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red circle (3:37)
los iluminados (8:00)
cesare the somnambulist (10:44)
contessa (14:14)
american werewolf (17:37)
the big bleeder (20:39)
brookhaven (24:22)
i stand alone (27:46)
helter skelter 25 (31:27)
gradually, then suddenly (34:55)
you suffer and so do i (38:03)

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There Is No Going Back

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I haven't slept for two nights.
Insomnia is not new, but this time he has no voice.
Before I thought about tomorrow, in things that were never going to happen, I invented futures to calm myself down.
Now there isn't even that.
Just an empty hum, a phrase that repeats in my skull:
You're not going to sleep, you can't, you're not going to sleep.

I have become addicted to shortcuts.
Pills that put out fires, but also the light.
And now that I try to leave it I burn in the abstinence of rest.
I don't know if this is syndrome or punishment, but I feel so fucking awake which seems like a joke to me.

I put on white noise, I meditate, I count the cracks in the ceiling as if they were sins.
And nothing.
Not a yawn, not a slit.
The body wants to sleep but he doesn't know how to do it.

And then comes the dilemma:
Should I close my eyes and pretend?
Do I see another series that consumes my hours?
Do I give up?
Because I don't know whether to fight this anymore
It is an act of bravery or stupidity.

I'm so tired, but I don't believe it.
The body does not give up,
He doesn't even complain.
It's just there, dead in life, no signs.

And I get angry.
Because everyone tells me to do my part.
But if I can't even handle my body,
How am I going to move my soul?

And the clock ticks as if he enjoyed the show.
I look at him and say:
I don't want the night to come.
But also:
I hope I arrive and fall asleep without realizing it.

Although I know it's not.
Although it hurts me to know.
And yet, I'm still here.
Without knowing why.
Awake.

There Is No Going Back

LuckWicked

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