Name: revenge w/ darza [prod. cush x ninewaters] by dylan lotus
Duration: 2 min 5 s
Description: i recorded this on my gaming headphones back in 2022 i can’t lie

https://soundcloud.com/johnnyfriend
https://soundcloud.com/neronoir

ulovely x NERONOIR - not an option (p. johnnyfriend)

prod kk

lyrics:
say hi to your mother from me
and put your problems on me
i know that no one wants me so i'm walking like a zombie
did i ever mention i don't wanna be alive
they say it's precious but i really hate my life
can you put a knife in my neck, take my life
can you let me suffocate between your thighs
i kind of understand why you think that i'm alright
but if i told you that i'm fine then i lied

and i'm sorry for that, vision fades black, i just wanna go back
life feels like a race but i went of the track
i just need a safe place away from all the attacks
i wanna see your face 'cause i miss that
i just wanna see your face 'cause i'd kiss that
why has it been so long
i should've got over you but i'm still writing all these songs
everyday stays the same
i'm tryna numb all the pain 'cause all the pain is kinda lame
i just wanna run away, i surrender to your game
can you shoot me in my face, the way we ended was a shame
i'm a wreck but i'm still thankful that you came
yeah i know that i will think of you forever
the devil knows that i'll be in love forever
gone cold like the weather

kms lol (prod. kkquickbrakes)

experimental. 

huge shoutout to @kryst3n, my best friend in the scene for doin this feat. so glad we made a song finally ily twin <3333

lyrics:

one fight then we break up
then you’re coming back and you’re always tryna make up
do it all again, do it all again,
tell me you’re in love then you say we’re better friends

saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
been alone i’m in my bed now 
fuckin hope you understand that
saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
imma go and i won’t even say goodbye
i’ll dieeee

(SUICIDES MY ONLY HOPE)

im falling u dont even give a damn
you would rather focus on everything that i did wrong
your legs move running fast as you can
you were called out on all the bullshit that you said

I was the other fucking half of u
threw out good times im so fucking mad with u
now its bad habits we fell back into 
i hope all ur new friends turn and laugh at u i swear

saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
been alone i’m in my bed now 
fuckin hope you understand that
saying i was the other fuckin half of you
i don’t know why i was always running back to you
imma go and i won’t even say goodbye
i’ll dieeee

all plats

back2u w/ kryst3n [prod. dercept x 80root]

maybe i should've asked her...

@decksmusic u rly bodied me on this lmao thank u sm for doin this for me ily

@zupehr we havent made rock in like a year, so so glad we locked in and made a hit together like we used to back in 2021 <333

>lyrics<

time is moving faster
turn my skull into plaster
nothing really matters
life is such a disaster

maybe i shouldve asked her
but im turning the chapters
now we're moving on right?
hoping i'll be alright

gimme a break i just need to settle down
i think as of late, it ain’t easy comin round
i don’t wanna fall on fate, i know it’ll let me down
so i take it by the day, hoping it comes back around
i hang on every word u say
& its debilitating
i’ll wait for night to turn to day
& watch the skyline fading

(incoherent bridge lyrics)

time is moving faster
turn my skull into plaster
nothing really matters
life is such a disaster

maybe i shouldve asked her
but im turning the chapters
now we're moving on right?
hoping i'll be alright

turning chapters w/ decks [prod. zupehr]

sorry for the lack of music been struggling a lil bit but i will continue trying, thank you to everyone supporting <3

lyrics:

i can’t deny i don’t feel right 
my eyes wide open in the dead of night 
and i feel so dumb at the same time
tell me why i never get it right 
‘cause i feel so alone when im by myself 
but i don’t say much i don’t ask for help
and i don’t wanna stay with somebody else 
sware i only want you
‘cause i’d do anything and everything 
but honestly i can’t complain 
‘cause i know i’m so selfish 
and i’m feeling hopeless right now
said i’m sorry ‘cause i think too much 
i don’t have much left so i watch myself 
i don’t trust no one so i don’t talk to much
maybe someday i can save myself 

