Verse 1***

Sadly, I run
sadly, I've come to be afraid
That what we've made is nothing beautiful

So closing my eyes,
and closing my blinds
I turn away
into the shadows of my cubicle to hide

and die there, I may

(die there I may)tonight! Put down that book
or at least just turn the page, this is not my song
It just sounds all too familiar
    
Cause promises fade 
but it's easy to rewind, and I'll see my heart
right where I left it, lying on the boulevard of time

but never mind...


Chorus***

Nobody ever sees me hanging on
and I'm not that strong
My fingers keep on slippin' of this ledge

When all I ever wanted was you
to drift away on, and lose my place
In this never ending story,

and I'm in love
I'm in love
I'm in love
I'm in love

Verse 2***

Sadly, I roam
Lonely I wander through my mind
Dreaming of innocence I left behind

If we were only free
Of what is haunting you and me
We'd have a friend
And maybe stop just thinking about the end of time

Oh, we'll be blind

(We'll be blind)

With ever damned distraction, 
for every debt I've ever owed
I'm still the one
And I've still got my reasons

To laugh up at the moon,
and melt with the morning sun
and never know...
If I'd ever found the meaning when it's done

So isn't this fun?

Chorus***

Nobody ever sees me hanging on
and I'm not that strong
My fingers keep on slippin' of this ledge

When all I ever wanted was this
to drift away on, and lose my place

In this never ending story,

and I'm in love

Nobody ever sees me hanging on
and I'm not that strong
My fingers keep on slippin' off the edge

and all I ever wanted was you
to drift away on, and lose my place
In this never ending story

and I'm in love
I'm in love
I'm in love
I'm in love
I'm in love

...with this never ending story, I'm in love.

Never Ending Story (I'm In Love)

Verse 1***

Sadly, I run
sadly, I've come to be afraid
That what we've made is nothing beautiful

So closing my eyes,
and closing my blinds
I turn away
into the shadows of my cubicle to hide

and die there, I may

(die there I may)tonight! Put down that book
or at least just turn the page, this is not my song
It just sounds all too familiar

Cause promises fade 
but it's easy to rewind, and I'll see my heart
right where I left it, lying on the boulevard of time

but never mind...

Chorus***

Nobody ever sees me hanging on
and I'm not that strong
My fingers keep on slippin' of this ledge

When all I ever wanted was you
to drift away on, and lose my place
In this never ending story,

and I'm in love
I'm in love
I'm in love
I'm in love

Verse 2***

Sadly, I roam
Lonely I wander through my mind
Dreaming of innocence I left behind

If we were only free
Of what is haunting you and me
We'd have a friend
And maybe stop just thinking about the end of time

Oh, we'll be blind!

(We'll be blind)

With ever damned distraction, 
for every debt I've ever owed
I'm still the one
And I've still got my reasons

To laugh up at the moon,
and melt with the morning sun
and never know...
If I'd ever found the meaning when it's done

So isn't this fun?

Chorus***

Nobody ever sees me hanging on
and I'm not that strong
My fingers keep on slippin' of this ledge

When all I ever wanted was this
to drift away on, and lose my place

In this never ending story,

and I'm in love

Nobody ever sees me hanging on
and I'm not that strong
My fingers keep on slippin' off the edge

and all I ever wanted was you
to drift away on, and lose my place
In this never ending story

and I'm in love
I'm in love
I'm in love
I'm in love
I'm in love

...with this never ending story, I'm in love.

Never Ending Story (I'm In Love) Ver. 2

(Verse 1)
Had I known this would be so hard to take
I never would've let it go to waste
Cause my hands shake
When there's no one here to hold 'em
Twenty years I just tried so hard to hide
Like nothing ever kept me satisfied
And now I'm screamin'
Because I know what we can lose

I guess I needed a martyr
Someone to bring me back to life

(Chorus)
So trade me places, make me king
So I can forget everything
How is this my cross to bear?
So I'll write your name into the sand
And let the water wash my hands
But it won't wash away my pride

See, it's alright
I can hide
It's alright
I can hide...

(Verse 2)
I can play this game and write these words
Pretend like they could ever really ease my hurt
But sweet distractions are just all they'll ever be
So pick the lock on my tired heart tonight
And I'll crawl a little closer to your light
Cause no one's noticed I've already come apart

I'd like to say I miss you
Yeah, I'd like to say I've tried

(Chorus)
Just trade me places, make me king
So I can forget everything
This can't be my cross to bear
So I'll lay my head onto the sand
I don't think I'll ever understand
That's why I never look behind 

But it's alright
I can hide...

Just trade me places, make me king
So I can forget everything
This can't be my cross to bear
So I write your name into the sand
And let the water wash it back
And you're lost upon the tide

Hey, it's alright 
I can hide
It's alright...
I can hide.



