he is alone
scared in the night
i am the one
to make things right
but you'll never do it for me

i am kept under the covers
i am faint night lights of wonder
i am the comforting christmas tree in the corner
oh my god

you'll never do it for me

i am the lover in waiting
(im waiting)
one text could stop all the pacing
(the pacing)

i am the childless fool
with nothing to lose
with it all to prove
to who? to who?

you'll never do it for me

you'll never do it, and i over do it
you put me through it
you put me through it

You'll Never Do It

Break Every Wineglass

biting nails
im sensitive
my new bilingual incentives
baby im obsessed with your second chances

baby read right through my writing
my affections only hiding
ill stop wasting your time here
say the word ill disapper
scratch that itch and say you love me
im that bitch best served with crazy
ill stop wasting your time here
say the word ill disappear

you set me off and im alone again
youd done nothing wrong
i just cant stand this feeling im in
i just wanna be good for my baby
its so sad im crazy

Abracadabra

Fairy Godmom

its quiet on the internet
i made my choice, i rest my head
theres not much left when youre not here
just sit around and wait for the checks to clear

blessed be the picker of the crops
but he tells me that im not obligated to be hot anymore
i work out furiously everyday
for the chance to hear him say
im the trophy husband straight from the store

i tell them in this prison i just rot
theyre a sucker for sob stories
danglin from the edge of his docked yacht yadaya
back up toys

blessed be the picker of the crops
but he tells me that im not obligated to be hot anymore
i work out furiously everyday
for the chance to hear him say
im the trophy husband straight from the store

blessed be the stone that he got
in my chest rests a rock
subjugated by the loneliest days
love you in the strangest of ways
youre my favorite of names
scribbled onto the ends of the page

back in vegas
i was young, but i wasnt stupid
dear i play this game so strategically
but nothing comes for free
yeah nothing comes for free

nothing comes for free for me
nothing comes for free for little old me

Trophy Husband

its all just some story in my head
maybe some stars were meant to be dead
maybe i dont know
and thats all i really know

you say its a selfless life, maybe
sharing all my thoughts through a melody
id show you the hours i spend
playing pretend
for myself in the audience

i got things in my past ya know
that make me so damn unrelatable
being in church six times a week
so scared of the devil that i couldnt speak

while all of the other boys carved out their hobbies
i was in lobbies
rehearsing sorry's
there was this man in the sky
who said that he loved me

now present day rolls back around
i couldnt be more damn proud
as the tears fall down my face
you say baby youre drunk lets go back to our place
our place

i still see that little boy
afraid of angering the void
if i could go back in time
id tell you that it will be kind of fine

Our Place

Let down your hair, dog
The enemy’s been so close for so long
I love you to death, Sarge
You know I’ll take all your burdens 
Even when it hurts

Take off your basics,
Cartier bracelets
I’ll try to hold the tune
Try to act shameless
Still I make faces
Is this new too to you?

Take yourself a dirty a Dirty Vacation
Forget about your little vocation
Dive into oil spills
Sunsets on garbage hills

Let’s forget this industry
They never wanted me
You popped champagne and sign the line
Then they move the finish line

Posthumous records
They sell out in days
If only I’d learned to do that at my age
I just sweat off my makeup
And I slip off the stage
I’ve had six drinks, nine drinks
Now I can find the floor on my own
(Six drinks, nine drinks, I’m in heaven)
I can find the floor on my own
(Six pence, I’d pay it all to impress ‘em) I can find the floor on my own

Take yourself a dirty vacation
Forget about your little vocation
Dyed all the oceans blue
The same hue as our attitudes
Let’s forget this industry, they never wanted me
You popped champagne and signed the line
Then they moved the finish line

Wake up saints
You’re okay
Make your bed
To another day of paradise
A parasol in Molotovs
It’s Waimea if you close your eyes
(Don’t close your eyes)
The enemy rides at sunrise

