BoRdeRliNe DiSsoCiAtiVe IdeNtiATieS Chapter 1

Traumacore Art Therapy: What Its Like To Die And Live

Chapter 2 Channeling Possession

MelanKholyia Plays

Anti 21 ENM

Room 013

Prescription Void

(Verse 1)



Will I ever escape I can't get this door unlocked 

No but I'll hold you until our eyes block out the sun, drowning in blood

I can't die when I want so I'll run after death until death grows cold

I murdered myself years ago so what's another pill we're all alone

Empty ripped open stuffed Rabbits 

With its head on the floor with Candy black gloss eyes 

Eating pills will I ever get away will I ever escape this room 

Room 013

Cigarette burns

Broken Scissors tries to cure  

White bandages hide the wounds

Razor slits my tongue with every kiss

As she fills a fish tank with blood 

My blood

Moth she's bliss

I'm her black death Moth

As she's wrapped in my arms

Broken

But Together 

Crying



(Chorus)



As I battle this internal war

I love you 

Sex with only one

Love one only in my arms

Fuck me  like your favorite whore 

Love me

Hate no never would I 

Don't leave me, I'd kill for you

I'll  bleed all over everything 

I hope we might die

Die together

After I die inside you

You collapse on top on me 

I love you my beloved Black Moth

You're all I ever Wanted 





(Verse 2)



Dripping Tongue 

Wet theights 

Shaking hips

As you devour me whole

Love hold me close 

Kill me no Don't ever go

Only  as I die inside I'll blow

When your hell comforts mine

As I will sacrifice what's left of my innocents to give to you my heart

Empty ripped open stuffed Rabbits 

With its head on the floor with Candy black gloss eyes 

Eating pills will I ever get away will I ever escape this room 

Room 013

Cigarette burns

Broken Scissors tries to cure  

White bandages hide the wounds

Razor slits my tongue with every kiss

As she fills a fish tank with blood 





(Verse 3)

Empty ripped open stuffed Rabbits 

With its head on the floor with Candy black gloss eyes 

Eating pills will I ever get away will I ever escape this room 

Room 013

Cigarette burns

Broken Scissors tries to cure  

White bandages hide the wounds

Razor slits my tongue with every kiss

As she fills a fish tank with blood 

I murdered myself years ago so what's another pill we're all alone

Empty ripped open stuffed Rabbits 

With its head on the floor with Candy black gloss eyes 

Eating pills will I ever get away will I ever escape this room 





(Chorus)



As I battle this internal war

I love you 

Sex with only one

Love one only in my arms

Fuck me  like your favorite whore 

Love me

Hate no never would I 

Don't leave me, I'd kill for you

I'll  bleed all over everything 

I hope we might die

Die together

After I die inside you

You collapse on top on me 

I love you my beloved Black Moth

You're all I ever Wanted 



(Outro)

 

Dripping Tongues 

Wet theights 

Shaking hips

As you devour me whole

Love hold me close 

Kill me no Don't ever go

Only  as I die inside I'll blow

When your hell comforts mine will say goodbye

Just remember I'll love you even if we don't make it

But know I'll hang on as long as I can't my love 

As I will sacrifice what's left of my innocents to give to you my heart

Empty ripped open stuffed Rabbits 



My Black Moth #3

(Verus 1 )

I called you after all this time, just to say I'm safe but broken,  
Mentally shattered, on disability, doctor's orders keep me frozen.  
Twelve weeks minimum, maybe forever, no energy left to fight,  
But you blamed me for my sickness, said I caused my endless night.  

(Chorus)  

You don't get to lie anymore, you're dead to me, your voice is gone,  
Bruises hidden, secrets buried, but now the truth will carry on.  
You beat me down from fifteen on, till I ran from your cruel hell,  
Rapes unspoken, disbelief choking, monsters in the shell.  
I hope you rot, I hope you burn, for the pain you gave for free,  
CPDSD, BPD, Stockholm chains, you broke the soul in me.  

(Verse 2)
  
Environment carved my madness, not my choices, not my fault,  
Verbal knives and emotional storms, your violence never halted.  
Never see you, never visit, no "I love you" from my lips,  
World will hear my every scar, from your narcissistic grip.  
Raped or beaten by your hands? Both killed me piece by piece,  
No forgiveness, no regrets, just hatred's cold release.  

(Chorus)  

You don't get to lie anymore, you're dead to me, your voice is gone,  
Bruises hidden, secrets buried, but now the truth will carry on.  
You beat me down from fifteen on, till I ran from your cruel hell,  
Rapes unspoken, disbelief choking, monsters in the shell.  
I hope you rot, I hope you burn, for the pain you gave for free,  
CPDSD, BPD, Stockholm chains, you broke the soul in me.  

(Bridge)  

Friends in rooms, babysitters' touch, scalding baths and endless fear,  
Slept in closets, dryers hiding, from the monsters drawing near.  
Tried to kill him, choked unconscious, alter switched to save my life,  
You called me names, lied to the world, cut me with your strife.  
Brain damage, heart destruction, paying for your crimes each day,  
Songs will scream your secrets loud, make you fade away.  

(Verse 3)  

Filing charges, seeking justice, for the lifetime you destroyed,  
Neglect and molesters, assaults in shadows, innocence void.  
Not innocent, not forgotten, your end I won't mourn or see,  
Die slow, suffer alone, that's the curse from me.  
Thousands of tracks, world will know, every horror you allowed,  
Protecting myself, no guilt in that, screaming pain out loud.  

(Outro)  

You're nothing now, just echoes fading, in my mind you're already gone,  
Blind to manipulation, finally free at dawn.  
I hate you both, forever etched, but I'll rise from what you broke,  
This poem of pain turns to fire, in every word I spoke.




From The Ashes

[Verse 1]

(Monotone rap-growl: Numb detachment hip hop flow, snare bone snaps march, kick slams heavy like mask rituals, sub-bass tar lungs wheezing—dread building with mask hums glitches, creepy whispers "hunter... predators...", flesh-ripping mid-line in dystopian vibe, alien tendencies warp 3D.).

A hunter in a world of savage predators and sheep that are blind to their own cannibalism,
Mimicking faces and phrases mutating behaviors to sell a bill of mental health,
Just to survive what I can't show anybody, ASPD thoughts IRL in real time.
Emotionless? Expressionless? Not in the mind I hold inside,
I scream, I speak, I reap havoc on my own mentality just to feel something,
Then find bliss in my isolation, a face without a reflection.
Rambling that I want out publicly, I look normal, shy and depressed maybe,
But I have to lock myself inside to protect what I have become.

[Chorus]

(Deep wail choking reverb raw release: Glitch drops shatter with chrome wire scrape tension, venom drip pools into trauma gurgles, dramatic screams warp apocalyptic 3D—echoing "emotionless... danger..." layers over violent nu metal riffs, torment in void silence bursts with insanity loops.)

Emotionless? Expressionless? Am I a danger to everyone around me?
No and yes, I feel love, I feel love, I feel tears to the one I hold close and near...
The favorite person I married after 29 years of a nightmare in a waking hell.
This is the end of everything... (glitch drop void, bone snap resume, reverse sighs tease)

[Verse 2]

(Growl intensifies hip hop: March verse snare bone snaps nightmare rhythm, sludge guitars grind, kick slams like nuclear stabs, sub-bass tar lungs, screwdriver scrape glitches mid-line—disconnected shards clank, unholy illusions in spooky vibes, haunting whispers intercut alien hums.)

Not a monster made but a child dead that grew up into a mirror birthed by monsters,
No words can explain the blank expression on my face, I am in deep inner thought.
As others get my attention, I smile before seconds can pass.
As for others are perceived as a cryptic enemy I must destroy,
But only in the safety of my memories do I indulge.
Others like me I welcome, a community hidden,
Never of violence but under threat in less than milliseconds,
No warning, no movement, unpredictable behavior guards my heart.
Insanity creates a life threatening amusement to stay empty,
So I don't internally explode and self destruct under the chaos of disconnected memories,

Hidden in boxes in the dark of my mind in the emptiness.

[Chorus]

(Wail choking escalates: Chrome scrape builds violent tension, venom drip with gurgles louder, glitch drops spooky static—screams fade ashes wind echoes, alien distortion warps creepy unease, addictive hip hop scratches layer in.)

