was just wondering if he produced for himself

so swag
featuring the amazing @nevermadeithome
prod @sadboiforever and @pekarot_161 <3
cover art by evan carr !
hope u enjoy!

lyrics:
(decks)
y-you just say that im dense
can’t get shit thru my head
man i wonder what thats like
up late thinkin again
eyes hurt im seein red
why’s it always a bad night

i-i got a 100k in my wallet
i got my pockets stuffed, i don’t want it
i’d give it all just to see u again
i got ur number, i won’t call it
baby im anxious, im not talkin
i’d give it all just to see u again

so what’s that like?
silence between us the whole night 
can’t find the words cuz im lost, right?
you don’t know shit im just uptight
i could use some sunlight man im aching
tell me why my heart’s always just breaking
i can feel u far i know you’re fading
maybe both of us arent worth saving

y-you just say that im dense
can’t get shit thru my head
man i wonder what thats like
up late thinkin again
eyes hurt im seein red
why’s it always a bad night

i-i got a 100k in my wallet
i got my pockets stuffed, i don’t want it
i’d give it all just to see u again
i got ur number, i won’t call it
baby im anxious, im not talkin
i’d give it all just to see u again

(never)
I’ll give it all 
To see you again
Hit my phone 
I’ll be like 10 
Cash in my pocket 
Jump in the benz 
Skrt off in rocket
Its not a rent 

If i see your new guy 
His chest gets to meet my new knife 
And when i swing that ching high
His coat gets ripped off tonight 
And we’ll go dance in moonlight 
Just cause that,,,  what you liked 
When we ruled the world 
it was never ending twirl 
Now I cant read 
the text we had 
You said we wouldn’t last 
And now i just regret you girll

(decks)
y-you just say that im dense
can’t get shit thru my head
man i wonder what thats like
up late thinkin again
eyes hurt im seein red
why’s it always a bad night

i-i got a 100k in my wallet
i got my pockets stuffed, i don’t want it
i’d give it all just to see u again
i got ur number, i won’t call it
baby im anxious, im not talkin
i’d give it all just to see u again

dense! w/ never [p. 2001 x pekarot]

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dense! w/ never [2001 x pekarot]

I don’t wanna do this anymore 
leave me dead here on the floor 
I don’t wanna sleep in bed 
Since you left me all alone 
I feel your presence everywhere 
your voice is in the air 
I wish you didn’t think that I just never fucking cared 

I’m falling apart again 
I get no rest at night 
heart beating, I’m alive, I’m never getting high 
cause I’m broken from the feeling that you left inside 
my heart, cause It was hard for me to stop feeding you all those lies 

there’s no excuse for my shitty behavior 
maybe you just fuckin did yourself a favor 
I’m a fuck up and I don’t deserve you 
5 years of every memory I’ll never forget you 

I don’t blame you for leaving me alone 
Cause I know, you’re better off without me 

I’m going days without eating again 
I’m broke and I’m barely getting out of my bed 
I’m getting fucked up every chance that I get 
cause I never want to feel this feeling of regret pounding my chest 
In my head it’s always gonna be my fault 
I’m closed off and I bottle up everything I should talk about 
it’s so hard for me to say it out loud 
But I am not okay and I don’t see a way out

i don't wanna do this anymore... (prod. Afterlife x Pekarot)

lyrics vvv

if u see me if u see me
just dont fuckin believe me
i been lyin everyday for a week
and i been feeling like
im not a good influence
im not a good influence
if u see me if u see me
just dont fuckin believe me
i been lyin everyday for a week
and i been feeling like
im not a good influence
im not a good influence
i know i seem nice 
but u shouldnt fuckin trust me
ill turn my back
then ill leave and fuckin ghost u
well i dont think i wanna
i dont think i wanna
i dont think i-
wanna talk to u
i dont wanna do
anything u do
cus i-
dunno if u fuckin noticed yet
but im not like u
and im not like him

if u see me if u see me
just dont fuckin believe me
i been lyin everyday for a week
and i been feeling like
im not a good influence
im not a good influence
i been ignoring 
cus i dont wanna fuckin talk
my throat be sore 
cus im screaming to the fuckin top
my life is filled w dumb shit
so maybe u can learn from me.

