you're all i ever loved....

hope u guys enjoy the song, this one is rly meaningful to me

HUGE thanks to @itschrismarek for going crazy on the beat as always <3

lyrics:

guess you’re right i need help cuz i’m not alright 
playing with the cards that she dealt hurting down inside
i been getting sick of it, i don’t even wanna try

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

when i thought i hit my best, we’re breaking up
every time i try to go to rest, i’m thinking of
all the times we had
thinking of all the times we had

i know i know 
i’ll be sitting on a silo, silo
i’ll be doing this on my own, my own
don’t wanna hear you fucking call

(i’m numb)
(i been so damn numb)
(from the day you said “we’re done”)
(you’re all i ever loved)
(you’re all i ever loved)

guess you’re right i need help cuz i’m not alright 
playing with the cards that she dealt hurting down inside
i been getting sick of it, i don’t even wanna try

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

(i know i know)
(i’ll be sitting on a silo, silo)
(i’ll be doing this on my own, my own)
(don’t wanna hear you fucking call)

if ur still reading this ily :)

all plats

sick of it [prod. chrismarek]

BURNING IN THE DANGERS OF THE LIFE I WANTTTTT

hope u guys like this one, put a lot of emotion into it

HUGE shoutout to @b_murph for the fucking amazing feature ily dawggg

lyrics:

(oh, ohhhh)

i been tryna right my wrongs
turning to an angel in the sky i fall
burning in the dangers of the life i want 
never been a stranger to the life in the dark

i want another chance
i want a motherland
i fall in love again 
(i fall, i- i- i fall)

one step too close to the edge
now im falling back down, yeah
im falling in love again
but you're not from the motherland
im in love with a motherfucking demon

i hide the cuts on my wrist, promise im just tryna feel sum (something)
she said that she loves me but she said she never feels nun (nothing)
i hide all my pain with tequila and some white rum
the closer that we get the more i just wanna run

so tell me your intentions before i give me all to you
cause i dont wanna lose you, like i always fucking do

i been tryna right my wrongs
turning to an angel in the sky i fall
burning in the dangers of the life i want 
never been a stranger to the life in the dark

i want another chance
i want a motherland
i fall in love again 
(i fall, i- i- i fall)

angel w/ bmurph [prod. branwen]

:(

thank u @itschrismarek for the amazing beat ily dawg 

hope u guys like this btw, tried summ different 

lyrics:

cut my wrists and burn me down
you’re all i think about
you’re all i think about
you’re an angel from the clouds

ohhh
i don’t wanna fall
all the time i lost
tryna find my love

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

(i gave you all the fucking world)

did you miss me?
cuz you left me with these scars like i was sixteen
fucking crying in the car and sippin whiskey
i remember all the times you would kiss me
that you would kiss me

ohhh
i don’t wanna fall
all the time i lost
tryna find my love

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

feel the same [prod. chrismarek]

happy birthday to me :)

out of everything i dropped this year this song was defs my favorite so enjoy the slow, sad version. thank u to everyone who made 17 the best year i ever had <33

thank u @itschrismarek for producing this, we the best duo in the state fr hehe 

alsooo i plan on venturing far from my roots this year. expect some rly sad, alternative sounds.

woebegone </3

feel the same [og]

IM DROWNING IN MY PAIN AGAIN AND HIDING WITH THE DRUGSSSSSS

@zupehr i am literally SO FUCKING GLAD we tapped in again. i missed workin with u so much dawg, everything we make is super deep and our vibe is just gjdhjgdjhkg so good ily brobro

i went to war with myself mixing this so ur welcome for posting this btw lol

lyrics:

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

fuck love
i’ll never be enough
i’m drowning in my pain again and hiding with the drugs 
i’m like, “the fuck’s up?”
you never told me wrong
i blame myself for everything and hide it in a song

