A song about making mistakes. Huge thank you to Jenni for her amazing vocals. Hope you all enjoy!

Maybe Twice is Enough

Maybe Twice Is Enough (feat. Jenni Grossmann)

A love song to depression. One of the earliest songs I wrote, I tried to express the strange kind of melancholy comfort that can be found in sadness.

Slow Down

Instrumentality

Inspired by Neil Gaiman's Sandman, this is a song about going after what you want from life. Many many thank yous to @jenni-grossmann for the amazing vocals!

Life, life won't change today
Everything's the same
Nothing in my way
Nothing in my way

It's just, just my time to wait
The dreaming lies awake
Nothing in my way
Nothing in my way

The endless watch over us
As the stars crumble to dust

Fall, fall back down with me
We'll be fine, just wait and see
Nothing we can't be
Nothing we can't be

The endless watch over us
As the stars crumble to dust

The years lie in wait for you
On the other side of midnight
Just me and Morpheus
Just the same as all of us

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Me and Morpheus (feat. Jenni Grossman)

Featuring vocals from the amazing Pisgah - https://soundcloud.com/brittney-jenkins-6
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Do you still think of me the way I think of you
The words don't fall from me the way they do for you
Our tainted chemistry, I guess I should've known
But oh, when you smiled at me

Flirting with shadows but running from the dark
Don't turn around on your way out
Playing with sunlight but crying when it burns
Don't turn around on your way out
Ok, but just a little, just a little

Do you ever cry at films the way I cried for you?
The narratives play out but not like me and you
Our haunted love story, I guess I should've known
But oh, when you smiled at me

Flirting with shadows but running from the dark
Don't turn around on your way out
Playing with sunlight but crying when it burns
Don't turn around on your way out
Ok, but just a little, just a little

Bad Chemistry (Feat. Pisgah)

A fun little experiment that came from a drum loop in 5/4 time I made in Bandlab.  Thank you to Jasmine for providing some really fun and imaginative lyrics and singing them beautifully! Like and repost if you enjoy it!

Lemmings in Space (feat. Jasmine Maneli)

Lemmings in Space (Feat. Jasmine Mameli-Millar)

A song about those kind of nights when you drink a bit too much and start re-evaluating your life.

And I walked through the woods
Evening traffic roars behind like wolves in the night
Would things change if I could?
Conversations in my mind

Just a few steps more
Killed by the calm in your voice
Just a few steps more
Drowned in the depths of your eyes
Just a few steps more
Ripples on the stream
Guided by the autumn leaves

And I get lost in the noise
Just following your voice
Questions on the breeze
Guided by the autumn leaves

Easy like one, two, three
Was it something you did to me?
Your presence unseen takes me from behind
Ask me your questions
Get the same answers each time.

Just a few steps more
Killed by the calm in your voice
Just a few steps more
Drowned in the depths of your eyes
Just a few steps more
Ripples on the stream
Guided by the autumn leaves

Through The Woods

A dark and melancholy track, inspired by Portishead among others.  

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I'm getting tired, so tired
of reading between too many lines.
Just forget the world outside,
I'll play with the fragments recombined

In my mind, left behind.
Apologies pushed to one side.
Good intentions undermined,
I'll play with these notions undefined.

What did you mean?
What did you really mean?

But if your heart was mine
somewhere, sometime.
But if your heart was mine
somehow unkind.
What did you mean?
What did you really mean?

I'm getting tired, so tired
of all those chances slipped behind.
Repositioned one more time,
I'll play with the fragments swept aside.

What did you mean?
What did you really mean?

But if your heart was mine
somewhere, sometime.
But if your heart was mine
somehow unkind.
What did you mean?
What did you really mean?

Fragments and Shadows

I had this guitar lick kicking around for ages and ages. I didn't really know what to do with it until my friend Lucoline (https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/GAJYT) had a go at it and we came up with this.

Lyrics:
The moon looks sharp tonight
cutting through the atmosphere
dark shadows pierce the light
so lonely and austere

my breath fogs up like ice
but all my thoughts are crystal clear
I won't let you break my stride
I am getting out of here

Sharp footsteps pound behind
stirring up my hopes and fears
your voice rings clear and bright
it echoes in my ears

Such force and eloquence
that every word is insincere
I won't let you break my stride
I am getting out of here

What do you take me for?
You don't love me anymore
and I'm not the girl to stick around 
just to numb your pain
Your broken and wounded soul
it only keeps you in control
but I realized and it's hit me like
a bullet to my brain

People Are Taller In Real Life

Getting Out (Feat. Lucoline)

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Getting Out (feat. Lucoline)

This song is an attempt to be a bit more upbeat and introspective and less slow and introspective.  Its inspired by a lot of 90s alternative rock that I listened to as a teenager, I tried to capture the same dreamy, shoegazey vibe  that music had.

