Made this back in 2019
P.S. I don't know why the track starts 10 seconds in, this is the only version of the song that I was able to salvage




Seconds wither me
Leaving but a scar
Wish I kept them close
Deep inside my heart
I've been in a daze
Dreaming endlessly
Will I ever wake?
From my enemies?
Treading overhead
Slipping through the cracks
Hiding from myself
As I fade to black
In the world below
With the little light
Can you heal it so?
My forsaken plight?

[x2]
Gears stop turning when I'm awake
Days keep holding me right in place
I just want this nightmare to fade
Please don't say that you'll ever wait

Am I better off never holding on?
Should I write my wrongs way before they're gone
I keep getting lost through each open hall
Can you fix the lock to my broken song?
Rip me all aside till my shadows break
Cut me like a knife till I'm torn astray
I just need a sign of my broken fate
There's nothing to hide under all the shade, yeah

[x2]
Falling

gears

ngl I just ripped this off of youtube since I got 2 versions of the song and can't remember which one I uploaded

holding on (prod. by twofivesix)

Made this back in 2018

P.S. Sorry for the empty space at the end

save my soul (prod. by nojon)

be the change you wish to see (prod. by yutaka hirasaka)

Ripped off of youtube

Cry all night
Go to sleep
Then wake up
And repeat
Wonder why I'm still so weak
Break the floor from under me
I'll return with my soul
Right before the feeling goes
Why can't I see my toes
Can somebody cut the rope?
Hear the cries of the fiends
Mind my business while they feast
All I see are broken dreams
All I need are memories
Paint the walls and the crows
As they drag me down the road
To a place that I know
Guess it's why I feel at home

Has the light ever shown?
Deep inside the world below
Ease the pain from getting close
I just want to feel at home
Am I at the bottom or the top?
Why they keep me down when I'm up
See my halo hanging right above
Guess I really never cared enough
Funny how I'm always on my own
Even when they say I'm not alone
Maybe I should take the blight and roam
To a place the light'll never go
Watch it go until it's almost gone
Everything I've known to love is lost
Did I try too hard to write my wrongs
Why can't I just seem to move along?
In this place that's only kept me low
I could never feel the weight I hold
Is there still another way to go?
All that's left of me in here are bones

Cry all night
Go to sleep
Then wake up
And repeat
Wonder why I'm still so weak
Break the floor from under me
I'll return with my soul
Right before the feeling goes
Why can't I see my toes
Can somebody cut the rope?
Hear the cries of the fiends
Mind my business while they feast
All I see are broken dreams
All I need are memories
Paint the walls and the crows
As they drag me down the road
To a place that I know
Guess it's why I feel at home

the only halo I'll have will be the rope around my neck (prod. by born hero)

entite ring (prod. by discent)

the angel of sleepy hollow (prod. by haruhi)

take me away (prod. by kimj)

My chest still feels tight
Am I about to die
I don't want to feel like this
I'd rather be buried alive
Why is it so hard to smile
I know I haven't laughed in a while
It's starting to get to me
This pain is driving me wild
I think I'm gonna be sick
I can't stop thinking about it
Why did I do this to myself
I'm this close from calling it quits
Haven't I already suffered enough
All the drugs I did fucked me up
I still haven't fully recovered
Every night I can't help but throw up
I wish I never saw my own shadow
Everyday feels like a battle
I think I made a deal with the devil
I feel like a dog in a kennel
Is it too late to run away
I just want to numb the pain
Nothing's been going my way
I don't know how much more I can take
Cut me out of your life like a fraction
I know you don't like how I've been actin
I don't think I can change my habits
I wish I could tell you what happened
So don't be alarmed if you ever see me bleeding
I'm just busy fighting my demons
They're always there even though you can't see them
I'll show you now if you still don't believe it
I feel so alone
Can you please take me home
I don't think I can do this anymore
My heart feels like it just hit the floor
My chest still feels tight
Am I about to die
I don't want to feel like this
I'd rather be buried alive
Why is it so hard to smile
I know I haven't laughed in a while
It's starting to get to me
This pain is driving me wild
I slit my wrist
Now I'm a mess
What's wrong with me
It's all in my head

