LYRICS:
Intro:
Yeah yeah uh

Verse 1:
You'll never understand a message if you're ego controls
The madness of how you perceive the world has rather gone cold
I'm no stranger to the ignorance we all feedin on,
lettin on, (yeah)

But if by chance,
I let it go, (let it go, nah nah nah)
And live so fearlessly,

Would I even stand a chance?
If my needs are in demand?
If the creeps go creep,
Would you even lend a hand?
If I wasn't in demand,
Would you consider me a friend,
Would you fuckin lend a hand
To go fish for compliments (wait what?)

Verse 2:
Your own mortality
Is bound to lavishly
Indulge you into
Deep ends,
Hypocrites preachin about preaches
We aren't the only living creature
So how come we disrespect our nature?
Reasoning we're sticking to our nature,
Do you understand we'll never prosper?

Outro:
Nah nah nah
Nah nah
(And it's been told)
(Tales have been told)
(We have been sold)
Nah nah nah

But if by chance I do
I'll let it go for you
Livin so fearlessly
No place I'd rather be

HumanNature.01

lyrics:

I'm too emotional
To let my feelings go
But I know i gotta grow up
Its the course of this life, but why do I
Lose myself everytime

But what if I showed you how?
Show you where I be at right now,
Do I really gotta go?
Do you really need to know?
Why do I need to tell you whats on my mind?
It's a private land where I can run wild, don't spy

If you ask me a question,
Expect that you won't get an answer,
It's not that I'm well too guarded,
But why do I owe you a reason?

Wide eyed fool, make believe
What you are, make it speak
Wide eyed fool, make believe
Who you are, let it speak

But what if I showed you how?
Show you where I be at right now,
Do I really gotta go?
Do you really need to know?
Why do I need to tell you whats on my mind?
It's a private land where I can run wild, don't spy

WideEyedFool.02

Intro:
I'm smooth like a butta for ya toast like
Don't treat me like a mothafucka i be on a
Smoke, fly, high, you don't even wanna fuck up
Get it i might need to even let yo momma know that

Verse 1:
All that I do, I do it for you
Ain't no one as true as you
Fuck all these temptations,
Clout chasin', 
nah, 
There ain't no one like you,
We escaping thru the backdoor,
Hope they don't catch us 
Sneaking out the avenue
Yous asking bout my soundcloud
Said I'm such sad gal
Next thing I be in your room

Chorus:
And I know
And I know
And I know that,
It's all in my head
But we know 
Yeah we know
Yeah we know it
It should've happened

Verse 2:
We locked eyes while you hold her thighs
I be with my man blazing through the night
I fantasise about you n I, 
Then I said it's nice but I'm really tired,
Suddenly, were alone that night,
I reached to you for a kiss goodbye
But all this time I be fantisising
All a part of hallucination,

Chorus/outro:
And I know 
and I know 
and I know that
It's all in my head
But you know
 yeah you know 
yeah you know it,
It should've happened

All In My Head / What Could Have Been

best enjoyed with coffee and a healed heart.

wrote and recorded this way back sep 2021 for someone whom i believed was my end game. you know the catch. young, dumb and very much disconnected from reality.

debated for years whether i should publish this, but 2021 deserved the closure from this "eksena". 

if you're still here, thank you for listening to my songs. i really poured all my teen to early 20s in here.

Anino (raw)

UR KIND OF FUCKED UP MATCHED MINE

This song is about the people who doubt themselves when it comes to entering a relationship. Lol. We all fuck up.

MARLBORO LIGHTS (FEAT. RIHRIH, RE-MASTERED)

BAROK VOL. 1

SEEKTHETRUTH

from "EUPHOBIA (intro) to DEVILWEARSPRADA (outro)", listen to it by order. I'm letting you in my world and let you know what it's like to be in my shoes. Welcome to my mixtape.

BAROK VOL. 2

153 FT. RIH

AQUARIUS

EUPHOBIA (intro)

I wrote this song because majority of the men and women I dated only dated me because of my social status, or my physical appearance. No one deserves that. 

Para sa malamig na gabi, vibe with me!!