Trading Places

Lower me slowly
So I can see
The hole where my body
Will try to rest in peace

Yeah, I can see my mother
The tears fill her eyes
Just like the cold, hard earth
Is gonna fill my skies

I once had a lover
Look how she bites her lip
Oh, she was my first mate
On our haunted ship

Well now I'm hovering over
And I know her soul
It's such an empty place
But her heart's still full
Yeah her heart's still full

And I'm alive in that innocent mind of hers
I'll survive as long as I'm needed
And I
I'm gonna be her love from the other side


I try to read  her expression
Has she forgiven me?
No, I see no hesitation
Just utter.. the utter disbelief

I know I'll find no other
But should I leave her alone?
And at that very moment her fiery grip's on my wrist
And, it looks like we're headed home

So I dive in that innocent mind of hers
And I'm alive as long as she needs me
And I, I'll be in her life on the other side

And I'm alive and I'll never get tired of her
I'll survive as long as I am needed
And I'm gonna be her love from the other side

Please, don't let me drift away
Cause I'm still going crazy
How am I still going so crazy?? 

Oh, I will never let you slip away, drift away!
Remember my name..
And we're one in the same.

Cause I'm alive and I'll never get tired of her
I'll survive no matter if I'm needed
And I'm gonna be her life from the other side

And I'm alive in that innocent mind of hers
I'll survive no matter if I'm needed
And I, I'm gonna her love from the other side

I'm gonna be her love from the other side

The Other Side

It happens time and time again
Another superhero I could have called my friend
Well, I've got no more emotion

Lookin' up I see the sky
A little sunshine wouldn't kill me
But I'm constantly denied

Guess where I stand?
My higher ground

Well here's what I can't decide
Should I find this all peculiar now
Or should I hold my tongue?

When standing side by side
Superheroes made a sacrifice
Call it history in motion

...and here I stay
My higher ground

But I've seen the writing on the wall
No, you'll never hold me in your hands
Now I've seen it all
I know your demands
Yet still I'm suffering in silence

No years to my name
No silver words could stake their claim
They're just lost in translation

And I'm still learning my lines
My testament, a burning sign
That I choose my destination

And here I lay
My higher ground

There's no more wisdom to impart
So I'm gonna take the light, let's run by dark
In perfect contradiction

And this could not be more clear
That truths are there, and some I fear
But I still recognize the fiction

Come to where I am
My higher ground

See the writing on the wall?
No, they'll never hold us in their hands
Now we've seen it all
We know all their demands
Let us not suffer in our silence

And see the mighty how they fall
No, we'll never forfeit to their plans
Now we've heard it all
We know all their demands
Let us not suffer in this violence

And I've seen the writing on the wall
Oh, I've had all that I can stand
I've heard and seen it all
These lessons and commands
And I will suffer in my silence no more.

Higher Ground

On a warm summer night
When the mountain takes the sun and swallows the light
We split the fifth, she takes the reigns
Tells me she loves me, got something to say
She says, it's all a bit too much
See I've been trying to make decisions based on vision and touch
Am I a sucker? Have I got it wrong?
Cause I don't like this so far and baby I'm trying to be strong
Did I listen too well or pray too hard?
Been disappointed in myself, let down by my god
And I've had enough, she says to her fists
Show me something new, show me something I missed
And I said

Raise your head
But don't you wipe those eyes
We know how this ends
There's no more surprise

You could take one look
Or you could take my hand
Take control
Take a stand

I show my teeth, pull those corners up
There are things we can do, sometimes they're almost enough 
It's how we put up a fight
It's when you open the window and when you close the knife
Alright, I'm just a man with nothing to claim
Except that I know how it is out in the pouring rain
And that I've found it hard to pretend
That it's not hard to be small, that it's not hard to be a friend
And sometimes, sometimes escape
Is just what we need, to be swept away
Cross that bridge but don't you burn it down
No matter the kingdom, no matter the crown

And

You love
And you live
And you hope
Yet you'd give it all away?

Like there's nothing to save?

And I know
And I trust
I've found a reason and to it I clutch
Though sometimes it's all a bit too much.

Something To Save

(Be still)

I'm alive
And I'll find myself no other
I've made it through the lonely hills
But still haven't found no lasting cover

But I take the buzz like everybody does
Instead of flipping through the pages
with a black leather glove
I'm in love with your mind
And everything you give me
Just like the moon needs the sun to seem living

So you walk in the room
You strike me blind
You've got me in the mood
Well what can we find?
You know that it's right
We're right where we should 
The fantasy's here
Let's tell em something good baby

(Nobody knows
  Nobody saves)x2

(Nobody holds
  Nobody takes)x2

(Nobody knows
  Nobody saves)x2

Nobody takes my love
Nobody takes my love

(Nobody holds 
  Nobody takes)x2

Nobody takes our love
Nobody takes our love

(Nobody cares
  Nobody waits)x2

No one creates your love
No one creates your love

(Everybody bends
  Everybody breaks)

