Im really hurting and she hates me. I want my best friend back and im never going to have her back. 

Who’d of thought i’d love this song more than anything else at times

you tore my heart apart 
now I try to put it back together 
you’re my only love 
I wish that I could be with you forever 
Yeah I fucked up and now you’re gone 
and I don’t know what to do with myself 
Every days the same 
I can’t wash away the pain
so I switch up my meds 
can’t sleep in my bed 
cause I’m always wondering if I’m in your head 

wakin up every day to this life it Fuckin sucks 
Always having you on my mind and I wanna wish you luck 
wish we could’ve worked, I’m always drinking now, I’m fucked 
im going days without eating and only filling up my cup 

I’m running on empty 
cause I don’t have you here anymore 

I do the same thing every day 
Getting high is my escape 
so I don’t have to think of all the problems 
how I couldn’t solve them 
so I write these poems 
singing how I feel so numb 

nothing works anymore 
I’m so empty down to the core 
you closed up all of your doors 
left me here on the floor 

I’m feeling so anxious 
Cause I be fighting this depression 
I never learned my lesson 
always waiting for a message 

God don’t even listen to me 
answer all my questions 
I am always fuckin stressed 
living without any direction 

You were such a blessing 
gave so much affection 
just enough attention 
a beautiful connection 
I always see your reflection 
When I am looking for perfection 
writing songs about you 
fuck, I’m feeling so depressive

everyday's the same (prod. Afterlife)

https://youtu.be/ATJGaL4RuC8

u shouldn't let things get to u like that
now further in sink in 2 me again

run
so far from me
u'll never find that thing u crave

said it's 2 late now & it's over
found ur own way out like u wanted
is it working ?
tell me, was it worth it ?
i don't want it 
i don't wanna go back

IN 2 ME (prod. Sleye)(VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

@yoimn3ver
@northshoremusic
@caspywaspy
@emptychest
@kuriositylol

(teddyboi)

demons after me I'm in a crisis all white gucci suit, yeah

I've been feeling righteous can't breathe, feel like I got bronchitis

I ruin everything that i touch like my name is Midas

yeah spread, spread like a virus, yeah demons chasing after me it's a crisis,

yeah, all white gucci suit,

I feel righteous tired of fist fightin demons, think I'm bout to shoot them

wanna know the truth?

baby I'm a little ruthless ill stab you in the back make you feel like Julius

(TNS)

Holding onto everything

Words in my head

Can’t catch a break

Slow it down and speed it up

Places to go don’t give a damn

Worry about myself and don’t give in

bullet in my brain just to feel the pain

Worry about the things I can’t control

I’m gonna fill my body with bullet holes tonight

(casperrr)

3am throwing up all the shit I ate

now I'm on the bathroom and my body ache

I think I smoked more than I could take

I don't fuck with anyone, everybody's fake

trade me, replace me I know u fucking hate me

the way u try to make me feel the way u try to break me

go away and leave u make me feel sick with all the shit u say with all the things u do

(emptychest)

im fine till i cope

try to breath air but i choke

pretty purple lights glow inside my room tonight im always hot like cryoscope

wrote a note in envelope sent it out to the seas

on a boat and hope it makes it there yet

i live there nothing could ever be fine but i wont ever care im wishing for the best

and im staring life right in the eyes saying, "test me." saying "test me."

(kuriosity)

should’ve known that she was a hoe

said i blow me a k

gotta get me some more gotta louie bet on the floor said i walk in the room

and her belt on the floor im too busy stackin my dough

i cant worry bout u i cant stress onna hoe

i feel like ive been here before feel like i’ve been here before

and ive been searchin through my own past tryna figure out who the fuck i am

and i’ve been getting in my own bag

i cant focus on u gotta focus on bands

good deeds cant cover up my bads

i did what i did i am who i am

the shit u said hurt so bad but u wouldn’t get it u wont understand

Crisis w/ casperrr, teddyboi, The North Shore, kuriosity & emptychest [+ sogimura]

produced by wisssery and noahmadethiss

can we slow down?
can't get to the phone now
make it stop
what'd you say? 
my bad i zoned out
i hate crowds and noises
that's why i don't go out
maybe one day i'll get better
just not right now

everytime I leave my bed its an endless cycle of fear and resentment
Even if everythings alright, can’t help but wonder why I live in the past tense
One step forward is five back
Missed a shot in the dark and it’s too bad
Six feet deep in the ground my remains still say you really didn’t have to do that
Forever the worst, never the best
You’re really toxic and that’s not a flex
got something to say, I invite you to test
Calling your bluff you just cap like the rest
Stay hella bored but I don’t leave the house
i gotta go get it, just push through the doubt
Deep in my thoughts
Stomach in knots
Im begging to stop
Just leave me to rot