Phasing (prod. irby x Jolst)

Trust me
I know
How it feels to be alone
You're not the only one
That's lived their whole life in the shadows
Trust me
I know
How it feels to be alone
You're not the only one
That's lived their whole life in the shadows
Don't beat yourself up
You did nothing wrong
You just had a little hiccup
By tonight it'll be gone
The same thing used to happen to me all the time
I would cry myself to sleep every night
I lost the respect of everyone around me
It felt like I had no one on my side
Whatever you're feeling now is only temporary
You won't feel like this in the morning
Don't let this one loss get the best of you
I know sometimes it's hard to ignore it
Trust me
I know
How it feels to be alone
You're not the only one
That's lived their whole life in the shadows
Trust me
I know
How it feels to be alone
You're not the only one
That's lived their whole life in the shadows
No one's perfect
Just look at me
I still fuck up
You're not crazy
Just give it some time
Everything will work out
Don't dwell on it
You'll just bring yourself down

Shadows (prod. irby)

I just want to fill this void in my chest
It hurts so much that I can't even rest
Can you please repeat what you just said
I got distracted by the voice in my head
I can't remember the last time I saw the sun
I hit the hay everytime I'm feeling numb
These dark thoughts make me want to pull the plug
Is this my punishment for everything I've done
I need something to relieve all this anxiety
These pills can only do so much
My fears are starting to get to me
I keep waking up in a cold sweat
I can't stop thinking about death
Is there something wrong with my head
I used to not get this depressed
I feel like I'm made out of plastic
Is this payment for my actions
I wish I could go back in time
I feel like a car that's losing traction
I hate this shit
Why even lie
I have to deal with it every night
Don't wait on me
I'll be there soon
I'm just staring up at the moon
I wish I never told anyone my secret
Why didn't I just give them the silent treatment
Don't be shocked if I leave you without a reason
I do a lot of dumb things just to please my demons
It feels like I've been hanging by a thread
Will I feel better if I smoke a little sage
I can only put up with it for so long
I don't want to have any more dark days
This pain is fucking me up
I still can't feel a thing
My head feels so numb
I just want to fill this void in my chest
It hurts so much that I can't even rest
Can you please repeat what you just said
I got distracted by the voice in my head
I can't remember the last time I saw the sun
I hit the hay everytime I'm feeling numb
These dark thoughts make me want to pull the plug
Is this my punishment for everything I've done

Sun (prod. irby)

Why am I so unstable
I feel like a fallen angel
I should've held onto my halo
It wouldn't have been as painful
I still don't know how to deal with stress
You'd think by now it'd be common sense
I'm sorry if I break your heart again
These dark thoughts have got me all upset
I still don't know where my heart is
I thought I left it at your apartment
I don't think we should see each other
You'd only make yourself a target
You shouldn't send me an invitation
I'd only let you down and you leave you hanging
I fuck up in every situation
Just think about all the time you'd be wasting
I'd move on if I were you
Trust me, I'm bad news
You don't want to go this road
You might not return if you do
Why am I so unstable
I feel like a fallen angel
I should've held onto my halo
It wouldn't have been as painful
I still don't know how to deal with stress
You'd think by now it'd be common sense
I'm sorry if I break your heart again
These dark thoughts have got me all upset

Unstable (prod. irby x jolst)

keep it moving, you know this ain't window shopping...

