lets pretend its fine
to the time 
when we called each other mine
and the planets had aligned
 
when we both intertwined
you were always by my side
you were kind and hard to find
now your lost and on my mind

now im just another guy
trying to go on with my life
ive been trying to o.d 
but i cant fucking die

i fucking love the feeling
but im tired of getting high
i fucking hate the process
cause its taking all night

just to feel alright

leaning to the side
looking at the sky
ive been hanging on tight
trying to focus on staying alive

the sadness overrides 
the joy of tides
cause im always left behind
with no explanations why

i've been really fucked up 
just so i can get by 
behind closed doors 
tears fall from my eyes

i have been so horrified,
and mortified,
on how im glorified 
and terrified

forgive me for the acts and talks of suicide
there's reasons why im dead inside




i never want to pretened
not ever again
i hate saying life is good
when i wanna put it to an end

with a 45 to my head 
as i go to bed
testing life to see if im alive 
if i dont wake up dead

it seems that no one cared
about the feelings that ive shared
i've been drinking with my pills
so i can handle my despair

i dont ever want to be alone
cause it makes me scared
thats why ive been so angry
because everybodys left me there

no one gives a fuck where
im always left anywhere  
i guess its what we do 
with broken people thats beyond repair

its unfair, i fucking swear
you try and help but only stare
im tired of being stuck in my head
cause its lonely here

this is why i dissapeared
just so i can make it clear
i really missed my dead friends
wishing they could re-appear

being alone is what i feared
death was always lurking near
the reaper loves to tease me
since he knows i want to volunteer




everything is fine
just kidding, i've been lying
ive been hiding in my room
getting high to keep the planes flying

had siezures from the whippets
i was going passed my limit
just convulsing out for minutes
reliving life in snippets

so now i keep my distance
cause nobody fuckin listens
when im in the worst conditions
asking help to keep existing

cannot stop the reminiscing,
everything that ive been missing,
and its got me feeling different
since i cant fix it

ive been fighting my addictions
all my love for prescriptions
trying to find my way out
of this mental prison

i want to give in 
cause its taking long to make a living
getting in collisions
with perceptions of my 3rd vision

i need to make the right decisions
how to handle criticism
almost everything i say and do
is narcissism 

i try to keep it hidden
but i need to have it written
just to show what ive been thinking
sorry, i will stop speaking

Lets Pretend Its Fine - Dweller The Storyteller (prod By. Poppa)

Confrontations With The Devil (ft. Jreece)

Alucard-Dweller The Storyteller

(Verse I)
Aye yo Rest In Peace baby boy
My heart full of joy
When you left, it destroyed
All the stars to the void
My soul can’t rejoice cause
I’m missing your meows
Like you’ve missed my voice


It’s been hard going on
Since the day you’ve been gone
I’ve been trying to stay strong
Cause my days have been long
I don’t know where fuck I belong
It still feels like the morning
When you died in my arms


I miss you so bad
And it makes me really mad
How it makes me so sad
you were all that I had
You should’ve went last
With me in the past
Now I can’t fucking stand
how i really want you back

And it sucks that I can’t
Cause I wish that I can
It’s been hard without you
Just to be who I am
And to be where I’m at
I was left to be damned
With the world that I lost
in the palm of my hands


(Verse II)
I’ll always remember when I woke
up with you passed out on my chest
I was claimed by the best,
Waking up in this mess
Wishing that you never left
Now I’m back to waking up
all alone and depressed

Now it’s hard for me to rest
I can’t stop being stressed
Cause words can’t explain
how much you really meant
From the times we had spent
From beginnings til the end
Man, I can’t wait to see you
When im finally dead


Just know that I love you
and I really fucking care
And the homies that are gone
Will be with you until Im there
But I also really hate it
that you’re not even here
Cause I still feel your presence
But I can’t see where

So I guess until then,
Goodbye my friend
My funeral will be,
the last One to attend
So for every other day
that may come to an end
Just know I can’t wait to see
and hold you again

Alucard - Dweller The Storteller

(Chorus)
I am falling down
Drugged out, walking around
I can’t feel the ground
I feel like I’m going to drown

My head is up in the clouds
It’s clouded so much with doubt
So many broken vows
I’m swishing jack with pills in my mouth

Then I bottle in the pain
I can’t take this shit again
I can’t change a thing
It’s all the same on memory lane

(Verse I)
Now I’m here to back track
To tell you where my mind was at
Walking down the alley with
a straw In a coke sack

Until it didn’t do jack
Then I started snorting smack
People wondered why I lost weight
And it was cause of that

Smoke about two packs
First ones don’t last
Unless I was chillin with
A mickey’s in my other hand

Drugs and alcohol was everything
I couldn’t withstand
I’m forever damned
Until my fuckin life ends man

Chillin at Kiwanis park
Right after dark
And I’m swinging fucked up
Daydreaming on the stars

Reminiscing on my scars
Zoning off the xanny bars
With a hollowed out heart
Trying to fill the missing parts

But it keeps on getting charred
For the way I disregard
Always letting down my guard
Using drugs from the start

Wishing I could restart
To refrain from the thoughts
How I think of suicide a lot
I say I’m doing fine, but I’m not

