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december is a pretty rough time of year for me personally, and on top of that, i've been struggling with self-confidence issues and burn out over the last couple months- i went through a bit of a dip a couple days back and since then this came out of it. it's kinda nice, and its the first bit of music ive felt properly connected to in quite a while, probably since lavender, and thats nice. 

this is a bit of an impulse post and im still deciding whether or not ill put it up for distro, ill probably decide later on tonight.

i hope if ur reading this that you've had a nice holiday season, and if it hasnt been that great for you, know youre not alone and that i hope the new year brings you all the luck and joy you deserve, and then some more on top <3

luv u

makina - light through your fingertips

March 21st roared

And wind
permeates your flesh;
hardened, but not insulated.
A cold armor, 
against those who would hurt you.
But just as abrasive
to those...

And bone
too wet
to even start a fire.

And quickly,
as it had broken you,
it left.
Its frigid claws unmemorable.
No mark, ever dug.
You've felt it too many times before.

And life,
tempo too slow
to even be perceived a song.

And march went.
And the year went.
And with so much change
you've never felt more stagnant.
Feet deep in mud;
with insects who feed on 
bone
too wet
to even start a fire.

thank you so much to shadient and fknsyd for making the original and an even bigger thank you to shadient for supporting me on this remix, giving your thoughts about it, kind words, etc. i've been a fan of the shadient project for quite some time and your music has been incredibly influential to what i have been doing and what im doing now. have you no burden was such(and still is) a powerful album for me and i'm very excited for what you put out next! 

thank you all for your support, i promise i've been working hard on "wildflower", among many other projects in my free time. i want this album to be incredible. i'm sure it will be :)

please follow and check them out (highly recommend!):

@shadient
@fknsyd

please check out the original too!:

https://soundcloud.com/shadient/alonely-ft-fknsyd?in=shadient/sets/have-you-no-burden

my socials:

@blueghostmusic

SHADIENT + FKNSYD - ALONELY (BLUE GHOST REMIX)

lifeline is a track eva and i made in 2021. i made the instrumental in around august-september time, as a part of a larger project. i sent the track to eva around the same time, we then continuously worked on it until around early 2022. its a track we're both super proud of and one that means a lot to us. i hope ya dig <3

from Evangeline: 

"Lifeline is about my experience with coming out as trans to my extended family, and being myself in a country town full of small-minded people. It's super hard to tell something to someone who you know won't understand, and may never want to talk to you again, but I have to give it a shot, because there's no way I'll live with never having said it"

Lyrics:

Look at me sideways like you don’t understand
I hated the thought of ever telling you
Do you get what I’m saying? Should I say it again?
Cause I’m not sure which one of us is more confused

I’m not the person that you used to know
So, stop calling me by his name now
I’m not the person you knew long ago
If you’re doing this on purpose then I wanna go home

Tried to tell you then I realised it was all a game
I knew it for so long, but didn’t try to pass the blame
Guess someone had to be the first to take it all away
And I don’t blame you, I don’t blame you
I was asking for your help and still nobody came
The song we wrote together will never sound quite the same
Now you look at me like I’m just another stranger’s face
And I don’t blame you, but I want to


You were my lifeline
For so long
And I just realised the monitor shut off

I scream and cry at night
For so long
Because all I’m familiar will soon be gone

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Follow Evangeline:
Twitter: https://twitter.com/evangelinestuff
Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/eva-nge-line

Follow makina (me, teehee)
Twitter: https://twitter.com/makmakmakina
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/makmakmakina/

Stream lifeline
Spotify:
Bandcamp: https://machinaone.bandcamp.com/track/lifeline-ft-evangeline
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/gb/album/lifeline-feat-evangeline-single/1615177243

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makina - lifeline ft. Evangeline

DLS ENABLED

this started as a joke and i turned it into a full thing

haven't dropped in my main in a month so here's this as a filler LOL

i'm so sorry for this

(yes i did the cover art and i feel very much ashamed of it)

Paramore - Emergency (flip)

ebu

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