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Smells like a storm is coming
waiting for the weather to break
we're always waiting for the rain
drop a penny in the well
count how long it falls
we're always wishing for
the echoes of a memory

It always feels like the axis turns on me
waiting for some tidal disruption
to carry me away
hoping for the glass borders to break
dropping pennies in the well
and wishing for the rain

Smells like the ashes burning
waiting for the weather to break
we're always running from the pain
dropping pennies in the well
count how long it falls
we're always looking for
someone else to blame

It always feels like the axis turns on me
waiting for some tidal disruption
to carry me away
hoping for the glass borders to break
dropping pennies in the well
and wishing for the rain

Pennies

This is a song me and Brittney (aka @pisgah-official) wrote together. I had the opening riff and a rough song structure, as well as a vague notion that it should be about that time in your life when you're desperate to get out into the world and make your mark. Brittney came up with these amazing lyrics and it turned into this!

Thank you to the @themusicollective gang and everyone who listened to earlier versions of this and gave feedback, it means a lot!

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Lights going down I'm weaving through the back streets, feel the pulsing of the
Heartbeats that pass me by, eyes wide as I'm turning right
Exhaust fumes rising up in the night air, chase the feeling of
Anticipation gathering, evidence of my fear

Possibilities
(Makes me brave every time my courage wanes)
Washing over me
(Call me loud trying to make out what your saying)

Night falling down I'm trying to shed this old skin,
Lose my frame and
All of my old friends, hell bent on changing
I jumped a train without thinking and found myself here
Lost in the city, lost in the city

Possibilities
(Makes me brave every time my courage wanes)
Washing over me
(Call me loud trying to make out what your saying)
Possibilities
(Neon lights tell me everything will change)
Washing over me
(Breathe in the fear and take your aim)

Possibilities
(Diamond white tell me everything's alright)
Washing over me
(Breathe in the fear and take your aim)

Lost in the City

Lost In The City (feat. Pisgah)

I was watching a documentary about Oasis when this song arrived in my head fully formed. The song 'Supersonic' was the starting point but there's definitely glam and stoner rock influences in there too.
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Turn the dial switch the station
I wanna run but you're moving too fast for me
Left my notes in the margins
This silent room is talking too loud at me

Chasing down these fools errands
I stayed in bed and licked my wounds today
Left my footprints on the pavement
You're standing still but I'm still left in your wake

Three simple words to make you feel better
Go ask the watcher what he has in store for me
Just trying to get a hold on this ladder
Caught in your midnight web and I cant get free
No I cant get free
But don't wait for me
No don't wait for me

Turn the dial switch the station
I wanna read but you're moving too fast to see
Wrote my name on the pavement
This city noise is calling out my name

Three simple words to make you feel better
Go ask the watcher what he has in store for me
Just trying to get a hold on this ladder
Caught in your midnight web and I cant get free
No I cant get free
But don't wait for me
No don't wait for me

Silent Room

This was the first song I ever wrote. It started life about 5 years ago as an acoustic guitar, folky type thing. I've since learned a lot about production so it has become this 6 minute synthy dreampop epic.  I had just discovered John Mayer when I wrote it and was in awe of his live performance of 'Neon', as is every guitarist I've ever met. I hope I captured some of that Mayery feeling.

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Let's drive away, just me and you
City lights sparkle on the highway
Chasing the pretty lies and staring at the neon blue
Wishing I was somewhere new
Finding new ways to say what we already knew

Let's drive away just me and you
Shining stars sparkle on the horizon
A new beginning again because
Your demons are not your friends
Wishing I was still with you
Finding things to say that sound like they're true

We're all in the same game
Just different levels
We're all in the same hell
Fighting different devils
Just drive away

Let's drive away just you and me
This place, it aint what it used to be
City lights don't sparkle like they used to
Empty like the neon blue
Wishing I was somewhere new
Finding new ways to say what we already knew

We're all in the same game
Just different levels
We're all in the same hell
Fighting different devils
Just drive away

Driving Away

This song was inspired by someone I used to be close friends with as a teenager. Its about growing up, feeling like an outsider, wondering if that person still thinks about you. 