Intro:
Hold on

Verse 1:
I don't know why this shit matters to you
Trynna see it from my own point of view
Little bit sensitive
Don't know why I live with it
I'm just chasing,
No excuses,
guess I'm not into you

Verse 2:
I don't wanna see a tear in your eye
I can't live with you breaking your heart
Little bit sensitive
I cannot live with it,
I'm not chasing,
Done excuses,
guess I'm so into you

Chorus:
Hoooooooold on
Hold on 4x

Verse 3:
I don't wanna make you question your mind
But it seems like your so toxic to stay by my side
So unreasonable
You can leave,
But don't feel cold
I'm not chasing,
Done excuses,
guess im so into you

Verse 4/outro:
I just wanna let you know
I'm a woman I can leave for sure
Don't belittle my experience
Cause I'm better when I'm different
You can unlove me, its an open door

Chorus:
Hoooooooold on
Hold on 4x

SUPERF!C!AL

Ibinabahagi namin ang kantang ito para sa karamihan na nakaranas ng pag-ayaw sa sarili. Mapa babae man o lalake, iisa tayo. Sana maintindihan niyo yung mensahe namin.

Verse 1:

The public ain't the enemy
It's the inner me
Plotting a new template
To unravel what's ahead of me
Been a contrast of my past
Certain people, yeah, I lack
Wondering what it's like
To have zero thoughts on my mind
When can I decide
Phases I cannot defy
Mere conspiracies I can't deny
How do I?
Ignore the noise from the outter shell
And specially when the noise
is starting from myself
(Starting from myself)

Verse 2:

Like,
How I love a person
that cannot love me back
Expecting a promotion
Cause opposites attract

Same reason 
why I cannot remain broke
I look hella stoned,
But this bitch is holdin' on to hope
Made me think,
That I don't know

I can't persuade 
if you have the ace
To the spade of the game
I had it rough, 
to explain it, uh
It's easy and plain,
You can't sustain
the seed of life,
If you can't learn how to wait,
Nah, you don't get me,
And thats okay,
Cause we ain't the same.

HOOK:
It's easy and plain, uh
Nah, We ain't the same (4x)

Verse 3: ASH

I THINK IM STUCK
MAYBE I GOT  A BAD LUCK
IM NOT SO FOND OF MYSELF BUT THEY SEEM SO AWESTRUCK
IMMA KEEP ON IGNORIN I THINK ILL STICK TO MY ADDICTION
AND FEEDING OFF ON PRAISES 
MAN THEY THINK I GOT THE ANSWERS TO
HOW DO YOU 
BELIEVE IN YOURSELF
I DONT KNOW
I DONT WANNA EVEN LOOK AT MYSELF
FUCK IT 
I HIDE BEHIND A PRETTY FACE TO KEEP AWAY THE ENEMY
IM THE ANTAGONIST OF MY OWN DISORDERLY STORY KEEPING ME OFF MY GLORY 
MY DEMONS BEEN ACCUSATORY
SAYING ITS MY OWN FAULT AND THEY LAUGHIN CAUSE ITS FUNNY
(Haha)
ITS THE TRUTH
AND  
U gotta stick to ur truth 
Even if the darkest mystery mentally is the torture
And i dont think im my own lifes author
Someone always tryna make it into cliche 
Can someone read between the lines
Im tryna break away
Cause its hard to be stuck without inner peace
So i try to break out speak loud along the streets
and uh
A lottta people been lovin me and what i do
Damn can someone teach me too?

HOOK:
It's easy plain, uh
Nah, we ain't the same (4x)
OUTRO:
Ive been an opposite of real
To the people that find me weak
I cannot trust another soul
Cause it cost me to go and seek

The unexplainable reasons
Why it's easy to come correct
Or the same reasons why
Illegal medications are injected

And through those reasons
Been finding answers
To what might cure
All these hangovers
I have recovered
My hidden power
Cause i've discovered,
A goddess underneath the covers.
Do you understand now?
Liwanag ang aking dala
Baka masilaw ka saking dala
Liwanag ang aming dala
Baka masilaw ka saming dala

HOOK:
It's easy and plain, uh
Nah we ain't the same (4x)

WHATCHUCALLIT? ft. SHNTI

Crazy getting fucked over huh?