(Chorus)
I am falling down
Drugged out, walking around
I can’t feel the ground
I feel like I’m going to drown

My head is up in the clouds
It’s clouded so much with doubt
So many broken vows
I’m swishing jack with pills in my mouth

Then I bottle in the pain
I can’t take this shit again
I can’t change a thing
It’s all the same on memory lane

(Verse II)
Wishing I could go back
To tell myself nothing lasts
There’s no second chance
But you will learn to be a better man

Don’t be doing drugs,
Or you will soon lose hope
Cause your love dies from dope
And you won’t know how to cope

So you’ll try to overdose
And hang yourself with a rope
Then you’ll fail to prevail
In many ways you wanna go

You’ll be searching for some help
Trying to let people know
Writing suicidal notes
and having stand offs alone

You will get your heart broke
And get treated like a joke
Choosing not to get close
From being left on your own

Getting kicked from your home
Disabling your phone
You’ll be cold to your bones
On the road to where you may roam

Walking in the rain storms
Wishing you were never born
But you’ll make it out man,
I wish I couldve fuckin known

slipping in and out my zone
Making music in my throne
still trying to grab a hold
Of what the fuck I’m living for cause...

(Chorus x2)
I am falling down
Drugged out, walking around
I can’t feel the ground
I feel like I’m going to drown

My head is up in the clouds
It’s clouded so much with doubt
So many broken vows
I’m swishing jack with pills in my mouth

Then I bottle in the pain
I can’t take this shit again
I can’t change a thing
It’s all the same on memory lane

Memory Lane

(Chorus)
Things have gone so bad
I’m feeling sad, I’m going mad
I swear I’m trying the best I can
To go and live on with my past

There’s no way out unless I crash
Then wake back up, not feeling that
I wasn’t used to looking back
And making peace with what I had
There’s no way

Things have gone so bad
I’m feeling sad, I’m going mad
I swear I’m trying the best I can
To go and live on with my past

There’s no way out unless I crash
Then wake back up, not feeling that
I wasn’t used to looking back
And making peace with what I had

(Fuck!)

(Breece verse)
Why won’t the car crash
Screaming out to nothing this is all bad
Fixed up, I’m a junkie in the back of an alley 
Sippin outta tall can, god damn my man I’m losing it

I miss my friends, so many dead
There’s so many fucking pictures inside my head
Just one more click, I’m eatin lead, 
playing Russian roulette, laying in my bed

A steady scream
why do I let this demon speak
Use a razor blade just to get release, 
I wait and bleed, drain this pain inside of me

Waking up in bloody sheets
God remove this curse from me
I hate it here, can’t fucking leave
I live this life of misery


(Chorus)
Things have gone so bad
I’m feeling sad, I’m going mad
I swear I’m trying the best I can
To go and live on with my past

There’s no way out unless I crash
Then wake back up, not feeling that
I wasn’t used to looking back
And making peace with what I had
There’s no way

Things have gone so bad
I’m feeling sad, I’m going mad
I swear I’m trying the best I can
To go and live on with my past

There’s no way out unless I crash
Then wake back up, not feeling that
I wasn’t used to looking back
And making peace with what I had



(Dwellers verse)
Dear god,
Can you tell me why
Tell me why you won’t let me die
Leaving me in many ways traumatized
In the ways I survived
Why am I still alive
Can you show me the light?

I am blind from the darkness of time
Just lost in my mind, where I’m struggling to find
Whats been wrong with me inside
from all the problems that I hide
And what I put off to the side
And then I always wonder why
Why I can not get by

I’ll be lost in my head
Trying to sleep on my bed
As I try to pray to god
To stop dreaming of the dead

I was always seeing red
From the funerals I attend
Wishin I was put to rest
Instead of homies that were wishing me the best

Can you feel that I’m stressed?
When I rap this mess
Cause I couldn’t express
How I felt back then

Since God knows when
How it’s all really been
From the way life went
No one cared what i meant

There's No Way(Ft. Breece)

SIDEWALKS-Dweller The Storyteller


(Chorus/Hook)
I'm falling too deep into my sleep
I can not wake up, I’m trying to breathe
So when I wake up I’ll be able to see
The reality that I can’t leave


(Verse)
Every time I go to sleep
I’m hoping that I never dream
Cause In my waking life
I’m always dwelling on my memories

And all the drugs that carried me
And how it used to set me free
But now I can’t think of anything
To use to let me be

So then I’ll have a couple drinks
To kill off all the ways I think
Cause I can not control the pain
And suffering that life would bring

I need some time to take a seat
So I can write to all my beats
Then I can tell you how I feel
And show you what the fuck I mean

But not too much of what I’ve seen
Or even how I handled things
Until this day I’m still trying to cope
With all these tragedies

Then go about it passively
For those that aren’t so handling
But don’t be fooled, cause by myself
I’m breaking down massively
To get us through what’s happening

(Chorus/Hook)
I'm falling too deep into my sleep
I can not wake up, I’m trying to breathe
So when I wake up I’ll be able to see
The reality that I can’t leave


(Verse II)
I've broken down the signs, In my timeline, 
watching numbers fly by, People show me
how oblivious to what’s in front of their eyes
And I’ve been losing my mind
I can’t tell how far ahead I am
I’m falling behind

I had mentally declined
Being rejected by the light
I can only guide others out the dark
Or through the night
So if your wondering why,
Its cause I’ve already tried
Just know I won’t see, everybody
On the other side


But I can provide
A gift that comes from inside
It is nothing but the truth
And have no reason to lie
That’s why it’s good to be kind
Because not everyone’s nice
That’s why I’m staring at the sidewalks
When I’m walking by
Can’t you tell that I’m fine?