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Take yourself a dirty a Dirty Vacation
Forget about your little vocation
Dive into oil spills
Sunsets on garbage hills
Let’s forget this industry
They never wanted me
My backpack’s full of shelved CD’s
The paper trail burns with the tree’s

Dirty Little Vacation

I don’t wanna be good
I dont wanna do things that you think I should
I don’t wanna be well read
I have too much fun up in my empty head
I don’t want your style
Never gave a shit bout my percentile
I don’t want your bread
Cause your bakers fucked up in his head

I don’t wanna be seen
Your accolades don’t mean a thing
I don’t wanna be proud
It’s the stupidest voice that’s always so damn loud

Couldn’t laugh at your joke
If you held the switchblade to my throat
It’s just not there
There’s no quote from you I’d ever share

I don’t want your lawn
An empty space a shizu shits on
I’m walking dogs for his husband he frequently cheats on

This neighborhood
Is filled with men who pull the breaks for reflections
They find the longer they stare the higher the chance Youll reciprocate affections

Complain that you’re lonely 
I totally agree
I’d start to assess myself if it were me
In times of unprecedented transparency
It’s in your best interest to think before you speak

Paper machet
Your fragile viewpoints float away
You don’t want the truth
Only friends that all agree with you
See when you’re wrong, you change the subject, not your view
I don’t wanna compare
But if your shrek 1 then I’m Shrek 2

Think Before You Speak

mother mother, do you wake yourself at 3 AM
spying on me
watch him spinning me around the bend

mother, these enticing ribbons seem to have no end
wrapped around my ankles, infinite with consequence

mother mother, tiger stripes
and sea of leather dogs
my mother, they all fold your letters into paper doves

they rotate like the mobile
i emit a big smile
effortless from all the drugs
floating through the sea of endless side hugs

mother
scary how i dont remember
these hours at a time
i'm walking out of line
i woke up in the bathtub

Mother

Attention

Olive’s Song

do you remember the day
when the world went away
do you remember the sound
the alarms all over town

do you recall the relief?
as you laid down next to me
sayin "baby, we're finally free"
and you threw our phones to the sea

to the sea
to the sea
to the sea
to the sea

i was so cradled by doubt
til the walls came tumblin down
we haven't worn clothes for years
cause the fear just disappeared

it disappeared
it disappeared
it disappeared
it disappeared

just cause you score
dont mean that youll do it
just cause you do it
dont mean you cant quit

i hold your hand
in the candlelit basement
where the world above
it dont mean a shit

The Score

hi
watchu doin
mm
not much

soo
watchu wanna eat
mm
idk

i lay down outside your bedroom
lets go somewhere
you act like we dont got nothin
but thats just not fair

dont you see the world is full of possibilities
a number nine
a side of fries
one for you
and one for you me

yeah they looked much better in the 90's
i cant stand all the brutalist architecture
so lets forget our best nature
and get fast food

soo
feel better now?
yeah
i thought so

lets unwrap a simple pleasure
and just take a bite
your success too often measured
and thats just not right

lets hold hands
in my car
you cant say no
cant say no to me
ive got my navigation on

lets make plans
with a vcr
no more crying
my little star

yeah we looked much cuter
in 2010s macbook pictures
but its not like your lifes over
please unload whats on your shoulders
and get fast food

Fast Food

27 Club

I cut my weeds with dull scissors
pretend theyre flowers for my sisters
Im not afraid to lose anymore
it lets me fly under the radar

no need to check on me i am too cool
no need to wonder if i am still blue
wasted a few years pursuing some school
wasted my best years in love with a fool

we make ourselves frozen dinners
plenty to go around
it must be lonely being a winner
so wont you come on down down down

no need to check on me i am too cool
no need to wonder if i am still blue
wasted a few years pursuing some school
wasted my best years in love with a fool

im not afraid to tell the truth
time slips away
were living proof

then we make love up on the roof
use that as proof that were still useful
youthful

maybe our golden years all came and gone
maybe its just the blue paint of this song
but baby you still look so good in my arms
baby you still got your 70s charm

Too Cool

In a four wall room
In a single chair
Fighting for my life
At the hair salon

You don't let me go
Yeah, you made it clear
Fighting for my life
At the hair salon

Oh stop, I do not care
If this fall messes up my hair
I could not find this high nowhere
But with you

Radioactive air
The bombs may burst
My hair looks fine
Now can we go to your place or to mine?

