Mixed & Produced by EJ
Mastered by Adam Moultrie

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Lyrics:

I've been better.
On the surface, 
I save face,
But I feel worthless.
I've been better -
My girl knows it -
But it feels like imma be stuck here for awhile.

And that's okay. 
It's okay.
I see a theme:

We don't feel heard.
You have your truth and I have mine,
But when we try and tell it
It always ends up in a fight.
We both have feelings 
And wanna feel understood,
We feel bad when we don't
Cuz all we want is good
Positive vibes
Is all we want in these times,
But it's okay not to be alright.
Always tryna see the sunnyside of life,
So when you're not who you're used to 
You feel like you're dying inside.
Questioning who you are and who you used to be.
But no one can be me.
I am who I am supposed to be.
It's okay to feel bad
And be sad,
Cry my heart out,
Then be mad
That my dad can't be there for my sister and me.
But some don't even have a dad,
So now my feelings confusing.
I'm trying to figure out the meaning of why
I'm feeling the way that I'm feeling
And accepting that I'm feeling this feeling; 
And that denying these feelings is just
Suppressing my feelings and I'm feeling like
Suppressing these feelings is keeping me in my
Depression, keeping me from healing and I've been
Dealing with the cards that I've been dealt
The best way I know how.
This past year has been hell,
So I found
A therapist
Who knows how to 
Help me figure my shit out.

LumD

Mixed & Produced by EJ
Mastered by Adam Moultrie

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Lyrics:

How low do you have to be to be a sugar daddy?

Where did my daddy go?
I would like know.
You were more than my bro -
Lifted me up when I was poor.
Now you're on your own
Taking care of your girl.
Been about a year since the divorce -
I was surprised how much you had grown.
But now it
Seems like someone has 
Taken your soul, 
Manipulated you into giving up,
And trade it to the devil.
It's like we
Try to change the channel
And we
Try to see the difference,
But it's still the same show.
It's still the same fucking show.

Wonder why he does his own thing?
Wonder why he does his own thing?
He wonders why he's so unhappy...
Prolly cuz he doesn't listen to his own family 
No

Yeah I get it
You're like 50.
Recently divorced - no, I bet it ain't easy.
Haven't been single since before Mommy,
Didn't mean you had to date a girl in her 20's.
Yeah I get it's been awhile since you got it in.
Yeah I get it you're happy now, but what about your kids?
We keep shit transparent with our opinions, 
But what's the fucking point if you don't even listen?
You say you hear us, we don't see shit change...
So we don't believe you
Cuz you gonna do your own thing any way.

Daddy Issues (EXPLICIT)

Mixed & Produced by EJ
Mixed & Mastered by Adam Moultrie

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Lyrics:

I feel like a failure.
Is it in my nature?
Always strive for better,
So I improve my behavior.
I feel like a failure.
Though I'm making paper,
Still don't feel complete
So I improve my behavior.

Didn't feel great before I graduated...
Not the best grades -
That shit was overrated.
I made my mistakes
With every girl I dated
And I forgot my mom's birthday -
Happy belated.
Ever since I left school,
I've been doing much better.
Haven't felt this much relief
Cuz I've been seeing a therapist.
I've been working on me
Tryna clean out my closet,
But, it's so fucking messy
I don't feel accomplished.

I feel like a failure...
I still feel like a failure.

FaIlure (EXPLICIT)

Mixed & Produced by EJ
Mixed & Mastered by Adam Moultrie

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Lyrics:

Why do I do these things that I know I shouldn't do?
Lately, I don't feel like myself.
I feel lost.
I feel like I'm trying too hard
To be a better person,
But I still lose my way sometimes.

Why did I even pick you up?
I knew you were bad for me
Still, I decided to take a puff.
A temporary fix for what...
Everything is perfect in my life right now.
Nothing rarely ever brings me down,
But somehow, I found myself wanting you.
Now, I can't get your smell off of my clothes.
I can't get the taste out of my mouth.
Oh, the bitter sweetness that I get for a minute,
The feeling of you sittin' on my bottom lip.
I don't know why I did you on a day like today...
Nothing going on but homework all day...

I can feel the judgement coming from society;
I can see it clearly in your eyes when you look at me;
I can hear the sound of your voice talking down to me.
But you don't understand cuz you never asked me.
You're too stuck up in your head...
You're head stuck up in your ass.
If you just took the chance to listen,
You'd discover not everyone was given
Privilege that you were born into.
Not everything is about you.
In your world, you're too above everyone else -
Everyone is out to get you.
I get it...
And maybe you just don't.
Maybe you should educate yourself and know.
But maybe you won't.
And maybe that's the reason why you'll never grow.
And I'll feel sad that you're an adult
Who never grew up past the age of 15.
You've been walking dead among the living.

Why do I...

MmmM

Mixed & Produced by EJ
Mixed & Mastered by Adam Moultrie

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Lyrics:

Goodbye for awhile.
I can't wait to see you smiling.
Smiling cuz you're happy...
No fear in your eyes.
Smiling cuz you know
Our love, it never dies.
And then you'd realize
Our temporary break
Wasn't a mistake.
Yeah everything happens for a reason.
Everything happens for a reason.
Everything happens for a reason.

If you don't love me
By the end of this...
I hope that in the end
You'd find true happiness.

ehfar

Mixed & Produced by EJ
Mastered by Adam Moultrie

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Lyrics:

I've been here waiting for the love of my life to arrive
Even though it's been clear that
Constantly thinking
And reflecting
Can fog up my sight.
Until you showed up
Unexpectedly
I was in misery.
I didn't think
Love was everything
Until you showed up
Unexpectedly.

Never thought I'd see another day
Brighter than the sparkle I see on your face.
Baby, I think you deserve better...
So let me prove that I can be just that for you.

My baby is a flower, but she also the bee
She let me pollinate, but she brings the honey
Thousand blades of grass she chose to land on me
I'll never doubt her feelings for me. I'm lucky
That I have her.
At times I take her for granted
But in the night time when we're dancing
We'd be laughing cuz we're having
The time of our lives.
When we're together
Romancing
It's easy with you.
I'd rather be spending my money for two.
I mean I still like it...
My alone time
Making music...
My zen time.
Then after it's "us" time
Cooking dinner, having sec,
Greenie sesh,
Get ready for bed.
Turn chopped on with Ted
Rest your head on my chest
I start scratchin your head
Then I massage your neck
Then I think to myself:
I'm with my best friend -
This is how love should be.
I'm glad you came into my life
Unexpectedly.

uNxPecTdLy

Mixed & Produced by EJ
Mastered by Adam Moultrie
Cover Art by Cidney de la Cruz

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Lyrics:

No need to wake up, baby
Sun's out, baby
Lemme make you breakfast in bed.
Sleep in, baby
Don't you worry
Imma make you breakfast in bed.

Lay back...
Rest your sleepy head.
You rarely have time to chill.
Oh baby
Relax now.
I wanna take care of you.
Don't resist
Take it as a gift
That I'll present
To you every day. 
I insist
On giving you this
At least once a day.

You deserve breakfast in bed, my baby
So rest your sleepy head, my baby.

No need to wake your sleepy head
No need to wake up, baby
No need to wake your sleepy head
There's no need to wake up, baby.

"based on true stories"




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