(Chorus/Hook)
I'm falling too deep into my sleep
I can not wake up, I’m trying to breathe
So when I wake up I’ll be able to see
The reality that I can’t leave

Sidewalks

Homeless - Dweller The Storyteller

(Chorus/hook)
I will not last if I keep going on like this
I lived my life, I’ve seen some shit
And I was homeless cause I slipped
But now I know
(2X)
I will not last if I keep going on like this
I lived my life, I’ve seen some shit
And I was homeless cause I slipped
Cause Back then


(Verse I)
Almost everyday I was posted at McDonald’s
Asking for some money to get some food
but no one gave me a dollar
Started jackin food from peoples tables
and the front counter
Walking to different fast foods
For what I can and can’t encounter

Just a poor ass little junkie
I was trying to make my money
Just to buy and take more drugs
So that way Im not going hungry
digging in the trash, yeah
It was like that, at the time it was gold
to find Whole burgers wrapped

You’d be even lucky just To
find half eaten snacks
Few times I found a dumpster
With a hidden drug stash
Got a couple coke bags
With some cigs in a pack
Wrapped up in a oil rag
Where the hook lift goes in the back


(Chorus/hook)
I will not last if I keep going on like this
I lived my life, I’ve seen some shit
And I was homeless cause I slipped
But now I know
(2X)
I will not last if I keep going on like this
I lived my life, I’ve seen some shit
And I was homeless cause I slipped
Cause Back then


(Verse II)
I never wanted to get better
I was under heavy pressure
just by the thoughts of how
Nothing lasts forever
I was walking 80 miles
To another fucking city
Took me three and a half days
Cause there was no sign of life within me

I was sleeping by the train tracks
When a homeless man attacked
I was laying on my back, kicked him off,
and then we scrapped
Then I had to extract
it had gotten out of hand
It was so fuckin bad
he had a seizure getting cracked

Then I had to run man
I was so scared cause I didn’t have a plan
So I just dipped out
Trying to find where to crash
And realized overnight that
This isn’t who I am
cause now I know…

(Chorus/hook)
I will not last if I keep going on like this
I lived my life, I’ve seen some shit
And I was homeless cause I slipped
But now I know
(2X)
I will not last if I keep going on like this
I lived my life, I’ve seen some shit
And I was homeless cause I slipped
Cause I didn’t know…

Homeless - Dweller The Storyteller

Gravity - Dweller The Storyteller 


(Chorus/hook)
My feelings for you
have no laws of gravity, baby (maybe)
I know you think I’m crazy,
My mind is just racing, Its dazy (hazy)
Baby


(Verse I)
All I want in life 
Is for you to stop ignoring me
Or even reach out
like I try to do accordingly

Cause life without you
ain’t the same like how it used to be
I’m tired of going to sleep without you
And our history

I miss you so much,
Im always thinking why you had to leave
It feels like you died 
because every single day I grieve 

I don’t think you understand
How much all the pain it brings 
I just want to say, I’m sorry 
if I screwed up everything

Im doing my best to not
Get caught up in my feelings
Because every now and then
It just feels like I’ve been dreaming

And I’ve been tired of waking up
Feeling like there is no meaning
Because your my only reason 
why I question why I’m still living 


(Chorus/hook)
My feelings for you
have no laws of gravity, baby (maybe)
I know you think I’m crazy,
My mind is just racing, Its dazy (hazy)
Baby


(Verse II)
Everything you’ve said to me
From back when we had a thing
It still lingers in my head to
Living in a fantasy 

I know times have changed
But my heart stayed the same
It’s been hard on my soul
Being played like a game

It has left me afraid
To trust anyone in anyway 
You were my best friend 
It haunts me every day

every time I close my eyes
I will always see your face
Until I open my eyes and 
see the world that I hate

I know It may not seem like much 
But it’s a lot on my plate
When I try to talk to you 
But you got nothing to say

But just know that its ok
In this world we try to shape
But just please regret nothing
When I’m gone from this place.


(Chorus/hook)
My feelings for you
have no laws of gravity, baby (maybe)
I know you think I’m crazy,
My mind is just racing, Its dazy (hazy)
Baby

Gravity

PENDULUM - Dweller The Storyteller & Suburban Trap

(Chorus)
Where did everyone go?
Does it matter? I don’t know
I don’t want to be alone
This world to me don’t feel like home


(Suburban Trap)

I've been feeling up and down
Swangin left to right 
Keep my mind occupied but I'm feeling tired
Dedicated all I know tryna to figure it out
I've spent many nights trying to rewire 
Lived in 5 different states never knew what was home
From a fam of 14 but still felt so alone
My mind in a pace from the shit that I saw
Now I'm Watering plants tryna see what will grow