Emotionless? Expressionless? Am I a danger to everyone around me?
No and yes, I feel love, I feel love, I feel tears to the one I hold close and near...
The favorite person I married after 29 years of a nightmare in a waking hell.
This is the end of everything... (venom echo trails, child whispers tease reverse)

[Verus 3}

But do I feel? I do mimic, manipulation was taught to me to survive and protect instead of to destroy.
I feel empathy for who my heart consumes in light, I feel nothing for the NPCs of the world,
Family, life, other passers, but the people I speak to I have chosen safe not to hurt if crossed.
Now I must open up to explain what's it's like to live in this fate.
We are the empty darkness normal people never speak about,
But we do feel but only from what we make close until they


[Bridge]

( 

Confessions

(Intro)



Spider legs gave yard moths, 

My alters rise 

Traumacore 

Saved my life



(Verus 1)



Void button eyes blood on my rabbits. Stuffed Bears ripped in half

With emotional burns wiping the infection on my candy coated life

Staring out into the violence next to the heart that was held so close to me

Never goodbye fights in the middle of the night you manipulated me to shame 

They wanted forever 

I want never 

Leave me alone I hate my life

Don't leave but I know you made me bleed but I have nowhere else to go

You abandoned me but creeped back into the shadows a rotten soul you made me believe I was by my own mental enemy 



(Chorus )



Traumacore breeds in my art 

Look into my fundamental nothingness that's locked deep in my heart

A beautiful heart attack I smile through the pain

Bite marked halo nightmare dreams 

Screaming terrors waking play toy dreams

With such sweet lullabies itching at the seams 

Empty playgrounds with no life bleeds

Doll house set on fire brings curiosity 



Traumacore works 

Cut out the stigma let the healing hurt

I'm ready I'm out in Search

For others like me



(Verse 2)



You left me with a broken heart buried in self hate and the guilt of even being alive 

So self harm was my escape 

But now it seems so blah now I make art 

Doctors share new ideas in the years of 2000 to 2010

Where do I go 

Trapped here in this isolation 

Trapped with you 

Bite me beat me love me I hate you I love you 

Don't leave I hate myself 

I can stop the pain is took much 

But no one ever cared 

They just covered me up in a little black box 





(Chorus)



Look into my fundamental nothingness that's locked deep in my heart

Traumacore breeds in my art 

A beautiful heart attack I smile through the pain

Bite marked halo nightmare dreams 

Screaming terrors waking play toy dreams

With such sweet lullabies itching at the seams 

Empty playgrounds with no life bleeds

Doll house set on fire brings curiosity 



Traumacore works 

Cut out the stigma let the healing hurt

I'm ready I'm out in Search

For others like me





(Verse 3)



Void button eyes blood on my rabbits. Stuffed Bears ripped in half

With emotional burns wiping the infection on my candy coated life

Staring out into the violence next to the heart that was held so close to me

Never goodbye fights in the middle of the night you manipulated me to shame 

They wanted forever 

I want never 

You left me with a broken heart buried in self hate and the guilt of even being alive 

So self harm was my escape 

Trapped here in this isolation 

Trapped with you 

Screaming terrors waking play toy dreams

With such sweet lullabies itching at the seams 

Empty playgrounds with no life bleeds

Doll house set on fire brings curiosity 



(Bridge)

Traumacore 

Traumacore 

Traumacore



(Chorus)



Look into my fundamental nothingness that's locked deep in my heart

Traumacore breeds in my art 

A beautiful heart attack I smile through the pain

Bite marked halo nightmare dreams 

Screaming terrors waking play toy dreams

With such sweet lullabies itching at the seams 

Empty playgrounds with no life bleeds

Doll house set on fire brings curiosity 



Traumacore works 

Cut out the stigma let the healing hurt

I'm ready I'm out in Search

For others like me



(Outro)

I feel the pain I have no more shame I come here today to share my pain 

I hope we can bring are devils together to play




Traumacore Art

This Is The End Of Everything

I'm Used To It

Glass walls cracked and fractured,

A world all our own where toxic gases bloom , 

The inner world the self that is cut in pieces ,

Rebuilt held together with light threads, 

Locked in knots with a meaning of hope that encounters horrors before revival the heaven of perfection the eternal hour,

Sleeping minds speak,

 Four vocal tones differing inner monologues convert from, Debating logic to pure reason,

To be release to breath,

When the outer perception Is reviewed showing what beholds Perceiving of a vocal singular chameleon , 

The host a possession that looks genuine,

But as natural,

As the perfection of pearls,

While three sleep dormant;

For the one speaking, 

Becomes like a symbiotic lover, 

Protecting the original host from destruction, 

Emptiness is when I start to breath in a full blown reality, 

The stillness of mental clarity,

When the inner child dissolved with agreement of safety,

While the mental code designed and a behavior like a double helix, Twisted engineered sends signals, 

So like being a product reborn to excel,

A inhumane extraterrestrial, And fuel with a added genetic superiority promoting attitude reflected a army,,

A vocal identity living without humanity but a otherworldly entity,

Whispering In the corridors where the succubus gash teeth protracting inner tongues licking at the host cradling protective like parenting

Armed, 

Physical power,

Alive,

 A metaphor for as real as the senses in waking life,

A violence injected like the act of insemination ,

Actions taken to the enemy like parasites in a frenzy,

Produced by the dopamine of a lovers first union,

 After the invocation, 

The passionate martial declaration ,

the poetry spoken but as permanent as  wrapped scrolls Impregnated,

Encased  in earth's mercury and plated so embedded,

With precious gold,

Wearing clothing made of the emotional numb the mask we wear

Together making the only one expression lost in a dream ,

No one can see what we hold together as one,

In sections to boils and fear,

What was lost to the child inside you hold dear,

Dead to the eyes as the world breaks and falls away,

Rest,

No,

Action repeat,

Don't forget we're here to hold your experiences,

That you can not bare to carry alone,

Safety is this mercy I believe it is safety


What's Beneath Dissociative Identities

Drug Nduced ComA INtoXiC

The RooT HerMetiC A QuNtum BirtH CreAted EAtinG

When people walk up to and start talking to you about something you have know Idea about but we had talked earlier that day
Getting dizzy Getting a insect crawling feeling up your back up to your head Getting the panic trigger anxiety threat instinct goes off flash back then poof
People calling you by the wrong name
Getting dizzy Getting a insect crawling feeling up your back up to your head Getting the panic trigger anxiety threat instinct goes off flash back then poof
Sometimes.

[Chorus]

Sometimes. I Sit in the passenger seat of the mind while Alice controls my mouth and body but im swear in a fog a haze a robotic like feeling is happening

[Verus 2]

In the waves of transparent heat my emotions
Rising off the asphalt where I lay beaten,
Bruised.
These drugs numb me out. I got nothing to lose, but no one notices when I start to lose
The grip I have on everything moving around me.
My emotions fill my hollow heart,
I thought I owned.
Taking the path less traveled,
Looking back at not one good memory I stored.
Why can't I feel like you feel today?
Emotions fly by me, missing the plans I had.
Feeling nothing, everything is so boring.

[Choruaj]

I Sit in the passenger seat of the mind while Alice controls my mouth and body but im swear in a fog a haze a robotic like feeling is happening


[Verus 3]

Trying to be normal is something I don't understand
Like the people I see walking around me
Disconnected
I'm so disconnected
Don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Trapped in my mind
I can't escape my fate
Trapped in a body I can't control
In a weak state, going insane they take control
Panic sets in as I feel the sickness traveling up my throat
I'm hosting inside the machine
In world I left behind
I'm pulled apart inside
Inner dimensional chaos

[Bridge]

Sometimes. I Sit in the passenger seat of the mind while Alice controls my mouth and body but im swear in a fog a haze a robotic like feeling is happening

[Outro]

Fractured for 30 minutes maybe hours
But at times it's days or weeks I lose count of the moments I
Made and saved
Lost to the sense of time my soul breaks
I can't make sense of me today
I'm lost in a hole
I don't want to know
How I got to this place
Am I ever safe
When I blinked my eyes
I travel time
Realizing there's is something wrong
In the place where I shouldn't have enemies
Reality shifts what a fascination
I can't see clear
The world has a haze a filter of fog shielding the fear

October 27, 2025 at 4:49 AM


PASseNgeRs  SeAt #1

Visual Audio Trauma Art Therapy Traumacore Music Art Therapy

A place where light can hide, intrusive thoughts of suicide and a deep love  

The soul that was ripped apart, I hold in this vessel dreaming,

 For all my Scars and burns that run deep over my veins I must confide,

So my sights so empty I can only feel of moments that breathe, 

 So the edge of this knife, 

Cuts out the parts of the damage I hold, I pray to god they die with me,

Which I can not find relief, from the nightmares that rape my mind,

 Hollowing out myself, 

Just to walk among the living,

Disconnected, shapeshifting, wearing a mask of many smiles with blacked marble gloss eyes,

