I'm too tired to talk,
She's too tired to listen,
Clear eyes, blurry vision,
terrified of air time given,
scared of what I am and what this isn't,
Life feels too long, but I guess it's just a visit,
ignore my abilities, I'm obsessed with all my limits,
I'm not expressive, I'm not different,
I'm just a little hectic and a little cryptic,
Trying to make the best of the little blessings I've been gifted,
My feet hanging off the bed,
Feel like dreams dangling off the ledge,
Please take em off my hands,
I'm taking leave, billionaires taking all the land,
We blame it on demand,
They limit the supply,
filet is in the pan,
The gravy's on the side,
The greediest of plans,
The green that's in their eyes,
Might be in mine too,
Sorry, I've been rambling, hope you don't mind dude,
I swear, the sky used to be light blue,
It's darker now, but still a nice hue,
I see it when I look up trying to find you,

I got new frames,
It still looks the same,
Pennies for my thoughts, here's some loose change,
I thought I hit my marks, but I'm starting to lose aim
I ain't no hero, ain't no lui kang,
ain't no kendrick, ain't no lupe,
Only dark nights, no Bruce Wayne,
Save your flowers, save your boquets,
We turned a few hours to a few days,
We turned a feud into a new age,
I'm too aloof, just let the loop play,

I'm back just to prove that I talk too much,
I hate that I can't shut up,
I take blame, but it ain't enough,

I only go outside when it's cold enough to see my breath,
Makes me feel alive, when I'm scared to death,

sometimes I wonder if my cats really love me,
don't got much to give, so they can have all they can take from me,

ramblings from a man, who can't handle his emotions,
shaking of my hands, like a branch in the ocean,
what were you saying? Sorry I can't focus,

the water's too deep here,
even if you leave, you always got a seat here,
the water's too deep here,
knowing you ain't always gonna be near,



talk too much

Tell me everything I'm not
Don't tell me what I got, tell me what I've lost,
music Inspired by panic attacks
I'm manic, I'm frantic, a spaz,
oops I take it back, I can't say that,
music inspired by panic attacks,
I'm no man, I'm a hack,
I'm nothing but the past,
I'm everything that held me back,
Help me,
help me,
AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

music inspired by undiagnosed,
well I don't know,
That's kinda the point,
I gathered my poise,
just so I could make noise,
words my play toys,
work late, work days horrid,
this phase boring,
my face foreign,

ain't seen this look since I broke a heart,
been a while since god spoke to Mark,
sorry, pieces of my mind are slow to start,

I only exercise to control stress,
only friend of mine a slow death,
I know you know I think I know best,
I know I don't,
I'm cold, I'm frozen,

I'm just trying to capture this feeling
...or lack of it,
swear I hear the devil cheering and cackling,
I got problems, I don't know the half of em,
I used to think that I had something,

Ideas run dry as dreams in my eyes,
I'm tired
Ain't no time,
Stare at your hands, cause I got too much on mine,
I'm too online,
Trying to escape,
distractions getting weaker by the day,
I couldn't even sleep on the plane,
I ate away all the problems I couldn't fit on my plate,
explains why I gained weight,

Most of the time I feel safe,
some of the time I feel great,
some of the time I feel special,
most of the time I know I'm not,
I'm just particles in space, on this floating rock,
been a while since god spoke to Mark,


Spoke to Mark

I wanna rap like Andre, 3 thousand
I wanna dance like Beyonce, how'd it
get so complicated,
First hundred plays told mom I made it,
sounds awful, ain't it hard to paint a picture,
asking questions to myself like is this considered
art or scripture?
this for all my,
I wish I had a better filler word,
wish I had better ears to hear the world,
wish I didn't spill my tears for milk that gets to curd,
it occured,
to me,
there are things more important,
certainly
dreams fucked up I can't afford to sleep,
words I speak feel like forgeries,
of course it's me,
I scorn what I was born to be,
I used to pray that you'd return to me,
now I pray that you just show the common courtesy,
you always called with urgency,
I'm fraught with flaws and all the scars that weren't from surgeries,
the burdens be lurking deep,
we make hurt just another score to keep,
beam, me up scottie,
can I learn to love somebody?
who don't talk like you,
who don't walk like you,
who gone follow through,
who ain't scared of the god damn truth,
I'm just a god damn fool

