Lyrics:

Blue, sky blue
Blue skies always waiting right behind the gloom
Blue, blue, blue
And behind it the stars, 
And behind those stars are more stars still
Smiling without you

Why should they wait for you?  (Why should they wait for you?)
How could they wait for you?  (How could they wait for you?)
How could they smile on you?  (How could they smile on you?)
How could they smile on you?  (Why should they wait for you?)
But if they do...
Oh, if they do

Waves, water waves
Water waving at you passing on your way
Blue water waves
It's hands in the air, lifted by other, deeper hands
That push, unseen by you
In that churning blue

Blue (Sky Blue)

Audacity wouldn't let me edit the track for some reason, so this it is how it is.

Lyrics:

I'm on my way to Columbia
On first frost
To see old friends
To get drunk
A homecoming
Away from home

Baby blue sky hangs above highway 69 like a blanket over a pillow fort
I daydream while I drive about jokes I'll tell my friends about highway 69, and I reminisce
About days I only now realize are long past… I read the signs through the window

In passing, I saw 'Crawford State Fishing Lake Number One", and the "Mined Land Wildlife Area",
I saw anti-abortion billboards, and the Marais de Cygnes River,
I saw towns flicker by in the blink of an eye where people've lived their whole lives
 
I'm on my way to Columbia
On first frost
To see old friends
To get drunk
A homecoming
Away from home

On the drive back I'll stop in KC, and eat barbecue at Arthur Bryants with another old friend.
All the while I'll miss my brothers back home, it's a self induced torture being so relatively close,
And all the while I'll miss my girl in Joplin, how'd I get so far from those I love?

I'm on my way to Columbia
On first frost
To see old friends
To get drunk
A homecoming
Away from home

I like it when a friend sends you a snapchat of the scenery around them that underwhelms you
And you know they must have been in a sentimental mood, and their eyes must have welled up at the beauty that they saw
And though you really don't see it, you know it must be there after all

Homecoming

Had some life changes recently as well as some post-rain walks, this song is the result of that.


Lyrics:

Petrichor,
Yer bellows bring it in with every draw outside your doors
Ghost of yesterday's storm,
Whose lullaby cooled your engines and crowing rev'd 'em up

Petrichor,
Smell its song hung in the air like a trail from your smokestack
Little leftover cloud,
Spirit of the feather-rain that conjured blossoms along your tracks

Petrichor,
Rising like a zombie up from wet grass 'n wet pavement
Gathering like a crowd
Of your old friends, when you pipe "It's been so nice to see you all!
Good bye!"

Petrichor

Going to record more frequently over the next year hopefully

Lyrics:

Something strong in the cup I sip
Is what I need on a day like this
Hot coffee with espresso in it
Something strong to pass my lips

I can't believe it
This room is freezing

Something strong from my gut, I spit
Strong words out from between my lips
I'm striking matches and I'm striking flints
I need gasoline on a day like this

Black Eye

New recording software trying to figure it out, admittedly probably a bit sloppy/janky getting used to it.  Technically the second song I made with it.


Lyrics:

I'm waiting for the day
I'm waiting for the day

Times an endless scrolling feed
Pressing pushing urges needs
Pulling vortex of flashing screens 
Tugging by your dreams -

A breeze...

I'm waiting for the day
I'm waiting for the day

The drive to work, the drive back home
Weekend picnics in the park
Mardis gras beads, Halloween sweets
Glowing Christmas trees - 

A falling leaf...

I'm waiting for the day
I'm waiting for the day

Flags and trophies hoisted high
Fists that land, lips that lock
Awkward small talk dep confessions
Weddings burst and sparkle out -

Drifting passing clouds...

I'm waiting for the day
I'm waiting for the day

A spirit casts my heart alight
Like the wind catching a kite
The night sky shines a moonbeam down,
A spotlight through the clouds -

Petals draped along the ground...

Waiting for the Day

New amp

Lyrics:

Mercurial, cold sunbeams between April showers, your Salamander skin fits right in, but not your owl wings.

Rain rolls down windows like memories

Thunder and lighting you love, but it frightens the cats.  A trail of blood and slime leads to where you're at.

Back and forth feather falling down

Salamander Skin

Love song I wrote for my SO
One french word in the song, pardon my pronunciation.