Verse 1:
You don't really owe me an explanation
You know I'm kinda crazy
Based on observation,
I don't need you calling me
You can fuck around, you're free
keep me out the shit, you see
Right now, you're just confusing me

I don't need
You to know
What I feel for ya
But honestly,
It's gettin' old
I'm growin' tired of ya
You tellin' me
I ain't got to worry no more
But shit hits different when I'm alone

Chorus:
So won't you tell me now?
(Won't ya)
So I know what this is all about, yeah
You help me stand my ground
(You do)
But you got me trippin' now
(Yea, you do)

Verse 2:
Honestly, I'm just
Trynna vibe, With ya,
Keep my composure, leaning closer, nah
We ain't over

But you got me fucked up
Messed with a wrong bitch,
Hold up, Hope you know 
what you lost, Cause I never 
come back

Rap:
If you wanna leave,
Don't hold back,

Fucking real to ya
Cleaned your mess for ya
Didn't lie to ya
Now it's all my fault? Nah

That's why you dont interrupt
A building that's still building
When you lose the trust,
There ain't no reconciling
I ain't losin' none
Baby, you was a lesson,
 when you hold me down,
Just know, the love is speaking,
Hold up,

Got me all feelin' cynical
This ain't good for spiritual
Mark you off my calendar,
Mythical to natural
But 
we gettin' physical
back to feelin emotional
Lose my stance to
Keep me whole
But, this ain't political

Love hurts like a sunburnt
Dust dirt till you leave earth
Skin tacked, Fucking relaxed
Can't surpass all these reflex
Now I'm calling,
But redirect- ed

Chorus:
So won't you tell me now?
(Won't ya)
So I know what this is all about, yeah
You help me stand my ground
(You do)
But you got me trippin' now
(Yea, you do)

VIBE CHECK

kritisismo, pekeng kaibigan, depresyon at problema sa pamilya, tila nawala ang sarili. 

Hook:
Gotta take my power back
Can I take my power back

Verse 1:
Oh My God,
A bitch really think she knows,
How this flow goes,
I'm losin' control,
Over my own soul,
Oh no,
I've been told,
But I never listen,
Guess now you know, hoe.

Mixing impulsive decisions
With some cigarettes,
I'm sending out invitations,
So you can come my friend,
I'm never out of excuses,
It's really never knew.
I'm never good with commitment,
So here's goodluck to you.

I'm never fond of surprises,
I hate the way you talk
I mean, I'm too indecisive,
I really hate your guts
Maybe,
the problem's how society 
has woke me up,
But I just wanna shoot myself with an 18 glock

Hook:
Gotta take my power back
Can I take my power back?

Verse 2:
Paonti-onti ng nalululong
Sa imahinasyon 
Na ang buhay ay isang tanawin
Di destinasyon

Lumalalim ang pagiisip,
Sino ba ang sasagip?
Nalulunod na sa bisyo,
Sino ang tunay at hindi?

Pare-pareho ang mukha,
Iba't iba ang intensyon,
Kasama mo sa simula,
Biglang naputol koneksyon

Anong meron sa salapi?
Bat nagpakain sa inggit?
Bat pa nila kinunsinti?
Ako'y dadaan, magsitabi. Uh.

Hook:
Gotta take my power back
Can I take my power back?

Verse 3:
Hindi ko na kailangan pang
Magisip ng kung ano,
Hubad ang maskara sabay
Nananaksak patalikod,
Himpapawid, naliligaw
Walang kasamang maglakbay,
Ngunit kahit ako'y uhaw,
Binubuo ko ang tulay,

Ngunit ang boses matinik,
Pantig tunog nasasabik,
Humarang pa ang nauna,
Serbisyo ko walang sukli,

Utak ang aking makina,
Dinadama ang pahina,
Pagkat ako'y mulat na nga,
Sa pekeng imaheng pininta, huh.

Hook:
Gotta take my power back
Can I take my power back?

Outro:
Reality's a minor concept
That connects us to our minds
We refine the deeper meaning
Of the life within our eyes
Silence haunts us with confusion
Making inner demons decide
We shouldn't be our own slaves
Reverse the system to unite

The universe can give us signs
Illusive contents will collide
Nature's creation can revise
How you perceive,
Can come to light
Connected, staring eye to eye
Restore the peace within your mind
Only time can heal the wounds,
And wounds can only heal in time.

