the soundtrack to my loneliness as a transgender human being in nc circa early to mid 2025 <3
credits


Domino Paranoia - production, mixing, mastering, vocals(1-7,9-13,15,16), lyrics(1-7,9-13,15,16), guitar(3,8,11,16), synth(7,8,9,12), keyboard(11,16), field recordings(13,16), percussion(2,8,12), noise(9)

akaJazy - field recordings(2)

Sterling Bidler - drums(3), noise(11), guitar(15)

iiv4rii - co production(4), guitar(4)
PinaepplaGog - co production(4), guitar(4)

JDisk - co production(10,13)
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Recorded; February 2025 - June 2025

Boxer Mom

vocals, producer, mixing, cover art - Domino Paranoia
lead synths - zeebo @zeebobeez

theres no real lyrics sung here if that makes sense so ha

tear punch dream

vocals, production, cover art, mixing, lyrics by me
guitar and bass by sterling bidler

theme box vacation
train crash milestone
five minutes
might be scary to in
love u
love me
love u too cuz ur pretty too
kiss me
kiss u
fuck u


wanna kiss a gurl wanna kiss a gurl
wanna kiss a gurl wanna kiss a gurl

troll find
mrs plant
feeling
in a forest
imagination
sexy
finder
finger
gay box
find love
i would marry myself
if i nevermind i should marry myself

wanna kiss a gurl wanna kiss a gurl
wanna kiss a gurl wanna kiss a gurl
wanna kiss a gurl

Wannagurl

credits:
Domino Paranoia - production, mixing, vocals and lyrics (tracks 2, 3, 6), field recordings (1, 2, 6), guitar (2, 4, 6), additional synth (5, 6), noise (1, 4), spoken word (6), background vocals (1), percussion (2), cover art
Sterling Bidler - guitar and bass (3), drums (6)
akaJazy - field recordings (4)
Kim Lynne - spoken word (6)
Buddy - voice (6)

Susie Grain O' Salt​

AsteriskZ aka MORE aka Chandelier Dance Around The Room

production, mixing, additional synth, background vocals, percussion by me

cover art by lilikoi rateyourmusic.com/~lilikoipassion

The Blah

production, mixing, lyrics, cover art and vocals by me

Verse 1:
And when nothing’s happening to me
I remember the sea falling in place
Mhm
I love you
I love you
See you cry
Cry!

Hook:
I love it when you cry
I can’t remember why

Verse 2:
Remembering the sea
I feel hungry
Hungry under the sea
I’ll feel you with me

Pre hook:
One time!
One town!
One love!
Pussy please

Hook:
I love it when you cry
I can’t remember why
I love it when you cry
I can’t remember why

The Tear Beach

Domino Paranoia - cover art, production, mixing, vocals(1,2,3,6,7,11,12,13), lyrics(1,2,3,4,6,11,12), background vocals(4,8,9,14), guitar(4,7,8,14), keyboard(8), drawing

Jakobe - vocals(11), lyrics(11)
ther8r - vocals(11), lyrics(11)

vivian fleur - drawing

Sophie - dog on da cover art




special thanks to ther8r, jakobe, my parents, pets, vivian, pretend and etc

Dummy

I'm a Bluegrass Artist Freestyle

Vocals, production, mixing, lyrics by Domino Paranoia
Bass by Sterling Bidler
Cover art by Domino Paranoia and ther8r 

swim in a pool with a friend of mine
girl turned into love it was so sublime
feeling like love will break into a wall
burning it all into my chest goodnight

ohhhh, look at my girl she’s small
and why

its bad for your hair
its bad for your hair (are u sure?)
its bad for your hair
its bad for your hair (are u sure?)

its bad for your hair
welcome to the spa babe
watch when nobody knew
i know that its crazy
turn it off in the house
make sure it’s super sweet
i wanna bug you so bad
you piss me off 
i’ll be leaving now
i’ll be in the water
figuring it out

by the way i
wanna feel the way
it feels on my skin
itll make me laugh 

(not based from true events)




Pools

vocals, lyrics, production, mixing by Domino Paranoia
cover art by str4kys

Intro;
This song isn't about me

Verse 1;
Don’t stop, gotta take me closer
Don’t listen to him
Locked in, in a tree filled with friends
Nothing easier to do
And it’s not for you
Think’s it’s Christmas or something
With the hand that slides like eel’s
you run like you knew it

Oh no what’s wrong
You don’t have to sleep now, sleep through the wall
You can’t even tell a lie
Yes you can sleep no lies!
And you got today
And you got tomorrow
It’s not the end
And I know too much and I see the train
Don’t pretend

Chorus;
Don’t tell me where it goes
Tell me where it froze
You can always fucking go
Sometimes, let it grow
Just let it grow
Just win when it’s time to lose
Geronimo
Geronimo mode

Verse 2;
Get’s liminal
Got out of town since he was gone
Now she’s here and the parent’s are mad and they wanna see her gone
Why though, I want the son back
Swiftly, the wrists are bleeding

Us cannot lose, yourself
I will punch em’ in their mouth
Like you think
They won’t even need you cuz they don’t grow
All this time!

Chorus;
Don’t tell me where it goes
Tell me where it froze
You can always fucking go
Sometimes, let it grow
Just let it grow
Just win when it’s time to lose
Geronimo
Geronimo mode

(outro gibber jabber)

Tell Me Where It Goes

credits:
Recorded: December 2024 - January 2025
production, mixing, vocals, lyrics, cover art by Domino Paranoia
artwork by scillasafeguard

pretend recordings:

soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/pretend-record...
bandcamp: https://pretendrecordings.bandcamp.com
instagram: https://www.instagram.com/pretendreco...


