Song: My Ordinary Life - The Living Tombstone

my ordinary life

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I feel everything but show nothing.
I smile when I want to scream.
I push people away then beg them to stay.
I want closeness but I'm terrified of it.
I blame myself for everything.
I don’t know who I am.
I say I’m fine when I’m not.
I fear being a burden.
I fall apart in silence.
I punish myself for needing love.
I hate being seen but hate being invisible more.
I don’t trust anyone fully.
I expect abandonment even when I’m loved.
I second-guess every word I say.
I isolate to feel safe but feel worse when alone.
I crave connection then feel trapped by it.
I apologize for existing.
I feel guilt for things I didn’t do.
I downplay my pain so no one leaves.
I remember every rejection.
I replay every conversation.
I absorb other people’s moods.
I pretend I don’t care when I care too much.
I want to disappear without being forgotten.
I keep quiet so no one hates me.
I fear being too much and not enough.
I fake stability to stay accepted.
I feel broken but act put together.
I never ask for help but wish someone would notice.
I survive by staying silent.




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