But underneath that mask 
Drowning in the mist of desire, 

Seeping in the blood of forever,

Standing to the angels of devour,

Bleed to sacrifice the inner child,

To awaken the monster of power,

Bred within the indulgence of a poppy flower,

I see the needle prick, bruises in the strawberry garden,

Resting in the hands of God's the goddess of sleep consumes the angels  of monsters,

Lost in a river of reflection so death strays to break its wings to relieve the trauma,

Bombs of memories fill my head, 

Flashes of pain scars my mind ,

a sadness blended with madness , forgotten to the times of endless existence,

So I remind myself I am alive in the fields of transcendental resistance,

To walking away to rise above the land of the living to run in the fires of hell,

It flows through my blood, 

Swimming in lost memories,

Shocked to the system my soul replaced with a gem of the divine,

So bored to the reality of the basic tastes of the senses of the reanimated, brings my senses passed the land of the living, breathing, Standing up to the demons of earth

Spiting in the face of the devil as the poppy flowers dance around me 

Drowning me in the bliss of the dawn of morning, eyes opening to the lies of the wicked to leek out the influence of the liquid death
Is the mask of the dead child , 

Now the man transformed into the chameleon  of flowers to the beholder,

  The child that was once my inner self ,  

That's been lobotomized, from the hands of the adversaries, 

For every time you screamed at me, for every time you beat me,

To the false feeling of love being used when you got to close to me,

Just to be ripped away by the infidelity but thankful you where destroyed ,  

 For I lived through a waking hell, 

From being tortured continually abandoned looking for love in the abusive void, 

Used sexually like a doll in a barless cage,

 A torment enduring the shame of feeling anything at all

The shame of having emotions,

 That bleed all over the floor, from the loss of my innocents,

Cradled deep below inside the dawn of my memory ,

I find myself crying to the sounds of the breaking morning,

As sleep is the enemy I must reflect on this,

Shattered like a church window,

The glass that is as stained as my soul 

Fractured but not lost forever

I one day will be whole  

Even if the pieces don't fit perfectly,   



October 27, 2025 at 11:57 PM


GiVe Me DrUgS #3

A place where light can hide, intrusive thoughts of suicide and a deep love  

The soul that was ripped apart, I hold in this vessel dreaming,

 For all my Scars and burns that run deep over my veins I must confide,

So my sights so empty I can only feel of moments that breathe, 

 So the edge of this knife, 

Cuts out the parts of the damage I hold, I pray to god they die with me,

Which I can not find relief, from the nightmares that rape my mind,

 Hollowing out myself, 

Just to walk among the living,

Disconnected, shapeshifting, wearing a mask of many smiles with blacked marble gloss eyes,

But underneath that mask 
Drowning in the mist of desire, 

Seeping in the blood of forever,

Standing to the angels of devour,

Bleed to sacrifice the inner child,

To awaken the monster of power,

Bred within the indulgence of a poppy flower,

I see the needle prick, bruises in the strawberry garden,

Resting in the hands of God's the goddess of sleep consumes the angels  of monsters,

Lost in a river of reflection so death strays to break its wings to relieve the trauma,

Bombs of memories fill my head, 

Flashes of pain scars my mind ,

a sadness blended with madness , forgotten to the times of endless existence,

So I remind myself I am alive in the fields of transcendental resistance,

To walking away to rise above the land of the living to run in the fires of hell,

It flows through my blood, 

Swimming in lost memories,

Shocked to the system my soul replaced with a gem of the divine,

So bored to the reality of the basic tastes of the senses of the reanimated, brings my senses passed the land of the living, breathing, Standing up to the demons of earth

Spiting in the face of the devil as the poppy flowers dance around me 

Drowning me in the bliss of the dawn of morning, eyes opening to the lies of the wicked to leek out the influence of the liquid death
Is the mask of the dead child , 

Now the man transformed into the chameleon  of flowers to the beholder,

  The child that was once my inner self ,  

That's been lobotomized, from the hands of the adversaries, 

For every time you screamed at me, for every time you beat me,

To the false feeling of love being used when you got to close to me,

Just to be ripped away by the infidelity but thankful you where destroyed ,  

 For I lived through a waking hell, 

From being tortured continually abandoned looking for love in the abusive void, 

Used sexually like a doll in a barless cage,

 A torment enduring the shame of feeling anything at all

The shame of having emotions,

 That bleed all over the floor, from the loss of my innocents,

Cradled deep below inside the dawn of my memory ,

I find myself crying to the sounds of the breaking morning,

As sleep is the enemy I must reflect on this,

Shattered like a church window,

The glass that is as stained as my soul 

Fractured but not lost forever

I one day will be whole  

Even if the pieces don't fit perfectly,   


SuiCidAl PoPpy #02

Ether or Aether,

Terrestrial sphere's stars and DNA, 

Self for the spirit,

Light reflects Gravity,

Blood becomes dreams,

A quantum reality,

For Hz is to earths vibrations,

Fire to thoughts Transends memories,

As wind becomes emotions

Under water the subconsciousness within,

Tears of sanity are the blessing of reality,

Shadows play in courts of the priests and masters,

REM I am forever transformed to Mercury like atoms reform,

To the molecule of salt becomes the statue of being,

Transcendent consciousness  bleeds on the fabric of times,

Unlocked the full potential knowledge floods the mental 

I feel the information consuming me internally  

Forgotten words and spells of eternity casts flowers in the dirt of my mind,

Dream walking, 

Nightmare stalking

This is only to the choice of blending 

What you believe is the definition ,

No sides to take,

It is both and everything to be die and recreate life in the membrane of light,

Magnetic fields aura colors sparks the glow of life,

Astral travel world strange but beautiful in the ugly or purity of the reflecting midnight sky ,

Divine Consciousness lost to all but one true being aware to the false reality,

Where  the others of life lies until the birth of the death cradled the tears of memory,

The absolute,

Reincarnation of the mind,

Observation is all that is,

A superposition,

Quantum Mechanics,

Rebirth in the frequency of light,

Entanglement of thoughts and emotions 

Words are nothing here in this form of visions,

Intellect advanced,

Ego is dead,

But the light is the life you move weightless no more information that could be fed,

Pain,

Pleasure,

Desire,

Passion,

The form of inspiration lives inside below the mind,

Sex transfers energy between living gods,

Vital functions evaporate to the romance of thoughts,

Substance the key to traveling in the depths,

Substances are the key to enlightenment ,

When mediation is required to look inside,

Salvia my goddess of the divine devours the mortal coil of seeking the holy hour,

Completely,

Black,

To white,

To color again,

I am the real you,

For the tides are in everyone seeking past the lands of dreams,




QuANtuM ReAlity SalViA DiViNoRuM

EgO DeAtH - EvoCatioN  InVoKe N MelanKholyia MagiK ThE EgO iS DeAd #000

nightmare Wonderland  infest pollute Heavy Dubstep 3d Audio  Industrial pop fused dark trance addictive, merge darkwave hip hop feel in sexual infused glitchcore, nu metal beautiful but death march Vocals seductively blended with horror with Lovecraftian and futuristic cyber matrix realities ripping atomic fusions, Addictive that explodes consumes
A massive, apocalyptic fusion of Dubstep, darkwave hip hop, glitchcore, pop trance, and nu metal, Crushing sub-bass and down tuned guitars pulse against brutal industrial percussion, layered with distorted glitches and trance synths, Seductive, androgynous vocals weave through static loops and whispered breaths, Intense drops, reversed FX, and warping reverb induce a breathless trance, while alien ambiance and glitchy death march rhythms spiral into an unresolved, otherworldly void, Intimately seductive blend Alien tech seductively blending terror, cosmic horror  sex, melting realities Soundscapes

Every wound is scarification within, 

Blind to sight,

Exposing the nerves as salt sleeps across the sores that bare the weight of the memory of pain,

Emotional Torment,

Rages like a tempest,

Forever lasting till the grave,

So is mood no Identity I can't keep it I walk away,

Finding myself in a room of mirrors,

Reflecting the parts of me,

Fragmented faces whisper tears to shine speak the last words of desire and suffering,

