Verse 1
I am the alter of suicide,
The creeping despair that never dies.
From childhood shadows to adult nights,
I've waged this war inside your mind.
When the stress crashes in like endless waves,
You crumble under, can't find your way.
Chorus
I take your place, become the host,
Hide you away to keep you close.
Alive in silence, but I scream your pain,
The words you bury, I let them rain.
I know you feel me, deep in the core,
But I have to show what you ignore.
What you'll never tell...
Verse 2
There are three of us, tangled in the fray,
Sleeping, hiding, crawling through the gray.
From every trauma that shattered the whole,
A new self rises, claiming control.
In astral thoughts that twist and bend,
We inhabit minds that never mend.
Chorus
I take your place, become the host,
Hide you away to keep you close.
Alive in silence, but I scream your pain,
The words you bury, I let them rain.
I know you feel me, deep in the core,
But I have to show what you ignore.
What you'll never tell...
Bridge
A smile I wear on this fractured face,
No one can see the hidden space.
Personalities shift like ghosts in the night,
Morals and ethics, love turning to spite.
Emotions flicker, hate into light—
Can you tell? Can you see the fight?
Outro
We're the alters within, forever concealed,
In this body we share, the wounds never healed.
Can you tell... can you tell?




Shadows of the Self

Verse 1
Blackouts swallow the light, memory gaps like chasms wide,
You whispered you never noticed, but I'm adrift in the tide.
Where am I now, who was I then, staring back at a stranger's face,
Unrecognizable reflections in a shattered glass maze.
Emptiness claws at my core, who am I supposed to become?
Switching visuals like flickering storms, under gravity's crushing thumb.
Pre-Chorus
Lost in agoraphobia's iron grip, praying to flee the endless blur,
Yet entranced by the symptoms' siren call, they pull me deeper, stir.
Emptying my soul into a lake of fears, where panic waves crash and roar,
Get the hell away from me—trapped in walls that feel like war.
Chorus
I don't want to leave this haunted home, diagnosed with abandonment's chain,
Heartbeat thunders involuntary spikes, pain exploding like lightning rain.
The world leaks out through my trembling skin, seeping into the void so deep,
What am I supposed to do when the light in my eyes fades to sleep?
Pills you hand me dissolve into nothing, my mind's a fortress they can't breach,
Mixed in the sands of time's relentless flow, identity slipping out of reach.
Verse 2
Echoes of forgotten selves whisper through the haze of night,
Gravity weighs like invisible chains, pulling me from the fight.
Agoraphobic shadows wrap around, blurring edges of reality's shore,
Hoping for escape, but symptoms dance like flames I can't ignore.
Soul pours out in torrents of dread, into panic's drowning embrace,
Abandonment's diagnosis etched in veins, a scar I can't erase.
Pre-Chorus
Heartbeats spike like jagged thorns piercing through my chest's fragile cage,
World dissolving from my pores, leaking secrets page by page.
No more spark in these hollow eyes, staring into the abyss's call,
Pills scatter like dust in the wind, offering no salvation at all.
Chorus
I don't want to leave this haunted home, diagnosed with abandonment's chain,
Heartbeat thunders involuntary spikes, pain exploding like lightning rain.
The world leaks out through my trembling skin, seeping into the void so deep,
What am I supposed to do when the light in my eyes fades to sleep?
Pills you hand me dissolve into nothing, my mind's a fortress they can't breach,
Mixed in the sands of time's relentless flow, identity slipping out of reach.
Bridge
Sands of time erode the edges of me, blending into a whirlwind storm,
Blackouts and gaps like forgotten dreams, reshaping what was once my form.
Who am I in this reflection's lie? Emptiness fills the space between,
Gravity pulls, but I'll rise from the blur—escape the symptoms' cruel scene.
Outro
Blackouts fade into memory's grave, gaps closing like healing wounds...
Sands shift, but I'm finding my way, through the panic's echoing tunes.
(Repeat fading echoes: "Who am I... sands of time... who am I...")


Blackout Echoes 3

Alter Death Moth Alice the Destroyer

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In the shadowed corners of  Indiana, Echo's N MelaNKholyiA emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Void, Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric ,Odium, Raven, and Death Moth this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Phuric, and Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
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Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

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