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

i been fighting
but the razor blade is looking so inviting
all the memories we made are coinciding 
in my brain again my skin is just dividing

fuckin it up and i just blame it on the timing 
nobody loves a man without a silver lining
down to my gut i feel that i won’t be surviving 
covered in cuts i been a mess that i been hiding 

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

fuck love
i’ll never be enough
i’m drowning in my pain again and hiding with the drugs 
i’m like, “the fuck’s up?”
you never told me wrong
i blame myself for everything and hide it in a song

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

hiding [prod. zupehr x sadpra]

@ilysora </3

thank u for listening, this song means a lot to both me and sora

sc only :)

o ya btw i was like 15 when i made this hook lol i know it’s mid

for us w/ ilysora [prod. luciid x jkei]

experimental. 

huge shoutout to @kryst3n, my best friend in the scene for doin this feat. so glad we made a song finally ily twin <3333

lyrics:

one fight then we break up
then you’re coming back and you’re always tryna make up
do it all again, do it all again,
tell me you’re in love then you say we’re better friends

saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
been alone i’m in my bed now 
fuckin hope you understand that
saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
imma go and i won’t even say goodbye
i’ll dieeee

(SUICIDES MY ONLY HOPE)

im falling u dont even give a damn
you would rather focus on everything that i did wrong
your legs move running fast as you can
you were called out on all the bullshit that you said

I was the other fucking half of u
threw out good times im so fucking mad with u
now its bad habits we fell back into 
i hope all ur new friends turn and laugh at u i swear

saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
been alone i’m in my bed now 
fuckin hope you understand that
saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
imma go and i won’t even say goodbye
i’ll dieeee

back2u w/ kryst3n [prod. dercept x 80root]

prod by me
all plats: https://ffm.to/byekento-morgue

(lyrics)
everybody treats me like i don't fucking know
freezing in the fucking cold 
i wish that i had a choice
fuck it i don't care no more
leaving me without a voice 
screaming out "please save me lord" 
i'm standing on your fucking grove 

i know they won't keep me close 
so i stay the fuck alone
tell me that its all my fault
i'm just tryna stay afloat 
walking down the same old path
find out where it fucking goes 
now i'm not the same as then
and i know it fucking shows

bleeding on the fucking floor
leave me at the fucking door 
take me for a fucking joke
god i hope you fucking choke 
fuck it i don't care no more 
promised me you fucking swore 
nothing but a fucking whore
take me to the fucking morgue

bleeding on the fucking floor
leave me at the fucking door 
take me for a fucking joke
god i hope you fucking choke 
fuck it i don't care no more 
promised me you fucking swore 
nothing but a fucking whore
take me to the fucking morgue

i can't even breathe your air
sware that this ain't even fair 
fucking had a heart attack
guess you had another laugh 
i can't even go outside 
wasting all our fucking time
live or die i can't decide 
i cant seem to make my mind

but i guess i don't need to
all this shit is see through 
they been tryna tell me what to do 
but i don't fear you
and i sware everything's a fucking curse 
when i'm near you
and i wish that you had the fucking nerve 
to come and see it through 

everybody treats me like i don't fucking know
freezing in the fucking cold 
i wish that i had a choice
fuck it i don't care no more
leaving me without a voice 
screaming out "please save me lord"
i'm standing on your fucking grove 

bleeding on the fucking floor
leave me at the fucking door 
take me for a fucking joke
god i hope you fucking choke 
fuck it i don't care no more 
promised me you fucking swore 
nothing but a fucking whore
take me to the fucking morgue

bleeding on the fucking floor
leave me at the fucking door 
take me for a fucking joke
god i hope you fucking choke 
fuck it i don't care no more 
promised me you fucking swore 
nothing but a fucking whore
take me to the fucking morgue

(screaming out "please save me lord"
i'm standing on your fucking grove)

up on all platforms <3

morgue

feel my world just decay as i'm growing up . . .

huge shoutout to @byekento for carrying tf outta this song, u one of my best friends bro ilysm <33

