everything sucks

Dandelions

Love Again

Vibe: Numb / Dark / Honest

Description:
A quiet cry behind the mask. “Self Medicating” is about trying to outrun pain, not for attention—but just to function. Every bar is heavy with isolation, numbness, and the weight of unspoken trauma.

Lyrics:
Hook
I’m looking for something to ease my pain
Ease my pain, it ain't easy 
I got some things can’t get off my brain
get off my brain, get off my (get off my)

I keep doing drugs cause I need it (need it)
will I better if i feel it (feel it)
I keep numbin’ all my feelings
Damn I hate to feel em 

Verse 1
They don’t see my pain, every night I’m feel lonely 
I’m layin’ in bed, to these drugs I lost homies 
I can’t bring em back, fill my body up with codeine (codeine)
Ion want no one around unless they know me 
(Uh)
say that you love me, gotta show me 
Played to many times people phoney 
There’s a lotta fakes 
There’s a lotta snakes 
Stress got to me, I just need an escape 

Hook
I’m looking for something to ease my pain
Ease my pain, it ain't easy 
I got some things can’t get off my brain
get off my brain, get off my (get off my)

I keep doing drugs cause I need it (need it)
will I better if i feel it (feel it)
I keep numbin’ all my feelings
Damn I hate to feel em x2

Verse 2 
anxiety going crazy
my mind going crazy
I think theres nobody in this world that can save me
said that i'm ok (kay)
maxed out on this pain (pain)
maxed out all my cards, tryna charge it to the game (game)
I look at myself and I see the mess I made
I am by myself so there's only me to blame
I would ask for help but honestly i'm to afraid
so I jus talk to god an tell him I jus need a break

Hook
I’m looking for something to ease my pain
Ease my pain, it ain't easy 
I got some things can’t get off my brain
get off my brain, get off my (get off my)

I keep doing drugs cause I need it (need it)
will I better if i feel it (feel it)
I keep numbin’ all my feelings
Damn I hate to feel em x2

Self Medicating

lyrics 

i'm alright now
every time i see the sign i run it right down
moving 'till the morning we don't need to lie down
but is this what were making up for 
forgotten times, we can no longer retrace it 

fine by me
i don'r really care at all
know thats what you think
i can kinda shrug it off
just to see the stars aligning 
baby are you still involved 
every word that i say is from the heart and i can't turn it off

like really whats this timing
do i really gotta come find you
when the worlds turning ice cold?

like baby im right behind ya
and baby im right beside ya
i'll be here 'till i can't grow

looking out from the porch
it's starting to trickle, i'm sensin' a storm
hide in my fort
you'll be alright, you'll be alright
tellin' you everyday you'll be alright
know it makes a difference that's what i tell myself every night

now when i cry
it's just for a moment
yeah i just give it sometime
then i'm keepin' it rollin'
rollin it clean, mixin' the purp. wit' the green
and then i just let it all out
fuck i dont care if its makin' me bleed 

i wrote it on a list 
oh all those stories we lived when we were kids
how'd i become so sick of this

believe me when i say thats it's plenty
heavy on my soul but i pretend that i'm ready
sure i was 20
that whole decade was blurry
searching for messages i had left when i was 13

who gon' be there for me 
who gon' be there for me 
who gon' be there for me 

do i think my city
do i think my city
do i think my city miss me

bared all of the weight that i could carry
jag var jätta ledsen, yeah i was so fucking sorry
så mycket press på mig
men de var också mit fel
jag hade massor avslut men kunde inte passera som vag var i mitfield

du är inte skyldig för någon att visa
sånt som du vet att du kan och kan bra
alla döljer vi mil av vanilj för att då vi var små 
var det någon som sa att vi inte var bra
var det någon som sa att vi inte var bra

var det någon som sa att vi inte var bra
var det någon som sa att vi inte var bra
var det någon som sa 
var det någon som sa att vi inte var bra

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