Only you can rise above
Only you can rise above

(Everybody gives 
  Everybody takes)

Create your love

Light shines brightest in the darkest of places
Tear down the mountains you build in your mind
For the chances of you being here are so infinitely small
You have all the reason you need to break down the barriers
And set yourself free

And take the buzz like everybody does
Instead of flipping through the pages
with a black leather glove

I'm in love with the lie
And all it's pretty pieces
And I need you
to keep me on the leash and forgiven





Create Your Love

Fool's Gold

Atmosphere

Acoustic Instrumental

To let it go

(Verse 1)
I'm gazin' out
My breath fogs up the glass
Time, it goes so slowly
when you're living in the past,

The bottle is gone,
guess I'm wrong
cuz I finally see I'm right where I belong
Where I belong...

(Chorus)
Cuz I stand at the devil's door and he beckons me in
He says 'Welcome back, and let your long lost life of sin, begin again
Here is shelter for the traveler
to gain some peace of mind
Eternal rest here for the weary
Whose strength they cannot find
It's the safest place for troubled souls I know
Sweet whispers in your ear say 'Welcome home'

(Verse 2) 
I sacrifice,
myself to ease the pain
But each step that brings me closer
only pulls me further away

I try to be strong, keep moving on
But the faith and hope I've left in me is gone..

and it won't be long..

(Chorus)
Cuz I stand at the devil's door and he beckons me in
He says 'Welcome back, and let your long lost life of sing, begin again.
Hear the answers to the questions
that plague you on the way
Just lock yourself in my sweet embrace,
and throw the key away.'
It's the safest place for troubled souls I know
Sweet whispers in your ear say 'Welcome home'

(Bridge)
I think now I finally see,
life's complications are following me
And I'm tired of asking why..
So this is goodbye
this is goodbye..

(chorus 1)

Welcome Home

(verse 1)
So I'm a dreamer
what can I say..
If she'd been something other than the best I had
I could make them go away

If I could see her
I'd maybe know
If I could touch her now, I'd know somehow
I could finally let her go, let her go

I'll never let you go

(Chorus)
Tell me why I cry
and the nightmares never fade
Just tell me this one-way ticket on a lonely train
is gonna take me far away

Cuz I know she won't believe me
If I would tell her I was wrong,

So I'll carry on
Gotta carry on..

(Verse 2)
My head's on the pillow
Mind off the tracks
I've got my voice of reason talkin' mutiny
and I'm afraid I'll never get him back

So I'll give in to sorrow
make room for hate
I'm gonna get knee deep in the ugliness 
and await my coming fate

I hope it comes today

(Chorus)

(Bridge)
Oh the years pass by and I'm still a lonely
I say I'm free and I don't remember what I've done
but my face can tell the stories, one by one.

(Chorus)



Carry On

(verse 1)
Hear me out
If you value your conscience at all
Hear me shout
From the other side of the wall

Don't tell me that this is the means to an end
Don't feed me those lies, and don't try to pretend
Don't tell me of letters that you meant to send,
To me

(Chorus)
Cuz (Though*) I'm tired of your ways, and
hearing you say that
It just wasn't meant to be

So (but*) I don't want to hate you
I just want to thank you
For wasting your time with me

Your smile it defeats me
I can't cry and it eats me
I just want to find me a friend

This shame makes me wonder,
If there's a rock to crawl under
To hide from the sun once again

Cuz I'm fading away..
more and more, every day..

(verse 2)
Safe and sound
at peace in the clouds high above
Til I fall,
reaching out for some shreds of our love

It happens to be that I'm stranded again
I suppose I'll recover, but no one knows when
The chances of that still completely depend,
On you...

(chorus)





Fading Away

(Verse 1)
I wake up in the morning
Dig deep for the feeling
That'll get me out of bed

I had a dream of a face that
Was beautiful so I chased it
And now I don't know what it meant

Do you know what it meant

(Chorus)
Tell me brother, how's the afterlife?
Good enough to make me see the light?
Is it everything He never speaks to me?

Does the golden sun and the gentle sand,
Beneath your feet help you understand,
the other side ain't where you want to be?

Brother, if you're there, will you please
Speak to me.

(Verse 2)
Since the day that I lost you
It's been hard but I try to
Keep the melody alive

You made it look so easy
But was it all just to please me
Were you just as lost as I?

Were you just as lost as i?

(Chorus)

(Bridge)
I don't know what I'd say to you,
or how to say goodbye
All I know is when I'm with you I will try

All the words you say, won't go away
I'll never let them die
So brother can you teach me how to live my life?

(Chorus)

Speak to Me

Freedom

SmoothSynth

Music created to heal, inspire, evoke thought and compassion, but most of all love - for your perfectly flawed self, a perfectly flawed everybody else, and a perfectly flawed world. I listen, and write about what I hear. I try to stay true and take myself to uncomfortable places because that's where real change happens and where real freedom lives.

Derek Kesti Music

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