Sorry that im distant
I don't got time to waste now
Wish it was different
But not everyday is Christmas
I wish that I could listen 
I guess I need a wake up
Live everyday so shameless 
Trying to get the paper


(Chorus x4)
Where did everyone go?
Does it matter? I don’t know
I don’t want to be alone
This world to me don’t feel like home



(Dwellers verse)
Im stuck in the middle 
getting hit left and right
As the pendulum swings
Reminiscing on my life

Overthinking of the times
What people could’ve done right
Instead of leading others on
Just be honest, don’t lie

I will pick up all the signs
And don’t think ill let ‘em slide
I will leave your ass behind
If you fuck with my mind

I will let you do it once
And then maybe even twice
Up until I catch on, 
I’ll be out of reach and out of sight

Look at me now though 
I’m trying to make yall proud
I don’t see why some of you
Have always tried to put me down

I’ve been trying to show you all 
What the fuck I’m all about
No one cared to listen then
Until you hear about me now

And now you want to hear me out 
It don’t surprise me, not a doubt
Now from here, we’re getting older
And we have to make it count

So I’m here to re-announce
That nothing comes back around
We have to work really hard to get 
Ourselves off the ground when we’re down


(Chorus)
Where did everyone go?
Does it matter? I don’t know
I don’t want to be alone
This world to me don’t feel like home

Pendulum (Ft. Suburban Trap)

Kill Yourself - Dweller The Storyteller

(Verse I)
I always think about the times 
When I had tried to kill myself
I never thought I’d make it out alive
And started doing well

Back when I was 14
I started smoking morphine
Poppin pills and snorting thrills
With promethazine codeine 

I’ll slice my arm with paper clips
On adderall and cocaine
And gather up the toilet paper
So that there’s no blood stains

Cover up with long sleeves
Black shirts, no bloody scenes
Scotch tape, wrapped around my arm 
to hold in what I bleed


(Verse II)
Tied noose, but I couldn’t 
find a place to hang loose
So I took my 12 gauge
To blow my brains out through the roof

sat down in my living room
And cocked it back like one, two (shotgun fx)
Count to 3 and pulled the trigger
As I felt my eyes grew

The pin had struck the primer
But the shell did not haywire
As I broke down fucking crying
Cause my time did not expire

For so long I’ve been so tired
I’ve been broken for awhile
Every now and then I’ll slip on drugs
Cause I feel undesired 

I’ve been trying to retire
From the stresses I’ve acquired 
Cause I’m tired of living life
Like I’m a piece of shit in piles

Sometimes I forget to smile
Cause it’s been a long while
I had grown up in environments
That made me become hostile


(Ending hook)
Kill yourself, kill yourself
My mind tells me to “kill myself”
“Nobody will be there for you 
when you need the fucking help”

Kill yourself, kill yourself
My mind tells me to “kill yourself”
You can drink or do some drugs
Cause either way your going to hell

Kill yourself, kill yourself
My mind tells me to “kill yourself”
Even though you tried and failed
One more times the charm that tells

Kill yourself, kill yourself
My mind tells me to “kill yourself”
No matter when or where you are
You’re always gonna fuckin dwell

























I was on and off on drugs
when I fell in or out of love



























I praised death for glory

Kill Yourself

Unforgetful - Dweller The Storyteller


(Chorus)
I know that life won’t be the same
I wished some things could not have changed
I can’t forget how far i came
From all the times Ive gone insane

I can’t believe It’s gone this way
how do we live this day by day
I’m stressing over everything
And everyone I thought would stay


(Verse I)
Good memories have 
become post traumatic 
it is nothing bad, 
it’s just the things that I miss having

Times have been so tragic
Without the times when we were laughing
Now I’m all by myself trying to make
My dreams happen

You were into fashion
But I’m all about compassion
No one ever gave a fuck about 
My words or my actions

Most of my life, I didn’t grow up that happy
I had spent my teen years 
at funerals with my family

And I was always poppin pills
Because man, I couldn’t stand it
I was tired of seeing everyone
I used to know In caskets

burried or burned to ashes
As time keeps on passing
The more I’m feeling stranded
Cause were taken all for granted


(Chorus)
I know that life won’t be the same
I wished some things could not have changed
I can’t forget how far i came
From all the times Ive gone insane

I can’t believe It’s gone this way
how do we live this day by day
I’m stressing over everything
And everyone I thought would stay


(Verse II)
Every other morning 
I’ll be drowning in my sorrows
wondering what would change in life for you 
if I did not wake up tomorrow 

Would you love me more if my
Existence became hollow?
Cause I think about it
Every other day that is followed

Why can’t these memories
Stop popping up and bugging me
I’m tired of thinking about everything
And how it used to be

It haunts me when I go to sleep
Or even here just counting sheep
And even at my jobs while
I’m working as i hide the grief

I’ll tell you what nobody sees
Cause everybody will perceive
On how I lived my life and 
how I handled problems differently

Cause mentally, everything 
will always be too much for me
Im hoping that this world learns 
to show the love that we all need


(Chorus)
I know that life won’t be the same
I wished some things could not have changed
I can’t forget how far i came
From all the times Ive gone insane

I can’t believe It’s gone this way
how do we live this day by day
I’m stressing over everything
And everyone I thought would stay

Unforgetful

MONSTERS- Dweller The Storyteller

(Chorus/hook)
These monsters in my head
They tease me that I am not dead
How I’m alive instead 
And wishing I could be with them

You will not dwell, down here in hell
If you keep peace within yourself
Your just a demon that will never get
An angels help


(Verse I)
I thought these evil thoughts in my head
Growing up was normal
Telling me to chase a dragon
Off some tin foil

Every time my blood boils
When I go through turmoil
I feel a voice saying 
“do the drugs, no one’s loyal”

Remember all the times 
when you got so mad
But no one cared to know
How you grew up like that?

