Existence

LYRICS:

I don't know, how this came to be
I don't know, how this came to be
I don't know, how this came to be
Im lost at sea, you could never save me
Im sinking down low, a hundred fathoms deep
Pressure killing me I will sleep eternally
I don't know, how this came to be
Im lost at sea, you could never save me
Im sinking down low, a hundred fathoms deep
Pressure killing me I will sleep eternally

I lost my mind some time ago
Now I'm just going with the flow
Cocaine overdose
Blood leaking out my nose
Don't you know
Ima fucking rolling stone
It's so hard to believe
How much you've grown
Steady rain
Please wash away my pain
Going insane
Just put a bullet in my brain
I want the money
Honestly fuck the fame
I looked death in the face
Never been the same
Never been the same

I don't know, how this came to be
Im lost at sea, you could never save me
Im sinking down low, a hundred fathoms deep
Pressure killing me I will sleep eternally
I don't know, how this came to be
Im lost at sea, you could never save me
Im sinking down low, a hundred fathoms deep
Pressure killing me I will sleep eternally

Look in the mirror
I fucking hate the face I see
These memories I have
Always tormenting me
Look in the mirror
I fucking hate the face I see
These memories I have
Always tormenting me
I know now what I am so let me bleed
I don't deserve this life
Take it away from me
Just take that shit away from me
Just take that shit away from me

How This Came 2 Be [Prod. Sadface]

Chasing Ghosts

The Truth

Without You

Out Of Place (Prod. Sadface & Sorrow Bringer)

Buried In The Sand [Triazo x Voyce]

Abduction

Down

[Verse 1]
I woke up today but you weren't there
Checking my phone like you really care
Already moved on like I was never there
Smoking my dope
This life ain't fair
I ain’t never hurt you
Why you gotta run away
Coulda gone together
I don't wanna hear you say 
Something like that
Why you always gotta play
Heard you gotta new man
I be in the drank
Seen you at the club on the Gram so soon
I be getting high while I'm laying in my room
Crying in the dark
I can barely fucking move
I just wanna die but I'm paralyzed too
Supposed to be you and me forever
I know
It's all I think about when I'm alone
I ain't gonna lie
This time I'm broke
Looking at the sky used to fill me with hope 

[Hook]
The stars look different tonight
My eyes were so bright
The stars look different tonight
I don't wanna see the sunrise
The stars look different tonight
My eyes were so bright
The stars look different tonight
I don't wanna see the sunrise 

[Verse 2]
They say it gets better
I just see it getting worse
Everybody flying
While I'm dying in the dirt
Trying to make you smile
Even though my eyes hurt
The gift of life
Heartbreak the curse
If you can hear me now
I just wanna let you know
I still ain't fuck nobody
Never wanted hoes
Never wanted money
I ain't never wanted dope
I wanna be the warm
So you'll never be cold
I make these songs I hope you'll hear
Change your heart
Come back my dear
Ain't no one gonna hear my prayer
Building castles in the air
Feels like I am dying slow
Poison in my veins and soul
Woulda gave up playing shows
To wake up next to you so close 

[Hook]
The stars look different tonight
My eyes were so bright
The stars look different tonight
I don't wanna see the sunrise
The stars look different tonight
My eyes were so bright
The stars look different tonight
I don't wanna see the sunrise

GHOUL¥ - The Stars Look Different

Cool wow, maybe no? Yes

I luiuuuuuvcvvc drugsszzzz

BLACK ROSES DEMO (VEXY SHADOW EDIT) prod useless

this is an old track that i have the honour of re-releasing. beelz had it up for like 3 days. i don't know who drew beelz & shdw, if anyone knows by chance please let me know so i can give credit where it's due. i edited the illustration and added the beelz logo and the other stuff. it even has the vile house logo from back when we were part! this song is a piece of history. enjoy it once more <3

wanderlust (feat. beelz & shdw) [prod. emptyeli]

Pierce My Name Ft. SpaceMan Zack (Prod. Nura)

Burgos - bounce to the west side feat daego gold

DEMENTOPHOBIA:
(n) The fear of insanity or going insane.

This album title was picked by Ryan. This is the title he always pictured when imagining what his first album would look like.

DEMENTOPHOBIA is a tracklist full of Ryan's most recent recordings. Some are professionally recorded, others are raw and straight from his phones voice recordings. Some songs are incomplete, some are unedited.
"DIRTNAP" was completely recorded and mixed by Ryan in a hotel bathroom on a laptop.
"DEMENTOPHOBIA" is a song Ryan recorded on a laptop by himself, then deleted. The recording you hear on this album is from a video of himself listening and rapping along to it. The track was also un-named to my knowledge, so it was given the album title.
"STARS" was recorded on the voice recording app on Ryan's iPhone with Trillie Nelson.
"Rap Vandal" was a quick snippit he wrote and recorded on his voice recordings app as well, by himself.

"THE LAST SONG". This one has a story. On March 12, 2019 Ryan texted me while I was at work to listen to this quick recording he did on his phone. He wanted to make sure it was good enough to write out and go to the studio to record. Ryan wrote and recorded this song the day before he passed away. He never got the chance to record it in the studio like he wanted, but I wanted to make sure the world still had a chance to hear his work. This short song really shows the true talent he possessed. This is The Last Song.

Thank you to all of Ryan's family, friends, and supporters for keeping his dream going and keeping his memory alive. I want to thank each and every one of you that reached out to him at any time in his life to comment on his music or support him in any way. You all are the reason why he kept going. You are all the reason he was going to take over the industry. May you all find peace and happiness in this album.

-Tristen.

JUST ANOTHER TRAGEDY

Doomsday Comes

l'll Be Fine Ft. (Lil Agony)

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Buried In The Sand [Triazo x Voyce]

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