Gather all your things
You already know why
I don't care if you can't find a place to stay tonight
It's bad enough I allowed you to sleep in my bed
If you were my daughter I would've disciplined
You're only acting like this cause you know you've been caught
You don't really feel remorse, I can see through it all
When I come back upstairs you better be gone
You know how much I don't like to drag things on
Don't blame it on the drink or the hand you've been dealt
There's a price to be paid for this blood that you spilled
You have no one to blame for this mess but yourself
Get your fucking hands off me, I shouldn't have to yell
Here's your guitar, cause I won't need it now
Why keep it when you've only ever cared about yourself
Gather all your things and get out of my house
A disrespectful cunt is all I see in you now
Stop saying you love me, it's fucking disgusting
Don't you have any shame, stop trying to hug me
Showing this side of you is so damn repulsive
This is what you get for treating me like dogshit

gather all your things and get the fuck out

Where have you been all my life
Cause you make me feel warm inside
I was starting to think that I'd have to keep settling for less
You've definitely peaked my interest
You're nothing like these other vixens
I never thought that girls like you actually existed in this world
So many girls have stabbed me in the back
I'm shocked my spinal cord is still intact
Your loyalty is all that I ask
Everything else doesn't really mean jack
I'm not saying that I don't care about what you want
I just want to make to sure that nothing goes wrong
I don't know if I could take another loss
The last girl I was with made me write all these songs
This dating shit feels like a neverending cycle
It's honestly gonna turn me into a psycho
I was sweating just from being in your prescene
I was trying so hard not to mess up like a typo
I shouldn't be afraid of showing you my best
I think I'm just afraid of getting too obsessed
Every girl I've met so far reminds me of my ex
I almost thought that all that shit would never end
I want to take you home, but I still need to know
What's your body count and do you still live with your folks
It's all these little things about you that I need to know
I can't be tryna wife someone that doesn't care at all
Trust issues were never good for my health
If I have you I want you all to myself
Why should I have to share you with somebody else
I'm not tryna show you off like a fucking gucci belt
You cut right through the static
If only I had met you back then
You would've saved me from all this hearbreak
I never would've done all this acid
Are you doing anything later?
It's been so long since I've made plans
I used to not believe in fate
If only I had known it then
Being with you feels like taking off a blindfold
Before I met you I was so fucking spiteful
I thought that being real was going out of style
For you I'd definitely go a thousand miles
It's been so long since I've met someone this geninue
And the best part about it is I don't have to pretend
Getting to know you feels like a muhfucking win
I wouldn't be opposed to tatting you on my skin
[x3]
Wouldn't be opposed to tatting you on my skin

you cut right through the static

what was I thinking (prod. 2001 x artemys)

One of many

mixed/mastered: @lilspudxlp

[Chorus]
You made me realize
That everything is gonna be alright
I don't know what I was so afraid of
I think I just needed to clear my mind
I started to feel better when I read through your text
Whatever you wrote me did something to my head
I almost thought I would never get out of that mess
You always make my problems seem like they're not a threat
[Verse 1]
You reminded me that I'm still human
I can't expect everything to always be perfect
We all make mistakes and learn from them
It's the only way to be a better person
I wish someone had told me all this when I was young
I wouldn't have ever considered pulling the plug
Sometimes all we need is just a simple hug
I used to think that opening up wouldn't be enough
[Verse 2]
I used to hate looking at myself
I was insecure if you couldn't tell
You showed me how to have confidence
The cold shoulder was all I ever felt
The only person you can really change is yourself
You can't force your agenda on someone else
Trust me, I had to learn the hard way
If I never reflected I wouldn't be here still
[Chorus]
You made me realize
That everything is gonna be alright
I don't know what I was so afraid of
I think I just needed to clear my mind
I started to feel better when I read through your text
Whatever you wrote me did something to my head
I almost thought I would never get out of that mess
You always make my problems seem like they're not a threat

you made me realize (prod. 2001)

