produced by me <3

claire:

there’s dying daisies on the road im used to walking on
god knows that i tried my best, but i still did it wrong 
it’s alright, cause i find some comfort in fucking it up
our flowers are dying, & starving for love 
take your feet off the pedal for a second,
to tell me if you meant it 
gave up my control, & in the end you should’ve kept it 
aware of the trap, & yet i’m still so demented
give me your hand & we’ll both meet our ending 

i’m traumatized & trying to block out what you did to me
you were my friend, i never thought you’d be an enemy 
and our road turned vacant, 
i’m anxious & i’m still shaking 
(x2)

d3r:

All my friends talk behind my back, and it’s freaking me out
I separate the real from fake, but I still have doubts
You call me your homie and chill, but you run your mouth
It felt like just yesterday, we were smoking up at your house
And then you stab me in the back, give me panic attacks
All this anxiety just makes me wanna stop and slack
But I’m in it to win, I don’t give a fuck about that
If you talk on my name, I’ma have to make you splat

claire:

i’m traumatized & trying to block out what you did to me
you were my friend, i never thought you’d be an enemy 
and our road turned vacant, 
i’m anxious & i’m still shaking 
(x2)

Anxious w/ d3r

red balloon

MV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iF75QooEfxQ
sample: https://soundcloud.com/ivvivv/so-gentle?si=605402b6c1fc4db7a6f1f7e90f4b135b&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

@pyu

i dropped her off it was a winter night 
they thought i died but im still alive 
left me bleeding 
fake death , suicide 
knot myy ceiling fan blade
let me fly 
nobody can stand me 
but its fine 

if the world was n ur hands
would you think twice
you took everything i had 
does it feel nice 
lately every day feels like im treading thin ice 
did me bad but u wna call me twin right

the btch talk shit 
deep down she jst a fan of me 
n fuck love , wish i never had no empathy 
shoot him in the leg
this boy tryna take a gram 
and if you aint getting paid 
then you cannot shake a hand wid me

i love drugs a little more thn i love family 
i hate life i just wanna live a fantasy 
nd run away baby tell me wld u come 
ShldveKn2ww it wasnt love 
eversince i made u cum

this boy playing with a gun 
we shld smack dat
pop out chck him 
knowin he wontt blast tht
rly kno im fucked up 
i dnt wna get old 
cuddling her lifeless body 
because i dnt wna feel cold
you so irrelevant im praying tht u get up 
my shit so effortless tht they want me to give up
its raining razors n im walking w myy chin up
im her favorite flavor cuff yo chick 
or get uur btch fucked

the btch talk shit 
deep down she jst a fan of me 
n fuck love , wish i never had no empathy 
shoot him in the leg
this boy tryna take a gram 
and if you aint getting paid 
then you cannot shake a hand wid me

i love drugs a little more thn i love family 
i hate life i just wanna live a fantasy 
nd run away baby tell me wld u come 
ShldveKn3ww it wasnt love 
eversince i made u cum

Eversince Prod Meta

instrumental: @bloodsekai
vocalists: @bloodsekai + @vedbend + @yukisasayaki

halloween inspired song from last month, please enjoy to your desire. (sorry for the lack of uploads, i've been making too much music and not finishing any of it...)

--- lyrics: ---

i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now
i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

was it always this difficult to think?
what's different now, is it me or the mirror?
i imagine the greys and blacks within
turned me into a freak, a monster that just cries and weeps

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now

(i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

+ layered with vedbends part)

i try to run away
i couldn't move at any pace
as tears fall down my face
my teeth are falling out
i guess i'll drown inside my doubts
i always cry and pout 

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now
i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

carve out my eyeballs treat me like a pumpkin
rip my guts out baby i feel nothing
u wanna put me on display i guess thats something
i'm a puppet baby put me on your strings
ur always in my head like the axe in my skull
but u always want me dead i'm so fucking tired
baby pass the pliers
i'll dismember my body n ill put it onto wires

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now
i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

when do i wake up? (ft. vedbend & yuki)

ft. @an4rch-an4rch
prod by greyrock & ewvaaikaii

gubie sie w tobie
trace kontrole
czy wskazesz mi droge
te ktora pomoze

bezsenne noce
ich dluzej nie zniose
pomoz mi prosze
wez pomoz mi prosze

marnuje czas kolejna noc nie moge spac juz
nie wiem czy to stres czy 500 miligramow
kolejny raz na czesci peklo moje serce
prosze wytłumacz ile to bedzie trwac jeszcze

gubie sie w tobie </3 ft. an4rch

za kazdym razem

prod. greyrock & rayx

znow zepsulem wszystko ;/
znow zawiodlem wszystkich ;-;
po co mi jest milosc </3
po niej tylko blizny X_x

znow jej zaufalem :c
jestem w chuj naiwny xd
wiem ze mnie nie kochasz ;(
to tylko wymysly ;p

kolejna tabletka
zatracam sie w tym
czemu gdy siegam po pomoc
to jestem tym zlym
powiedz dlaczego 
nie umiem wciaz normalnie zyc
wszystkie marzenia znow plona
zostal tylko dym

znow zepsulem wszystko

SHE WANNA

prod. greyrock

how the fuck u wanna call and tell me u cant see me
told u years ago i wasn't through u couldn't hear me
bitch i hate u ill just cut up my skin ill leave my throat to bleed
cause u dont care i wont ever have a reason to

bitch i told u once before why wont u let me go
im so insane because i cant tell when im going fast or slow
u made me way too scared it hurts i just cant trust people i let em go
im tired and its all ur fucking fault like how the fuck u want me back

nah fuck that, no take backs
u wann fuck, we did that
100 times i said u were mine u aint claim that
so why the fuck, u come back
to my life ion want u back
its all ur fault im losing it and u still cant fucking text back like

i wont ever have a reason to careeee

drowsy