King County: https://blacklivesseattle.org/donate/

House music was created by Queer+Trans Black&Brown people in South Side, Chicago in the 1980s. There is no House music without Black, Brown, Queer+Trans people, and this is a celebration of the House they built. It's also a celebration of the Queer+Trans Black&Brown folks who led the Stonewall Rebellion in 1969 in NYC, who started the LGBTQ liberation movement. There is no liberation movement for LGBTQ people without our Black&Brown leaders and elders. Special thanks to all these cultural ancestors, all the artists represented in the mix, as well as my Legendary DJ moms Riz Rollins & Dana Dub.

Happy Juneteenth 2020 - Happy Solstice 2020 - Happy Pride - Black Lives Matter! End global white supremacy and centrality. REPARATIONS for Black&Brown people NOW.

*An edited version of this mix appeared on Robby Clark's "Emerald City Brunch" podcast on 6/21/20.

Track & Spoken Word playlist:
Mix intro - Now Serving feat. Almond Brown + spaceotter
"The Time Was Then" feat Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. - Layo & Bushwacka
Ahmaud Arbery poem - Akil Jackson
"America Eats its Young" - Nick Holder feat. Jemini
"Balinese Saints" - Balaphonic
"We Want to Be Free" - Sample of speech by Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.
"Mardis Gras" - Ashley Beedle, Problem Kids
"The Future We Didn't Get" - Blue Soul
"Ngeke" (Andhim Remix)- Armonica
"All My Demons" - Shades of Gray
"Coro" (DJ Spen Kaoz Re Edit)- Kerri Chandler
"So What (For The White Dude Who Said This Ain't Poetry)" poem - Kenneth Carroll
"The Bounce" - Kenlou
"An American Poem" (Just Ras) - Those Guys feat. Ras Baraka
"My Beat" (Derrick Carter Remix) - Blaze feat. Palmer Brown
"Do You Remember House?" - Blaze feat. Palmer Brown
"DJ Beat That Shhh" (Extended MixX) - Mike Dunn feat. MD X-Spress
"Let Go of This Acid" - Artwork feat. Loleatta Holloway
"An Eye for an Eye" feat. Malcolm X - Sirius
"Floorbangers 4 (Our Religion Teaches Us to be Intelligent)" feat. Malcolm X - Floorbangers
"Revolution 09" feat. Malcolm X (Final Cut Pro Mix) - Gene Farris
"Crystal Clear" - CamelPhat, Riva Starr feat. Ursula Rucker
"I Am The Black Gold Of The Sun" - Nuyorican Soul feat. Jocelyn Brown
"It's Alright, I Feel It!" - Nuyorican Soul feat. Jocelyn Brown
"Friend" feat. Sylvester (Mattski-Reprise)- Mattski
"Changed My Life" - Tom Bug
"Sume Sigh Say" (MAW remix)- House of Gypsies
"4 My People" (acapella) - Missy Elliot
"Never Grow Old" - Floorplan feat. Aretha Franklin
"Smiley Face" - Armand Van Helden, A-Trak, Duck Sauce
"My Body" - Osmose
"You Make Me Feel (Mighty Real)" - Sylvester
"The Wobble" - Supernova
"Infatuation" - Demuir
"Black is..." - Moodymanc vs. D Unit
"I'm Tryin Ta Party" - Lady Blacktronika
"You Should Be Loving Me" - Dj Spinna and Ovasoul7
"Ancestors" (Main Mix) - Delano Smith
"Jam Down Beat Down" - Farley Silvester
"World Keeps Turnin' (Outro)" - Erykah Badu

Black Gold Of The Sun 2020 (for Dominique Green + #BlackLivesMatter)

Live at Camp Conception's first fundraiser, 3-16-12 at the Seattle Eagle. It was a hell of a night. Lasers, smoke machine, packed to the gills, and a flying helium shark. This was the 1-3:30am closing set.

Camp Conception

Camp Conception Burner Fundraiser 3-16-12

Live @ the Breitenbush Winter Radical Faerie Gathering 2011. Pic of departed elder Dave McKay.

Live @ Breitenbush Winter 2011 Radical Faerie Gathering

spacetribe: Breitenbush Winter 2011 Radical Faerie Gathering

One night at Havana Social, back when they used to have house music on Choice Wednesdays. Two shorter sets strung together--I think I DJed with Mz Artiz or Robby Clark that night? It was a long while ago.

Choice Wednesdays  11-2-11 @ Havana Social

My first time playing the Cuff, which included 2 sets as we were trading off. After all those years as a patron, I brought some vibes I was sure that floor hadn't felt before.

T-Dance @ The Cuff 3-4-12

I long to enter the magic with you.

- 6.21.25 This! Solstice birthday jams @ Monkey Loft w/Supreme La Rock, AlejandroMiguel (aka Grizz206)
- 6.28.25 Bottom 40 Pride Underground w/Kadeejah Streets, Future Wife, Casewag & Janky @ TBA secret space 11-2am
- 6.29.25 Flammable Pride 2025 w/Nick Bertossi & Julie Herrera, Adé Cônnére hosting
- 7.5.25 Massive w/Riz Rollins
- 7.20.25 Cuff T-Dance on the patio 4-9pm
- 7.26.25 Bathhouse Disco w/Stevie303 @ Wash
- 7.27.25 Opulent Temple Day Party @ Monkey Loft w/DJ Dan, Wesley Holmes, Chris Tower, Jaogaz

Raised by drag queens on acid house and disco between Detroit and Chicago, spaceotter moved to the West Coast and found his voice DJing at radical faerie gatherings, Burning Man and the underground clubs and warehouses of the Pacific Northwest.

cuddly apex predator // lotsa fur, lotsa eyes // dust in the interstellar wind // "we put the extra in extraterrestrial"

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