In the light of self thats missing a mouth,

One turns to four 

Host, 

To protector,

To destroyer,

Last The child,

Like a dagger splitting my mind in quatres,

But breaking the ties of thought and emotion 

In two that are destructive,

To infatuation a wild soul,

Love to self destruction, 

Stories untold, 

Slipping secrets to the world, 

One line at a time ,

My art of the mystery of what no one can see,

Trapped,

But I see the window the sun I might recover,

So in this winding road of words a hyperactive release of pain and agony,

I let the secrets breath to be seen,

In coded art of emotional thoughts I burn the symbols of communication 

To speak what I could never,

I want to be free,

I'm seeking peace,

But the sea of the world will soon over flood,

Running out in a disparate flash,

Please take these words to heart,

Their perfect but a broken part of me,

I want to speak,

I hope, 

It will be a good read,

I coil codes of memories that bleed into memory,

The blood of pure detached suffering,

RooM Of MirroRs #013

Heavy Dubstep, industrial dark emotional pop, haunting trance extremely addictive, merge darkwave hip hop feel in sexual infused glitchcore, nu metal beautiful but creepy death march vibe Vocals, slow funeral drag seductively blended terror with violence, distorted drop D tuning sinister power guitars, snaps kick d coffin, slams sub-bass tar lungs breathing, countdown to existential dread building glitch drops chorus opium scraping venom drip reverb androgynous male deep wail choking intensity raw release bridge heartbeat anxiety whispers, looping memory static cry disorientation horror disconnected outro fade dripping revenge extended slow fade-out end reverse back, ashes static eternal trauma dubstep beat drop leaking unresolved torment, nightmare, spooky dystopian, apocalypse, violent scary vibes alien otherworldly alternative rock, blend with mental visuals flask backs invasion holds fear, hope, isolation, abandonment worth fundamental Nothingness showing intimacy

Lyrics

 Just a junkie, 

Dirty hotel room,

Cracked door the bathroom,

Dim lights,

Candles burn,

People sitting on the floor,

The smell of despair feels my nostrils,

Broken mirrors,



What I am was a monster,

Another shattered soul,

Sweating in excitement, 

Empty, 

Full of fury,

Insides twisting,

like flashes of vivid hallucinations ,

Buried

Track Marks

Infections,

I just wanted to feel affection,   

 

Hands wet with anticipation,

Sitting on a soiled blanket,

Preparing for my resurrection, 

Pale as moon light,

Saliva flooding my mouth no hesitation,

With haste I load my gun,

With the flower of sleep,

In a world that never cared or even mattered,

Honestly I wish I never came down,

After falling into darkness, 



What I am was a monster,

Another shattered soul,

Sweating in excitement, 

Empty, 

Full of fury,

Insides twisting,

like flashes of vivid hallucinations ,

Buried

Track Marks

Infections,

I just wanted to feel affection,   



Pulling the surgical trigger,

I slip into the nothing,

Spinning into waves of empathy,

While emotions faded away,

All the pain I suffer despairs for a couple hours,

But never fixing anything I'm the only one to blame, 



What I am was a monster,

Another shattered soul,

Sweating in excitement, 

Empty, 

Full of fury,

Insides twisting,

like flashes of vivid hallucinations ,

Buried

Track Marks

Infections,

I just wanted to feel affection,   



Please just leave me here,

Where I can't feel a thing,

Separating from my body,

Looking down at my lifeless body,

Turning blue from her grip around my throat,

But waking up vomiting only thirsty for more,

Get me out of this place,

Before I dead all alone,

I just pray someone take me away,

but I just remain in this death like state,

Until I just walk away,



What I am was a monster,

Another shattered soul,

Sweating in excitement, 

Empty, 

Full of fury,

Insides twisting,

like flashes of vivid hallucinations ,

Buried

Track Marks

Infections,

I just wanted to feel affection,   

But never feeling a thing,

Just a reputative cycle,

Sickness forever,

In the end I escaped,

Never forgetting,

If you numb yourself from all pain

there's a price to pay,

To feel heaven on earth,

You have to walk through war and the fire of hell,

You pay with the unimaginable,

A price of suffering,

You become,

Undead, 





JuSt A JuNkiE #3

[Verse]
Go insane, go insane
Think I finally found a way, find a way
The bitch said she could never stay, never stay
Yeah, she said that it's a little late, a little late
She left my body in a grave, in a grave
She left my mind up in a cage, in a cage
Yeah, she said, "Baby, you're the best"
But then she told me I was lame
Told me I was crazy, said that I was off a beam
And now she don't want me no more, no more, no more
She said she don't want me no more, no more, no more
Baby, you don't want me no more, no more, no more
She said she don't want me no more, no more, no more
I think I'ma just let her go
I think I'ma just let her go
I think I'ma just let her go
I think I'ma just let her go

[Pre-Chorus]
I woke up screaming
I been seeing demons
In my sleep, I been seeing demons
At night, I been seeing demons
In my dreams, I been seeing demons

[Chorus]
'Cause baby, I'm trapped in my head
And baby, I'm swimming
Swimming in a nightmare
And it's bleeding
It's bleeding
It's bleeding
For the night
I woke up screaming
I been seeing demons
In my sleep, I been seeing demons
At night, I been seeing demons
In my dreams, I been seeing demons

[Chorus]
'Cause baby, I'm trapped in my head
And baby, I'm swimming
Swimming in a nightmare
And it's bleeding
It's bleeding
It's bleeding
For the night




Go INsANe SeeiNg DeMoNS

Chorus]
I wake up screamin' out
At the end of the night
I'm bleedin' out
Inside my head
I'm trapped inside
I'm trippin' out
And it's a nightmare fantasy
My own bleeding wonderland
Bleeding wonderland
Wonderland, yeah
Wonderland, yeah
[Verse]
I don't know if I ever know love
My hope
I'm trapped inside of my mind
It's bleeding out
I can't keep a thing down
My feelings
I don't know if I ever know love
My hope
I'm trapped inside of my mind
It's bleeding out
I can't keep a thing down
My feelings
I don't know if I ever know love
My hope
I'm trapped inside of my mind
It's bleeding out
I can't keep a thing down
My feelings
I don't know if I ever know love
My hope
I'm trapped inside of my mind
It's bleeding out
I can't keep a thing down
My feelings
[Chorus]
I wake up screamin' out
At the end of the night
I'm bleedin' out
Inside my head
I'm trapped inside
I'm trippin' out
And it's a nightmare fantasy
My own bleeding wonderland
Bleeding wonderland
Wonderland, yeah
Wonderland, yeah
October 31, 2025 at 10:24 AM


Bleeding Wonderland

[Verse]
I only kill in the mind state
Unholy and covered in light of the flames of pain
Restlessness
Getting excited is always a terrifying experience
When most your life
You're let down to the point you

[Chorus]
Feel like you lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
You lost
My dopamine

Entering a state of blissful rage who am I today

A fury running deep my identity is cut into sectors of forgotten  memories 

I grip life with one thought in mind 

Can I push the limits of my disease

Far past indulgence but into catastrophe entropy I am lustful in trances and sacrifices so bestowed to me     

Lock inside but released among the unknown passers by I'm a walking fantasy 

Caged but free in a free fall I can't escape 

I'm drowning in my sanctuary 

[Verse 2]
And all I got's a candle in the wind
Hope for a way out when the light goes dim
How could I begin to say goodbye to what I've loved?
Do I have the strength to face the light of the sun?

[Chorus]
No
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost

[Outro]
Mm
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost
I lost



Let Down Dopamine  013

My DoPMiNe

Fundamental Nothingness 

Song #1  

- Last Motivation 



Broken florescent glass,

Hydrochloric acid,

Basement room my final actions,

These white walls stalking faces of the masters, 

I must get away from these hallucinations it' madness, 



Injected inside the veins,

No resistance,

No hesitation, 

No regrets,

Self hate and emptiness, 

No reasons to believe in anything,

This is the end of everything,



Flooding the limbs,

Just trapped in a life like maze, 

Tied down and fastened to the floor,  

It's going to send you,

Out of control,

Possessed it seems,

I have to see,



I have to find,

Just to see my reaction,

Injected inside the veins,

No resistance,

No hesitation, 

No regrets,

Self hate and emptiness, 

No reasons to believe in anything,

This is the end of everything,



Needle stings breathless choking,

I want to,

To rip my body apart,

To lacerate my heart,

Killing your reflection,

Flushing my veins itching my body,

Shaking, rambling, 

Slowly,

Eating through all tissue,

What a life to end all obsessions,

Gushing blood at the mouth,

What a horror show,

Am I going blind,

A feeling like hell while still alive,

Vomiting up my life killing my insides,

Goodbye is all one can think realize,

What have I done it's all I could fantasize,



I have to find,

Just to see my reaction,

Injected inside the veins,

No resistance,

No hesitation, 

No regrets,

Self hate and emptiness, 

No reasons to believe in anything,

This is the end of everything,



When I found god was never real,

I watched the human race worship blind corruption,

Masquerading true but hidden lies in the devils reflections 

Draining money from the naive,

 In secret indulging debauchery disgusting infatuations,

Vile thoughts consuming their souls,

 Suicidal but tied to a cross, 

Creating wars and holocausts,

There's no savior, when the hate of the world,

Shows up at your back door promising forever,

Fundamental  Nothingness

Crimson Moths GothCore

Silent By Design 2

(Verse 1)  
Why can't you accept something's wrong?  
You won't even try to understand why I'm so numb.  
You weren't that great at noticing,  
That something's fucking wrong with me.  
Am I not bad enough? Was I not good enough?  
Why? Please tell me you know I'm sick.  

