https://efishpool1.bandcamp.com/album/shard-mentality

SHARD MENTALITY Is a collection of live recordings and tracks produced in Ableton. I’ve carried a lot of these sounds and sketches with me for some time now. Through growth, loss and all the sticky bits between. Producing and mastering music doesn’t come easy to me. Performing is how I understand my work, and practice. It is practice, there is no start or end. Everything is just a means to another step forward, and u just keep spiralling on from there. Thats where u find the pocket. 

Everything I’ve done and everywhere I been informs every step forward. Every sound is memory, of something, someone or some place. The album loosely connects these and curates this past year. From the bay all the way down that motherfucking hume to Melbourne. The samples (old and new) evoke memories that have gotten me through difficult times. These sounds are eternal to me, and help build the world I wish to be and create in. 

The works are mainly centred across 6 synths I’ve sampled/built within Ableton through a korg opsix, minilogue + the use of a Roland electronic drum kit. This album cuts through the grid more than anything I've ever produced, and I am incredibly proud of that. I’m always trying to find new ways to break through the confines I imagine upon myself. Pushing myself forward without striving to be something I'm not. The sounds I make are stories I’ve gathered upon the way. Everything that has hurt, everything that has made me happy, and what has been lost too. They r my life. I hope u enjoy this part of the story. 
credits
releases December 1, 2023

SHARD MENTALITY 1/3

a soundscape/curation of 'In Search of a Subconscious Gesture' at Tributary Projects ~ Emma Rani Hodges, Lan Nguyen-hoan, Lani Shea-an, Tom Campbell and Emily Fishpool

composed on Ngunnawal/Ngunawal/Ngambri Lands

Sovereignty was never ceded

In Search of a Subconscious Gesture

Performed on the lands of the Wurundjeri Woi Wurrung peoples.

Meat Market Live

Improvised at MESS Ltd Naarm on Wurundjeri and Woi Wurrung lands. 

Felt, love/cold/warm/sick/excited/elated/light/heavy/gratitude/humble. 

Heard, voice/car/wind/rain/laughter/sigh/synthesiser/honesty/.

Thought of Joel's words, that silence is testimony, at odd moments throughout day. Walked with Paul and spoke about sound and belonging. Sat in Paul's car and watched colours in streets, throughout about people being shut inside their homes. Enjoyed lolly/Georgia's smiles. The warmth of a room while its cold outside. Thought of home, a lot. The space between there and me. How community fills all spaces.

Improv MESS/LA 1 [14072021]

Improvised at MESS Ltd Naarm on Wurundjeri and Woi Wurrung lands.

Felt, energy lessening, but reflective. Annoyed, excited, deadpan happy.

Heard, almost every voice I heard spoke something of lockdown. Including my own voice, in my head. Oh. and "In my head", in my head.. as words, but not in words (irl)more like an electriccy guitar sound, but on an electronic xylophone. Was pretty cool. A noise that really stuck out was some birds, this morning (maybe, rosellas?),, I told someone I'd been trying to listen more to stuff and think less about myself, but realised I hadn't been doing it so much... so did, whilst on the phone with them. It seemed so loud once I let myself/wanted to hear it, but before that I hadn't really noticed. In that moment I felt kind of selfish. 

This one kind of sounds like aphex twin. I think, speaks to some nervousness/dread going into lockdown away from home. It is a little unnerving to listen to.

Improvised on Dave Smith Tempest x Korg opsix.

Improv MESS/LA 2 [15072021]

"She looks like him, a familiarity, he could see himself in her. She was less foreign to him. I’m not really sure how it works. But I know before you born, your father was good to her. But that changed when you came along, she became less visible to him. I look like my father, the spitting image. People say it as a compliment. I used to take it as one. But through years of carrying the weight of his neglect, the pride I used to feel has turned to sickness. When I look at myself I try to remember him less".

An Ambient Lockdown, Improv [26072021]

recorded in our living room, Ngunawal, Ngunnawal, Ngambri Country in 2017

words/vocals by Holly Tranter, guitar & mandolin improvised by Eadie Newman and E Fishpool

Holly's Poem

improv [30092021]

All First Nations mix series curated by @djpgz 4 hope st radio (Naarm)

21.10.21: DJ PGZ First Nations Take Over - e fishpool

Cool Room (live at Miscellania 19122021)

Recorded live with Gadigal lands

featuring samples from Scarlett McClure, Waterhouse + Sam Miers

Landing vol.1 (excerpt)

distance therapy (end)

currowan

batemans bay forever is set in batemans bay, which marks the end and start of the budawang songline. the song integrates local Indigenous and non-indigenous artists works, often singing about and spiralling back into country through their words and intentions. Young rapper doss singing bout the death of his nan. hydro grappling with becoming a role model to his young son after lifetimes of adversity,  and phil free singing about his connection to the river. And so much more.