Accountants And Controllers

It's approaching a year, haven't seen you in bout half of that, but who's looking at the hourglass? Now what you do when the hours pass when you outta class? You with your bow, Actually I don't want to know, you hit me up when I told you to leave me alone, explain that to me, how through all your issues, I was the casualty, I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss you, If I said I never thought about calling, but what would it do?, Probably give you more to misconstrue, I don't know about dreams, but my nightmares did come true, why you still pop in my head out the blue, how could you,

Idontknowifiwantthistogettoyou (Prod. Olli)

I'm really lazy

I'm settling for mediocrity,
Shattered dreams, rapping off the beat,
I can't get a damn thing right,
I can't hit a damn green light,
For the life of me and my
I look failure in the face everyday,
Such a waste, done embraced the decay,
Got a taste of my plate,
Trying to break away but it's too late to escape,
When my mind on replay,
My room pitch black no matter the time of the day,
I feel the weight like I'm out in space,
getting pulled to the face,
of this forsaken sphere,
Every morning asking why I had to wake up here,
Just wait until the wake is here,
Shooting dreams down as soon as they appear,
I got some pologies I really had to wait to hear,
but what's a year to a life,
who's a peer on the mic?
Lets be clear, what I write
is sincere and oh so nice,
I'm just kidding, I ain't so focused on my image,
Just trying to make it til the vultures come and get me,
obsessing with the ending even though the chapters thick with blank pages,
and countless minutes,
Holding conversations with a grimace,
I pushed my limits, and jumped at the line of scrimmage,
Wasting all types of privilege
grilling rappers,
lay waste to your village,
how you feeling after,
before my grandma died I had some shit to ask her,
hope she at greener pastures,
I probably need a pastor,
got some songs I need to master, but to be real they don't even matter,
your alibi just doesn't seem to add up,
split your hairs, I'll split some atoms,
with you here it'd be disaster,
I'd be so glad just to get some sleep and half-a-peace of mind,
you gotta seek to find, you gotta breath to die, 
you gotta see the lines,
to get out em and feel free inside,

Dead Dreams

Shout out @kogarasumaaru

Its a god-god-ray
Ain't no god damn thang,
Drop bombs like I'm on Sway in the morning,
take rappers off the face with no warning,
off the radar, out of orbit, I don't forget, y'all should forfeit,
I got my style, go ahead and try to fork it, like it's GitHub,
feel me like a wrist cut,
yeah I give, but also get love,
I ball on cats just like it's pickup,
Smooth with no hiccups,
You feel me, I'm filthy, off the richter,
I be in the stars just like I'm sza
I be living live outside of insta,
classify me as a hipster, but what does that make my listeners,
I told you never question,
You asked for my perspective,
And if I recollect correctly, you crashed, I met you at the wreckage
Your car was past inspection, heading wrong direction,
I caught head and got the message,
ran it back like an interception,
you acting all deceptive,
I ain't no detective, but I can smell the septic,
I can see a dead end,
yet you still trying to threaten,
say you woke, but it seems like you slept in,

God-rays,
I always,
do what my mama say
I try to pray to compensate,
am I awake,
can I take my time or will I die today?

Summer3 2019 (Prod. Kogarasumaaru)

Miss my grandma, every damn song,
wish to feel her hand on,
my shoulder stand tall, with the load on,
your mans called, I ran long,
and never got the pass,
just thinking how messed up I would be if I never got to rap,
I'm sorry, you hit me up I forget to get you back,
acting like I got to get this cash,
I ain't on a mission, I just miss the past,
let me get the slack, and cut you half,
don't give me lip, just get my back,
I'm a scene, but you're an act,
I believe, but see the cracks,
I was bleeding fast,
You patched me up and gave me something,
left me nothing, I ain't even mad,
you say you don't love me,
but you ain't meaning that,
I see the reasons,
you met my demons,
you kept some pieces,
you wept for me cause you're what I was needing,
now all that's left of you is in my weakness,
you can't hold me close, but hold my ghost,
I love you, I hope you know

every single time I think I'm there I open eyes and see despair,
I know you don't need my prayers, but I'll leave em here,

7/14/2019

Wrote this today. Pretty sure I'm terrible at rapping, but I'm going to blame it on bad mic and bad mixing...

