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production, mixing, & backing vocals by @blackwinterwells

art by randommandelbot

i don’t remember what we spoke about on the phone yesterday
i just know that it was nice to hear your voice and what you say
and i could call you tomorrow if you tell me it’s okay
but you know that you don’t really have a choice and either way
it's just feeling like a punch to the stomach
you made me feel wanted
but there was never hope for us anyway
i tried to be the one who you felt like you could come to
so why does it feel like i’m gonna fade away
fade away
fade away
i just don’t know how to stop you from appearing 
not here not now
i’ll see what’s in your head if God is willing
but i know sometimes She’s not
and maybe if you asked how i was feeling
you’d know just how
hard it’s been to keep myself from reeling 
calm down calm down
and every night it’s getting harder to stand it
to run me up and just make off like a bandit
and when you wanted my attention you’d command it
i think it’s funny how i’m leaving empty-handed
and every night it’s getting harder to stand it
to run me up and just make off like a bandit
and when you wanted my attention you’d command it
i think it’s funny how i’m leaving empty-handed
but i know i’ll just complicate everything probably saying some things i don’t mean
and you’ll wish that you never gave up all your minutes and hours to spend them with me

BANDIT w/ blackwinterwells

production by @taylor
co-production, mixing, & backing vocals by @blackwinterwells

art by lemonberryblue

what do you want
why are you here
you can't deny
there's so much fear
in this room tonight
wherever you are
you know i'll go
just know that you're
never alone
cause i'm close behind
but you know not to listen
i just say stuff
you got me stuck in a position
where i make tough
decisions every other minute
but i'll play rough
for you
and i keep tryna rip it like a band aid
but then another one just shows up where the last laid
if i said stab me in the side with just a glass blade
would you
you felt the same the day i met you
i want you to say it
use your words
you don't have to stay if it's an issue
i know that i'm not what you prefer
but you could lie
and we don't have to tell nobody about it
i could cry
but it’s not your fault
i knew what i did
so tell me what you want right
right now
so that i can go write
write down
i don't wanna be alone right
right now
i know that you know
right
right
right
right
leave me alone
just go away
i don't want to
look at your face
or i'll trace a line
i'm like a child
the way i scream
whenever i don't
get what i need
or what should be mine
i'm gonna hold it in my hand
so no one can take it all away
i know you'll never understand
but it just has to be this way
and when i roll the pearl between my fingers
admiring the way
that the light refracts
it's not so bad
though i feel the need to say
you felt the same the day i met you
i want you to say it
use your words
you don't have to stay if it's an issue
i know that i'm not what you prefer
but you could lie
and we don't have to tell nobody about it
i could cry
but it’s not your fault
i knew what i did
so tell me what you want right
right now
so that i can go write
write down
i don't wanna be alone right
right now
i know that you know
right
right
right
so tell me what you want right
right now
so that i can go write
write down
i don't wanna be alone right
right now
i know that you know
right
right
right
right

RIP IT! (taylor morgan)

one year anniversary of bandit, made this forever ago :3 i love caila heartavi and this song
original by @heartavi prod @blackwinterwells,
remix mix and mastered by @jodie-raygun thank uuuu

HEARTAVI - BANDIT (Y2KALEB REMIX) ❤️

@heartavi
@guiceb0x

prod by @xxkintsugi

save me
please come and save me
before i become something hard to believe in
and you know that you’re better off leaving
save me
please come and save me
before i become something hard to believe in
and you know that you’re better off leaving
i’m crawling through a cavern
where i can barely see
i lost it long ago but
i follow my instincts
you’re not just anybody
you’re the last piece i need
if i fall down too far to come back up
i know you’ll save me
surrounded in darkness in the fear of the night start to pray
then you bring the daylight restore the effects of decay, yeah
heal all my insides (heal)
bad feelings subside (side)
you saved me tonight (you)
feel sparks i ignite (night) 
love leaves me breathless
with you here by my side i'm reminded of being alive
save me
please come and save me
before i become something hard to believe in
and you know that you’re better off leaving
(this time won't you save me)
save me
(this time won't you save me)
please come and save me
(baby i can feel myself giving up)
before i become something hard to believe in
(giving up)
and you know that you’re better off
(giving up)

HEARTAVI - SAVE ME (feat. guiceb0x)(kintsugi)

production by @xxkintsugi 
mixing by @blackwinterwells

i hope it was worth it in the end
all that pushing paper to a pen
i can scoot over and you get in
just don’t ask about where i have been
i’m not afraid of the things that could happen
i think i’ll be okay
the theater was clapping
right after the movie
a bag in a trash can
my tears hidden by a sleeve
i think it was untrue
i’m maybe a little
afraid of the ending
zoned out in the middle
just come with me next time
and i’ll show you what i mean
i’m going out alone
take nobody with me
i never have the time
because i’m always busy
i might go have a drink
because i’m in the city
put on my favorite shirt and smile at the driver
i know that i should think it’s great to be alive but
a real connection always feels like it is out of reach
solo trip into the world
don’t wanna be your girl
just wanna mean something to you
i won’t let you be a mean friend
messing up my weekend
but you know i got some screws loose
i cant focus on the movie
why’d you do it do me
doesn’t matter truly i can see
two girls looking so in love
i hope they never budge
i hope they spend a life together
cold hurt
didn’t bring a warm shirt
but i know that you’re worse
overheating in the desert
sorry that i’m wishing pain
i hate the way you made me
and i hope i see you never
don't rain on my parade
don't make me feel that way
i came to see a show
and baby you're just gonna have to wait until the credits roll