You make a noodle curl
And my curls all straight
Fighting for my life
The iron's to my face

I tell you how it all ends 
We're no longer friends
Only split ends

You tell me you don't care
You cut off my hair hair hair

Oh stop, I do not care
If this fall messes up my hair
I could not find this high nowhere
But with you

Radioactive air
The bombs may burst
My hair looks fine
Now can we go to your place or to mine?

Oh stop, I do not care
We'll dye it back
It will grow out
Breathe through the pain and let me do my thing

Let me do my thing thing
Let me do my thing

The Hair Salon

blacked out with rebekah monday night
crying in the bathroom
wondering why he couldn't hold me one last time
she said that i was an awful sight
she said that i was an awful sight

now theres a new hero in my life
he gave me little mantras to survive
he gave me that look
said i was the sun
but don't get too close, you're not the only one
but don't get too close, you're not the only one

pick me up at two for the pool
i want to be naked, still i wear my suit
drinking just to be a better fool
we lay back, watch the stars in my eyes
we lay back, watch the stars in my eyes

i can feel the poison in my system
turn to thoughts of pain but i resist 'em

how stupid was i?
to think i had the right?
recording my last lines
i spent that night in my back seat

ill find some sleep, ill find the otherside

Mental Health

Look at me
Now, look at you
Just pretend for me this time
That it is our wedding night

Close your eyes

Can we spend our honeymoon
Locked inside a little room?
Will you stay the day?
I'll pay your way

Druggie's den by candlelight
Razzle dazzle paradise
Fuck you to black tar heroin's high

For love or other purposes
Be a dear
Insert here
I got so little outside of your arms
I don't care about the moonlight pawns

It only hurts if you hate the pain
Real money and fake names
I got a lady
Lonely dame
She doesn't know I came

Can we spend our honeymoon
Locked inside a little room?
Will you stay the day?
I'll pay your way

Druggie's den by candlelight
Razzle dazzle paradise
Fuck you to black tar heroin's high

Can we spend our honeymoon
Locked inside a little room?
Will you stay the day?
I'll pay your way

Met you in the parking lot
Deep inside the honeypot
Pretending you didn't see me cry

Don't watch me cry
Don't watch me cry
Don't watch me cry

Can we spend our honeymoon
Locked inside a little room?
Will you stay the day?
I'll pay your way

Druggie's den by candlelight
Razzle dazzle paradise
Fuck you to black tar heroin's high

High
High
High
High

High

sex, drugs, and vitamin C

its just like were playing clue
watch how the likes of a pool
so quickly turned into a close crime scene
he had it comin, you see

the weapon was rope
the room was a foyer
the mansion was dope
the mid morning kool aid was spiked
that made him not so nice

long after he choked
his lover discovered
the body, they say
in pieces and frozen on ice
was it the chaperone mother?
the brother or father?

you just need
sex, drugs, and vitamin C

a third party spoke
of family secrets
the boy was a bastard of open relationships
oh god
the mess runs deep
(get it together guys)

the death of her toy
a senior year pool boy
she confessed her crimes in a letter nobody would read
til they found her body

their money was spent
the cells her brain were amiss from the ketamine,
wine, and the fumes from the cabinet under the sink
(just be sober for once, just for 24 hours)

you just need
trust me,
you just need
sex, drugs, and vitamin C

Sex, Drugs, And Vitamin C

Born unto nothing
Going nowhere
What is to care?

But he's smiling
Precious Angel
He calls me baby
And strokes my hair
And gropes me

Am I dreaming?
This is much like one
Is this your kingdom?

