i dont wanna want to wanna die anymore ;p

Survivor's Milk

SUVs (Black on Black)

the breakaway hit lol

If you wanna love me,
 put a muzzle on me
 because I can’t stop
 freaking out.
If you say you love me,
 get your hands off me
 because you know
 I’mma let you down.

In God's hands
 I am a child:
 sensitive,
 loving,
 capable.
In my own,
 I act out of survival
 gnashing, nasty,
 and self-obsessed.

Here, lying awake in this emptiness
 something climbs up my spine
 and starts to set in.
I can’t tell if it’s a feeling,
 an omen,
 or an ominous presence,
 but it presents a querulous quandary:
Is this enough?
 Am I enough?
 Or is this your fault
 why I’m so
 fucked up?
I
 fucked up,
 but I apologized
 ten thousand times
 so please don’t fight.
I thought you loved me.
 I knew you didn’t.
 I thought you'd save me
 no, I insisted it.
Now I can’t even write you a letter
 to prove how I’m better
 I just stutter
 over and over and over and over
 every word and thought.
My cyclical confidante.
 I’m sorry.
 I’m just lost
 in my own thoughts.

Muzzle

prod GHOSTEMANE

Lyrics: https://genius.com/Ghostemane-mercury-retrograde-annotated

First single off the HEXADA album

Hexada

Mercury: Retrograde

MERCH

cover art by Opal Pence
http://opalpence.com/

Black Dresses - Paper Planes

Man Down Ft. Zillakami

SoundCloud Files Vol. 1

If You See My Face, Good Luck. God Bless

art by me, song by Black Dresses. I just edited it!

IN MY MOUTH - Black Dresses (Daycore - Slowed Down)

drrtgrrl is the dark, gritty sound of Brooke Lever, a queer artist blending industrial beats, haunting melodies, and raw lyricism. Rooted in Memphis's underground, drrtgrrl explores themes of pain, pleasure, and transformation. Inspired by 90s performance art and the concept of decay, drrtgrrl crafts intense, immersive soundscapes that push boundaries and invite liberation.

Muzzle

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