Massive loves to @jenni-grossmann for her beautiful violin and harmonies, once again she has managed to lift my song to the next level!

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You had me believing we were broken
So we painted our faces and grew our hair
Adolescence spelled out in eyeliner
There's no shortcuts through there

Would you still sing my name
If no-one ever listened?
Still write down how it felt
If no-one ever reads?

All the same kind of nothing
But our nothings don't function the same
Soft and lost and lonely
Long, dark and sustained 

Would you still sing my name
If no-one ever listened?
Still write down how it felt
If no-one ever reads?

But to make yourself feel nothing
To not feel anything
Oh what a waste
What a waste

Would you still sing my name
If no-one ever listened?
Still write down how it felt
If no-one ever reads?

Broken (feat. Jenni Grossmann)

4 track demo made in about 2 hours. This song was written during this years February Album Writing Month (FAWM) challenge.

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I can hear the sound of dreams
The cigarettes and faded blue jeans
The photographs and played-back scenes
Never knowing what they mean

I can see your days collide
The indecision codified
The fantasies and rising tide
History happens in real time

You could be my daydream
My landslide, my slipstream
My devil chasing moonbeams
Intentions lost to the mainstream

I could be your joyride
Your agent on the outside
Your lowest low and highest tide
Watch as I revert to type

Algo Rhythmic Daydream - Demo

See, I do write happy songs sometimes!

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Walking home alone
Drunk and counting stars
The wind it chills my bones
But the whiskey warms my heart
My friends tell me I'm prone
To cherishing my scars
And though I quite like being alone
That will only get me so far
And I know that I've come so far

Into the unknown
Just me against the dark
Got these two hands and these bones
Got the blood inside my heart
Into the unknown
Just me against the dark
Soon I will be home
But my keys are in the bar
Oh no!

Lifeboats - Mix 1

First version of this one. Another FAWM song. It still needs work (my voice is trashed, thanks covid!), but I'm quite liking it so far

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Heading south on dusty roads
Headlights glow against the dark
I still hear your voice, I remember your words
Burning bright inside my heart

Not my landscape, not my home
I played the cards I was given
The beasts watch me from the shadows
As I avoid their suspicion

Sugar-coated suffering
(wonder what this one will bring?)
Food for the candle wick 
(another song for us to sing)
Chords for pain everybody knows 
(not my landscape, not my home)
Burn your heartbreak on the family coals 
(don't let it show)

Heading south running just in case
Love has faded like an old photograph
Feed your heartbreak to the fireplace
Warm your grief in the candle glow

Not my landscape, not my home
I played the part I was given
The beasts watch me from the shadows
As I avoid their suspicion

Sugar-coated suffering
(wonder what this one will bring?)
Food for the candle wick 
(another song for us to sing)
Chords for pain everybody knows 
(not my landscape, not my home)
Burn your heartbreak on the family coals 
(don't let it show)

Candle Glow - Demo

A song about death with lots of reverby nonsense
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3am and I'm heading west
Miles shot through with regret
Eyes on the road and the memories
Safe inside my head

I see through your platitudes
Maybe one day I'll learn
So much distance back to you
Not sure when that bridge got burned

We write our names in the sand
Point our headlights at the moon
We make our way through this land
But gone too soon

No more equivocating
Time to put this to rest
Too much of everything
But enough isn't the test

I've come so far and still I
Feel somedays that's wrong
Only wanted to let you know
That this is where love went wrong

We write our names in the sand
Point our headlights at the moon
We make our way through this land
But gone too soon

Headlights - Demo

A song about death. The guitar playing is super messy but its a start.