I hear a singing
Its quite enchanting
A chorus ringing

They must be angels
They keep me steady
They undress me
They undress me

Pharaoh, Pharaoh

How he holds me
And gives me purpose
Like I'm worth it

Severance

Pharaoh

dont ask
dont tell
we sing of heaven and hell
youll change
like me
angels of anxiety

summer camp
summer camp
summer camp
summer camp
summer camp

you pissed
the sheets
and me i had a wet dream
were cursed
theyll see
sheering the wool of black sheep

summercampsummercamp
summercampsummercamp
we lifted our hands and never found answers
and i touched myself to my cabin counselor

bug bites
scraped knees
a business of sanctity
write letters back home
thinking only in palindromes 
"lonely tylenol"

god come save us all

summercampsummercamp
summercampsummercamp
we lifted our hands and never found answers
and i cut myself in boys only showers
theres hope for your future if youd just be still
by prayer or by needle youll come to his will

summercampsummercamp
summercampsummercamp

Summer Camp

Shimmy Kimmy move away
Dance a lot and float away
You can make it thru it
He's abusive and we knew it, hey

Don't answer all the in-laws calls
Pack a bag I'll help you fold
The letters we've been writing
You've been scared of what you're hiding, hey

Hey little sister, hey
You watch the TV with your eyes anywhere but the screen
Hey little sister, hey
The Mickey Mouse Club doesn't make much sense
If you can't hear over the screams

Shimmy Kimmy move away
Dance a lot and float away
You can make it thru it
He's abusive
We can prove it if you want

We know you love him, you love him
Who else could love you so black n blue?

Kimmy stand up or I'll shoot
Have I become what you fear?
We're all trying to help you
What good does this do to you?
What good does this do?

Hey little sister, hey
You watch the TV with your eyes anywhere but the screen
Hey little sister, hey
The Mickey Mouse Club doesn't make much sense
If you can't hear over the screams

Hey little sister, hey
You watch the TV with your eyes anywhere but the screen
Hey little sister, hey
The Mickey Mouse Club doesn't make much sense
If you can't hear over the screams

Mouse Club

business on a sunday afternoon
come touch me
pink lemonade
ice cream sundaes
come touch me

hey peter, pumpkin eater
i forgive you
he'll forgive you too
what is with you?
what is with you?

morphine dreams of saccharine til noon
please don't touch me
i'm better off keepin my eyes closed
i'm better off keepin my mouth closed
i'm better off keepin my ears closed
i'm better off keepin my legs closed

hey peter, pumpkin eater
i forgive you
he'll forgive you too
what is with you?
what is with you?

will that be cash or card?
or another broken heart?
can you stand to starve
with another broken heart?

hey cheater
hey cheater
hey cheater
hey cheater

Peter, Peter, Pumpkin Eater

deadlines
death threats
i wanna be where the common people are
deadlines
death threats
i wanna be up in the stars

you can fly
you can fly

you and your mysteries
botched toxicologies
you've been hard just thinkin bout the dream
i set out with a match
hopin for a heart attack
lighting fuses
clogging every stream

you can fly
you can fly
you can fly
you can fly

dont look down until you die

you caught the illness too
love in the afternoon
we stayed up 24 hours
pullin up our roots n flowers

drive me up a wall
dressed up like a doll
on the front line of the war
we'll sink before we fall

you can fly
you can fly
you can fly
you can fly

pullin up our roots and flowers

you can fly

The Peter Pan Distortion Dream

You Can Fly

dance real sweet
underneath
a golden rosary

they can't see
all my strings
connected to your sleeves

schools of thought
theyre all ugly
id rather close my eyes

silence is not so scary
your ribbon round my thigh

ill get lost if you dont take me home
ill get lost if you dont take me home

toxic fumes
watching you
float up to the sky

toxic fumes
makes me do things out of my mind

ill get lost if you dont take me home
ill get lost if you dont take me home

your toxic fumes
yeah i like you
you ask me what to do

your toxic fumes
yeah i like you
ill tell you what to do

ill get lost if you dont take me home
ill get lost if you dont take me home

Get Lost

he could get every type
and probably sleeps at night
wishy washy wishing
for things that ive been missing
he probably thinks of nothing
his head is filled with stuffing
and i am the teddy bear
ive had it up to here

can you make me a man
for the man in the mirror?