Glad You Punched The Man

Rainbow Square

vocals, lyrics, production, mixing, synth and cover art by Domino Paranoia

Is this worth it
Can I help this
Could I stop this
Could I do it
Am I worthless
Am I sexy
Am I dumb
Am I smart

Why does it matter
Lemme just do it
Like the shoes
Like the shoes

Do I like to learn
Do I like to listen
Do I respect
Do I misunderstand
Can I do this
Am I stupid
Do people listen
Fuck it

Why does it matter
Lemme just do it
Like the shoes
Like the shoes
Why does it matter
Lemme just do it
Like the shoes
Like the shoes

Question

vocals, lyrics, production, mixing, guitar, cover art by Domino Paranoia
photography by iiv4rii

Go wild go wild
Go smile
Brian Wilson
Fire helmets 
Go fire

She wanna go on the 
She wanna see the sun
Pulling your hand with the swag
I cannot see the bag
You cannot lose without winning
Imma see you at 10
10 out of 10
I wanna see you win
Cuddled me into the safe
I was so extra with shame
Pulling your hand with the tame
I fuck the swag in the maze
I fuck the swag in the range
See yourself, kinda tame
Eat my face with the maze
Rage thru the songs in the cage

Go wild go wild
Go smile
Brian Wilson
Fire helmets
Go fire

I don’t think I'm in a scene
I think I just wanna be seen
She want the money and team
I’m with the switch and it shrinks
She put the soil in the air
I didn’t pick up the phone
I don’t live in my phone
Sometimes I do on my own
Hate your phone get down
Hit the smile go frown
Hit the phone no towel
Make up girl smile
Make that loser go wild
Go wild
Sometimes I think about this
Sometimes I think about this
Punching a conservative in the mouth
It’s in many town’s
Fuck up a frown
I’m positive to win

Go wild go wild
Go smile
Brian Wilson
Fire helmets
Go fire



Go Wild

vocals, lyrics, production, mixing, cover art by Domino Paranoia

I don't know
If anything and anyone could help me
Am I gonna have a life
Will I be here forever
How can I handle anything

Got the rest of my life

How old am I gonna be when I die
How the fuck do I be involved in this space
Can't believe my eyes
Too many people in the space
But I want so many eyes up my face

Got the rest of my life

Going down
Going up

Got the rest of my life


Wanted (Rest of My Life)

vocals, lyrics, production, mixing, mastering, guitar, cover art by Domino Paranoia
drums by Sterling Bidler

Hiding away from you
Hiding away from you
You give us discomfort
I don't wanna see you live
I don't wanna see you live

I disrespect myself
I disrespect my elders
They'd murder me
I'll fight through their ideals while screaming Boxer Mom

Hiding away from you
Hiding away from you
You give us discomfort
I don't wanna see you live
I don't wanna see you

Hiding away from you
Hiding away from you
You give us discomfort
I don't wanna see you live
I don't wanna see you live

Hiding Away

the soundtrack to my loneliness as a transgender human being in nc circa early to mid 2025 <3
credits


Domino Paranoia - production, mixing, vocals(1-7,9-13,15,16), lyrics(1-7,9-13,15,16), guitar(3,8,11,16), synth(7,8,9,12), keyboard(11,16), field recordings(13,16), percussion(2,8,12), noise(9)

akaJazy - field recordings(2)

Sterling Bidler - drums(3), noise(11), guitar(15)

iiv4rii - co production(4), guitar(4)
PinaepplaGog - co production(4), guitar(4)

JDisk - co production(10,13)
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Recorded; February 2024 - June 2024

Bleeding Out

Unicorn Death

Destroy Me

Getting Rad

Garden

Cats

Carrie Grain O' Salt / Shell

Dogs

Flame in My Mouth

Reach for the Pit, Yolo (with JDisk)

Body

Toxic (with iiv4rii, PinaepplaGog)

Rip It Off

Spit

ive finished this version days after Boxer Mom released. this is how the song was originally structured but at the time i couldnt figure out how to make the 1st half of this song sound "right" to me. it was a mixing problem lol. so i scrapped it and only used the 2nd half. which was easier to mix. and im not ashamed. because it did make the album slightly shorter than it couldve been but only by a little bit. i went back to the songs project file and messed with it some more and now here u go. hopefully u enjoy this! fun fact this song is also known as "Trans Life of Remembrance".  

vocals, lyrics, production, mixing, keyboard, guitar, cover art by Domino Paranoia
noise by Sterling Bidler

Punch my pillow
Punch my face
Punch that murderer 
back to the grave

They wanna kill us
They wanna kill me
They wanna kill u
They wanna kill us
They wanna kill me
They wanna kill us
They wanna kill me
They wanna kill u
They wanna kiss us
They wanna kill me

Every month is a celebration 
Every day
Every year
Every death
Count it

Punch my pillow
Punch my face
(Punch that murderer back to the grave)
Grave to a grave to a start of a grave for the fuck of it

Unicorn Death (Extended V.)

a mix of remixes of songs/artists that have influenced my 'Boxer Mom' album with a couple leftover songs that didn't make it on the album. :3
make the tracklist up urself goofy.

production, vocals, remixing, mixing, lyrics, cover art by Domino Paranoia

MIX INFLUENCE BOXRMOM (THE HELL PARTY/LOUNGE)

the music alias of Catherine Gray aka DJ Witch B!tch

Domino Paranoia

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