FAVORITE DAY (kintsugi)

production by @taylor
mixing by @blackwinterwells

not over until i say
but i might today
tell me when you feel afraid
i’ll increase the pain
remains go into a ditch
hope they find you quick
i’ll be gone they’re wondering
who did what i did
i’m not very hard to please
speak and i’ll agree
slipping falling on my knees
i've got a disease
doesn’t matter much to me
gonna make you see
you should never lie to me
i can tell you think i’m weird
just be honest we’re adults
think you know why i am here
i don't really wanna talk
you been lying on my name
imma put you in a box
think you know why i am here
i don't really wanna talk
you know that i would never hurt you
fingers crossed behind my back
a lot of time we gotta burn through
before your vision turns to black
relax
relax
it’s not that deep
it’s just six feet
plus the two that separate us
bridge that gap
and come to me
bridge that gap
and come to me
not over until i say
but i might today
tell me when you feel afraid
i’ll increase the pain
remains go into a ditch
hope they find you quick
i’ll be gone they’re wondering
who did what i did
i’m not very hard to please
speak and i’ll agree
slipping falling on my knees
i’ve got a disease
doesn’t matter much to me
gonna make you see
you should never lie to me
put my body in a box
throw me down the niagara
no bones i'm a husk
i can barely even stand up
think i've had enough of what you have left to give
yeah i think my time is up
i have no more life to live
yeah i feel like giving up
let you down let it go
yeah i feel it in my chest and my gut and my soul
and i need to be alone
and i need you to believe me
need to let it bleed
let it rest
don't forgive me
not over until i say
but i might today
tell me when you feel afraid
i’ll increase the pain
remains go into a ditch
hope they find you quick
i’ll be gone they’re wondering
who did what i did
i’m not very hard to please
speak and i’ll agree
slipping falling on my knees
i’ve got a disease
doesn’t matter much to me
gonna make you see
you should never lie to me
not the end until i say it is
i might if you can’t act right
what remains will go into a ditch
they’ll find you there by sunrise
and i’ll be far away they’ll never know
you’ll never what hit you
i meant it when i said you had to go

PEARL (feat. blackwinterwells)(taylor morgan)

production by me & @blackwinterwells
mixing by @blackwinterwells

why would i spend a million dollars on some therapy when i could spend $49.99 plus shipping/handling
i could be wherever it is that i wanna be and i know when i look inside my pocket you’re still here with me like
tamagotchi you’re so cute and you’re so lovely
i just wanna be your friend
but i don’t know if you would want me
tamagotchi you’re so nice and you’re so friendly
i just wanna be with you
but i don’t know if you would let me
tamagotchi you’re so cute and you’re so lovely
i just wanna be your friend
but i don’t know if you would want me
tamagotchi you’re so nice and you’re so friendly
i just wanna be with you
but i don’t know if you would let me
8am
let's play pretend and talk it out
you were my friend
but now you're hard to figure out
i'm losing it
you're drawing circles on the couch
i don't know what to do about you
tamagotchi you’re so cute and you’re so lovely
i just wanna be your friend
but i don’t know if you would want me
tamagotchi you’re so nice and you’re so friendly
i just wanna be with you
but i don’t know if you would let me
tamagotchi you’re so cute and you’re so lovely
i just wanna be your friend
but i don’t know if you would want me
tamagotchi you’re so cute and you’re so lovely
i just wanna be your friend
but i don’t know if you would want me
tamagotchi you’re so nice and you’re so friendly
i just wanna be with you
but i don’t know if you would let me
tamagotchi you’re so cute and you’re so lovely
i just wanna be your friend
but i don’t know if you would want me
tamagotchi you’re so nice and you’re so friendly
i just wanna be with you
but i don’t know if you would let me
so don't die on
don't die on
don't die on
don't die on
don't die on me

TAMAGOTCHI (HEARTAVI + blackwinterwells)

production by me & @blackwinterwells
mixing by @blackwinterwells

you have made me laugh a million times
i wonder if you try
or if it’s just a thing that you can do
i wanna make you mine
but i don’t wanna try
i’ll do anything that you ask me to
drinking water from the tap and feeling pretty in my new shoes
yeah i wanna change but i can’t do that until you do
just plugged in my speaker and it won’t connect to bluetooth
i’ve been waking up & taking pictures in the bathroom
you’ve got me wound very tightly
i know that it’s likely you don’t feel the way i do
i can feel something inside me
i think that it might be a death wish or deja vu 
what do i know though
tapping on a photo
doesn’t matter if it isn’t one of yours though
oh no
think i’m going loco
being silly acting like a little bozo
arm is raw & bloody but i told them not to scratch it
hoping on the way you don’t run into any traffic
you should call me now because i gotta go to practice
i just shaved my head and i’ve been feeling so attractive
you have made me laugh a million times
i wonder if you try
or if it’s just a thing that you can do
i wanna make you mine
i kinda wanna die
i’ll do anything that you ask me to
i could hide the way i feel but it’s not going anywhere
i could hide the way i feel but it’s not going anywhere

MIKEY (HEARTAVI + blackwinterwells)

production by @taylor & @aintitmardee
mixing by @blackwinterwells & @bandanabloom

just tell me you don’t care
don’t make me waste my breath
i’ll be right over there
until you want me next
it’s sickening to see
i don’t like how i act
this truly isn’t me
that’s truly not a fact
but if you touched me i swear i’d just pass out
the world is ending but you’re all i’m worried about
i see the signs but, like you, i just don’t care
you say you want me but you want me over there
over there
over there
just look me in my face
no not down at the floor
and put me in my place
tell me you don’t want more
i really need to know
just what it’s gonna be
and for my next act i’ll be someone you can see
cause if you touched me i swear i’d just pass out
the world is ending but you’re all i’m worried about
i see the signs but, like you, i just don’t care
you say you want me but you want me over there
over there
over there

OVER THERE (taylor morgan + mardee)

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