People thought you were wack
Cause your luck was so bad
So you chose to grab the gat
And try to blow your top back

Mother fucker, you need to realize
As much as you would like to die
Your gonna learn how to suffer
With this shit your whole life

It will be your fucking time
When I say your soul is mine
Committing suicide Is not an
Option while you’re still alive

Now for all the times you’ve tried
for once, i know you’ll get it right
Otherwise I’ll tease you and
Make you cry about it all night

Ill be making you decide
of how and what your feeling like
I’m the Angel on your shoulder
Who’s the devil in disguise


(Chorus/hook)
These monsters in my head
They tease me that I am not dead
How I’m alive instead 
And wishing I could be with them

You will not dwell, down here in hell
If you keep peace within yourself
Your just a demon that will never get
An angels help
(X2)


(Verse II)
I got a call at 3am
An evil voice said my name
Saying they’ve been waiting for me
This is not a game

Things had never been the same
From the person I became
I was always getting drunk
Or pilled out every day

Cause I heard the devil say
That It’s gonna be ok 
But I still have to torture
You in some sort of way

So get used to the pain
There is nothing more to gain
But I’ll make you tell the world 
How we partnered up in vain

So I, Started drinking and 
smoking since I was thirteen, 
by seventeen, and I was 
hot railing morphine

By the age of 23 
I was living on the streets
Traveling back and forth 
From Tucson and SV

I’ve never been so lonely
Trying to seek within what’s holy
Because every time I prayed to 
God, The devil answered for me

Every time I go to bed 
and when I wake up in the morning
I’ve been praying to the lord to
Repent me for my story
Cause…


(Chorus/hook)
These monsters in my head
They tease me that I am not dead
How I’m alive instead 
And wishing I could be with them

You will not dwell, down here in hell
If you keep peace within yourself
Your just a demon that will never get
An angels help

Monsters

Alucard - Dweller The Storyteller

(Verse I)
Aye yo Rest In Peace baby boy
My heart full of joy
When you left, it destroyed
All the stars to the void
My soul can’t rejoice cause
I’m missing your meows
Like you’ve missed my voice


It’s been hard going on
Since the day you’ve been gone
I’ve been trying to stay strong
Cause my days have been long
I don’t know where fuck I belong
It still feels like the morning
When you died in my arms


I miss you so bad
And it makes me really mad
How it makes me so sad
you were all that I had
You should’ve went last
With me in the past
Now I can’t fucking stand
how i really want you back

And it sucks that I can’t
Cause I wish that I can
It’s been hard without you
Just to be who I am
And to be where I’m at
I was left to be damned
With the world that I lost
in the palm of my hands


(Verse II)
I’ll always remember when I woke
up with you passed out on my chest
I was claimed by the best,
Waking up in this mess
Wishing that you never left
Now I’m back to waking up
all alone and depressed

Now it’s hard for me to rest
I can’t stop being stressed
Cause words can’t explain
how much you really meant
From the times we had spent
From beginnings til the end
Man, I can’t wait to see you
When im finally dead


Just know that I love you
and I really fucking care
And the homies that are gone
Will be with you until Im there
But I also really hate it
that you’re not even here
Cause I still feel your presence
But I can’t see where

So I guess until then,
Goodbye my friend
My funeral will be,
the last One to attend
So for every other day
that may come to an end
Just know I can’t wait to see
and hold you again

Alucard

Believe - Dweller The Storyteller 


(Chorus x2)
I have no one to believe in but myself
Cause nobody helped, or cared for how I felt
It was only me, when there was no one else
To be here for when I wasn’t doing so well


(Verse I)
Believe in yourself, 
I won’t believe in you now
I need to focus on myself
Then give my time to you clowns
Ive been trying to reach the top
But y’all been dragging me down
Trying to pull me away from
What I’m doing right now

I can’t be fuckin around,
No distractions allowed
Keep on swerving in my lane
And you will see me freak out
Everybody acting proud or 
maybe its a thought of doubt
Or maybe it’s because you think you
Know what I’m about

This was all back then
When I thought we were friends
But no one checks up
Like I do before the end
Only got a few left
Who’ve kept it real since then
So fuck the rest of you for
Not caring how I’ve been

Now you’re acting like you did
When you weren’t even there to be
With me through some bullshit 
While producing music
And feeling like your losing
Trying to figure out what your doin
But I gotta tell myself, 
you got to keep it moving cause


(Chorus x2)
I have no one to believe in but myself
Cause nobody helped, or cared for how I felt
It was only me, when there was no one else
To be here for when I wasn’t doing so well