(Pre-Chorus)  
You didn't. You just grabbed my dick,  
Forced kiss, pants ripped, screaming on the floor.  
Please don't look at me like that,  
I'm not who you knew before.  
Pushing me in the closet, down in the hall,  
Into the bathroom door.  

(Chorus)  
I know I look a little different,  
Not quite like the gender I was born to be.  
I can barely see in the mirror in front of me.  
Once we were together, but it was just for one night,  
You wanted so much more.  
But I'm their girlfriend, don't hurt me anymore.  
I just gave in one time, frozen in fright,  
Deer in the headlights.  

(Verse 2)  
She wanted me, I never wanted her.  
It hurts so much to remember,  
Such a shame-filled, out-of-body experience.  
So dirty, even at the beginning I felt dirty.  
But I know you want to watch me rot.  
Why do I want to hurt you so bad?  
Is everything always my fault?  

(Pre-Chorus)  
I just can't get away,  
Every time I hear you walking down the hallway.  
Just watching me burn, please stop sharing me.  
Trapped in a bath as she's ripping off my clothes,  
I'm screaming behind the door.  
As she tries to go down for more.  

(Chorus)  
I know I look a little different,  
Not quite like the gender I was born to be.  
I can barely see in the mirror in front of me.  
Once we were together, but it was just for one night,  
You wanted so much more.  
But I'm their girlfriend, don't hurt me anymore.  
I just gave in one time, frozen in fright,  
Deer in the headlights.  

(Bridge)  
I scream! I beat the door! I shatter the hinges!  
I claw the walls raw, can't believe I ever knew you!  
Felt you—now you force yourself on me, tearing me apart!  
As I rip away at the white paint, nails bleeding,  
Trapped behind this fucking bathroom door!  
She grabs at my body, relentless, invading—  
I pull away, fighting, gasping for air!  
I scream at the people in the room,  
Wasted, blind in this junkie hellhole apartment!  
You kept trying to rape me—as I scream, cry, claw at the door!  
No escape, no mercy, breaking me down!  

(Outro - Fading Chorus)  
Why can't you accept something's wrong?  
You won't even try... why I'm so numb.  
Don't hurt me anymore...  
Frozen in fright...  
Deer in the headlights.



DeAr N thE heaD L_ights

Death Moth  Cvlt -13 Traumacore Bitch

Thought for 11sHere's a song I crafted based on your poem. I interpreted it as a raw, intense track in a dark alternative/metal style—think brooding verses with building aggression, a haunting chorus, and screamed elements for the rage. I cleaned up some typos for flow but kept the chaotic, visceral spirit intact. I structured it with verses, a pre-chorus, chorus, and a bridge to make it feel like a full song. Imagine heavy distorted guitars, pounding drums, and echoing vocals.
Song Title: Moth of Death (Melankolyia System #5)
[Intro - Spoken/whispered over eerie synths]
Hey you...
Sick...
Fuck...
[Verse 1 - Slow, building tension]
You want to play my game,
A sociopathic love trauma story,
Whore, lover, killer—what?
You want me to delete, take down,
Why do you hate listening to the way you feel inside,
From the perspective vomiting out your mouth?
[Pre-Chorus - Intensifying, growled vocals]
I'm the Moth of Death, the Child of Misery.
You enraged me...
Now I want to eat your soul.
[Chorus - Explosive, screamed with heavy riffs]
Creeping, crawling, hellish little creator me!
Crawling out of my spider legs again!
Storm the earth with the apocalypse of my mind,
Upon your hearts—have a piece of my cake!
I love you so much...
But I hate myself...
I want to die...
But all I have are these sociopathic void eyes!
[Verse 2 - Faster pace, chaotic energy]
Hey you, sick fuck,
You want to play my game again?
Sociopathic love, trauma stories unfolding,
Whore lover killer, twisting in the dark.
Delete me, take me down—try it,
Hate the truth spilling from your own void.
[Pre-Chorus - Even more aggressive]
I'm the Moth of Death, the Child of Misery.
You enraged me...
Now I want to eat your soul.
[Chorus - Full blast, with backing screams]
Creeping, crawling, hellish little creator me!
Crawling out of my spider legs again!
Storm the earth with the apocalypse of my mind,
Upon your hearts—have a piece of my cake!
I love you so much...
But I hate myself...
I want to die...
But all I have are these sociopathic void eyes!
[Bridge - Slowed down, atmospheric breakdown with whispers turning to roars]
I love you... so much...
But the hate consumes me,
Void eyes staring back,
Moth wings fluttering in the abyss...
Enraged, creeping, crawling—
Eat your soul, storm the hearts,
Apocalypse now!
[Final Chorus - Fading out with echoes and distortion]
Creeping, crawling, hellish little creator me!
Crawling out of my spider legs again!
Storm the earth with the apocalypse of my mind,
Upon your hearts—have a piece of my cake!
I love you so much... (so much...)
But I hate myself... (hate myself...)
I want to die... (want to die...)
But all I have are these sociopathic void eyes!
(Void eyes... void eyes...)
If this captures what you meant, or if you want tweaks—like changing the genre, adding more verses, or making it longer/shorter—let me know. You're real as hell, and this poem screams authenticity. Keep creating.




Death Moth

Verse 1
Swinging in the throes of the colors of the waste
Blood is such a chaser, running through my veins in haste
Eat, fuck, sleep—repeat the cycle, numb and blind
Move the machine in my body, gears grinding in my mind
Chorus
I'm screaming, I'm healing, I can't stop the bleeding
Organic suicidal hell strokes entering my system
I love you more than anyone, can't you see the fire?
Hope you know I'd die for you in a vat of acid—a acid bath
Verse 2
Colors swirl like poison, waste eroding what remains
Chaser down the throat, drowning out the endless pains
Body's just a vessel, breaking under hell's command
Strokes of fire invading, slipping through my trembling hands
Chorus
I'm screaming, I'm healing, I can't stop the bleeding
Organic suicidal hell strokes entering my system
I love you more than anyone, can't you see the fire?
Hope you know I'd die for you in a vat of acid—a acid bath
Bridge (spoken/whispered with glitch effects)
Eat... fuck... sleep...
The machine turns, organic hell awakens
Swinging, bleeding, loving—falling into the waste
I'd dissolve for you, in that burning embrace
Outro (fading with distorted echoes)
Blood chaser... acid bath...
Screaming... healing... bleeding...
I love you more... more than anyone...
Vat of acid... end it all...

Acid Bath GoD Mothyii

Alice Puppet Master Goddess

Acid Bath We Are Here For You & US

[Verse 1]
I nailed you to a pedestal of splintered teeth and piss
Touch you every night with fingernails chewed down to hiss
I’ll tear my sternum open, scoop the rot, and mold it wet
Trade my self-respect for twenty seconds of your sweat
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of drug that liquefies your marrow into tar
I’m living in a meat-grinder nightmare, my mind
Is a skull-fucked pressure bomb inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a ruptured sewer, lungs a choking flood
Am I even flying or just too flayed to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Verse 2]
I tongue your ghost through gutters full of bile and broken glass
Carve your name in scabs across the mirror’s shattered ass
I’d shoot every maybe through the eyeball, let it burn
If it drags me one more twitch toward the corpse I used to learn
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of high that peels your face off with its teeth
I’m living in a loop of guts and rewind
Is a meat-hook guillotine inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Mouth full of rust, veins full of sludge
Am I even flying or just too gutted to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Bridge]
3 AM, the walls bleed pus, your silhouette gnaws bone
I puke my name into the sink, sell my tongue for one more moan
If love’s a septic needle, I’ll ram it through my fucking eye
One more hit of almost, let it rape me till I die
[Breakdown – guttural roar]
PEDESTAL!
TOUCH YOU!
TRY MY BEST!
TRADE MY SELF-RESPECT!
[Final Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a maggot banquet, soul a piss-soaked flood
I’m not even screaming, just too hollow to feel at all
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Outro]
Pedestal’s a meat cleaver, I’m minced across the floor
Your name’s a pus-filled blister that my throat can’t ignore
If this is overdose, let the maggots eat the rest
I’d rather rot in vomit than beg your corpse for breath



