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feeling used, but I'm still missing you

gnash - i hate u, i love u (ft. olivia o'brien) remix w/ @sekumo

cover - @sekumo

you never cared (ft. sekúmo)

Ft: https://soundcloud.com/fats_e
Prod: https://soundcloud.com/sheltr666

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

Let go w/ Fats'e (Prod. sheltr )

iusedtolikeyou

i wanted to cry, i wanted to die.

Don't Ever

lost 7

idontknow (prod. SXVV)

don't worry, the next song is a rap
happy thanksgiving 
thanks for all the support seriously
repost retweet recycle

mixed by @ibr
produced by @mt-marcy
shout out OTJ


you sent me a text at 3:07 late last night
you barely knew him, 
you only blew him,
 you had  a few drinks

as if that could  make things right

and soon you asked  about our future  
 well, my darling, here’s my  answer


I hope you burn in a house fire
I hope you get stage IV cancer 

I’d be by your bedside waiting 
 till your sweet goodbye, my friend
I’d resuscitate you just
so I could watch you die again 

I fucking hate you 
I fucking hate you

and I know what you’ll do,

you’ll say you’re sorry
through your smile
and I’ll stay angry 
for a while
and you’ll come over
and we’ll be sober


until we’re not,
and we would make out on my sofa
I'd wake up one morning sunny

with your arms around my chest,

and it’d feel so good to be with somebody

I just might forget

how's it going

you'll say sorry through your smile

original song - https://soundcloud.com/lilxlotus/run-home-prod-nothing-nowhere

by your side (+ lil lotus)

you should stop talking to me (jam with joshrefe)

Ft:
https://soundcloud.com/gldentx
Prod: 
https://soundcloud.com/keeper92
https://soundcloud.com/tnght_tmrw

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

I know u miss me w/ bradyamour (Prod. keeper x tnght/tmrrw)

Lyrics:

i want you to feel the way she did
i want you to feel the pain
cause you never cared about anyone but you
cause you never cared and you were unaware about anyone that wasn't you

i want you to hurt
i want you to cry 
i think about hurting you real bad sometimes

cause you didn't see the tears running down on her face
but you'll see my hate

i want you to hurt 
i want you to cry 
i think about hurting you real bad sometimes

and i don't wanna see you die
i just wanna see you cry and wonder
was it really worth it?
cause i could cut you up
and throw you in the trunk
and bury you deeply like your secrets

i wanna see you cry (i want you to feel the way she did)
i wanna see you hurt (i want you to feel the way she did)
i wanna see you filled with the pain that you deserve (i want you to feel the way she did)

Hurt (prod. notmorgn)

3rd track off my debut EP Brown Eyed Blues


We brought this entire EP to life in my bedroom :)


Vocals by Mari Gail
Back-up vocals by @guyclaude
Produced by @guyclaude
Mixed & Mastered by @guyclaude
Artwork by Dawn Savagi


Lyrics <3


[Verse 1]


When we first met I couldn’t believe
That I was falling for you just like the leaves
I prayed every night, god please
Just once, let em notice me


[1st Chorus]


Then you saw me at my locker
And you came closer
I’m sweating in a panic
Cause you are coming over
Shoulda saw the signs but there was no poster
That we were messy from the start
There’s no hope here


[Verse 2]


But still I chased after you
I chased you down every avenue
You got me singing my brown eyed blues
I said this was way too good to be true


[2nd Chorus]


We were messy from the start
(It’s mid autumn)
Our love crumbled like
Granola Bars
(Should of caught the)
Pieces as they were flippin and floppin’
But you got sticky hands and
Oh that is a problem


[Verse 3]


A few months passed our way
And I was still into you what a shame
A few years and you don’t know my name
I pray to god, can’t we just feel the same?


[Hook]
Because my heart keeps on breaking
And this flame is slowly fading
But my heart cannot take anymore
It just cannot take anymore


[Verse 2]


But still I chased after you
I chased you down every avenue
You got me singing my brown eyed blues
I said this was way too good to be true


[1st Chorus]


Then you saw me at my locker
And you came closer
I’m sweating in a panic
Cause you are coming over
Shoulda saw the signs but there was no poster
That we were messy from the start
There’s no hope here


[Outro]


Because my heart keeps on breaking
And this flame is slowly fading
But my heart cannot take anymore
It just cannot take anymore

Brown Eyed Blues

Free Download!

Granola Bars

prod. https://soundcloud.com/oilcolor

[lyrics]
I can’t fucking think of any words to say
& I can’t fucking think of any reason I should stay

Can you give one to me
Before I up and leave
Can you make me believe
This wasn’t for nothing

You took whatever you could find
You didn’t even look behind
Keep saying sorry, fuck your lies
I see evil in your perfect eyes

So tell me,

Was I everything you dreamed of 
When you dreamed that I was the one
Was it all worth it, you fucking nightmare
Now that you realize I’m really gone 

Was I everything you dreamed of 
When you dreamed of fallen in love
I don’t deserve this, you fucking nightmare
I hope it kills you to know I’m the one 

Now that you realize I’m really gone 

I hope you fucking die alone

I wanna die alone

Was I everything you dreamed of
When you dreamed that I was the one
Was it all worth it, you fucking nightmare
Now that you realize the one is gone 

I hope you die alone

I hope you cry to this song
I hope you cry to this song…

Cry To This (prod. oilcolor)

- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CW0DUg63lqU

Fuck That

I know you think about it every fucking day
killin your feelings, and staying up so late
i know you think verything was your fault
but no it fucking wasn't, girl that boy he had it comin

I could feel it in my body
(i could feel, i could feel, i could feel it in my)
feel it in my body

yeah i was better than the others, the others that you were with

i told you all i knew,
gave you my word, yeah, i fucking trusted you

and i never fucking needed you, you needed me

i said go fuck the words you're saying girl i know that you be lying

x8(get the fuck back) 

-

lemme know where you're hurting
lemme know where's it burning
lemme know where he hurt you
and imma let you know why he did it

I know you think about it every fucking day
killin your feelings, and staying up so late
i know you think verything was your fault
but no it fucking wasn't, girl that boy he had it comin

fuckfeelings

limited edition hoodies - bit.ly/2CIKS2v

Stop caring bout my health
Quit faking all you've felt
We're not special I've been dealt
Too many cards to hold as well

Fuck off and burn in hell
Beat my face into the ground
I'm still waiting for the sound
Of bullets exiting your mouth

Bite the curb and sleep well
Fight hard like you've felt
All the pain on her shelf
I don't fucking know half

bite the curb and sleep well

https://youtu.be/Y33YeHhXXNs
things are about to happen. 
much love to all the supporters.

Waste Time

🎀 @supachefm  mixed by  @notmorgn 🎀

produced by @sproocht

i wouldn't let you down
look what you did to me
i never felt the pain
when you were here with me

its on another tone
i wanna let you be
there is no other way
i cant feel anything

changes
left me in places
i dont wanna be 
i dont wanna be

i fall in places
hate pretty faces
i wanna be
i wanna be

left me in places
i hate the changes
come back for me
come back for me

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