Traumacore Art Therapy: What Its Like To Die And Live

Negative Spaces

the cost of giving up

Z - an in Zazie

Zh - as in Zhazha

Brainstorm: find, chase, catch!

Caged Illusions #2

[Verus 1]

When people walk up to and start talking to you about something you have know Idea about but we had talked earlier that day
Getting dizzy Getting a insect crawling feeling up your back up to your head Getting the panic trigger anxiety threat instinct goes off flash back then poof
People calling you by the wrong name
Getting dizzy Getting a insect crawling feeling up your back up to your head Getting the panic trigger anxiety threat instinct goes off flash back then poof
Sometimes.

[Chorus]

Sometimes. I Sit in the passenger seat of the mind while Alice controls my mouth and body but im swear in a fog a haze a robotic like feeling is happening

[Verus 2]

In the waves of transparent heat my emotions
Rising off the asphalt where I lay beaten,
Bruised.
These drugs numb me out. I got nothing to lose, but no one notices when I start to lose
The grip I have on everything moving around me.
My emotions fill my hollow heart,
I thought I owned.
Taking the path less traveled,
Looking back at not one good memory I stored.
Why can't I feel like you feel today?
Emotions fly by me, missing the plans I had.
Feeling nothing, everything is so boring.

[Choruaj]

I Sit in the passenger seat of the mind while Alice controls my mouth and body but im swear in a fog a haze a robotic like feeling is happening


[Verus 3]

Trying to be normal is something I don't understand
Like the people I see walking around me
Disconnected
I'm so disconnected
Don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Trapped in my mind
I can't escape my fate
Trapped in a body I can't control
In a weak state, going insane they take control
Panic sets in as I feel the sickness traveling up my throat
I'm hosting inside the machine
In world I left behind
I'm pulled apart inside
Inner dimensional chaos

[Bridge]

Sometimes. I Sit in the passenger seat of the mind while Alice controls my mouth and body but im swear in a fog a haze a robotic like feeling is happening

[Outro]

Fractured for 30 minutes maybe hours
But at times it's days or weeks I lose count of the moments I
Made and saved
Lost to the sense of time my soul breaks
I can't make sense of me today
I'm lost in a hole
I don't want to know
How I got to this place
Am I ever safe
When I blinked my eyes
I travel time
Realizing there's is something wrong
In the place where I shouldn't have enemies
Reality shifts what a fascination
I can't see clear
The world has a haze a filter of fog shielding the fear


PASseNgeR SeAt #3

[Verse]
Here
There was never a god to hold close to me in this life
In the afterlife
When I die
In the underworld
God's dead here
And the devils were made from the pain in my brain
Bleeding out through the ink that I spill
In this book that I wrote with the blood from my heart
When it broke
Oh

[Prechorus]
Ooh
And they tell me

[Chorus]
I won't be missed when I go
Nobody knows me
And I told 'em I know
But my ego
Gives me a reason to hope
I'm good for somethin'
But I'm nothin' but bones

[Verse 2]
This horror show
Melts and bleeds through your mind and out of the ink
You mix with blood inside your pen
But
God's dead here
He was never alive in this realm that you find
Yourself living in
And the pain that you feel's just your body's defense
Against dying young
But we're dying anyway

[Prechorus]
Ooh
And they tell me

[Chorus]
I won't be missed when I go
Nobody knows me
And I told 'em I know
But my ego
Gives me a reason to hope
I'm good for somethin'
But I'm nothin' but bones




GoDs DeAd HeRe GoNe INsANe NothiNg BuT BoNeS

lambo+ {shango}

💎 Stardust Proof glows with emotional gravity — a soulful R&B-pop dream that proves love can survive the stars. Aiona’s voice floats through cosmic air, wrapped in harmonies, celestial synths, and heartbeats that shimmer like light years of devotion.