I would love to be everything you want from me,
but change ain't so sudden, seasons coming
From buzzing bees to barren trees, I love it,
I found the trench that you was dug in,
Slipped into the back while you was frontin,
freed you from the past that you was stuck in,
now you here with me,
even though you're scared to be,
you was weary, sleeping near me,
I could barely keep away from you,
I said that I would wait for you,
but you ain't coming back,

Where you at?
Are you gone?
Are you married?
Where you dragging me along?
Do you listen to my raps?
You never hit me back, so I'll leave this on the track,
Did you lead me to your trap just to leave me in the past,
Used to need me in your grasp,
I miss your feet up on my dash,
Do you see me at the bottom of your glass?
I only see you in my mind,
I don't need you I'll be fine,
do you believe me when I'm lying?

Didn't send no nudes, I sent you books,
You didn't say no words, you sent me looks,
I bit when you sent the hook,
and I didn't mind when you pulled me to the surface,
The sleepless nights was worth it,
uncertainty was certain,
if I could pick one place to be, it'd be inside your curtains,
Hand up on your curves, just like some cursive,
blessed with all your curses,
but I don't see you anymore so where you lurking?

Elephant

https://soundcloud.com/olswel/girl-2

If I stare at stars long enough,
will I fall asleep,
will I lose the part of me that you left,
this mark on me feel permanent, I guess I earned this shit,
I was nervous in your bed,
you was nervous bout your man,
You could hear it through my chest,
I could see it on your breath,
I forget what happened next,
promises was kept, just not to me,
not sure how to take your honesty,
you had to leave, I had to speak, then You walked away,
I lost my faith,
the fall from grace, was hard for me to take,
it was hard to see your pain,
I got lost all in your waves,
couldn't break you out your chains,
I wonder how you view me, was I just a phase,
I know I gave, what did you take?
I feel the cracks, what did you break?
I felt the love, how did you fake the feeling of,
nevermind, I get it in a way,
but it hurts me all the same,
feel unworthy of your grace,
but felt deserving of a face-to-face,

now your just a girl I knew, that I got to explain to my girl that's new,
it's messed up, but I hope you're hurting too,
cause you earned it too,
I'm learning to, love again, but it's still hard to forget,
Even harder to forgive,
pardon me I meant,
to let this go, but then... I don't know, since you walked away,
I clawed my way, but lost the race, save the date, you're saving face, no saving grace, you take the blame and

Girl I knew

Crappy beat by yours truly. 10:52pm

Give me time, give me peace of mind
Give me something, you hear me struggling
I barely function
Dealing with thoughts I can barely stomach
Pain between the lungs
I stray, but pray for kingdom come
You love me just because
You'll hate me when it's done
Give me just a few more loops
I'll give you words that show the truth
I'll give you thoughts I try to hide
They sound like death, but give me life
One more bar, maybe then I'll get it right
I got it wrong... Okay, maybe one more song

Maybe this time I'll find bliss
Maybe then they'll give a shhhh...
Maybe then you'll give me love
I know you wont, but I'm addicted
I can't give you up



05/19/2020

Something real rough

I been messed up for a minute,
I dropped the ball and rode the bench for an inning,
I'm in my feelings hope you feel it,
I'm sick of every sentence,
Sick of sitting on fences, I'm finished,
The room the same color of the thoughts in my mind,
The moon come up, I find peace in the night,
I'm trying to hide you behind every line that I write,
but they always find you, like we found each other when the time wasn't right,
still the time of my life,
tick, tick, tick, 
I'm sitting with, grief from the things that 
I'm missing, and you wanna know how 
I'm feeling, but that's
my business
I don't get, how it all fell apart, cause
there's no sense, watched it crumble in my arms
tick tick tick,
Like sand in the hourglass leaking,
I snuck a glance at you while you was sleeping,
now I can't remember if I was dreaming,
Was your love just a pretense?
Was it just to prevent me from going off the deep end,
I dropped my guard, 
inside your walls, I swear I heard God speaking,
I'll hold your guilt, You hold my heart, You know me well,
You showed your scars, I looked into your eyes, and holy hell,
Needed you and nothing else,
but now I need some help,
I need to tell you how I feel,
I can't remember if I ever did,
Cause I thought this would never end,
You don't know, to what I extent I would go, just to go again,
just to have you on the phone again,
To have you in my hold again,
holy shit,
Do you know how cold it gets,
when I'm alone, stuck in my own hopelessness 
I wrote this and I hope you notice it,
I got some bones to pick,
but I'd rather have you here, cause home is where the closure is,

Tick Tick Tick

I rap sometimes.
And make crappy beats sometimes.

¿Mark

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