To my brother who doesn't believe in me

mixed/mastered: @lilspudxlp

[Chorus]
Another long night
Another long drive
I'll think about what you said to me this time
I was this close from lashing out
You're lucky I didn't lose my smile
Your words still sting
It's hard to focus
I thought winter was supposed to be the coldest
You've shown me who you really are
You only comment when I miss the mark
[Verse 1]
You only know how to bring me down
I never asked for your criticism
I always clap when I see you doing good
To me it just doesn't make any sense
From now on I won't say anything
I'll just let the music speak for itself
I can't keep losing sleep over what you think
I haven't slept for days in case you couldn't tell
[Bridge]
I meant every word I said
You've never walked a mile in my shoes
Don't treat all my progress like shit
You don't know what I had to go through
I'll come back when I've calmed down
Right now I just don't want to see you
You remind me of my old self
Maybe that's why it's so hard to please you
[Verse 2]
I had to work my up from rock bottom
I was never really given any handouts
I take a lot of pride in what I'm doing
You think I'd come this far just to burn it all down?
I don't have that kind of time anymore
You'll understand when you get to my age
I used to say the same shit to our old man
If he were here I know he'd say the same
[Chorus]
Another long night
Another long drive
I'll think about what you said to me this time
I was this close from lashing out
You're lucky I didn't lose my smile
Your words still sting
It's hard to focus
I thought winter was supposed to be the coldest
You've shown me who you really are
You only comment when I miss the mark

another long night (prod. 2001 x pekarot)

For a friend that I feel I am growing apart from

Mixed/Mastered: @lilspudxlp

[Chorus]
I hate having to pick sides
I wish everyone was on my side
But I can't always have it my way
Forcing things will only bring me pain
[Verse 1]
I don't want to throw anyone under the bus
It hurt when I chose to cut one of my friends off
Leaving you would definitely leave a hole in my heart
You've known me since the very start
Right now it feels like I'm playing tug a war with my emotions
It's a good thing that I learned to be a little more open
Just thinking about what to say to you is already making me lose focus
I just hope that when I tell you the truth it isn't too potent
[Verse 2]
Our friendship means a lot to me
This might be the first time I tell you sorry
I know that it's risky after how far we've come
I hate it, I hate it
But it must be done

I couldn't concentrate during the match (prod. frevel x 5head)

I was made for this

Mixed/Mastered: @lilspudxlp

[Chorus]
I'm trying
Can't you see I'm trying
Why'd you have to say that?
Do you not want to see me win?
I don't understand you
Why are you so hateful?
Your words only hurt me
I thought we were in the same boat
You really know how to hurt my pride
I guess you don't want to see me shine
I don't feel bad now if I leave you behind
Don't call me when I'm in the spotlight
[Verse 1]
Can't you see that I've been giving it my all
The least you can say is job well done
Your expectations are unrealistic
You think I do this just for fun?
I don't have all the time in the world like you do
That's an upside of being young and dumb
You don't have any real obligations
I pray for you when that day finally comes
[Bridge]
So think twice before you call me a joke
Cause you might be in the same place in two years
I've seen the way you talk about me behind my back
Would you still laugh if I suddenly disappaeared?
See unlike you, I don't like giving up
When I'm a corpse is when I've had enough
How can you mock someone for at least trying
I'd still do this even if I knew that I was dying
[Chorus]
I'm trying
Can't you see I'm trying
Why'd you have to say that
Do you really not want to see me win?
I don't understand you
Why are you so hateful?
Your words only hurt me
I thought we were in the same boat
You really know how to hurt my pride
I guess you don't want to see me shine
I don't feel bad now if I leave you behind
Don't call me when I'm in the spotlight

at least I'm trying (prod. 2001 x jolst)

