solnce

E t h e r e a l

Alone

working on the muddiness

Sometimes I look at the garden I let burn
And wonder if I let those flowers bloom again
Would they spread love or ache in my rough hands
Or take the petals up to into the hills and spread 
the love across a mountain lake

Love left me in an eggshell
Love left me with no way back home 
Wandering through the woods alone  

it takes so long when you're left waiting for the end, when it's all that's left
I remember that new years I thought I'd finally figured you out
 
The hive is dead and still the buzz goes on and on
Love lives in a waspnest
Soft and sweet
gnawing in my chest
digging through the night for a body I cannot find again

The hive is dead and still your buzz goes on and on
Love lives in a waspnest
Soft and sweet
Ashen clots to stay this hurt inside my chest
Love lives in a waspnest 

I don't want to stay
Digging the same grave   
Pulsing in my chest
Buzzing in my ears
The wasps now begin
To come up from my skin

I never thought I'd find myself there, in the woods with nothing but a coarse string to bribe me back home
I wandered in the woods for years until I found them, their own string trailing behind them, just as lost, but eyes equally determined.
The following months there was some odd comfort, though our strings gathered and no longer pointed home, that was somehow okay, to wander aimlessly.
Their strings were tattered, chewed by moths, knotted, breathing, and fucking buzzing something like a wasp nest, frayed yet freakishly beautiful 
And as soon as it began it was over, again the woods had become a lonely place

love lives in a waspnest

Love Lives In A Waspnest

soup

KOZHA RVETSYA -  You're Weird Today

FINAL FANTASY

angel vox - возвращайся (breakcore remix)

sry if this sounds weird,, i was too tired 2 fix it,..
original sample by waqs

https://open.spotify.com/track/5mYZXdLEBR0fMSJKxkTlym?si=d02ac6e156b9486d

free download/buy

...ways to waste yourself

I'm nothing (remix of Clams Casino)

This has to be the most special song I’ve made in a long time. It’s about "drifting" from reality, because you’re so lost inside of your own head…anyway I hope you like it. :’)

drifting ~

Stacey

my imaginary friend

this song reminds me of a dreamcore/liminal space aesthetic type of song, that’s really slow and ominous and just has a really unique, weird but beautiful vibe. i had a lot of fun making this song, and i’m honestly obsessed with the result. it’s really slow, but it’s kind of calming to listen to and i just felt like uploading it just because. i hope whoever’s listening likes it :)

the stairway to nowhere

crsdcwby X 4evrx - duality

just a sad demo

instrumental was made from a reversed sample of an acounta demo from their “deluge” tape

solnce

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