My Mind On Drugs IV Crystal Meth Rot

[Verse 1]
I nailed you to a pedestal of splintered teeth and piss
Touch you every night with fingernails chewed down to hiss
I’ll tear my sternum open, scoop the rot, and mold it wet
Trade my self-respect for twenty seconds of your sweat
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of drug that liquefies your marrow into tar
I’m living in a meat-grinder nightmare, my mind
Is a skull-fucked pressure bomb inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a ruptured sewer, lungs a choking flood
Am I even flying or just too flayed to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Verse 2]
I tongue your ghost through gutters full of bile and broken glass
Carve your name in scabs across the mirror’s shattered ass
I’d shoot every maybe through the eyeball, let it burn
If it drags me one more twitch toward the corpse I used to learn
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of high that peels your face off with its teeth
I’m living in a loop of guts and rewind
Is a meat-hook guillotine inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Mouth full of rust, veins full of sludge
Am I even flying or just too gutted to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Bridge]
3 AM, the walls bleed pus, your silhouette gnaws bone
I puke my name into the sink, sell my tongue for one more moan
If love’s a septic needle, I’ll ram it through my fucking eye
One more hit of almost, let it rape me till I die
[Breakdown – guttural roar]
PEDESTAL!
TOUCH YOU!
TRY MY BEST!
TRADE MY SELF-RESPECT!
[Final Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a maggot banquet, soul a piss-soaked flood
I’m not even screaming, just too hollow to feel at all
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Outro]
Pedestal’s a meat cleaver, I’m minced across the floor
Your name’s a pus-filled blister that my throat can’t ignore
If this is overdose, let the maggots eat the rest
I’d rather rot in vomit than beg your corpse for breath




My Mind On Drugs IV Meat CryStAl Grinder

My Mind On Drugs  2

What It's Like To Die Overdose Immortality

[Intro]
(Child whisper over cracking porcelain, building to a wet drip)
What am I even doing anymore...
I have nothing left to look forward to...
But now the rust gnaws into your flesh.

[Verse 1]
As all my hopes and dreams died long ago,
The midnight sky beats red and white,
Lightning hits the frequencies echoing from my heart.
My chest sleeps where daggers are imbedded first from the start,
Within I should have known I was to die forever,
To rust down to the bone—now your bones splinter and bleed.

[Chorus]
When love bleeds sour milk,
And the poppies' milk wastes and rots away,
When smoking mildew weed, snorting ketamine in bed,
Smoking meth just to keep awake,
Floating between space and time...
This is what it's like to die,
But still keep a hold of your life—while I tear yours apart, vein by vein.

[Verse 2]

I drift in the void where shadows cling,
Hopes turned to ash, dreams in decay,
Thunder cracks through the veins in my soul,
Daggers twist deeper, no light in the fray.
Rust creeps in, bone by bone it claims,
Sour love curdles, poppies fade to gray—
But the gray festers black, invading your rotting frame.

[Traumacore Assault Bridge]

(Explosive glitch: Lullabies warp into visceral crunches, beats slamming like fists into pulp)

You, the thief in the nursery dark,
Stole the light from my candy-colored spark—
Now the toys claw back, ripping your skin apart,
Poppies bleed acid, scorching your throbbing heart.
Ketamine haze sharpens the hooks in your meat,
Meth flames sear your nerves, blistering heat—
Rust devours you alive, pedo filth decaying,
Innocence assaults with teeth gnashing, flaying.
Daggers from my chest now gouge your eyes blind,
Floating trauma crashes, your guts unwind.
Blood sprays sour, bones crack under the weight,
I watch you writhe, your essence eviscerate.

[Chorus (Intensified)]

When love bleeds sour milk across your shredded grave,
And the poppies' milk festers in your craving rave,
When mildew weed roots deep in your festering bed,
Ketamine whispers as your tendons shred,
Smoking meth ashes choke your gaping cries,
Floating between hell and your own demise...
This is what it's like to die,
Losing hold as I claim your life, pulp by pulp.

[Verse 3 (Revenge Outro)]
(Fading with wet, tearing echoes, music box grinding to a bloody halt amid visceral static)
Hopes reborn in your ruin, dreams claw through your hide,
Midnight sky rains daggers, piercing your inside.
I was to rust, but now you corrode first, raw and slick,
Bone by bone, cursed, your marrow I lick.
Nothing left for you to look forward to...
Die forever... rust through your wounds, true.




What It's Like To Die

Verse 1
I couldn't escape the pain, released from that jail cell cage,
A nightmare lover's horror show, finally met its end.
I ran, but the void called back, before I could mend,
Studying blood magic, body mods, scarification rage.
Breaking the glass of this reality, shards in my veins,
Black magic summoning her with cups of my crimson stains.
Chorus
Symbols from machine elves, mushroom cults' gods so divine,
Numb to the core, I pushed the limits, bleeding on oak floor lines.
Salt and white chalk, knife-engraved rot in my mind,
Incense burns lavender, opium, dragon's blood grind.
Black candles flicker, spilling blood on the altar's throne,
Acquiring secrets, spells from cosmic death gods unknown.
Verse 2
Signs of my alchemy: unconscious blood, salt reality,
Soul spirit earth, fire wind water, branching cult family.
Order of the Blood Eclipse, I'm the leader unbound,
Luciferian psychonaut, cult of ascension profound.
Higher selves connected, umbilical crowns to roots,
Sexual cosmic energy, split by duality's truths.
Chorus
Symbols from machine elves, mushroom cults' gods so divine,
Numb to the core, I pushed the limits, bleeding on oak floor lines.
Salt and white chalk, knife-engraved rot in my mind,
Incense burns lavender, opium, dragon's blood grind.
Black candles flicker, spilling blood on the altar's throne,
Acquiring secrets, spells from cosmic death gods unknown.
Bridge
Goddess of wisdom, so beautiful, pretty in the dark,
Gave my body as vessel, permanent connection's spark.
Mother Death's womb, quantum immortality's gate,
Fractured souls, broken survival guts, sealing my fate.
Started at 19, obsessed with deep thought's call,
Psychonaut religion, occult discipline, curiosity's thrall.
Verse 3
Traveled deep, dark, disturbing, engulfed in the out-of-body flight,
Downloaded cosmic info, escaping to edges of night.
Crossing to fundamental nothingness, cosmic horror dream,
Her voice cradled me in void, tearing reality's seam.
Gift bestowed upon the quantum sun's eternal blaze,
Snake eating its tail, black holes in reversed wormhole haze.
Event horizons burn, eternal birth and destruction's phase.
Outro (Fade with echoing whispers)
Blood eclipse... quantum sun...
Birth and destruction... forever one...
Mother Death... cradle me...
In the void... eternity...