No matter what I can't turn back

Mixed/Mastered: @lilspudxlp

[Chorus]
I need to stop caring so much
I need to accept what I've become
I can't go back now
And I don't plan on falling back down
I can't keep doing this to myself
Bad things always happen whenever I doubt
I need to learn to let go
It's not worth losing all hope
[Verse 1]
All the bullshit did something to my brain
Sometimes I have these feelings that I can't explain
Would it be better if I just went mia
Fuck that, I'm not tryna dig my own grave
It's not over until I say so
I need to stick with the path I chose
There's no way to undo what has been done
I just need to trust this feeling in my gut
Checking something twice won't make the sky fall down
I need to stop giving into my doubts
They're not gonna help me pay off this car
They only make me go down sketchy routes
[Verse 2]
It feels like there's a battle in my head
I wish I didn't have to take all these meds
I was doing just fine before I fell
I almost drove a knife into my chest
Where are you supposed to run when nowhere feels safe
I knew calling him out was a fucking mistake
I should've acted more civilized
Who he loved was never for me to decide
[Verse 3]
I'm just glad that it's over
That shit felt like a fucking nightmare
I had so many trust issues
It's no wonder why I never cared
Everyone kept telling me to open up
I was scared to tell them about the things I've done
My hands might as well have been covered in blood
I can't keep betraying the people I love
Karma got my ass when I least expected it
It came around and hit me like a ton of fucking bricks
Now I'm trying to recover all the pieces that I lost
Before I had these visions I never believed in God
I'm glad I didn't write my own name in the death note
That ending would've been a tragic one at best
Who wants to read a story that has been cut short
You should'nt have regrets when you take your last breath
[Verse 4]
I really dodged a bullet
I can't keep living like this
The mind is not something to mess with
I swear this time I learned my lesson
When I fell apart it felt like I had no hope
These suicidal thoughts are really no joke
I wouldn't wish them even on my worst enemy
I wish I could get rid of all these bad memories
[Chorus]
I need to stop caring so much
I need to accept what I've become
I can't go back now
And I don't plan on falling back down
I can't keep doing this to myself
Bad things always happen whenever I doubt
I need to learn to let go
It's not worth losing all hope

there's no turning back now (prod. 2001)

A bit rough but it's been a while oh well

Tangled Up (vito x pekarot)

This one's for you

She was the one that approached me
I didn't question a single thing
Oh, if I only knew back then
I would've saved myself so much grief
I can't wait to see the expression on her face
I can't wait until she hears this song
When that day that comes I'll buy us some champagne
I'll throw a party to celebrate her loss
I don't know why so many girls love to break my heart
I bet they get a kick out of watching me fall apart
I need to be more careful with who I let in my life
I'm not trying to walk away with arrows in my spine
She was the one that came up to me
How was I supposed to see this coming?
This is why I got trust issues
I get tense when girls try to hug me
Something felt off after our only date
She said goodbye but not to my face
It took me a while to process it all
That tone in her voice made my skin crawl
I'm such an idiot
I should've just declined when she had asked me then
Man what a waste of time, I'm trying not to cringe
I hope she gets a taste of her own medicine
There's now a hole where my heart used to be
Maybe this is just my destiny
I've always had the worst luck when it comes to love
I don't get how some people do it for fun
I can't wait to see the expression on her face
I can't wait until she hears this song
When that day that comes I'll buy us some champagne
I'll throw a party to celebrate her loss
I refuse to be her boy toy
Asking me out was completely her choice
I never even thought about her like that
When she hit me up I thought it was my bad
[x4]
Never again

Bring The Champagne (prod. irby)

She said that he's just an old friend
Well how come it took me this long to meet him?
I know there's something else going on
I heard a lot happened since I've been gone
She says his name with so much passion
She keeps saying there ain't no one like him
I really doubt that were just friends
He's probably one of her exes
I wonder who else she's been seeing
Should I start investigating?
I won't be treated like a doormat
Why in the hell would I ever allow this?
I don't care how much shit they've been through
Ain't no way in hell I'm ok with it
I barely know the guy's full name
We're too grown up to be doing this
This is how you break a happy home
I do not condone this foolishness
I'll give her a day to say her goodbyes
Any more time and I'd be a simp
Well what do you know I caught him sleeping in my bed
If I had my gun on me the sheets would be covered in red
I can't wait to hear what she has to say for herself
The things I'm about to do might even put me in jail
She said that he's just an old friend
Well how come it took me this long to meet him?
I know there's something else going on
I heard a lot happened since I've been gone
She says his name with so much passion
She keeps saying there ain't no one like him
I really doubt that were just friends
He's probably one of her exes

He's Just An Old Friend (prod.2001 x Dead Spyro)