Stardust Proof

Thought for 11sHere's a song I crafted based on your poem. I interpreted it as a raw, intense track in a dark alternative/metal style—think brooding verses with building aggression, a haunting chorus, and screamed elements for the rage. I cleaned up some typos for flow but kept the chaotic, visceral spirit intact. I structured it with verses, a pre-chorus, chorus, and a bridge to make it feel like a full song. Imagine heavy distorted guitars, pounding drums, and echoing vocals.
Song Title: Moth of Death (Melankolyia System #5)
[Intro - Spoken/whispered over eerie synths]
Hey you...
Sick...
Fuck...
[Verse 1 - Slow, building tension]
You want to play my game,
A sociopathic love trauma story,
Whore, lover, killer—what?
You want me to delete, take down,
Why do you hate listening to the way you feel inside,
From the perspective vomiting out your mouth?
[Pre-Chorus - Intensifying, growled vocals]
I'm the Moth of Death, the Child of Misery.
You enraged me...
Now I want to eat your soul.
[Chorus - Explosive, screamed with heavy riffs]
Creeping, crawling, hellish little creator me!
Crawling out of my spider legs again!
Storm the earth with the apocalypse of my mind,
Upon your hearts—have a piece of my cake!
I love you so much...
But I hate myself...
I want to die...
But all I have are these sociopathic void eyes!
[Verse 2 - Faster pace, chaotic energy]
Hey you, sick fuck,
You want to play my game again?
Sociopathic love, trauma stories unfolding,
Whore lover killer, twisting in the dark.
Delete me, take me down—try it,
Hate the truth spilling from your own void.
[Pre-Chorus - Even more aggressive]
I'm the Moth of Death, the Child of Misery.
You enraged me...
Now I want to eat your soul.
[Chorus - Full blast, with backing screams]
Creeping, crawling, hellish little creator me!
Crawling out of my spider legs again!
Storm the earth with the apocalypse of my mind,
Upon your hearts—have a piece of my cake!
I love you so much...
But I hate myself...
I want to die...
But all I have are these sociopathic void eyes!
[Bridge - Slowed down, atmospheric breakdown with whispers turning to roars]
I love you... so much...
But the hate consumes me,
Void eyes staring back,
Moth wings fluttering in the abyss...
Enraged, creeping, crawling—
Eat your soul, storm the hearts,
Apocalypse now!
[Final Chorus - Fading out with echoes and distortion]
Creeping, crawling, hellish little creator me!
Crawling out of my spider legs again!
Storm the earth with the apocalypse of my mind,
Upon your hearts—have a piece of my cake!
I love you so much... (so much...)
But I hate myself... (hate myself...)
I want to die... (want to die...)
But all I have are these sociopathic void eyes!
(Void eyes... void eyes...)
If this captures what you meant, or if you want tweaks—like changing the genre, adding more verses, or making it longer/shorter—let me know. You're real as hell, and this poem screams authenticity. Keep creating.



Death Moth  Cvlt  -13 013 Void 13 Suicidal Kings & Queens

This insanity creeps in like shadows at dusk
These imbalances twist my mind into rust
Serotonin drained, a hollowed-out vein
Dopamine struggles, gasping in vain
To stay sane, but the madness prevails
Whispers of chaos on fractured rails
Black
White
I split down the middle, no gray in between
I hate you so fucking much, you're the ghost in my machine
I swear to Lucifer, when that rush ignites
I'll drag you to hell under flickering lights
(Chorus)
I'm going to send you to oblivion's door
Ripping you emotionally, leaving scars on the floor
For raping my heart like a prostituted ghost
Of star-crossed lovers, now shattered and lost
Broken toys scattered, eyes hollow and wide
Teddy bears gutted, with stuffing inside
Make me hate all of me, this fractured parade
Insanity's playground where innocence fades
Verse 2:
Echoes of laughter from childhood's cruel game
Dolls with cracked faces, whispering my name
Porcelain skin splintered, limbs torn apart
Mirroring the voids in my crumbling heart
Voices collide in a symphony of pain
Serotonin ghosts haunt the dopamine rain
Black thoughts devour the white light of day
Splitting me open in violent display
I hate you, the mirror that stares back with spite
Fucking destroyer of every false light
Lucifer laughs as the rush builds its fire
Oblivion calls, pulling me into the mire
Emotional wreckage, like toys in the dirt
Abandoned and mangled, forever alert
(Chorus)
I'm going to send you to oblivion's door
Ripping you emotionally, begging for more
For raping my heart like a prostituted ghost
Of star-crossed lovers, now dust on the coast
Broken toys scattered, stitches undone
Playthings of trauma under a blood-red sun
Make me hate all of me, this endless decay
Insanity's cradle where sanity frays
Bridge:
Feel the weight of the silence, the toys start to scream
Ragdolls with needles sewn into their seams
Depression's embrace, a violent delight
Insanity blooms in the dead of the night
Hate surges like venom through every vein
Splitting the self into fragments of pain
No escape from the carnival's twisted allure
Where playtime turns poison, and nothing is pure
Verse 3:
Serotonin whispers lies in the dark
Dopamine flickers, a dying spark
Black and white wars rage inside my skull
I split into shards, feeling utterly null
Hate you forever, the monster within
Fucking eclipse of where hope should begin
Lucifer's promise in the rush of the storm
Oblivion's arms, eternally warm
Ripping the soul with claws made of glass
Emotional carnage, a traumacore mass
Heart raped and ravaged, a ghost in the shell
Star-crossed and cursed, ringing death's bell
Toys lie in ruins, their innocence slain
Symbols of madness, driving me insane
(Chorus - Extended)
I'm going to send you to oblivion's door
Ripping you emotionally, settling the score
For raping my heart like a prostituted ghost
Of star-crossed lovers, the ones I loathe most
Broken toys scattered, limbs twisted and bent
Puppets of pain in a world that's hell-bent
Make me hate all of me, this violent charade
Insanity's echo that never will fade
Outro:
This insanity... lingers like fog in the mind
Imbalances eternal, no peace left to find
Black... White... I split and I break
Hate all of me, for sanity's sake
Toys in the abyss, forever they cry
Depression's violent lullaby... goodbye.