stfu.

believe me (splashgvng x jang0)

old track i've had for a while i dont think ima do anything with
prod @4evrgone
hope u enjoy

lyrics:
pull up to the function
and im goin on a bender
i’ve been overdosing on the thought
of you and me together
tell me how and where and why
i’ll buy you things that you like
im using to falling quick for people
who make me feel alright, alright

i been having longer nights
fighting with the light inside my room
hoping that this all pays off when 
i can finally dream of you
baby what i did to you is fucked up
praying that i havent run my luck up
im sorry that i been so fuckin stuck up
i just want another chance between
you and i now
thinkin where my future lies now

everything is passing in color
remember in grayscale
seeing you here but
caught up like a hangnail
used to the past
fading in like the paper
cover my walls and
remember my labor
labor of love
when i had nothing
baby girl u were my something <3

pull up to the function
and im goin on a bender
i’ve been overdosing on the thought
of you and me together
tell me how and where and why
i’ll buy you things that you like
im using to falling quick for people
who make me feel alright, alright

someone like u (4evr)

unstable w/killing art (horosha)

Produced by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Lately I've been stuck
In a cycle of
Falling in and out of love
With what we had
I still want it back
From time to time
When I romanticize

When I romanticize about it
There's just no other way around it
I miss you

I'm never one to back down
You used to be the background
On my phone screen
But now you're just a distant memory
I should've left you in the past
Really thought you had my back back then
Fool me twice shame on me

(Horosha)
I had that dream again 
And I woke up knowing that it's over 
But in that moment it felt real enough to touch 

I know you've moved on now 
White picket fence and wedding vows 
I just wish I had caught up 
Falling behind so show me how 
You deal with the world spinning so fast 
My fingers are slipping now

Lately I've been stuck
In a cycle of
Falling in and out of love
With what we had
I still want you back
From time to time
When I fantasize

Listen on Spotify!

Romanticize (Prod. Horosha)

RUN [Prod. blvnkface]

produced by ME!

lyrics:

what happened to the good moments 
the ones that clean this whole god damn mess 
what happened to the good 
cuz i just see the bad
you’re stuck inside my head cuz you’re the best i ever had 
oh won’t you tell me these good moments 
come crawling back 

oh ohhh
i hope you feel it too 
but sometimes hopes better than the truth
took some time til i realized what was missing 
good times, bright nights right back where when you were mine 
and i’d swear
this is where i’m supposed to be 
but 
changes come they push us away 
but for what it’s worth 
i wish i could stay  
oh baby 
tell me what i mean to you so i die just right 

i never wanna let go 
i’m not used to letting go 
i hope you feel it too (x3)
but sometimes hopes better than the truth 

what happened to the good moments 
the ones that fix this whole god damn mess 
what happened to the good 
cuz i just see the bad
you’re stuck inside my head cuz you’re the best i ever had 
oh won’t you tell me when these good moments 
come crawling back 

do they come crawling back?

good moments

(intro)

i know it’s hard
when your life just falls apart
i know it’s hard
when your body’s covered in scars

(chorus)

i know it’s hard
when your life just falls apart
i know it’s hard
when your body’s covered in scars

and theres nothing you can do except stare at the ceiling 
and wonder if your life has lost any meaning 
nothing but a disgrace from the very start
but would you be surprised if i was hanging in the dark

(bridge)

it has been centuries since i gazed into your eyes
you were perfection and i miss you in my life

(verse)

there should be nothing to hide
but you still keep feeding me lies
into my head
do you want me to end up dead?
every night i’m staring at the lead 
at the end of my bed
one bullet is all it should take
to put me inside my grave

(chorus)

i know it’s hard
when your life just falls apart
i know it’s hard
when your body’s covered in scars

and theres nothing you can do except stare at the ceiling 
and wonder if your life has lost any meaning

(outro)

i know it’s hard

(it has been centuries since i gazed into your eyes)
(you were perfection and i miss you in my life)

one shot from the grave (sorrow bringer)

Indifferent [+ splashgvng x Saint Tomorrow]

2 YEARS ft. idkconundrum(prod. scapegoat)

new album 'for better or worse' releasing March 24th!!

good moments

evan carr

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