Lose Control

Black Muffin - Favela

[Verse 1]
I carried every meltdown like it was mine to fix,
Broke myself to build you, got scars as your gifts.
You’d light a match, watch it burn, then cry like you’re the victim,
I kept forgiving storms like forgiveness was religion.
You’d say “I’ll change,” but it was always just talk,
Promises sounded pretty but they never learned to walk.
I kept bleeding patience while you kept spilling lies,
Now I’m staring at the calendar, watching something in me rise.

[Pre-Chorus]
I can’t drag this same old heartbreak into something brand new,
I won’t start another year pretending I’m not tired of you.
You taught me how to shatter, but I learned how to heal,
And this time the goodbye is the most honest thing I feel.

[Chorus]
So I’m not bringing your drama with me into the new year,
No more begging for peace, no more drowning in your fear.
No more nights spent shaking ‘cause you couldn’t love me right,
No more trying to save you while you’re loving every fight.
I’m done stitching your chaos to my heartbeat,
Done letting your storms knock me off my feet.
This time I choose me, loud, stubborn, and clear,
Leave your drama in last year.

[Verse 2]
You loved the version of me that never said “no,”
The one that broke quietly just to help you grow.
But I’m tired of shrinking so your ego feels tall,
Tired of climbing every mountain just to watch you let me fall.
You spin your guilt like silk and call it love,
Then cry holy tears while I’m bleeding from the shove.
But I’m finished trying to fix what was never mine to save,
I’m done living in a story where I have to be so brave.

[Pre-Chorus]
No fireworks of fake apologies, no “this time I swear,”
No more forgiving you just ‘cause I care.
You can keep your chaos, your storms, your noise,
I’m finally choosing a life that sounds like my voice.

[Chorus]
‘Cause I’m not bringing your drama with me into the new year,
No more love that hurts, no more living in your fear.
No more crying in silence while you play the innocent role,
No more burning myself just to warm your cold soul.
I’m done dragging yesterday through tomorrow’s door,
Done hurting just to prove I can handle more.
This time I choose healing, and I’m crystal clear,
Leave your drama in last year.

[Bridge]
You’ll say I’m heartless, you’ll say I changed,
But I call it growth, I call it rearranged.
You’ll say I’m cruel for finally letting go,
But you never cared when I was choking on “I know.”
I gave you love; you gave me storms,
I gave you warmth; you watched me mourn.
Now I’m choosing sunlight, quiet, and breath,
Choosing to finally live instead of love myself to death.

[Breakdown]
So keep your tears, keep your guilt, keep your twisted game,
Keep your almost love and your recycled shame.
I’m walking forward, you stay stuck there,
I’ve got peace to chase… and you’re not invited there.

[Final Chorus]
I’m not bringing your drama with me into the new year,
Not your chaos, not your guilt, not your ghost in my mirror.
No more bending till I break just to make you feel okay,
No more losing myself so you can get your way.
This is my reset, my freedom, my cheer,
Your drama ends here…
And my life starts this year.

Leave Your Chaos in Last Year

[Verse]
She smiles, says “baby don’t slow,”
Heartbeat racing, yeah we both know,
Hands on me, I’m locked in tight,
We burning hot through the night.

[Pre-Chorus]
She wild, she sweet,
Yeah she turning up the heat,
No brakes, no shame,
We living in the fast lane,

[Chorus]
We riding in the fast lane, riding her insane,
Bodies moving quicker than the lightning in my brain,
Laughing, loving, feeling no pain,
Yeah, we riding in the fast lane!

[Outro]
Good vibes, loud love, pure bliss,
Her touch, her taste, every kiss,
No slowing down, no refrain,
We riding… in the fast lane.

We Riding In The Fast Lane

[Intro]
I stood on the edge of losing everything I love,
Shaking hands, broken promises, a heart you barely recognized.
And somehow… you still held on.
This time, it’s me holding on to you.
This time… I don’t run.
This time… I stay, sober, real, and yours.

[Verse 1]
I can still taste the nights I nearly lost you,
Poison in my veins, lies poured from my mouth.
You stood there breaking while I kept shaking,
Saying “baby, please just put the bottle down.”
I remember your voice cracking like thunder,
Soft but strong enough to split my world in two…
And in your eyes I finally saw the truth,
It wasn’t just hurting me… it was killing you.

[Pre-Chorus]
You shouldn’t have had to bleed for my mistakes,
Shouldn’t have had to hold me while I drowned in what I chased.
But you did. You stayed. And that will never be forgotten.

[Chorus]
If I ever drink again… I lose you,
And losing you is something my heart refuses to survive.
So I swear with trembling hands, shaking bones, burning truth,
I will NEVER let that poison back inside.
I choose your love over the numb,
Your heartbeat over the dark I used to run to.
If I ever drink again… I lose you.
So I will never do it… never again.
Not now, not ever.
I won’t risk your heart for my weakness.