i’d be lying if i said i was sober 
don’t tell me that you think that it’s over now 
‘cause if im being honest i can’t take that
said i’m sorry i aint wanna make you feel bad 
and i didn’t wanna say i’m a lost cause but honestly 
i’m still not the person that i want to be 
and it’s clear to see now that it bothers me 
guess i just can’t think right

i can’t deny i don’t feel right 
my eyes wide open in the dead of night 
and i feel so dumb at the same time
tell me why i never get it right 
‘cause i feel so alone when im by myself 
but i don’t say much i don’t ask for help
and i don’t wanna stay with somebody else 
sware i only want you
‘cause i’d do anything and everything 
but honestly i can’t complain 
‘cause i know i’m so selfish 
and i’m feeling hopeless right now
said i’m sorry ‘cause i think too much 
i don’t have much left so i watch myself 
i don’t trust no one so i don’t talk to much
maybe someday i can save myself

selfish

mistaken, full emotion
fucked up and overdosing
i know i had it all
i guess im always falling
tears drop, it's always snowing
i wonder where im going
head in the clouds, i'm always smoking
head in the clouds, i'm always smoking

it's all the fuck i got
in my bed and grave i'll rot
you're all the fuck i want
you're all the fuck i want
girl i hate that
if you wanted more attention then just say that
got a lot of friends that tell me i should probably stay back
if you really loved me then you wouldnt be a trainwreck
i dont give a fuck because you're tearing up my patience

mistaken, full emotion
fucked up and overdosing
i know i had it all
i guess im always falling
tears drop, it's always snowing
i wonder where im going
head in the clouds, i'm always smoking
head in the clouds, i'm always smoking

trainwreck [prod. drma x jibaorockin]

skeletons

Skeletons (prod. jean parker)

i been on my own with my curses
i don't even know if i earned this
smoke another joint on my own; my soul searching
i don't wanna do this no more, bitch i'm burning
 everybody diggin' my grave and my coffin
i don't really fuck with the fakes, i don't want this
smoke another joint on my own; my soul searching
i don't wanna do this no more, bitch i'm burning

 sometimes i wish i was somebody else
i'd rather do this alone; bitch i don't need your help
the only person hittin' my phone, would be my fuckin self
someone better pack me a bowl before i fuckin melt

she left me scarring always cut my wrists
and i don't wanna fall in love it felt like "fuck that, bitch" 
cuz lately i don't feel it anymore
it left me wondering like why i'm even lookin forth
i'm lookin for...

i been on my own with my curses
i don't even know if i earned this
smoke another joint on my own; my soul searching
i don't wanna do this no more, bitch i'm burning
 everybody diggin' my grave and my coffin
i don't really fuck with the fakes, i don't want this
smoke another joint on my own; my soul searching
i don't wanna do this no more, bitch i'm burning

curses [prod. zupehr]

how much longer can i lie to myself

i don't want it falling back down
done with love, you always act out
all the times i could've backed out
put my mind into the background
prayin', love, you're comin back 'round
bottled up until i lashed out
if you love me let me cash out
you don't love me imma crash out

my mind's so numb it's the darkest place
i don't really give a fuck if you don't wanna stay
i been running feelings back just tryna numb the pain
everything is fucking failing me so i'll get baked
i'm done
i been thinkin bout this shit since we begun
you be crying bout your feelings then we fuck
then i try to fuckin tell myself it's fun

noooo
two times now this shit's fucking boring
crossed lines 'round your arms just like scoring
got enough of all these problems i'm sorting
noooo
smoking blunts until i pass out
i don't ever wanna back down
put my feelings in the background

one night and i'm never gonna open up
i'm tryna do what's better for the both of us
my scars are getting deeper now we're broken up

let her tears fall [prod. mvvi x nihil2free]

@dylaanlotus - nevermore w/ @kysdnny + @1darza [prod. @zupehr]

i recorded this on my gaming headphones back in 2022 i can’t lie

revenge w/ darza [prod. cush x ninewaters]

dylan lotus

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