bringing all these stories together into one song creates a dialogic context of the bay. it evokes emotion whilst allowing u to hear multiple experiences of living here through the artists own words. all of the samples exist as they are, not slowed down, sped up or twisted beyond recognition. this type of sampling pushes us to change to integrate our community, rather than changing the community to suit ourself. this allows the truth of the artists words to resonate through, taking the lead at different points and allowing the composition to follow, rather than lead. we are singing together. 

artwork by sarah lim, ig: @eslim_

TRACKLIST
local music - batemans bay forever [0-15.50]
phil anthropic - liquid postcode
mc hydro - fuck me I'm a father figure
wind (bhundoo)
doss - RIP nan
eat a brick - slow song
debs story at katungal (Walbanja country)
south coast queens - where I'm from
wagarah (raven) hill looking over the bay 
NUMBAT 253 - FUCKAMIDOINGWITHMYLIFE
waterhouse [unreleased]

batemans bay forever

https://soundcloud.com/djkalyani
https://soundcloud.com/blondefog

RIP IV is a bpd opera from the collective subconscious of E Fishpool, Kalyani, and Sam Miers. Set across Batemans Bay, Carlton, Bookar and Box Hill, the show traverses big emotions through dance music, improvisation, sampling and live instrumentation. Are organ covers the ultimate DJ hype edit? 

Played between CDJs, ableton, guitars, usbs, a heavy (and light) keyboard and human singing, RIP IV is a constant live edit, with Emily, Sam n Kalyani rotating roles and responsibilities to hold the set and move it forward. 

The set is constantly collapsing in on itself - with each artist offering new narratives whilst the others are slowly being ripped apart, re-used and recontextualised. It is a type of experimentation where the artists are able to bring all of themselves whilst simultaneously being open to being challenged.. Not only through sound, but through a collective vulnerability and openness to creating something incommensurable (fully tweaked). 

Punters reported experiencing something similar to an acid trip and tears were shed while hugging boulders.

TRAKLIST
Uncle Frank Mumbulla - Jacky Jacky 
Tanya Taqaq - Snowblind 
built different (e fishpool x kalyani) - pop song (unreleased)
e fishpool - fire song
The Pioneers - Bloc Party (M83 edit)
Total Freedom - earthrot mixfile
Bebe Yama - motel 6 prayer book
Britney Spears - everytime (e fishpool x kalyani live harpsichord cover)
Trinidad Ghost - Big Fish 
DJ Sandrinho- Montagem percuça 
Si Begg - Non Stop Cut Paste 
Let Me Luv Ur Computer Mashup 
DJ GRZS, dj henrique de sáo mateus, DJ J2, Mc Delux - Automotivo Renovado 04
DJ GRZS, DJ GH7, Mc Gw, Mc Magrinho 1 Automotivo Renovado 06 
DJ Léo da 17, DJ Lobão ZL, DJ KS 011 - POCK POCK DO ROCK 
Tanya Taqaq - Coloniser 
If I had a heart - Fever Ray 
Organ Song (Unreleased)
Dido - white flag (Kalyani x local music live cover) 
Gregorian chant - Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For 
Here in Heaven 4,5 - Elite Gymnastics (CFCF remix)
D’ Eon - Fact Mix 338 (53:50)
Seal - crazy (Kalyani vocals)

Field recordings in order: penthouse wind on bhundoo, lightening length rain at bay fire station, maloney’s waves

LOCAL MUSIC X LOCAL WOMAN - RIP IV

DRUM SONG

country burns violently, as children are stole from their beds
i begin to think that no time has passed 

just another wound, as we tend to those that might just take us with them
we go, into blood, flesh and bone

I arrived and slept like a baby
news that makes it all feel pointless
or infected by the unrelenting wounds of colonialism
tampered

cries thick and deep muffles the sound, cry into dirt, inhale insect and choke

speaking to me
throwing me back into the thick of it all

reality
in some form
write it down

ON DEATH

Draw strength to relieve yourself of anxiety 

Holding strengths so others may feel safe 

Be bold and go forward

Remember the end goal and what you are walking toward 

Don’t create narratives and observe the facts 

Stop and listen before reacting

SUN SALUTATIONS

a short mix of new works - all original tracks. 1 - untld, 2 - voice of/credits to Dharug/Bundjalung poet Evelyn Araluen , 3 - burial // forgive (sampled and remixed), 4 - untld.

14 minut mix (insomnia)

EFishpool 14minutmix (insomnia)

written and mixed in late 2020 // credits to Annie Parnell reading Ellen Van Neervan - and samples from Ngunwal/Ngunnawal/Ngambri land.

e fishpool

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