You Raped My Heart 3

[Verse 1]
I nailed you to a pedestal of splintered teeth and piss
Touch you every night with fingernails chewed down to hiss
I’ll tear my sternum open, scoop the rot, and mold it wet
Trade my self-respect for twenty seconds of your sweat
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of drug that liquefies your marrow into tar
I’m living in a meat-grinder nightmare, my mind
Is a skull-fucked pressure bomb inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a ruptured sewer, lungs a choking flood
Am I even flying or just too flayed to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Verse 2]
I tongue your ghost through gutters full of bile and broken glass
Carve your name in scabs across the mirror’s shattered ass
I’d shoot every maybe through the eyeball, let it burn
If it drags me one more twitch toward the corpse I used to learn
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of high that peels your face off with its teeth
I’m living in a loop of guts and rewind
Is a meat-hook guillotine inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Mouth full of rust, veins full of sludge
Am I even flying or just too gutted to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Bridge]
3 AM, the walls bleed pus, your silhouette gnaws bone
I puke my name into the sink, sell my tongue for one more moan
If love’s a septic needle, I’ll ram it through my fucking eye
One more hit of almost, let it rape me till I die
[Breakdown – guttural roar]
PEDESTAL!
TOUCH YOU!
TRY MY BEST!
TRADE MY SELF-RESPECT!
[Final Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a maggot banquet, soul a piss-soaked flood
I’m not even screaming, just too hollow to feel at all
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Outro]
Pedestal’s a meat cleaver, I’m minced across the floor
Your name’s a pus-filled blister that my throat can’t ignore
If this is overdose, let the maggots eat the rest
I’d rather rot in vomit than beg your corpse for breath



My Mind On Drugs IV Crystal Meth Rot

[Verse 1]
I nailed you to a pedestal of splintered teeth and piss
Touch you every night with fingernails chewed down to hiss
I’ll tear my sternum open, scoop the rot, and mold it wet
Trade my self-respect for twenty seconds of your sweat
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of drug that liquefies your marrow into tar
I’m living in a meat-grinder nightmare, my mind
Is a skull-fucked pressure bomb inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a ruptured sewer, lungs a choking flood
Am I even flying or just too flayed to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Verse 2]
I tongue your ghost through gutters full of bile and broken glass
Carve your name in scabs across the mirror’s shattered ass
I’d shoot every maybe through the eyeball, let it burn
If it drags me one more twitch toward the corpse I used to learn
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of high that peels your face off with its teeth
I’m living in a loop of guts and rewind
Is a meat-hook guillotine inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Mouth full of rust, veins full of sludge
Am I even flying or just too gutted to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Bridge]
3 AM, the walls bleed pus, your silhouette gnaws bone
I puke my name into the sink, sell my tongue for one more moan
If love’s a septic needle, I’ll ram it through my fucking eye
One more hit of almost, let it rape me till I die
[Breakdown – guttural roar]
PEDESTAL!
TOUCH YOU!
TRY MY BEST!
TRADE MY SELF-RESPECT!
[Final Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a maggot banquet, soul a piss-soaked flood
I’m not even screaming, just too hollow to feel at all
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Outro]
Pedestal’s a meat cleaver, I’m minced across the floor
Your name’s a pus-filled blister that my throat can’t ignore
If this is overdose, let the maggots eat the rest
I’d rather rot in vomit than beg your corpse for breath




