self prod.

broke my heart
you shattered me to pieces
i cant stand
but im still breathing
your the one
nope lies deceiving
idk how i couldnt see it

suck it up bitch i could never like you
all the diamonds on my wrist and my perkys baby blue
i dont need you i just do what i do
when you say that you hate me i cant love you


im done ive been hurt in the past before
but i dont really care about her anymore
so she my ex girl but she keep on talking
wont shut up have me lyin in a coffin
so you catch me takin pills passed out on the floor
im jus tryna feel a thrill i dont want it anymore
but you cant understand everything in my head
just get me a gun cuz im better off ...

forget and forgive na i dont give a fuck
so im spendin all my money catch me rackin up the drugs
up my nose in the sprite in my lungs we alright
i dont wanna think so i dance away the night

when you say that you dont wanna hurt me
i tell you why but you still curse me
you cant say that you still want me
if you cant fucking love me

I'm Better Off..

ADAPTABLE - BURN

ShoutOutShawty.m4a

재만 남아버린 내 열정가득 피어 오르던 어린 아이의 예쁜 마음 이라 쓰고 허망한 꿈을 꾸는지도 몰랐던 어린 나에게 쓰는 편지
아프고 힘들고 죽을거 같아서 무서웠던 날들은 
괴로워 몸부림 치며 고통속에
잠 못 이루던 날들은 

하나님 한분 붙잡으며 수없이 다시 일어난 날들은
내겐 
결코 헛된 날들은  아니었기에

내가 지금 여기 살아있기에
삶을 살아가기에 
삶을 살아가려하네

몸만 커버린 난 여전히 모든게 무섭고 
두렵기만해 
여전히 마음에 상처는 존나 쓰리고 여전히 갑작스레 들이닥치는 우울함은 마치 날 죽고 싶게 만드네 
하지만 버텨내야지 버텨내며 지금까지 죽지 못 해 잘 살았네

그럼에도 난 
지금 여기 살아있기에 
삶을 살아가기에 
살을 살아가려 하네

죽음 보단 삶을 택했기에 나에게 주어진 시간들이 절대 헛된 시간들이 아니기에 난 살아가려하네 

너희들은 정말 모르나봐 
남을 깎아내리는 너희의
말들이 너희를 더 불쌍하게 
만든 다는걸.  정말 모르나 봐 
정말 모르나봐 

외로움을 채우려는 너희들의 눈 속 엔 깊고 어두운 외로움이 보여 그 밑바닥엔
상처투성이로 망가진 너의 마음이 보여
사랑을 받고 싶어하는 너의 마음이 보여

IT'S NO ONE !

like dat (p. gatekeep)

Daniel Meeks: Vocals, Bass
Matt Nugent: Guitar
Stephen Mathis: Drums

Bad Seed (4/25/24)

For the year 2024 , I will release 24 songs of my truth of different aspects of my life , experiences & perspectives.

“I FEEL IT” - MEL THE PROPHET

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DREAM GIRL

ghost xtravulos - push da v ft. scorpiavy

A song about my Great-Grandparents emigrating from Birmingham to Durban, South Africa, in 1880.
My Grandfather was 3 and his 7 siblings ranged up to age 22. They must have faced many hardships - recession in Birmingham, leaving family behind, 70 days aboard ship "The John Bright", being rowed ashore from outer anchorage & arriving in SA only a year after the slaughter of the British Army by the Zulus.

When the first ships attempted to sail into the harbour, many of them were swept over the bar, overturned & washed onto the rock strewn shore.
With this final ignominious end at the entrance to a wild and lonely African lagoon, on the other side of the world - the future of the survivors must have been very bleak and uncertain in that unforgiving environment.
Between 1845 to 1885, 60 ships were wrecked on Durban harbour entrance.

Our emigration back to England in 2002, held some of the sentiments that GG Ralph & Sarah "Annie" must have experienced ........

This song was a Semi Finalist in the UK Songwriting Competition 2012.

Bad Seed (4/25/24)

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