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I see reflections of you in the crowd
No use keeping up with you now
Too many miles left to go
To waste my time chasing a ghost
I know that you're no longer there
Yet I keep on turning around
I still see your face in the crowd
Too many miles left to go

Please just let me go
Cant keep chasing ghosts

I want to leave these shadows behind
To pack up my car and just drive
Nothing left here for me now
Except some ghosts in the crowd
Yet I keep on turning my head
But I cant get hold of the thread
Too many miles left to go
To waste my time chasing a ghost

Please just let me go
Cant keep chasing ghosts

Chasing Ghosts - Demo

A song about loneliness and alienation, about feeling alone in a city full of people
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Watching the faded smiles
See these actors walking asleep
Like lifeboats stranded on the ocean
Floating alone

But down here in the dark
In this theatre of the cold and alone
No more hidden scars
Step out of the wings
Into the unknown

Look in my eyes
See how they shine bright
Watching our dreams take flight
As we sparkle and shine

Searching these darkened streets
For some trace of meaning
Lifeboats on the ocean
Tracing footsteps back home

But down here in the dark
In this theatre of the cold and alone
No more hidden scars
Step out of the wings
Into the unknown

Look in my eyes
See how they shine bright
Watching our dreams take flight
As we sparkle and shine

Lifeboats

A nice happy song about pain and loss
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Heading south on dusty roads
Headlights glow against the dark
I still hear your voice, I remember your words
Burning bright inside my heart

Not my landscape, not my home
I played the cards I was given
The beasts watch me from the shadows
As I avoid their suspicion

Sugar-coated suffering
(wonder what this one will bring?)
Food for the candle wick
(another song for us to sing)
Chords for pain everybody knows
(not my landscape, not my home)
Burn your heartbreak on the family coals
(don't let it show)

Heading south running just in case
Love has faded like an old photograph
Feed your heartbreak to the fireplace
Warm your grief in the candle glow

Not my landscape, not my home
I played the part I was given
The beasts watch me from the shadows
As I avoid their suspicion

Sugar-coated suffering
(wonder what this one will bring?)
Food for the candle wick
(another song for us to sing)
Chords for pain everybody knows
(not my landscape, not my home)
Burn your heartbreak on the family coals
(don't let it show)

Candle Glow

Del Rey Sunshine - Demo

I built this song around this weird little C chord I found, no idea what it is but it sounded cool

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Watching the birds above float by
Sunshine on my face and a sapphire blue sky
Breathe in slow and breathe out grace
Tenderness and a warm embrace

It's not weakness, it's strength
It's not a void it's a well
It's not nothing

They tell me 'just turn it off'
Like it's that easy
Surface deep  is all they see
When these strangers turn away
all that's left is you and me

It's not weakness, it's strength
It's not a void it's a well
It's not nothing

Breathe Out Grace - Demo

A song about dreaming of summer
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Black cab waiting
Clothes still on the bedroom floor
Too much too soon? Not this time
Escape to somewhere down the line

Del rey sunshine
Palm trees and fallen leaves
Gunshot heartbeat unkind
Just something new to pass the time

Photographs of summer scenes
'Live Through This' and 'Nevermind'
Not sure what that's supposed to mean
Maybe just that we're running out of time
Out of time.

Del rey sunshine
Autumn creeping through the door
Help me to see the reason why
Just something new to pass the time.

Photographs of summer scenes
'Different Class' and 'Parklife'
Not sure what that's supposed to mean
Maybe just that we're running out of time
and we're out of time

Photographs of summer scenes
'Superunknown' and 'Jar of Flies'
Not sure what that's supposed to mean
Maybe just that we're running out of time
and we're out of time.

Del Rey Sunshine

A song for anyone who ever felt different, an anthem for the left behind, a prayer for the hopeless.

Lyrics

Watching the birds above float by
Sunshine on my face and a sapphire blue sky
Breathe in slow and breathe out grace
Tenderness and a warm embrace

It's not weakness, it's strength
It's not a void, it's a well
It's not nothing

They tell me 'just turn it off' 
Like it's that easy
Surface deep is all they see
When these stranger turn away
All that's left is you and me

It's not weakness, it's strength
It's not a void, it's a well
It's not nothing

Non fragilitas est
Vis est
Non est in absentia
Fons est

Breathe Out Grace

Eleanor Collides is the solo project of UK singer-songwriter Nick Ranga.  

Named after Nick’s childhood imaginary friend, Eleanor Collides started life as a lockdown project in March of 2021 when a group of London based musicians got together to support each other in writing, recording and releasing music. Named The MusiCollective, this group has produced acts such as Pisgah, Colin Tyler, Corporate Drone and Lucoline

'People Are Taller in Real Life',  the debut album by Eleanor Collides, falls somewhere between Indie, Alternative Rock and Dream Pop. On this album Nick draws on a wide range of influences from the 90s alt-rock of Alice In Chains and Hole, British Indie bands such as Manic Street Preachers and Depeche Mode's moody synth pop

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