Beat : Amber by DryHope

Lyrics : 
Guess I had to dig deeper,
Deeper then I ever thought, cause thinking had me sinking in my mind from all your reasons, 
Brought me close with your ether,
But I could feel the burning stomach turning like a prophet lives inside of my cerebral,
They question what my motives be, If I was even really me, but couldn’t even try to see, 
I always saw my enemies as simple broken people,
I tip my hat to those who need, and even when I’m totally, broken, I could still help you mend all of your pieces,
I’m living in your little dreams, passive to your fantasies, you keep me close cause you know I’m the reason you’re still breathing,
If I could motivate you to be better its whatever I can get over the evil,
It’s tragic how they all believe that they can use the little peeps to make their life feel just a little bit sweeter,
And pack a bag of hope for me, but I would rather give it all away cause I don’t need it, and I can see you feening,
Don’t try to tell me different,
If speaking was of interest, I paid enough with all the times I listened, like a sentence,
I wish that you would get this,
My light is only there as a result of how you covered up and made the darkness endless,
I own the truth you bent it,
The casual reality you keep yourself so cozy in your blanket cause you're restless,
In time you’ll lose your essence,
In time you’ll feel my presence,
I hope that never comes cause when it does you might regret this,
Imagine when the lessons get to heavy for the scales you implemented for the balance of your fragile independence,
Just don’t be on the fences,
I hope you really own the things you said before cause that’s the only way to your repentance,
I might even defend it,
It’s deafening to hear you when you really aren’t speaking, more like screaming out to end this,
I hear the echoes remnants,
I’ll hold it till you ready even tho it prolly means that I’ll be broken by the time you find a way to make attendance

Confession - 1

If I could tame it, I wouldn’t shake it, it helps me make it,
The pressure is the measure of how much Im really changing,
And facing, this monster naked, I couldn’t fake it, 
I hated, the very thing I was always chasing,
Its crazy, my path is breaking, my mind feels vacant, 
In hindsight I see the patience is what was needed for repayment
Im not complacent Im always aching and pain taught me I could take it, even embrace it,
And place it, somewhere so deep they could never take it, from me,
I know I see, better through my eyes when they sleep,
Its never free, even what you’ve taken from me, 
its energy is bigger then your tiny beliefs,
If turn the cheek makes you feel weak you should speak,
Cause God been giving you a million turns and you need it, 
Im guessing heaven burns worse then hell for a reason,
Imagine when you realize you never were no demon,
Just slaving to a high horsed, hard working beacon,
You think that god would hold you to it, knowing you were beaten,
how you think, you just a dummy can’t tweak it,
Im running from myself to someone that I could believe in,
I hope you find your wealth, and when its there you just leave it,
Cause money just a means, until you full from over eating,
Its never been enough, I know its tough I know you dreaming,
But honest you can’t say your dream is rooted in some decent,
Instead of tryna find a way to live you find a reason, 
to let yourself get swallowed up alive by all your greed and,
If I didn’t know no better, mama use to work on weekends,
If I didn’t know no better you were prolly her whole reason,
So try and go be better, be the man that she believes in,
Im talking to myself, but if you wanna you can listen,
No need for someone else, I put myself in my own prison,
I'll calculate and make the final thought to my decision, 
Just pray that I can stay on course and live through the collision,	
And when I hit the wall and fall apart I hope I got a spark
That helps me up and gets me going, knowing that I gotta start,
If everything keeps flowing like I know it ill be out the dark,
Im always letting go of, tryna show it to my counterpart
Cause holding on is just another function of a body-part
Cause holding on is just a function of another body-part

Confession - 2

If I didn’t make myself any clearer, you wouldn’t find a way to trust my spirit, 
If I could ask for something don’t hear it,
Try listening,
Its like a hundred years been in here, I’m tryna visit them, my soul is really old, thats why my eyes stay glistening,
You scared to pay the toll thats why you always tryna run from it
Protecting what is mine because I know they tryna come for it, 
if not me who gone be for me, I source out of the scriptures and the fixtures of the universe,
It never came easily
Its never what it seems to be,
But always better than my dreams,
easy tryna lie and scheme,
Its difficult to be unique,
And own it even when the world around me tryna say you weak,
For loving more than hating,
And accepting someones differences,
If you didn’t have your vision, what would color really mean to you,
But you still got your sight, cause I guess God really believes in you,
In hindsight all that thinking really dug its roots so deep in you,
You couldn’t separate, even if you really wanted to, 

Truth’s what I searched for, it broke me, I dreamt, 
I breathed in and covered up myself in its scent,
I lived for the writer and the notes of “the piper”,
Behind my weary eyes lies an infinite cypher,
I danced with my demons and angels and wrangled,
The bull by the horns before I could get mangled, 
And tangled in all of the woes of my anger, 
I never was meant to give up what I lent,
I know this how it goes when they thinking that you’re bent
Saying that you’re finished, when in fact you’re in-finite,
I know I got em tripping, how deep I Keep digging,
I could find a million reasons to stop but I can’t,
I gotta keep going, like my words keep flowing,
My heart really know it, but my eyes won’t show it, 
Im just a old poet, with the wisdom of the stoics, 
Knowing all my pain, is a gift, heaven sent,

If I didn’t make it clearer, I would just be a mirror,
You’d turn yourself away from the sight than get nearer,
Fear of the truth that reflects onto you, like a light, burnin bright,
In the dark you need sight,
Like vines that defied every step just to find, how to get to the light, unified, unique mind,
Tryna find where it hides, why it stays in disguise why its masked in the lies made by me when I’m “I”,

Casually I walked so close, I almost died,
Tragically I got so far, I felt alive,
Now its just a matter of time ‘fore I revive, 
Sentenced to a lifetime of my own desires,
Navigate my soul with hope, to try keep you close to try to feed you most, but still I mind,
Mind when you show me that I’m not really “I”,
I am just something thats separate from your kind,
Line drawn so close to time, it makes it senseless,
All these endless signs to help me find you and I,
I still get lost, get lost and redefined,
Forgive me, my soul, it cost more than I would buy

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