five days from today - june 7, 2018 - will be the first anniversary of me starting hormone replacement therapy. i began work on this album in september of last year. i got lost in the dark in november. i dug my way out in december. i finished the album late into this past may. now it's out. enjoy. 

album is downloadable for free or pay-what-you-want at the buy link. if you like it but can't/don't wanna pay for whatever reason, plz consider sharing it with people who might enjoy it.

thank you so much for listening & please take care of yourself. 

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many thx to Cass, Corinne, Rylin, Sean, Matt, Amy, Tyler, Kristopher, Ashley, Bardaree, & everyone else who's supported me. you all rule. 

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easy come, easy go

my life outside of the party

sure enough

lombard

unagi (feat. solely)

pornography

it sucks sometimes

old Don't do it, Neil song, written & recorded three years ago when i was depressed & listening to too much Say Anything. i did everything except the bass, which was performed by my friend Adam Dincorn. enjoy.

lyrics:
i'm not here to make amends. 
i'm just here to tell you about my regrets 
i tried to be honest, i tried to be true 
but all i've ever done is deceive you 
i'm glad to have met someone 
who hates me more than i do 

don't let me stop you now 
tell me all the ways i made you proud 
then tell me all the ways i let you down 
cuz i'm glad to have met someone 
who hates me more than i do 

don't hold back your vitriolic spew 
clue me in on the ways that you 
would love to get back at me 
cuz i'm glad to have met someone 
who hates me more than i do 

and when daylight came 
i fessed up and told you 
the ways that i had changed 
and then you wanted us 
to go our separate ways 

but when we walked all night 
i saw the moon in your eyes 
and when i saw, i believed 
but then the next day i grieved 
i felt a great void within 
forgive me for all of my sins 
cuz you're the reason i breathe 
so please just come back to me 
the city dreams

mabry's songs

hate me

super poppy demo i threw together real quick like late last year, using a lot of preset synths & drums. gonna probably change this up quite a bit when i re-record ... anyway, enjoy~!

LYRICS:
i need you inside me

all these worlds inside me
this deep love inside me
don't you know you desired me
as i defined you, you defined me

got that deep love

baby, you think i'm playing, but, love, you've got me praying
i know it's hard to take, i know i've made mistakes
let's talk right now, let's fuck right now
don't wanna fight now, just wanna ride now
i need you right now, i'm hurting right now
don't wanna fight now, show you deep love right now

deep love

corrupt me, come fuck me, just trust me, i need you to love me
you can bite me, you can fight me, just hurt me, i need you to spurn me
cover me, comfort me, cum for me, i need you to choke me
come ride me, divine me, design me, i need you to spite me

deep love

liminal deity
pornography on the tv

corrupt me, come fuck me, just trust me, i need you to love me
you can bite me, you can fight me, just hurt me, i need you to spurn me
cover me, comfort me, cum for me, i need you to choke me
come ride me, divine me, design me, i need you to spite me

deep love

deep love (demo)

my single from POUR LIGHT ON EVERYTHING, an upcoming split with Aqua Girl!, coming Halloween 2018.

LYRICS:
sex, love and cigarettes lowering my defenses 
i'm staying up every night 
in my room thinking about you, what the fuck am i supposed to do? 
you got me up every night 

only in dreams 

sex, drugs, and cigarettes dulling every sense 
i'm fucked up every night 
never had much common sense, always thinking in the future tense 
don't wanna fuck this up, but i might 

only in dreams 
sex, love, and cigarettes

Sex, Love, & Cigarettes

Sex, Love, & Cigarettes, Pt. 1

my single from POUR LIGHT ON EVERYTHING, an upcoming split with Aqua Girl!, coming Halloween 2018.

LYRICS:
you mean so much more than words can say 

i don't want to leave your place 
i just want to lay with you all day 
you don't even have to say that you love me 
just use me, hurt me, fuck me 

even if everything's okay 
i still fear that someday 
you might just go away 

i'll let you do what you want with me 
so you can use me, hurt me 
as long as i can pretend that you love me

Sex, Love, & Cigarettes, Pt. 2

OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MuSmwiq_OHo

Pet Play

Feat. Berko Lover. From the album B/X, available for streaming/purchase here: https://dontdoitneil.com/album/b-x

LYRICS:

i need you inside me

all these worlds inside me
this deep love inside me
don't you know you divide me?
as you defy truth, you define me

deep love

liminal deity
who kills my sobriety
pornography on the tv
stirring my anxiety
baby let's quit this playing, cuz, love you've got me praying
i know i've made mistakes, take what you wanna take
no talk right now, shut the fuck up right now
don't wanna fight now, just fuck me right now

just fuck me right now
show you deep love right now
deep love

corrupt me, just fuck me, don't trust me, i need you to love me
you bite me and fight me, just hurt me, i need you to spurn me
convert me, then comfort me, cum for me, and i'll let you choke me
you ride me, divine me, divide me, but I need you to spite me

are you my little whore?
get ready for more
we can go like it's war
are you my little whore?
none of them compare to you
none of them could bear to do
what you even dare to do
your head could do
i swear it's you
i have been to many shores
and i have witnessed many wars
and i have opened many doors
and i have fucked scores and scores
but none of them compare to you

deep love
got that deep love

Deep Love

Mabel, a.k.a. Don't do it, Neil. usually demos, cut songs, or old shit. go to bandcamp or spotify for most of my actual music <3

Don't do it, Neil

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