(Verse II)
Don’t worry though, 
I still believe in all of you
It’s just most people
don’t ever follow through
Cause they’re gonna go ahead
And just do what they want to do
And there you are, sitting there
Like a damn fool

Wasted all your time too
Before you knew it, time flew
I’m getting real pissed off 
No one’s making moves
I’m the only fucking dude
Trying to shoot pass the moon
Everybody wants to work 
Until I say it’s my room

No one wants to be rude
But I will hear about it soon
Then you’ll always wonder why
I never acknowledge you
Cause the bullshit you do
Is not what I’m into
I’ll say hi as you pretend 
like I’m no one that you knew

I’m the only one I choose
Cause I am tired of being used
I will never be available,
It fucks with my mood

Everybody that I know 
has always made an excuse
I am just a recluse
Tightening up loose screws cause


(Chorus x2)
I have no one to believe in but myself
Cause nobody helped, or cared for how I felt
It was only me, when there was no one else
To be here for when I wasn’t doing so well

Believe

3 A.M - Dweller The Storyteller (ft.Breece)

(Chorus/breece and dweller)
Turn the lights down low
Let the night play on
I've been on my own for way too long

Turn the lights down low
They've been on too long
Never leave your side 
You’ll never die alone 


(Breece)
And why should the night not have lead us here?
I’m wasted but facing all of my fears
It’s alarming, your lips so charming
Im making my intentions clear?

This moment in time, I claim it as mine
I’m caught in your eyes, feel death so near
You’ve got me tongue tied, 
need your hand in mine
Green eyes shine so bright,
Make this world disappear 


(Chorus/breece and dweller)

Turn the lights down low
Let the night play on
I've been on my own for way too long

Turn the lights down low
They've been on too long
I’ll Never leave your side 
You’ll never die alone


(Dweller)
I’ve been hoping that you’re doing alright
Even when I’m not here to be by your side
Just know you’re on my mind 
every single day and night
I’ve been trying to find the time
Just for only you and I 

And I will try so hard
So we don’t fall apart
I know it’s not that much
But here’s what’s left of my heart

I will not let you fall
Cause you’re my wonderwall
At 3am I’m up to see if 
You had text or called at all

3 A.M (Ft. Breece)

Falling - Dweller The Storyteller 

(Dweller & Breece)
I can’t keep falling
Can’t keep falling again (yeah)
I can’t keep falling again

I think she’s calling (yeah)
she’s calling again (yeah)
I think she’s calling again

I think I’m falling,
think I’m falling again,
I think I’m falling again

And now she’s calling (yeah)
she’s calling again (yeah)
I think I’ve fallen again

(Breece)
Tell me, where the fuck would you be without me?
You really think i meant for this to happen?
i never fucking asked to be this person,
fuck the despair I'm always trapped in

I need a break, I need a sign, I need a reason
sweep me up, I'm left in nothing more than pieces 
bleed me dry, they'll find me cold and sleeveless
fuck this, fuck that, fuck you, I don't fucking need this


(Dwellers verse)

Every single day it feels like
I’m dead without you
I knew this was all
too good to be true

If only you had knew
How much that I’d lose
And everything else
I would go through

Maybe it would change
your mind on what you would do
Instead of maybe ending
it all so soon

If only you had tried to
Reach back out too
I’d hold on longer
To see us bloom

I feel so used
Hurt and confused
How I’m not the only
Man you choose

I’d rather die
Than stay alive
Cause you’d rather leave
Than say goodbye

Falling (Ft. Breece)

There’s No Way - Dweller The Storyteller 


(Chorus)
Things have gone so bad
I’m feeling sad, I’m going mad
I swear I’m trying the best I can
To go and live on with my past

There’s no way out unless I crash
Then wake back up, not feeling that
I wasn’t used to looking back
And making peace with what I had
There’s no way

Things have gone so bad
I’m feeling sad, I’m going mad
I swear I’m trying the best I can
To go and live on with my past

There’s no way out unless I crash
Then wake back up, not feeling that
I wasn’t used to looking back
And making peace with what I had

(Fuck!)

(Breece verse)
Why won’t the car crash
Screaming out to nothing this is all bad
Fixed up, I’m a junkie in the back of an alley 
Sippin outta tall can, god damn my man I’m losing it

I miss my friends, so many dead
There’s so many fucking pictures inside my head
Just one more click, I’m eatin lead, 
playing Russian roulette, laying in my bed

A steady scream
why do I let this demon speak
Use a razor blade just to get release, 
I wait and bleed, drain this pain inside of me

Waking up in bloody sheets
God remove this curse from me
I hate it here, can’t fucking leave
I live this life of misery


(Chorus)
Things have gone so bad
I’m feeling sad, I’m going mad
I swear I’m trying the best I can
To go and live on with my past

There’s no way out unless I crash
Then wake back up, not feeling that
I wasn’t used to looking back
And making peace with what I had
There’s no way

Things have gone so bad
I’m feeling sad, I’m going mad
I swear I’m trying the best I can
To go and live on with my past

There’s no way out unless I crash
Then wake back up, not feeling that
I wasn’t used to looking back
And making peace with what I had



(Dwellers verse)
Dear god,
Can you tell me why
Tell me why you won’t let me die
Leaving me in many ways traumatized
In the ways I survived
Why am I still alive
Can you show me the light?