Lyrics:

Hearts flitting back and forth like cardinals in the yard
Our eyes soften, silken yolks, glistening in the lights

I love you, I do

Love, we daisy chain or days, we're woven, intertwined
Coffee walks in tower grove, or in Montmartre

I'd love to, with you

Love, it snuck into my room, it turned on all the lights
Woken, shown out of the cave, blossomed from the mud

I love you, I do

In an empty parking lot with a street lamp lighting rig, our eyes shine and flutter shut, night sky spinning overhead, our lips met

Tender embers reaching out, tendrils through the dark
Touching toes beneath the sheets, every morning, every night

I'd love to, with you

I love you

First recording on my new equipment, a demo of a simple little song.

Rain Song

Second song on my new equipment.  Hope you like it!

Joseph Dreams of Angels

Latest demo on my new equipment, with some help for the violin part, as well as some hindrance from mysterious technical issues I had to compensate for.  Enjoy!

Kurukshetra

Latest track, still figuring out editing techniques but I can't help but record my songs anyway.  Hope you like this one!  I'll post some upbeat stuff soon.

Just Like Fireflies

I don't have access to some instruments I can use to flesh out my songs currently, but I like this one as it is.  I'll probably post more songs of just me and the guitar for a while, and the next one will be upbeat, I promise.  

Out To Sea

Latest track, finally got to recording a more upbeat one.  Sorry if the static is a bit much, but the only way I know how to remove it sacrifices the tone.  

Skip, Spin

I'm pretty happy with this one... not much else to say about it.  This is likely the last demo I'll post for at least a month.  Should record one more by June but who knows.

Finch Finch Finch

Man I made a lot of mistakes on this one, the most difficulty I've had recording.  I really like this song and I'm not sure if I've done it justice, but I was really itching to get it online so here you go.

Zen Garden

Had to get something new out there, I've been trying to do this one for a while... too long considering I named my account after it.  Had some fun with a Tibetan singing bowl with this one, I hope it's fun for you too.

Dr. Beak

This song is older than anything else I've uploaded, and it's a bit of a break from the style of the other stuff I've uploaded, but I like it so here it is.

I Don't Know Why

I wrote this in memory of Chuck Berry - he didn't do all good but he did more than enough.  He meant a lot to a lot of people, the world wouldn't be the same without him.

Eulogy to Chuck (Oh, Duck)

Kind of a strange song but I'm partial to it.

Weight is on your shoulders
Tired of pushing boulders
Moments fly like bullets
They bury in your side
Big pharma's best lobbyists couldn't convince time to subside.

Eagles soar above you screaming
Serpents coil beneath you laughing
Just laugh it off, just laugh it off

Death Dance (Just Laugh it Off)

Lyrics:
The sky exploding with rain made love with the earth, producing creatures from the mud and plants from the dirt
A story I remember from my days as a babe, staring up at my elders all chiseled with age
I asked if the stories were true, they smiled and said yup, pouring stories in my mind like the wine in my cup

Now I'm a little older but after it rains, I like to go outside to experience the change.
Rolling clouds colored white gray red blue and yellow, as if stained by rainbow in the storm's afterglow.
I love the trees bursting green and the worms washed up, and ponds filled to the brim like the wine in my cup.

Wine in My Cup

Wine In My Cup

Again, I wish I could remove static without making things sound terrible.  This song is what happens when I try to write something you can dance to.

Skyward (From Chasms)

I think I'm starting to embrace the static.


Lyrics:

Queen Mother of the West always knows whats best,
So sit down and eat a peach with her,
And dip your feet in her turquoise pool,
you know it's cool.

Queen Mother of the West puts you to the test
Before she greets you at her palace gates
And lets you inside her paper palace walls,
So very pale and tall.

Myriad stars above me, myriad paths beneath my feet.
The mountains are receding even though I'm sprinting 
onward with all my might.

Queen Mother of the West puts you to the test
And I don't even know what the question was.

Queen Mother of the West

Lyrics:

How do I see what I want to see?  I ask myself "How could I love you?"
What have I done, now I can't look you in the eye.  I ask myself "Will I always love you?"

How could I love you?  Will I always love you?
How could I love you?  Will I always love you?

I'm alone all the time, so when you blasted me a smile I fell over myself, and into love with you.
I don't know you, not enough to justify these feelings inside.  I am so in love with you.

Will I always love you?  How could I love you?
Will I always love you?  How could I love you?

I tend to idolize, now you're a goddess in my mind.  
While I'm a head above your height I'll be stargazing at you.