Don't even say "it's nothing"
What you did was disgusting
I warned you about this last night
You clearly didn't take my advice
You slept with how many men again?
And you consented to all of it?
I can't even bear to look at you
I've heard enough I think I'm gonna puke
You lost all your value in just one night
And you still expect me to treat you right?
I swear females like you are decepticons
You'll do anything to get what you want
I let you do what you wanted
Now it's my turn to resolve it
Someone needs to teach you a lesson
The way you think is infectious
You don't even know what you're worth
All you know how to do is hurt
Your father clearly didn't raise you right
Was he even a part of your life?
You made a lasting impression
There's no way that you could fix this
You've just done too much damage
Now you see why I'm so livid
You thought you could hide it from me but I saw your tracks
When I put it all together I almost laughed
Is there anything you wanna say before we're done?
Do you still feel the same now that you've had your fun?

All Aboard (prod. 2001 x Cesna)

Who else is excited for date a live 5

I'm trying to hold on
But everything's been working against me
What am I doing wrong?
Do I really need a hero to save me?
Nothing seems to make sense
I keep trying my best
It's already bad enough that I had pushed away my friends
I'm falling like a star
I'm swimming with the sharks
I should've known that coming back would be the hardest part, yeah
Yeah, I'm glad I got off the drink
Sometimes I could barely think
I never needed to rely on substance
It only made me look pathetic
I'm much better off without it
It only made me realize what I was missing
Yeah making songs in the studio
Hanging out with all my day ones
Talking bout all our dreams and hopes
I'm so stupid
I took all that shit for granted
I should've been a lot more proactive
Yeah all of this could've been avoided
I'm trying to hold on
But everything's been working against me
What am I doing wrong?
Do I really need a hero to save me?
I lashed out at my friends
Ugh, here we go again
I really need to think about what Imma say next
Don't wanna be alone
Just wanna take control
Everything's been falling apart ever since I went rogue
I guess I'll try
I guess I'll grind
Won't stop until I feel alright
So much has been weighing on my mind
It feels like I've been skating on thin ice
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah
Oooh oooh

Gone Rogue (prod. frevel)

What do you see when you look at my face?
Can you see the pain that I've tried to erase?
Just say the word and I'll stay away
I've already told you that I can't be saved
You honestly might be my last
My heart's already turned jet-black
I thought I could run away from fate
But it caught up to me and forced me to break
My home
Is in the shadows
Feeling incomplete
Is all that I've known, known
Thinking I'm safe
Until I fuck up
Life can be really cruel sometimes
Cry in the rain
Hide my emotions
Do you believe me when I say I'm fine?
It's been a couple years but I'm still like this
You'd think by now I'd have found an exit
I must have a bad sense of direction
This nightmare should've already ended

Cry In The Rain (prod. kaadota)

So I ended up just recording it in the same spot after wasting time outside the yard, wtf...

I'm dumb
I should've let you in when you were banging on the door
I'm dumb
I just stood there when your tears hit the floor
Why did I do that?
You were always there for me whenever I was in a rut
I'm the worst, I know
I didn't even try to help you when you were clearly stuck
It's all my fault
Don't even say it's not
I knew exactly what was going on
I turned a blind eye
I left you there to rot
I promise I'll pay for all the pain I've caused
You were always hurting
I just pretended not to notice
How could I be so heartless?
You were always there for me
We were something like a team
It hasn't been easy ever since it happened
I was never ready for this disaster
You kept me together like staples and stitches
I know that it's too late to beg for forgiveness
I hate this shit but I know I deserve it
I left you to die when your demons were lurking
Honestly I should've been born a serpent
Or something that would never crawl to the surface
It's all my fault
Don't even say it's not
I knew exactly what was going on
I turned a blind eye
I left you there to rot
I promise I'll pay for all the pain I've caused
You were always hurting
I just pretended not to notice
How could I be so heartless?
You were always there for me
We were something like a team
You showed me kindness
And I gave you a nasty scar
Why am I like this?
Do I even still have a heart?
I let all my emotions get to me
And in an instant I completely ruined everything
It didn't take long for karma to find me
Thinking I could get away was a pipe dream
Maybe we should've never met
Maybe this is for the best
I'm the worst, to say the least
I'm as bad as it gets
I wonder if I even have a soul
That's one thing that I've been dying to know
I've hurt so many people with just words alone
Maybe things would be better if I never spoke