I am blind from the darkness of time
Just lost in my mind, where I’m struggling to find
Whats been wrong with me inside
from all the problems that I hide
And what I put off to the side
And then I always wonder why
Why I can not get by

I’ll be lost in my head
Trying to sleep on my bed
As I try to pray to god
To stop dreaming of the dead

I was always seeing red
From the funerals I attend
Wishin I was put to rest
Instead of homies that were wishing me the best

Can you feel that I’m stressed?
When I rap this mess
Cause I couldn’t express
How I felt back then

Since God knows when
How it’s all really been
From the way life went
No one cared what i meant

There's No Way (Ft. Breece)

Homeless - Dweller The Storyteller 


(Chorus/hook)
I will not last if I keep going on like this
I lived my life, I’ve seen some shit
And I was homeless cause I slipped
But now I know
(2X)
I will not last if I keep going on like this
I lived my life, I’ve seen some shit
And I was homeless cause I slipped
Cause Back then


(Verse I)
Almost everyday I was posted at McDonald’s
Asking for some money to get some food 
but no one gave me a dollar
Started jackin food from peoples tables 
and the front counter
Walking to different fast foods
For what I can and can’t encounter

Just a poor ass little junkie
I was trying to make my money
Just to buy and take more drugs
So that way Im not going hungry
digging in the trash, yeah
It was like that, at the time it was gold
to find Whole burgers wrapped

You’d be even lucky just To 
find half eaten snacks
Few times I found a dumpster
With a hidden drug stash
Got a couple coke bags
With some cigs in a pack
Wrapped up in a oil rag
Where the hook lift goes in the back


(Chorus/hook)
I will not last if I keep going on like this
I lived my life, I’ve seen some shit
And I was homeless cause I slipped
But now I know
(2X)
I will not last if I keep going on like this
I lived my life, I’ve seen some shit
And I was homeless cause I slipped
Cause Back then


(Verse II)
I never wanted to get better
I was under heavy pressure
just by the thoughts of how 
Nothing lasts forever
I was walking 80 miles
To another fucking city
Took me three and a half days
Cause there was no sign of life within me

I was sleeping by the train tracks
When a homeless man attacked
I was laying on my back, kicked him off,
and then we scrapped
Then I had to extract 
it had gotten out of hand
It was so fuckin bad 
he had a seizure getting cracked

Then I had to run man
I was so scared cause I didn’t have a plan
So I just dipped out 
Trying to find where to crash
And realized overnight that
This isn’t who I am 
cause now I know…


(Chorus/hook)
I will not last if I keep going on like this
I lived my life, I’ve seen some shit
And I was homeless cause I slipped
But now I know 
(2X)

I will not last if I keep going on like this
I lived my life, I’ve seen some shit
And I was homeless cause I slipped
Cause I didn’t know…

Homeless

￼ Sidewalks - Dweller The Storyteller


(Chorus/Hook)
Im falling too deep into my sleep
I can not wake up, I’m trying to breathe
So when I wake up I’ll be able to see
The reality that i can’t leave


(Verse)
Every time I go to sleep
I’m hoping that I never dream
Cause In my waking life
I’m always dwelling on my memories

And all the drugs that carried me
And how it used to set me free
But now I can’t think of anything
To use to let me be

So then I’ll have a couple drinks
To kill off all the ways I think
Cause I can not control the pain
And suffering that life would bring

I need some time to take a seat
So I can write to all my beats
Then I can tell you how I feel
And show you what the fuck I mean

But not too much of what I’ve seen
Or even how I handled things
Until this day I’m still trying to cope 
With all these tragedies

Then go about it passively
For those that aren’t so handling
But don’t be fooled, cause by myself
I’m breaking down massively
To get us through what’s happening

(Chorus/Hook)
Im falling too deep into my sleep
I can not wake up, I’m trying to breathe
So when I wake up I’ll be able to see
The reality that i can’t leave


(Verse II)
Ive broken down the signs, In my timeline, watching numbers fly by, People show me 
how oblivious to what’s in front of their eyes
And I’ve been losing my mind
I can’t tell how far ahead I am
I’m falling behind

I had mentally declined
Being rejected by the light
I can only guide others out the dark
Or through the night
So if your wondering why,
Its cause I’ve already tried
Just know I won’t see, everybody 
On the other side


But I can provide
A gift that comes from inside 
It is nothing but the truth 
And have no reason to lie
That’s why it’s good to be kind
Because not everyone’s nice
That’s why I’m staring at the sidewalks
When I’m walking by
Can’t you tell that I’m fine?