My Mind On Drugs IV Meat CryStAl Grinder

My Mind On Drugs  2

What It's Like To Die Overdose Immortality

[Intro]
(Child whisper over cracking porcelain, building to a wet drip)
What am I even doing anymore...
I have nothing left to look forward to...
But now the rust gnaws into your flesh.

[Verse 1]
As all my hopes and dreams died long ago,
The midnight sky beats red and white,
Lightning hits the frequencies echoing from my heart.
My chest sleeps where daggers are imbedded first from the start,
Within I should have known I was to die forever,
To rust down to the bone—now your bones splinter and bleed.

[Chorus]
When love bleeds sour milk,
And the poppies' milk wastes and rots away,
When smoking mildew weed, snorting ketamine in bed,
Smoking meth just to keep awake,
Floating between space and time...
This is what it's like to die,
But still keep a hold of your life—while I tear yours apart, vein by vein.

[Verse 2]

I drift in the void where shadows cling,
Hopes turned to ash, dreams in decay,
Thunder cracks through the veins in my soul,
Daggers twist deeper, no light in the fray.
Rust creeps in, bone by bone it claims,
Sour love curdles, poppies fade to gray—
But the gray festers black, invading your rotting frame.

[Traumacore Assault Bridge]

(Explosive glitch: Lullabies warp into visceral crunches, beats slamming like fists into pulp)

You, the thief in the nursery dark,
Stole the light from my candy-colored spark—
Now the toys claw back, ripping your skin apart,
Poppies bleed acid, scorching your throbbing heart.
Ketamine haze sharpens the hooks in your meat,
Meth flames sear your nerves, blistering heat—
Rust devours you alive, pedo filth decaying,
Innocence assaults with teeth gnashing, flaying.
Daggers from my chest now gouge your eyes blind,
Floating trauma crashes, your guts unwind.
Blood sprays sour, bones crack under the weight,
I watch you writhe, your essence eviscerate.

[Chorus (Intensified)]

When love bleeds sour milk across your shredded grave,
And the poppies' milk festers in your craving rave,
When mildew weed roots deep in your festering bed,
Ketamine whispers as your tendons shred,
Smoking meth ashes choke your gaping cries,
Floating between hell and your own demise...
This is what it's like to die,
Losing hold as I claim your life, pulp by pulp.

[Verse 3 (Revenge Outro)]
(Fading with wet, tearing echoes, music box grinding to a bloody halt amid visceral static)
Hopes reborn in your ruin, dreams claw through your hide,
Midnight sky rains daggers, piercing your inside.
I was to rust, but now you corrode first, raw and slick,
Bone by bone, cursed, your marrow I lick.
Nothing left for you to look forward to...
Die forever... rust through your wounds, true.




What It's Like To Die

Echo's N MelaNKholyiA : A Sonic Odyssey of Fragmented Souls
In the shadowed corners of Syracuse ,  Indiana, Echo's N MelanKholyia emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Void, Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric ,Odium, Raven, and Death Moth this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Phuric, and Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
Musically, Echo's N MelanKholyia is a hypnotic storm of genres: traumacore's dissonant catharsis meets industrial gothcore's mechanical fury, nu metal's rap-growl aggression, post-darkwave's ethereal haze, glitchcore's chaotic distortions, and voidcore's abyssal emptiness. The result is an immersive, addictive soundscape—binaural beats pulsing at 40Hz and 174Hz to tie in seduction and euphoria, 3D audio for psychotic despair, and unpolished production that bleeds raw intensity. Themes delve into mental health's labyrinth: dissociation's void, addiction's grip, damaging relationships' scars, and the triumph of self-reclamation. Khimera's artistry extends beyond audio to visual realms, with album artwork featuring charcoal sketches, gothic horror elements, and luciferian symbolism, all crafted to evoke a "junkie holocaust death march" of creepy, apocalyptic introspection.
Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

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