Constantly fighting a war with my head 
sometimes I think I’d be better off dead 
everyone says it can only get better 
then why do I constantly wake up in dread? 
running in circles again and again 
i just wish I could be there for my friends 
forever the worst, never the best 
always talking that shit but it’s not with your chest 
everyone here’s just talking 
can’t pay no mind, gotta clock in 
yeah I took some l’s for a while
my mind is a prison, im locked in 
stay hella bored but I don’t leave the house
i gotta go get it just push through the doubt 
deep in my thoughts 
stomach in knots 
I’m begging to stop
just leave me to rot

leave me to rot (prod. wisssery x noahmadethiss)

"redacted" by cometsfuneral
produced by cwta ( @nacscripts )

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MNyqvymN1AQ
Directed, Shot, Edited by @_vlbenn
CRT @1minesweeper
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#scfirst

redacted (mv in desc)

rainy days w/ yung shinra (prod. discent)

Check out the producers

@lu_lo
@oceanonthebeat
(Prod. Ocean & Lu_Lo)
Shout to @Lu_Lo on the Vocal Mix 

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She's a bad girl with a cute smile
Ain't no control when i see her face
So, baby will you come back to my place
We'll take it slow
Or maybe we wont, I don't know
Don't need to know what the future holds 
Girl take my clothes cause you look so cold
I bite your neck
You say you love it when I pull your hair
(Marks on your body left everywhere) 

We got that liquor on our breath
Ooo but we see so clear
Don't want this night to end 
Just wanna lay here.. 
Just wanna lay here.. 
Don't want this night to end just wanna lay here
Just wanna lay right...
Just wanna lay right here...

Cause she's a bad girl with a cute smile
Aint no control when i see her face
So baby will you come back to my place
Bad girl...
She's a bad girl with a cute smile
Ain't no control when i see her face
So, baby will you come back to my place
We'll take it slow
Or maybe we wont, I don't know

She like my fast car... 
Got her a pink Ducati
But she says that she'd rather ride me
I bite your neck
You say you love it when I pull your hair
(Marks on your body left everywhere) 

Cause she's a bad girl with a cute smile
(liquor on your breath)
Aint no control when i see her face
(Don't want this night to end)
So baby will you come back to my place
(Don't want this night to end) 
Bad girl

Bad (Feat. Lu_Lo)

driveway

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driveway [Prod.ghxstkid]

Dying 4 Ur Lips feat. Sleye ( prod. JOJO. x Sleye )

this was my track for @bitekivibes vol 4 go check out the rest of the album <33
lyrics

feeling nothing from the sounds of the words now
cause know that their foundations
always brittle could just give away at any point
whats the point? whats the point
is there really one~
seemed to have misplaced it, its lost in the crowd once again~
all those faces pass by~
they all look right through me~
cause im really not here~
am i even living life~
floating upon a sea of doubt
can only hold out for so long~
and those winds~
they rip like a blade through the wars that they wage
and the way that i see it is we wont have time to make it
back out alive~ back out alive~
the days are all just numbers now~
numbers, now

days are all just numbers ~ [p. diamoon]

prod. curtains/jakkyboi
mix/master brody

Why I gotta hide every time he calls?
Shoved me in the closet 
Fuck that I'll sleep in my car 
I'll drive far just me and my guitar

We're both in your bed but we can't sleep together
Break up every week but you swear it's gonna last forever

I can't take the pressure
You do it for your pleasure
I can do better
I can do better

We're both in your bed but we can't sleep together
Break up every week but you swear it's gonna last forever
All I am is an option
Wish I was back in Boston

I can say I tried so I'll carry on
Shove me in the closet fuck that I'll sleep in my car
I'll drive far just me and my guitar

Get your life under control
Cause this world is so cold
Easy to love but so hard to hold
I loved you the most even though that door closed 

We're both in your bed but we can't sleep together
Break up every week but you swear it's gonna last forever

I can't take the pressure
You do it for your pleasure
I can do better
I can do better

We're both in your bed but we can't sleep together
Break up every week but you swear it's gonna last forever
All I am is an option
Wish I was back in Boston

Wish I was wrapped in your arms tonight
The light from the stars don't seem as bright
Without you here, I need you near me
When we're together there's nothing to fear

Wish I was wrapped in your arms tonight
The light from afar won't be as bright
Without you here, I need you near me
When we're together there's nothing to fear

options (prod. curtains & jakkyboi)

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