[Verse 2]
I remember the silence,
How it hurt worse than your tears,
A silence filled with all the times
You believed in me through all those shattered years.
You deserved someone stronger, someone steady,
Someone who didn’t make love feel like walking through shattered glass.
But you still called me “home” when I didn’t deserve your voice,
And somehow… you still gave us one more chance.

[Pre-Chorus]
So this time I fight every demon like they stole my breath,
Because loving you means choosing life over death.
And I choose you every time.

[Chorus]
If I ever drink again… I lose you,
And the thought alone rips right through my chest.
So I swear, this isn’t just a promise,
This is my soul saying no to every weakness left.
I choose your laugh over the lies,
Your future over the past that tried to drag me through.
If I ever drink again… I lose you.
So I will never do it… never again.
I’d rather break every chain than break your heart.

[Bridge]
If temptation whispers,
I’ll remember how your hands shook when you said,
“Please don’t make me watch you disappear again.”
I’ll hear the hurt in your quiet voice,
Feel the weight of almost losing the only love I know is real,
And I’ll stand my ground,
Even if my knees shake beneath me.
Because losing myself was one thing…
But losing you would destroy me.

[Breakdown]
So here I am,
Sober in my soul,
Terrified but not alone…
Because I still have you.
And I won’t lose you.

[Final Chorus]
If I ever drink again… I lose you,
And I can’t even breathe imagining life without your light.
So this is my vow, my promise, my forever truth,
I’ll fight every shadow, every storm, every night.
I choose your love over the burn,
Your hand in mine over everything I used to run to.
If I ever drink again… I lose you.
So I will never do it… never again.
This time I mean it.
This time I’m staying.
This time… I choose you,
Every day, every breath, every heartbeat.

[Outro]
If the world shakes… I stay.
If the past screams… I stay.
If the bottle calls… I walk the other way.
Because you’re my future…
And I won’t trade forever for a moment of destruction.
I’d rather fight like hell than ever say goodbye to you again.

If I Ever Drink Again, I Lose You

[Intro]
Breathe in the fire, feel it inside,
This is our moment, this is our ride,
No fear, no doubt, just life,
We’re built to rise tonight.

[Verse]
Hearts racing, spirits high,
No fear, no reason why,
We’re alive, we feel the light,
Yeah, we’re built to rise tonight.

[Pre-Chorus]
No limits, no lies,
Look forward, not behind,
Power burning in our eyes,
Get ready…

[Chorus]
Touch the fucking sky,
Feel the rush, feel the high,
Scream it loud, don’t deny,
Yeah… touch the fucking sky!

[Outro]
Strong hearts, bright fire,
We only climb higher,
This our moment, this our life,
Touch… the fucking sky.

Touch The Fucking Sky

[Verse 1]
I don’t dream about diamonds or crowns
I don’t need the whole world bowing down
I just picture your hand in mine
Waking up where the sun always shines
Stone walls, but the doors stay wide
Every fear left outside
It’s not about gold or the view
It’s just me building a life with you

[Pre-Chorus]
When the world feels loud and cruel
I escape into something true

[Chorus]
I dream of living in a castle with you
Not for the height, but the way love feels bulletproof
Where every room echoes laughter and truth
Where I’m safe just being next to you
I don’t need riches or a perfect view
If I’m standing on those towers with you
Yeah, I dream of living in a castle with you

[Verse 2]
We’d dance in the halls at midnight
Barefoot, no reason, just moonlight
Every scar on the walls would show
How we fought through the storms below
I’d hold you when the thunder breaks
Swear I’ll guard your heart always
Let the world outside do what it do
In that castle, it’s just me and you

[Pre-Chorus]
If life ever tries to pull us apart
I’d rebuild us stone by stone from the heart

[Chorus]
I dream of living in a castle with you
Where love stands tall when the skies turn blue
Where every promise we make comes true
And the safest place I know is you
I don’t need a crown or royal rules
Just your head on my shoulder when the night is through
Yeah, I dream of living in a castle with you

[Bridge]
It’s funny how a simple dream
Isn’t walls or gates or anything
It’s you choosing me every day
Even when the fairytale fades
If the castle falls, if the walls cave in
I’d still be rich just loving you then

[Final Chorus]
I dream of living in a castle with you
Built from trust and the things we’ve been through
Where every room feels warm and true
And every road leads back to you
I don’t need forever written in stone
As long as we’re never facing life alone
Yeah, I dream of living in a castle with you

[Outro]
Maybe it’s not a place we’ll ever see
Maybe it’s just you standing next to me
But if love’s a kingdom, then I already do
’Cause I dream of living…
Every day…
With you

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