>lyrics<
i been through too much
tryna do too much
feel my world just decay as im growing up
sprials swirling away; brain is blowing up
tryna hurl all my pain; i been throwing up

i just been too fucked up to remember
the times i gave soul back up for the devil
i take a couple puffs; im not more than a vessel
im thinkin way too much; i'll just go fuckin mental

i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them 
i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them

and i been tryna find my way back
if you really love me 
why the fuck ain’t you just say that 
i know im still caught up in my head 
i can’t escape yet chase a paycheck 
still alive but im looking for my fucking grave damn 

and i know that its still gon be the fucking same 
i know i won’t ever change
i know i’m the bad guy 
so i stay inside my lane
fuck no i ain’t reaching out
but i still wish they heard me now 
i know that i let ‘em down

its all my fault so i stay alone 
never had a place to go 
never had a place like home
always somewhere dosing off
i could never let it show
nothing but a sacrifice 
know its all inside my mind 
all this time to figure me out

i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them 
i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them

impaled w/ byekento [prod. dercept x jolst]

@1darza @ninewaters <33
luv makin music with my friends fr ily guys

--lyrics--
fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite

hoping someone gets them off of me
im running for my life
want the peace the lord has offered me
im tryna catch a vibe
dont want attention, i dont want too many friends
forgot to mention, i cut off too many threads

hard for me to function, hard to feel alive
talkin all that tough shit, whyd i even try
i would run my mouth when i shoulda stayed quiet
i would run my mouth when i shoulda stayed quiet, ohhh

fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite

bitch im on this perc and ecstacy im out my mind
fuck 12 i aint doing time
you can see the pain when you lookin in my eyes
waking up high, thought i died last night

my bitch put the coke in her pussy
you aint doin shit to me boy you just a pussy
pullin up with rick on me, got your bitch lookin
flexin all that cash, now he sad cuz i took it

im on demon time, yeah
fees in my line, yeah
i dont needa die, im already dead
pull up to your spot, we gon paint it red
i need all the percocets, i need all the meds, yeah

fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite
fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite

it's the worst day
sometimes i will wonder why i did this in the first place
i would get antagonized and treated in the worst ways
i just want an answer; on my own im always searching
THERE'S TOO MANY PEOPLE IN MY WAY

alive w/ darza [prod. ninewaters]

@b_murph
p. yung spoiler
https://hyperfollow.com/stfu

lyrics:
(intro)

(bitch i'm too fucked up)
(byekento, haha)
(bitch i'm too fucked up)

Its 2 am you call me up to tell me i'm a bad guy
And I know you tell you're friends 
Every time I pass by
Spent the night thinkin' 'bout that time
And all I know is I don't wanna do this when I'm

(hook)

Wasted, bitch i'm too fucked up 
Imma pest, Imma prick
Imma shut the fuck up 
All my friends cut me off 
I don't think I was enough 
It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah 

They say, that I'm too far gone 
Took a shot to the head
Do you think that was enough? 
On my last dying breath do you think I give a fuck?  
It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah 

(verse)

(bitch i'm too fucked up)
(It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah)
(woah-oh-woah) 
(It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah)

After all this damn time you'd think I'd get my head right
Sorry baby I’m still out here telling all these lies
You still questioning my motives baby let me live my life
Uh, I promise you that I ain’t stepping outta line
Faded at the back of the club
You’re calling me oh my god, could you shut the fuck up
Uh, and I think that im over your love
The same way im over vodka when I empty my cup
I been chilling in the back living my best life
And you still coming over tryna ruin my night
Tell me whats the reason why you stuck in my mind
Cause im just out here drinking alcohol until I feel alright

(hook)

Wasted, bitch i'm too fucked up 
Imma pest, Imma prick
Imma shut the fuck up 
All my friends cut me off 
I don't think I was enough 
It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah 

They say, that I'm too far gone 
Took a shot to the head
Do you think that was enough? 
On my last dying breath do you think I give a fuck?  
It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah

hiding [prod. zupehr x sadpra]

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