i dont wanna want to wanna die anymore ;p

Survivor's Milk

SUVs (Black on Black)

“Ego Death by Design” seduces with a slow build and a trembling edge. It’s a song about compulsion, hunger, and the performance of consent inside a collapsing relationship. drrtgrrl’s vocals weave between softness and surrender, asking to be used while quietly warning of the fallout.

Lyrics like “cultivated apathy” and “lick your lips like I’ll put up a fight” frame intimacy as a battlefield dressed in silk. This track doesn’t plead for connection. It stages its own unraveling, all while whispering, no one has to know.

Laying down for the night
In your chest, I'm paranoid
I could do that for you
I could be what you use

But we won't last a day
So stay in our reverie
I feel like being unsafe
Do it till I'm screaming for you, you

My knees go weak
I adore you
Because baby, no one has to know
No one has to know

I'll bury the seeds deep
And suffocate them endlessly

Baby, we can touch
Baby, we can tease
Baby, I consume
Cultivated apathy

Engorged pedagogue
Gorging yourself like you'll never get enough
Gorgeous and erudite
Lick your lips like I'll put up a fight

Laying down for the night
In your chest, I'm paranoid
I could do that for you
I could be what you use

But we won't last a day
So stay in our reverie
I feel like being unsafe
Do it till I'm screaming for you

My knees go weak
I adore you

Ego Death by Design

prod GHOSTEMANE

Lyrics: https://genius.com/Ghostemane-mercury-retrograde-annotated

First single off the HEXADA album

Hexada

Mercury: Retrograde

MERCH

cover art by Opal Pence
http://opalpence.com/

Black Dresses - Paper Planes

Man Down Ft. Zillakami

SoundCloud Files Vol. 1

If You See My Face, Good Luck. God Bless

art by me, song by Black Dresses. I just edited it!

IN MY MOUTH - Black Dresses (Daycore - Slowed Down)

drrtgrrl is the dark, gritty sound of Brooke Lever, a queer artist blending industrial beats, haunting melodies, and raw lyricism. Rooted in Memphis's underground, drrtgrrl explores themes of pain, pleasure, and transformation. Inspired by 90s performance art and the concept of decay, drrtgrrl crafts intense, immersive soundscapes that push boundaries and invite liberation.

Ego Death by Design

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