A Couple Regrets (prod. skgotthesauce)

Had this one sitting in the vault for more than a year and a half now, big thanks to @lilspudxlp for mixing/mastering the track

Time's running out and I can't stop it
I feel like it's all a test
I used to hate being under pressure
It really is all in my head
Everything will work out if you stay focused
Don't let all the small things get to you
If only I knew back then what I know now
I probably wouldn't be feeling so damn anxious
I don't want to go back
To how I used to be
I need to make a name for myself
And follow my destiny
I'm not getting any younger
So why wait when I can start now
You only get one life so you might as well make the most of it
It's so sad
I've seen so many dreams die
I promised myself that I'd learn from them and live my life without any regrets
I hate wasting my own time
Cause time is something I'll never get back
I had to cut down on watching tv
I'd binge watch something then go and hit the sack
This one life we have is so precious
I don't know why I keep taking it for granted
Maybe one day it'll all make sense
I guess for now I just need to keep moving forward
I won't stop until I take my last breath
Every bone in my body could be broken
And I'd still run with whatever I have left
[x2]
Diamonds form under pressure
If I don't struggle then I'll never get better
I know this pain I feel's only temporary
But my legacy is gonna last forever
I've proven to myself that I can fly
I don't need anyone to stay afloat
It's really all up to me in the end
I really am my own greatest foe

Make The Most Of It (prod. 2001)

At long last here are the finalized versions of the acoustic covers I did with Gino TC way back in June!

Check out the full-length video with included blooper reel here:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=NEqPELb5D…ab_channel=GinoTC

You And Me

Collide

Yellow

Wherever You Will Go

Mixed/Mastered: Snow Owl Native

What the hell?
Can someone get this off of me?
I've worn this mask since 2019
It's too tight
And it won't seem to come off
It's like I lost the keys to an iron padlock
I don't want to
Forget who I am
I'm coming undone like the stitching on my pants
I shouldn't even be in this state
Walking round with a mental ball and chain
I always watch what I say
I try not to be rude
Sometimes I still have to though
Cause people force me to
Sometimes the words still come out
They're like floorboards that just won't stay down
I've lost count of all the times I've said "my bad" then turn around and start to laugh
I'm just sick of always lying
Pretending like I'm self-righteous
I feel faker than zirc diamonds
Maybe I should've stayed quiet
I wish someone had told me long ago
That I'd become a tortured soul
Someone who never follows through
And deals with thoughts of self-abuse
What the hell?
Can someone get this off of me?
I've worn this mask since 2019
It's too tight
And it won't seem to come off
It's like I lost the keys to an iron padlock
I don't want to
Forget who I am
I'm coming undone like the stitching on my pants
I shouldn't even be in this state
Walking round with a mental ball and chain

Locked Mask (prod. Snow Owl Native)

Losing confidence
Oh god, here we go again
I always give my best
But for some reason it's still not good enough
What can I do to stop
These intrustive thoughts from messing me up?
It's starting to piss me off
All I want is to make something I can be proud of
You think by now I would've had it down
But still I get so nervous
I freeze up everytime the light's on
I swear I'm not doing it on purpose
Maybe I'm just too hard on myself
But then again if I never was everything would be mid
And I bet a lot of people wouldn't like that
Yeah I bet a lot of people wouldn't like that
Losing confidence
Oh god, here we go again
I always give my best
But for some reason it's still not good enough
What can I do to stop
These intrustive thoughts from messing me up?
It's starting to piss me off
All I want is to make something I can be proud of
I do a thousand takes just to scrap them
I take too long on just one song
It's probably why I haven't gotten anywhere
Yeah it's probably why I'm always coming back here

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