I can't help but to smile,
'cause you have never changed,
after all this while,
all my buds have grown up,
and all the magic's gone,
I'm glad that it still lives on with you,
silent years hiding tears,
the memories start to creep,
before I go to sleep,
dream through days of different ways,
of how it could've been,
I guess that it was meant for the way that it went,
so let me tell you that I wish it was forever,
if I could I'd live it all again,
maybe we could pick up where we left off,
and now this time we'd never let it end,
I can't help but to laugh,
about the fool I am,
to think we'd never speak again,
woe is me we're 23,
I guess it's time to move,
without me ever thinking how I'd lose you,
so let me tell you that I wish it was forever,
if I could I'd live it all again,
maybe we could pick up where we left off,
and now this time we'd never let it end,

forget me not (demo)

this album is my distorted art project
it will most likely be my last release under the j1ddo pseudonym 
Im super depressed, concussed, and my ears are shot 
I hope you enjoy <3

Goths These Days

hello again chartreuse its not so 
fancy running into you this much
in dreams and such
I'm waiting for that sistine touch
so I look up high in hopes to find that
sparkle in your haunting chartreuse eyes
hope they've been dry
I wonder if your still that girl with
auburn waves the sun rays leaves you with
sunburned skin to my chagrin
that smile takes me for a while
until we meet again I think Ill...

Au Revoir Chartreuse

I remember spinning silverbacks and old cassettes
now that's like gorillas dancing in a pirouette
look how far we've gone
I feel the universe in my palms
look how far we've gone
now I can command any song I'd like to
have the things I have but still be present in my life
otherwise I'd look back wondering why I found a knife
finding where it went
counting all the time that you'd spent
missing all those sunny days
wishing that you would've stayed
spinning silverbacks

Silverbacks

Posting this for Bol10. If you would kindly join me for a brief time in removing our edm space helmets..

This track was recorded in Audacity and Produced in LMMS on 05/28/2023. It was initially conceived as live arrangement for guitar on a looping pedal and was later recorded at full length in a (sub optimal) home studio. The work weaves an fx glazed guitar trio through lethargic drums and a rumbling yet polite bassline. All the while, words of rumination and restlessness crest the melodic shape.

 Live version:
https://on.soundcloud.com/2g5Eb

Is And Could Be

wip, LMMS@Linux + Vital, Arminator & ZYN Fusion

zelectroc - I see your Face feat. emkay13d2 (WIP - early version)

Mr Squeakers

Just a little single while y'all wait for the album :)

a bit different from what I typically do

That Lunar Stare

I hope you like selectively microtonal 110bpm synth orchestra, because here is almost 20 minutes of it :)

This project was originally meant to be longer, but I don't want to overcook it and make it something it isn't supposed to be. It just feels finished, and I want to explore new emotional territory with other projects. 

This came from a very specific place and time, which has since changed. I've changed. 

Enjoy :)

Intrepidatious

My first collection of music I've selected to release. A lot of it is microtonal, based on harmonics primarily. A lot of good old 12TET is there still as well. I try to work with some interesting rhythmic concepts throughout a lot of them as well. Writing these has sort of served as journaling for my subconscious. Though my explanations may appear technical, know that each of these carries a part of me that isn't explained in words. Take a listen to hear instead.

Nearing Shadow

Test

musicy music stuff at the midnight barbeque

Is And Could Be

midnight barbeque

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