should you hold down your two fingers down with your thumb or hold your thumb down with your two fingers?

sick of it (feat. hazenova) (prod. xmichaelwarren)

By @carlby
Featuring @kanashisadface
Produced by @sorrow_bringer
Engineering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
I can do this on my own
I don't need your influence
Got me feeling so low
Damn you really put me through it
I'm off the meds now
But I'm on the mend now
Figuring myself out
I dont fuck with self doubt

I'm on my way up
Standing on my own feet
I don't need no crutch to lean on
I should've known better than to fold under pressure
Knowing full well that I can't rely on these drugs forever

But I just wanna feel better
I just wanna feel something other than this emptiness

(Kanashi)
I just wanna feel a little bit better
Take another hit
My eyes go a little bit redder
I'm so sick of all the lies they feed me
Emptiness is not a substitute for how I'm feeling

They shove these pills right down my throat
Will they ever work
Nobody fucking knows
And I swear they just want to control me
This little tiny bottle got me feeling like a zombie

Carlby - Crutch w/ Kanashi (Prod. sorrow bringer)

hows it feel..?
v v v
oh my god..
hows it feel to be pronounced as dead?
hows it feel to be shot in the head?
hows it feel to be ten grand in debt?
hows it feel to know your grandmas dead?

hows it feel to be pronounced as dead?
hows it feel to be shot in the head?
hows it feel to be ten grand in debt?
hows it feel to know ur grandmas dead?

hows it feel when ur six feet deep
no one to call but ur known in the streets
said ur not in love but boy i know ur lying
yeah u use to have ten grand, on grand, on grand
but now ur trying.
trying
trying
trying
trying...

(funny little da da da break)

oh my god..
hows it feel to be pronounced as dead?
hows it feel to be shot in the head?
hows it feel to be ten grand in debt?
hows it feel to know your grandmas dead?

hows it feel to be pronounced as dead?
hows it feel to be shot in the head?
hows it feel to be ten grand in debt?
hows it feel to know ur grandmas dead?

hows it feel when ur six feet deep
no one to call but ur known in the streets
said ur not in love but boy i know ur lying
yeah u use to have ten grand, on grand, on grand
but now ur trying.
trying
trying
trying
trying...

... <3

pronounced as dead (splashgvng x irby)

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/cypression

produced by: https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161

no one to hold me w/cypression (pekarot)

empty_l1fe w/ fridvy (kubsy)

prod. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGDePQVGIZccm9g0UwoNOgg

just wanna let it go (prod. metlast)

cover of king slayer by my best friend @nevermadeithome produced by back2thapast and irby

original song here: https://soundcloud.com/nevermadeithome/king-slayer-prod-back2thapast-x-irby

king slayer (cover)

last single off new EP out 11/5!!

featuring the great @decksmusic

produced by @livingpuffy

lyrics:
i’m not stupid 
i can feel it setting in
i’m just paralyzed 
while i’m staring at the edge 
and on one hand i still think it might begin 
but this afterglow is still wearing thin 

and this all ain’t 
how it used to be 
and i’m wondering
what it meant to me 
take my hand and i’ll meet you at the end 
but before you go give me one more glance

(decks)
i just wanna see the end of the tunnel
life sucks when u live in a bubble
i just really gotta get it straight
pass time in a somber state
when the walls are closing in
i need to breathe before i swim
pretend that the times are good again
in the same ways
yeah, and when i finally take a stand
hope that they’ll see me as a friend
or maybe someone instead
of nothing

one more glance (feat. decks)[prod. living puff]

Featuring @decksmusic
Produced by @shikixo & @jolst
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
I don't talk much
'less I got something to say
Unconsciously
Rotting into my grave
Because my bad ideas and worst mistakes
Are catching up up with me today

Obnoxious
Intrusive thoughts in my brain
I'm not sick
We're all a little bit strange
Like what would I do with all this pain
If not create
So here's to the mess I've made

I admit I've made
A lot of mistakes in my days
But I'm not afraid
To own up to the fact that I could change

For the better
I've been doing my worst
You've got your head in the clouds
While I lay down in the dirt
It's so fucked up
How you made me question my worth
When karma comes back around
You'll get what you deserve

(decks)
Did I deserve this
It's like a boomerang
I'm feeling nervous
Never got a thing to say
It's like I'm locked up
A product of talking down
I'm always washing my hands just to clear my doubts

It's like I never care at all
I'm terrible
You say I'm not responsible
Insufferable
I know I'm just miserable
It's cyclical
I speak with my chest
'cause now I'm wishing the best for the mess I've made

Listen on Spotify!

Mess w/ decks (Prod. Shiki XO & Jolst)

my quick fixes ft. dead broke (p. 5head)

(chorus)

i will be
gone with the wind
you told me you’d never love again
so i have been
cryin myself to sleep
so will you take my hand
and guide me out of this again
just try to understand that
my shaky legs are weak

(MVØ)

finding it hard to speak
finding it hard to breathe
why can't I fall asleep
something inside of me choking me honestly
fuck an apology
why does it fall on me

drive home alone in silence
30 on the dash but my mind keeps racing
replaying
every moment, never lose track of the look you gave him

and I know that either way it's over
I thought I'd come out of this sober
lost touch now I'm filling my cup, yuh
yeah

(bridge)

this anxiety
has got its grip on me
oh cant you see
i’ve been drowning 
i need this please
oh cant you set me free
cause i have been falling 
to pieces

(EPITOME)

i’ll never see you again and i know that
and it’s been 5 years but you still never wrote back
i’ve been here all this time
i can’t seem to figure out why

(chorus)

gone with the wind
you told me you’d never love again
so i have been
cryin myself to sleep
so will you take my hand
and guide me out of this again
just try to understand that
my shaky legs are weak

i'll never see u again w/ MVØ (nevrfall)

new single & music video 'Us In Context' out now !

one more glance (feat. decks)[prod. living puff]

evan carr

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