(Chorus/Hook X2)
Im falling too deep into my sleep
I can not wake up, I’m trying to breathe
So when I wake up I’ll be able to see
The reality that i can’t leave

Memory Lane - Dweller The Storyteller 

(Chorus)
I am falling down
Drugged out, walking around
I can’t feel the ground
I feel like I’m going to drown

My head is up in the clouds
It’s clouded so much with doubt
So many broken vows
I’m swishing jack with pills in my mouth
Then I bottle in the pain
I can’t take this shit again
I can’t change a thing
It’s all the same on memory lane


(Verse I)
Now I’m here to back track
To tell you where my mind was at
Walking down the alley with 
a straw In a coke sack

Until it didn’t do jack
Then I started snortin smack
People wondered why I lost weight
And it was cause of that

Smoke about two packs
First ones don’t last
Unless I was chillin with
A mickey’s in my other hand

Drugs and alcohol was everything 
I couldn’t withstand
I’m forever damned
Until my fuckin life ends man

Chillin at Kiwanis park
Right after dark
And I’m swinging fucked up
Daydreaming on the stars

Reminiscing on my scars
Zoning off the xanny bars
With a hollowed out heart
Trying to fill the missing parts

But it keeps on getting charred 
For the way I disregard
Always letting down my guard
Using drugs from the start

Wishing I could restart
To refrain from the thoughts
How I think of suicide a lot
I say I’m doing fine, but I’m not


(Chorus)
I am falling down
Drugged out, walking around
I can’t feel the ground
I feel like I’m going to drown

My head is up in the clouds
It’s clouded so much with doubt
So many broken vows
I’m swishing jack with pills in my mouth

Then I bottle in the pain
I can’t take this shit again
I can’t change a thing
It’s all the same on memory lane


(Verse II)
Wishing I could go back
To tell myself nothing lasts
There’s no second chance 
But you will learn to be a better man

Don’t be doing drugs,
Or you will soon lose hope
Cause your love dies from dope
And you won’t know how to cope

So you’ll try to overdose
And hang yourself with a rope
Then you’ll fail to prevail
In many ways you wanna go

You’ll be searching for some help
Trying to let people know
Writing suicidal notes 
and having stand offs alone

You will get your heart broke
And get treated like a joke
Choosing not to get close
From being left on your own

Getting kicked from your home
Disabling your phone
You’ll be cold to your bones
On the road to where you may roam 

Walking in the rain storms
Wishing you were never born
But you’ll make it out man,
I wish I couldve fuckin known

slipping in and out my zone
Making music in my throne
still trying to grab a hold
Of what the fuck I’m living for cause


(Chorus x2)
I am falling down
Drugged out, walking around
I can’t feel the ground
I feel like I’m going to drown

My head is up in the clouds
It’s clouded so much with doubt
So many broken vows
I’m swishing jack with pills in my mouth

Then I bottle in the pain
I can’t take this shit again
I can’t change a thing
It’s all the same on memory lane

Suicide Happiness- Dweller The Storyteller


(Verse I)
I never thought I’d ever see the day
 Where I put my gun down and walk away
 I was feeling out of place 
Cause My mind doesn’t want to stay
 But my heart and soul just 
doesn’t feel the same way 
Everybody plays games
 I don’t even want to play
Can’t you fucking understand?
 I’m just here to die today I really want to live 
But I’m also trying to find the way 
Just Incase, when I want to leave this place 
I’m always on drugs Trying to deal with the shakes
 I want to slow down But the gas is my brake
 Im living too fast holding on to the hate
 I’m trying to live life to the Fullest in my ways
 But it’s hard going on When your mind is playing games
 I feel like I’m going insane When people say the way
 I think and feel is just a normal thing
 I’m in pain I don’t think I’ll ever feel the same
 Cause it floods when it rains 
Nothing drains
 As I soak it up again 


(Chorus)
 Suicide happiness 
Welcome to the madness
 It’s a colorful world Surrounded by blackness 
I mask all the sadness With drugs, to forget what happened 
But it makes me manic To the point where I will panic
Cause I overthink too much And I can’t fucking stand it
I dream of being a star Cause I’m looking up to planets (plan it’s) 
So I had to fuckin vanish 
Just to deal with the damage 

(Verse II)

 Fuck! 
I don’t want to be alone 
On my own, in my home 
I put the chrome up to my dome\
 Pull the trigger then I’m gone
 I’m fucking done, I want to blow my head
 straight off to kingdom come 
In my room Drinking rum
 Yelling “I will be someone”

(i hate you so much it makes me sick)

And one day I looked back 
And nearly had a heart attack 
I Did the best I can to forget what I fucking had 
I tried to kill these feelings man
I thought the drugs would handle that 

Everything was fucking bad
I’m still really fucking sad 
Every time I'm feeling scared, 
It makes me really fucking mad 
I’m tired of running laps 
it’s not helping where I’m at 
I’ve been going around in circles Til I take a dirt nap
I just want to relax 
So I fuckin relapse 

(Chorus) 
Suicide happiness 
Welcome to the madness 
It’s a colorful world Surrounded by blackness 
I mask all the sadness With drugs to forget what happened 
But it makes me manic To the point where I will panic 
Cause I overthink too much And I can’t fucking stand it 
I dream of being a star Cause I’m looking up to planets (plan it’s) 
So I had to fuckin vanish 
Just to deal with the damage

Suicide happiness 
Welcome to the madness 
It’s a colorful world Surrounded by blackness 
I mask all the sadness With drugs to forget what happened 
But it makes me manic To the point where I will panic 
Cause I overthink too much And I can’t fucking stand it 
I dream of being a star Cause I’m looking up to planets (plan it’s) 
So I had to fuckin vanish 
Just to deal with the damage

Suicide Happiness- Dweller The Storyteller

just another dude trying to get by.

here to spread mental health awareness through my music.

Dweller The Storyteller

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