we are fine, but we're not (prod. drma, ayoley & miroow)

taking pictures of the sunset (prod. cløud)

blah [what a liar!]

part of: “kaleidoscope: sequence two..”

Lyrics:

You’re my life, you’re my death
You’re my want, and you’re my need
In my heart you’re still around
And i can’t get rid of you

Another folded piece of paper
With a broken heart thats printed
Imagination still rampant
Yet scared of whats to come
Each and every day i lose sight of you
My memory together would wither out
Took another look away for a second more
And i feel as if i lost a part of me with you

You’re my life, you’re my death
You’re my want, and you’re my need
In my heart you’re still around
And i can’t get rid of you

I can take you anywhere you want to
No need to lie, i can see it in your eyes
No matter what, i’ll be there
Took me by surprise, that’s not fair
I can see it in your eyes
You’re my type
Even if i die
You’re my life

you're my life (part 2).. [+ recyclebin x wasterr]

prod. kill breanna x caves x safeatlast

dont try me
im not me 
i dont eat 
i dont sleep
oh
and im still 
looking at the sky
wondering why
and wasting my time
the ninja dude never hit the lightpoles
i always find out where you go
youre enough, i promise baby
no one else could ever save me
i take every step too, and it fucking pains me
and im focused on you, all the time maybe...
i did it all for you and no i dont regret it
i prance over the flowers and it kills them! . .
im sorry that i dont stand up for me, but,
im really not the same as i ever was,
now ill always say what i (truly) want
who are you, and who am i?
dont try me
im not me 
i dont eat 
i dont sleep
oh
and im still 
looking at the sky
wondering why
and wasting my time
the ninja dude never hit the lightpoles
i always find out where you go
youre enough, i promise baby
no one else could ever save me
i take every step too, and it fucking pains me
and im focused on you, all the time maybe...
i did it all for you and no i dont re.. gret.. it
i prance over the flowers and it kills them..
i prance over the flowers and it kills them.. :')
i wish i wasnt him, and such a victim
(i know im not!!)
(i know im not!!!!)
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i!!!
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i?
who are you and who am i-

every step too

one day i'll figure it out [prod. santana x azfan]

produced by me
guitars/etc by rjpasin

she walks the halls with a heavy heart
invisible to the crowd she plays her part
her smile as the tears she cries
trying to blend in but feeling denied

lost in a sea of faces
she roams alone
longing for a place that feels like home
but in silence
a whisper found its way
a gentle that led her astray
she found solace in his eyes
a beacon in her darkest hours
she saw the beauty in the flowers
he saw the beauty in her eyes
she tried to build a wall between them
the pain she carries inside
with every word he chipped away everyones lies

in his embrace she found her face
no longer silenced by the noise
he held her heart through every storm
no matter what came at them
they would always get through it
and thats the story once told 

(she walks the halls with a heavy heart
invisible to the crowd she plays her part
her smile as the tears she cries
trying to blend in but feeling denied
lost in a sea of faces
she roams alone
longing for a place that feels like home)

(piano/violin solo)

burden

losing my sight [prod. chrismarek]

(song was originally supposed to be for his plats but he let me upload it)
presave - https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/keepur/hey-its-been-a-while-feat-ilyl1ght
ft @ilyl1ght
prod @ilyl1ght
mix n mastered @noraevelyne

(lyrics coming soon)

hey its been a while ft ilyl1ght

completely raw recording from my phone, both chords and lyrics are comepletely freestyled so all of this is really sloppy but i felt like it was nice in its own way so its here now and yes im aware i suck at both playing and singing especially at the same time but it is what it is :p￼

lyrics:
all i know
is how to run
i never know
how to fix the things i’ve done
‘cause all i know 
is that a gun could fix everything i’ve done
i don’t know how 
to fix the life i shred to pieces by myself
i don’t how 
it’s all my fault 
and everything i ever did is just enough
to wanna throw me off the edge 
i watch it burn
i watch it burn away along with everything
i ever had 
i ever had to give 
got nothing left to give 
im just a shell
i am just a shell
don’t let me fall 
for now 
‘cause everything i’ve said 
everything i have is just enough
to keep me off the edge 
i’ve said enough
they’ll love me when i’m dead i promise you
they’ll love me when i’m dead i promise you
they’ll love me when i’m gone 
nothing left for me 
the way i play it off 
i’m just a shell 
i wish i had it in me to say
goodbye 
oh how i wish i could fix all my wrongs 
but i can’t and that’s what hurts me the most 
don’t you kill me now
could help me out 
could you kill me now?
‘cause i would let you down
oh how i wish i could’ve stayed 
oh how i’d be okay 
i never want to let you down like that
left me in the past 
don’t know how to act 
i wish i could hold on for a moment 
but i
am so done 
i can’t help you in this moment in time
i’m so dumb
i wish i wish i had serotones but i wasted it all on someone who i made hate me

piddling

<3 eyes
beat by: @caps.ctrl (insta)
artwork by: @megantiax (insta)

lyrics:
i got heart eyes, 
she got cold lies,
she gonna bury me,
drunk at the cherry tree, already told guys
that she wanna die yeah, only in the night time,
told me she'll kill me only when the times right 
x2

but i dont wanna die yet, 
no, i dont wanna die yet,
ive been smokin all morning, i aint feelin high yet
spend 60 pound, pour a 4 in my sprite, but i dont wanna fly yet
too many people in this club, cant see where the line ends

cant see where the line ends,
dont agree with my mindset, 
i might chase this whiskey with a side of bleach, but i dont wanna die yet
just tryna feel some fuckin pain, and i dont wanna cry yet
stab me in the heart for the 15th time then run off hiding

thats you, my boo, why did you do this to me?
i've been screaming in my room, "why'd you do this to me?"
and then you told me that you loved me, that was news to me
but you were lying anyway, straight through your teeth

now im done, heart eyes, and you left me cold
no fun, your eyes, the stories they have told
about me crying in the freezing cold, 
the weekend passes, man im getting old
x2

losing my sight [prod. chrismarek]

dylan lotus

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