i am an opulent tomb
carefully crafting my doom
hes in his underwear
and so i begin to compare
now hes climbing into my bed
my stomach is sick as i let
him into my skeleton
beauty is oxygen

can you make me a man
for the man in the mirror?

ive replaced human connection
with an arbitrary imitation

can you make me a man?

Man In The Mirror

Lust

Some Things Cosmic

think my thoughts
with fingers crossed
am i so lost?
is there a story that is unfolding?
am i a candle in the wind?

bags unpacked
i am the last to arrive
without the boy you think you're nothing
and who's to say that you are not?

sweetly text me in the morning
wondering how i've been lately
reaching out to me in vain
arms crossed on the window pane

i've tied up
i've been tamed
wondering if you sing my name
arms crossed on the window pane
dreaming of some different day

i dont mind if i lose myself on the way
i didn't care much for him anyways
i didn't care much for at all

once i found that i had every reason to be angry
i wanted no part of it
you see i just want forgiveness
forgiveness

sweetly text me in the morning
hope you'd still some hold on me
find myself picking at crumbs
melancholic party's done

think my thoughts with fingers crossed
i'm prayin that i'm not so lost
hopin there might be a day
when i'll truthfully exclaim:

i'm in fucking heaven

Fingers Crossed

holy nightmare
blessed night terror
saw him kiss you at the door
im not hungry anymore

holy nightmare
blessed night terror
in the frame a kiss goodnight
god, i've lost my appetite

holy nightmare
holy nightmare
holy nightmare

damned day dream
every bad thing
in my head all at once
i miss mom and being drunk

damned day dream
every bad thing
calling for my daddy
off the plank into the sea

holy nightmare
holy nightmare
holy nightmare

holy nightmare
holy nightmare
holy night

will i wake up?

Holy Nightmare

don't stop where you're goin
im sure its so near
that thing you've been searchin
you've been searchin for years

don't stop
don't stop til you got it all figured out
i know you'll figure it out
i know you will

but if it doesn't work out
it doesn't work
then we'd work on your mental health
but if it doesn't work out
it doesn't work out
then we won't try again

its just you and me
hanging from some tree
swaying slowly
but if i had to do it again
i'd gladly descend
cause i'm at the end of a rope
that's just my hand on my throat

if we were two parts of whole
i'd wish that monster well
i never cried so much in my life
and i never felt so loved
i'm proud of what we did, i gotta say
i'm proud of who i am at the end of the day

but if it doesn't work out
it doesn't work
then we'd work on your mental health
but if it doesn't work out
it doesn't work out
then we won't try again

don't try
don't try

Work Out

Devil Don't Stop

my horizons are on fire
so i am down for whatever you wanna do tonight
i just wanna stay in tune for you
i wanna make you swoon
i wish i were for tv land 
but all my wishes you misunderstand
so let’s just make some plans

unravel all the bitter parts
as these guys flex inky
i do feel all alone
even as your hand explores my bones

i never want to let you down

see i’m sleeveless good jesus
again?
spending all my coins on rent
spending all my time in my bed
having all my sex in my head

but i never want to let you down

one day i will be free
one day i swear that i’ll be fucking free
watching all the Scenes
they are the past so they can’t hurt me

Your Electric Chair Playlist

TV Land

Ribbon

YECP MP3

havent seen a sunrise
been stuck in a haze
havent seen a sunrise for days
the modern age

praying for the changes
praying for the move

drinkin after midnight
so many ways to run away
brewin up a classic clink
the opulence has lost its taste

clocking in and clocking out
did you do this all to yourself?
give em something to live for
give em something to do

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