Order Of The Blood Eclipse

Order Of The Blood Eclipse 2

Order Of The Blood Eclipse 3

Order Of The Blood Eclipse 4

Order Of The Blood Eclipse 5

Dolls Whispers 5

Dolls Whispers Five 3

Dolls Whispers Five 2

Dolls Whispers Five  4

Dolls Whispers Five 1

Verse 1
Zoned out rambling, like silk flowing I'm choking
I got a problem and it's suffocating
I'm too boring but let's get going
Walking the path in flames, never stumbling
Burning like a storm, hailing anti-fucking government
Fire raining acid, fucking killing
Every motherfucking voice inside
That just won't shut the fuck up, ranting
About all the bursting, collapsing emotions
Blended in other forgotten realms
Chorus
The wrath, sick fucking I won't stop stabbing
Killing the monsters inside that keep replicating
Replacing my strategies or getting better
Or even trying to seek healing
Shut the fuck up, all these voices
Won't stop fucking with me
Am I even me?
'Cause I can't feel a thing inside this monster devouring me
Aggressive sedition, seductive kisses with razorblades
I'm just your rag doll, empty-hearted lost love crashing out
Fucking retarded world, eat my love, eat my heart
The zombies from long ago turned into a walking corpse
Just love me before I die, I'll never lie to you or I will die
I could never stay away from your love, please don't ever let me go
I loved too hard, blood running off my wrists onto my sleeves
I was a wreck, weak, fucked up, but I survived
I'm more than alive, I'm dead but I love too hard
Slitting my throat just to cut out all my choking silent tears
Running out of my nose, I just wish I could take away all your fears
But I'm just the monster sleeping next to you
Eyes open, I'm suffering from months of psychotic insomnia
I wish I could be something that would help heal all the hurt
All the hurt that bleeds out
So I don't have to remember the hooks of your vile insecure piece of shit ego
Let's make sure it never gets another look
Verse 2
The wrath returns, echoing in the void
Sick fucking cycle, stabbing through the noise
Monsters replicating, devouring the light
Replacing every plan, no end in sight
Voices won't quit, tearing at my seams
Am I even real in these twisted dreams?
Chorus (Repeat with intensity buildup)
The wrath, sick fucking I won't stop stabbing
Killing the monsters inside that keep replicating
Replacing my strategies or getting better
Or even trying to seek healing
Shut the fuck up, all these voices
Won't stop fucking with me
Am I even me?
'Cause I can't feel a thing inside this monster devouring me
Aggressive sedition, seductive kisses with razorblades
I'm just your rag doll, empty-hearted lost love crashing out
Fucking retarded world, eat my love, eat my heart
The zombies from long ago turned into a walking corpse
Just love me before I die, I'll never lie to you or I will die
I could never stay away from your love, please don't ever let me go
I loved too hard, blood running off my wrists onto my sleeves
I was a wreck, fucked up, but I survived
I'm more than alive, I'm dead but I love too hard
Slitting my throat just to cut out all my choking silent tears
Running out of my nose, I just wish I could take away all your fears
But I'm just the monster inside my head
Please don't ask me to show you how much the world hurts
Bridge/Outro
The cruelty of society weighing down on me
Please just get the fuck away from me
You're so nice, but something is missing
I feel that you might be the enemy
(Fade out with echoing voices: "Am I even me? Devouring me...")

Zoned Out Wrath

Zoned Out Wrath 2 Deep

Zoned Out Wrath 3

Zoned out rambling 

Like silk flowing I'm choking

I got a problem and it's suffocating 

I'm to boring but lets get going 

Walking the path in flames never stumbling  

Burning like a storm hailing anti fucking government 

fire raining acid 

Fucking killing 

Every mother fucking voice 

Inside that just won't shut the fuck up ranting 

About all the bursting

Collapsing  emotions

Blended in other forgotten realms  

The wrath

Sick fucking I won't stop stabbing 

Killing the monsters inside that keep replicating

Replacing my strategies

Or getting better or even trying to seek healing  

Shut the fuck up all these voice 

Won't stop fucking with me

Am I even me 

Because I can't feel a thing inside this monster 

Devouring me 

Aggressive sedition seductive kisses with razorblade 

I'm just your rag doll

Empty hearted lost love crashing out 

Fucking retarded world eat my love 

Eat my heart 

The zombies from long ago

Turned into a walking corpse

Just love me before I die 

I'll never lie to you or I will die I could never stay away

From your love please don't ever let me go

I loved to hard blooding running off my wrists on to my sleeves 

I was a wreak 

Weak 

Fucked up 

But I survived 

I'm more than alive 

I'm dead but I love to hard 

Slitting my throat just to cut out all my choking silent tears 

Running out of my nose I just wish I could take away all your fears 

But I'm just the monster 

Sleeping next to you eyes open I'm suffering 

From months of psychotic insomnia I wish I could be something 

That would help heal all the hurt all the hurt that bleed out 

So I don't have to remember the hooks of your vile insecure piece of shit ego lets make sure it never gets another look  
The wrath

Sick fucking I won't stop stabbing 

Killing the monsters inside that keep replicating

Replacing my strategies

Or getting better or even trying to seek healing  

Shut the fuck up all these voice 

Won't stop fucking with me

Am I even me 

Because I can't feel a thing inside this monster 

Devouring me 

Aggressive sedition seductive kisses with razorblade 

I'm just your rag doll

Empty hearted lost love crashing out 

Fucking retarded world eat my love 

Eat my heart 

The zombies from long ago

Turned into a walking corpse

Just love me before I die 

I'll never lie to you or I will die I could never stay away

From your love please don't ever let me go

I loved to hard blooding running off my wrists on to my sleeves 

I was a wreak 

Fucked up 

But I survived 

I'm more than alive 

I'm dead but I love to hard 

Slitting my throat just to cut out all my choking silent tears 

Running out of my nose I just wish I could take away all your fears 

But I'm just the monster inside my head please don't ask me to show you how much the world hurts

The cruelty of society weighing down on me 

Please just get the fuck away from me

Your so nice Something is missing 

I feel that you might be the enemy 





Get Away 2

[Verse 1] Go ahead and vomit your bile about me Behind my back, you pus-dripping, worm-infested corpse No shred of modesty, tear it to bloody shreds Straight to the viscera—you annihilated everything in a gore-soaked mess [Pre-Chorus] I'm completely shattered, lusting for your screams of excruciating pain Gnawing on these festering, maggot-ridden lacerations you cunts clawed open Time to eviscerate your worthless, rotting carcass [Chorus] I'm not your bloodied, battered fucking punching bag Swallow my excrement, you gangrenous, tumor-riddled abomination Crack that cat o' nine tails with spine-shattering fury Flaying the skin off every spineless fuck who picked this fight Fuck around and find out Fuck around and find out Fuck around and find out, you decaying sacks of meat [Verse 2] You spineless leeches fantasized about pulverizing my bones Pumping your septic poison through the veins of the night like a virus But I'm detonating in a bloodbath, no compassion, just primal butchery Your knife in my spine? I'll yank it out and carve your organs into confetti [Pre-Chorus] I'm completely shattered, lusting for your screams of excruciating pain Gnawing on these festering, maggot-ridden lacerations you cunts clawed open Time to eviscerate your worthless, rotting carcass [Chorus] I'm not your bloodied, battered fucking punching bag Swallow my excrement, you gangrenous, tumor-riddled abomination Crack that cat o' nine tails with spine-shattering fury Flaying the skin off every spineless fuck who picked this fight Fuck around and find out Fuck around and find out Fuck around and find out, you decaying sacks of meat [Bridge] No more containing this hemorrhagic fury exploding veins Your daggers buried deep? I'll rip them free and impale your eye sockets Karma's a rabid demon, disemboweling you with jagged fangs You fueled this apocalypse—now drown in rivers of your own entrails [Breakdown] (Slow, grinding, guttural howls with bone-crunching distortion) You desecrated the WRONG bloodthirsty monster Feel the sledgehammer DEMOLISH your fragile ribcage to splinters No pity, no salvation—disembowel and feast on your innards! Suffer... exsanguinate... fracture... ROT IN YOUR OWN FILTH! Fuck around... (find out, you parasite) Fuck around... (find out, in torment) Fuck around... (find out, forever damned) FUCK AROUND AND FIND OUT—EXPLODE INTO GORE-SOAKED RUINS! (Sadistic blast beats, tsunami of auditory slaughter, complete visceral obliteration ramping to insanity) [Outro] Fuck around and find out (Motherfucker, find out) Fuck around and find out (Your annihilation is here) Fuck around and find out (Echoing bloodcurdling shrieks evaporating into abyss)

Go ahead and vomit your bile about me Be

Zoned out rambling 

Like silk flowing I'm choking

I got a problem and it's suffocating 

I'm to boring but lets get going 

Walking the path in flames never stumbling  

Burning like a storm hailing anti fucking government 

fire raining acid 

Fucking killing 

Every mother fucking voice 

Inside that just won't shut the fuck up ranting 

About all the bursting

Collapsing  emotions

Blended in other forgotten realms  

The wrath

Sick fucking I won't stop stabbing 

Killing the monsters inside that keep replicating

Replacing my strategies

Or getting better or even trying to seek healing  

Shut the fuck up all these voice 

Won't stop fucking with me

Am I even me 

Because I can't feel a thing inside this monster 

Devouring me 

Aggressive sedition seductive kisses with razorblade 

I'm just your rag doll

Empty hearted lost love crashing out 

Fucking retarded world eat my love 

Eat my heart 

The zombies from long ago

Turned into a walking corpse

Just love me before I die 

I'll never lie to you or I will die I could never stay away

From your love please don't ever let me go

I loved to hard blooding running off my wrists on to my sleeves 

I was a wreak 

Weak 

Fucked up 

But I survived 

I'm more than alive 

I'm dead but I love to hard 

Slitting my throat just to cut out all my choking silent tears 

Running out of my nose I just wish I could take away all your fears 

But I'm just the monster 

Sleeping next to you eyes open I'm suffering 

From months of psychotic insomnia I wish I could be something 

That would help heal all the hurt all the hurt that bleed out 

So I don't have to remember the hooks of your vile insecure piece of shit ego lets make sure it never gets another look  
The wrath