Stargazing

There's sleigh bells in there because it's basically Christmas


Lyrics:

I like to eat breakfast but I usually don't and
I like to smoke cigars with my brother even though I have asthma
I'd sacrifice my health for a little bit of sleep and fun
I'd sacrifice my life just to spend it with someone else
I like The Girl from Ipanema if you can't tell and
I like girls who do not care about me at all
I'd sacrifice my health for a little bit of sleep and fun
I'd sacrifice my life just to spend it with someone else
I'd sacrifice my health for a little bit of sleep and fun
I'd sacrifice my life just to spend it with someone else

I('m Self-Centered)

Lyrics:

In a room filled with lamps
Looking for a reason
Slowly getting twisted
Twisted by the pressure
Building in the dim light
Crashing through the door
Rising from the carpet
Slipping through the window
Filling up the lungs
Coursing through the veins
Compressing the brain
Fight or run away
Try not to sit and stay
Oh man oh man oh man

Dead January grass is golden 
Like the sunshine sneaking through the clouds,
Bouncing off the lake,
Caressing my face

Everything's fine

Everything's Fine

Lyrics:

Half red, half white partially painted front door.
Wall paper half torn off.
Ceiling fan half torn out.

Kandinsky prints adorn the walls in the living room and down each hall.
Lacquered legs for every seat, whose cushions herald saccharine dreams.

Dripping tea. 
Shattered china
Scattered across the kitchen floor.

Tired house falls asleep;
Bitter hearts need sugar dreams.

The windows cry, you can hear their screams.
If they aren't smothered by the melodies
Of Christmas lights and potpourri,
You can hear them out in the street.

House Song

Lyrics:

Lazy Sunday laying in bed with thoughts of you running through my head, till 1 pm
And I'm wondering when this goddamn hangovers gonna lighten up
And I could say the same thing about this heartache, it aches for you

Spent the weekend of Valentine's Day drinking alone and thinking all about moving on
And I'm wondering why I've got the urge to call you, what a dumb idea
And I'm wondering why you keep texting me, asking how I'm doing

I don't know why you cried, 
I don't know why you threw your arms around me when I wiped the tears off your face

I don't know why you cried
I don't know why I was the one holding you after you tore my heart in two

Remember kissing in the attic of that air B&B that was an old funeral home
And remember the summer at the lake floating in tubes, touching toes beneath the  wake
And I'm wondering why that night you said you loved me, since now you say it wasn't true

I don't know why you shined
I don't know why I fell so hard in love with you when you didn't feel that way too

I don't know why you shined
I don't know why you're glued to the front of my mind, I hope one day I won't be missing you

Why You Shined

Been sitting on this for over a year, thanks to Chase Rose for helping me  finish writing and recording it.


Lyrics:

She heard the quetzal-bird warbling somewhere in the black ink night
She saw the wind sail away with one of it's plumes
Deep into the black ink night

Her heart yearned to pump red ink blood into the moon
So it'd shine the shadow from her face, from the face of the earth
It'd shine bright with her red ink blood

Don't take me seriously, all my scars are stupid -
From stumbling in the dark, and I'm stumbling still
Sun don't shine to let me see, you'll only embarrass me -
You'll shame me with your pity
All my scars are stupid

Red Ink Blood (Scars)

Guided by the light of the moon
My heart turns to you
As a moth drawn to a streetlight
Or a flower that only blooms at night

Guided by the light of the moon
Oh honey I'll be there soon
I'll be but a blink of the eye
Our lives aint but a wisp of time

Every day
I feel the same way
I look into the sky
And think to myself why

Guided by the light of the moon
My heart turns to you
Like heads of drivers on the highway
Turn to see the memorial I made

Guided by the light of the moon
Oh honey I'll be there soon
Till then you'll be on my mind
Like a pretty melody and rhyme

Roadside Memorial Blues

Lyrics:

The sky opens up and it begins to rain
The sky opens up and it begins to rain again
The sky opens up and we begin to say again
The sky opens up and we begin to say
I choose
I choose and never speak again
I choose

The sky opens up and it begins to rain
The sky opens up and we begin to say again
I choose
I choose the way the story ends
I choose

The sky opens and I say the way the story ends
The sky opens and I say the way the story ends
I choose

I Choose

Indie & Folk inspired DIY Singer-Songwriter from the Midwestern United States.  All songs are demos recorded using Audacity, a Blue Icicle, a Shure SM57, and an  assortment of instruments.  All songs are free to download

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