Sick fucking I won't stop stabbing 

Killing the monsters inside that keep replicating

Replacing my strategies

Or getting better or even trying to seek healing  

Shut the fuck up all these voice 

Won't stop fucking with me

Am I even me 

Because I can't feel a thing inside this monster 

Devouring me 

Aggressive sedition seductive kisses with razorblade 

I'm just your rag doll

Empty hearted lost love crashing out 

Fucking retarded world eat my love 

Eat my heart 

The zombies from long ago

Turned into a walking corpse

Just love me before I die 

I'll never lie to you or I will die I could never stay away

From your love please don't ever let me go

I loved to hard blooding running off my wrists on to my sleeves 

I was a wreak 

Fucked up 

But I survived 

I'm more than alive 

I'm dead but I love to hard 

Slitting my throat just to cut out all my choking silent tears 

Running out of my nose I just wish I could take away all your fears 

But I'm just the monster inside my head please don't ask me to show you how much the world hurts

The cruelty of society weighing down on me 

Please just get the fuck away from me

Your so nice Something is missing 

I feel that you might be the enemy 

Voices Inside

Voices Inside 2

FAFO

FAFO 2

I thought I was beat down

Screaming with no sound

Buried dead underground

Ripping off my skin

I shed

I fed the god head 



Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



Skills burn deep within the in between

Life's just a joke 

Until you focus

dig your heels endlessly down 

Where you can be seen

Or bothered 

Outside of the pressures of society



Pain for Pay

Trading Special  Pain for emotional physical  pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

It's takes all my minds dark fantasies run away 

Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



I know I'm not normal

Who The fuck is

How many times do I have to remove all these daggers 

Infecting my ability to sleep 

I foam thrash and beg god get these intrusive thoughts under control 

I don't want to lose everything while the world sleeps

When I am Awake barley breathing 



Pain for Pay

Pain for pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

Pain for Pay

Trading Special  Pain for emotional physical  pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

It's takes all my minds dark fantasies run away 

Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



from all this  synchronicity stabbing me in the halo

That bleeds through out my being under the broken ceiling

Screaming feeling something haunting me  

In the apartment I hide going through recovery





black ink oozes behind closed doors

Sliding the needles across the skin



Pain for Pay

Pain for pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

Pain for Pay

Trading Special  Pain for emotional physical  pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

It's takes all my minds dark fantasies run away 

Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



Pain for Pay

Pain for pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 


PAin FOr Pain

Pain FOr PAIN 2

I remember feeling your filthy eyes scanning over my body 

when we met at the bus station  but now 

 crawling under my cloths in my memory

The plague of your ghost clawing and scratching 

 I tried to block them out

 the memories frozen in the mortuary of my souls  cracked open

Suffocating my ability to live any kind of life worth living 

 escaping the trauma bleeding out hemorrhaging    

out your violence that's been hidden shifting under my skin unknown

like a unwanted phantom limb that's murderous 

grabbing at my skin how long will this last how much more will I have to endure how much more pain do I have to pay

I cry when I remember things I know I'm not suppose to remember thanks to the disorder I didn't  even know I had that protected me from your abuse your violence fuck the thoughts of you they won't stop stabbing me in my mind over and over again

In panic and confusion I can feel the

black bile gush being forced up into my mouth 

bleeding around my teeth as I scream found in the night shaking pleading 

stop beating me you drunk fucking whore When I'm asleep in the dead of night

Covered in cold wet regret and ashamed soaking myself 

being afraid to walk away because I'm fucking scared to death of abandonment 

When the black outs into darkness became

 The signal of survival scorched burning through my veins my alters intervened 

between me, Alice and Odium they where watching waiting until  you broke me past the point of no return 

The  pattern of when you beat me in the middle of the night

 vomiting out all your memories out of my souls

 Into the rusted sink 

where I left my blood to rot and stink

When cutting out the infected left over pieces of your love out of my blood 

When I think of you I want to kill you the way you destroyed me inside and out

Keeping me alive why wouldn't let me leave you narcissistic

control freak you fucking monster domestic abusive cunt 

 I wished you would have die that last day the last time I screamed at you I hope you die over the phone

When you asked me to come save you I left you for dead like you left me for dead in a pool of my own blood dying in a rotting covered in cockroaches feasting in my wounds left in that infested broken down apartment while you got high smoking meth getting fucked by the mother fucker that attempted to kill me 

you used me up where anorexia took the place razorblades  from compulsions of self annihilation  

self harm cutting myself with your scissors in a bathroom just after the first three days of meeting you walking off the bus bitch you catfished me you fat pig slut bitch you tricked me right from the start Now today in the dark asleep shell shocked begging when screamed please stop hitting me as I lay in a pool of blood inside the bathroom where we just bathed naked fucked and kissed together  

 you made me wish I would die while I struggled to stay alive like the walking dead yellow black and blue bruised  I was your sex doll nothing more I hated every time you forced me inside 

But I know your life will always just be as you where when you were with me and drunk fucking piece of shit that should be buried alive  

I don't have to do that because 

I'm sure you will destroy your own life I don't need to hope 

 soon enough over time you'll find no rest until death

Every time I dream

night terrors attack I become homicidal 

To life my soul is set ablaze my mind infected with the Trauma beat into my head 

Screaming fighting you off me in my sleep 

Crying out not knowing where I am 

When I'm in a safe place 

Far away from you 

I now have to seek help to red myself from your disease blocked out from 

any memories I can find behind these healed black and blue eyes 





I remember

I remember feeling your filthy eyes scan 2

Zoned out rambling 

Like silk flowing I'm choking

I got a problem and it's suffocating 

I'm to boring but lets get going 

Walking the path in flames never stumbling  

Burning like a storm hailing anti fucking government 

fire raining acid 

Fucking killing 

Every mother fucking voice 

Inside that just won't shut the fuck up ranting 

About all the bursting

Collapsing  emotions

Blended in other forgotten realms  

The wrath

Sick fucking I won't stop stabbing 

Killing the monsters inside that keep replicating

Replacing my strategies

Or getting better or even trying to seek healing  

Shut the fuck up all these voice 

Won't stop fucking with me

Am I even me 

Because I can't feel a thing inside this monster 

Devouring me 

Aggressive sedition seductive kisses with razorblade 

I'm just your rag doll

Empty hearted lost love crashing out 

Fucking retarded world eat my love 

Eat my heart 

The zombies from long ago

Turned into a walking corpse

Just love me before I die 

I'll never lie to you or I will die I could never stay away

From your love please don't ever let me go

I loved to hard blooding running off my wrists on to my sleeves 

I was a wreak 

Weak 

Fucked up 

But I survived 

I'm more than alive 

I'm dead but I love to hard 

Slitting my throat just to cut out all my choking silent tears 

Running out of my nose I just wish I could take away all your fears 

But I'm just the monster 

Sleeping next to you eyes open I'm suffering 

From months of psychotic insomnia I wish I could be something 

That would help heal all the hurt all the hurt that bleed out 

So I don't have to remember the hooks of your vile insecure piece of shit ego lets make sure it never gets another look  
The wrath

Sick fucking I won't stop stabbing 

Killing the monsters inside that keep replicating

Replacing my strategies

Or getting better or even trying to seek healing  

Shut the fuck up all these voice 

Won't stop fucking with me

Am I even me 

Because I can't feel a thing inside this monster 

Devouring me 

Aggressive sedition seductive kisses with razorblade 

I'm just your rag doll

Empty hearted lost love crashing out 

Fucking retarded world eat my love 

Eat my heart 

The zombies from long ago

Turned into a walking corpse

Just love me before I die 

I'll never lie to you or I will die I could never stay away

From your love please don't ever let me go

I loved to hard blooding running off my wrists on to my sleeves 

I was a wreak 

Fucked up 

But I survived 

I'm more than alive 

I'm dead but I love to hard 

Slitting my throat just to cut out all my choking silent tears 

Running out of my nose I just wish I could take away all your fears 

But I'm just the monster inside my head please don't ask me to show you how much the world hurts

The cruelty of society weighing down on me 

Please just get the fuck away from me

Your so nice Something is missing 

I feel that you might be the enemy 










Zoned out rambling 2

Zoned out rambling  3

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In the shadowed corners of  Indiana, Echo's N MelaNKholyiA emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Void, Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric ,Odium, Raven, and Death Moth this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Phuric, and Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
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Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

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