Hook:
Gotta take my power back
Can I take my power back?

NATURE'S CREATION

first time ko gumawa nito nyaaaa wala ako masabi pakinggan niyo nalang :)

COME N' LAY

mood

i wrote this cause a friend opened up.

Verse 1:
I'm a city girl, with mindset full of palm trees,
I like smoking greens, seems like I'm still daydreaming
Please don't bother me, if you still out here playing,
Momma talked me out and said I should quit drinking,

But she don't know me like that,
And I do owe her a lot,
And he be playing my songs,
He said it sounded so sweet,
He like it when I'm too aggressive,
Never called me on my blessings,
Never blockin' all my blessings,
Where mah blessings at ?

Verse 2:
Small bitch, independent and vanilla skin,
Lipgloss on ya pipe while ya pop the ring,
High life, high tides till the sky is dim,
I'd ride, and vibe, till ya pop the ring

Yo,
Where ya heading out, it's getting late and shit?
Why ya make it seem like I'm a basic bitch?
Why ya on her shit when I can make ya rich?
Why ya so delusional and faking shit?

Verse 3:
Vibin' through the music,
Purpose to abuse it,
Faking yo life on ya socials
something we been doin',
Never had a real bitch,
Cause romantically abused and,
Never blame less fortunate,
We lesser than they own shit,

Oh, we be normalising everything we can't control,
We be so in tacked enabling things that we don't know,
We be failing sober and so focused on our phones,
We be so delusional on things we can't control

mahika (freeverse)

Pakinggan mo para alam mo!

Hook:
Kalawakan ng isipan,
Malaya lang pag sumindi ng halaman,
Pag masdan aking galawan,
Mapapansin mo na pilit iniiwasan,
Ang,
Tanong nambabagabag,
Usok ng sigarilyo ko ang paliwanag,
Wag kang masyadong lumapit,
Baka ikaw ay madawit

Verse 1:
Uh,
Di na ako tulad ng dati,
Lamig ko masyado, ang init sa kalye,
Kung dati malambot, ngayon di na bale,
Pagod ng umasa sa pekeng imahe,

Kung dati madali lang paikutin 
ang sang tulad ko,
Inaral kong mabuti ang galawan at laro ninyo,
Putapete, nasanay kayo sa pambatang
Laro na di pwede sa aking hakaman,

Tropa, alak, droga,
Droga, alak, tropa,
Pilitin mang magbago,
Sariling perspektibo,

Malabo na babalik pa ako sa dati,
Inubos pasensya at pera nadali,

Kaya kung problema ang dala,
Wag nalang,

Walang pake ni-isa di ko mabilang,
Pasensya kung oras na para lumisan,
Ngayon lamona, tulad ko'y iiwasan

Hook:
Kalawakan ng isipan,
Malaya lang pag sumindi ng halaman,
Pag masdan aking galawan,
Mapapansin mo na pilit iniiwasan,
Ang,
Tanong nambabagabag,
Usok ng sigarilyo ko ang paliwanag,
Wag kang masyadong lumapit,
Baka ikaw ay madawit

MAHIWAGANA

☼✴✧ LOVE TAPE 1 ✧✴☼

HELLA MAD LYRICS:

Intro:
They don't wanna know whats real,
They just scared to feel and still,
They concealing true identities to let them feel it's real,
I don't wanna fucks with that,
I know they think mad of me,
To be honest,
I don't care,
Hoes can go be mad at me

Verse 1 [BUENI]:
Head up the sky,
Lighting my fire,
came with no bitches
Around me that's fine,
how I live life,
Ain't yo fucking business,
Scared that I might,
Not share you my richness,

You ain't my kind,
Get outta my sight,
You cannot fixate a lie with a lie,
Lie to me once, you gon' do it again,
Anyone I love, bitch, I can befriend, nah,

I can be kind,
I can be giving,
Just name it, I'll do it,
But once you fuck up 
and ruin my silence,
I'm aiming for yo head,
Trust is the problem,
They ask and they ask,
But got no balls to keep it,
That's why I think different,
If you wanna go,
I'd forget you existed,

Pre-hook:
They don't wanna know whats real,
They just scared to feel and still,
They concealing true identities to let them feel it's real,
I don't wanna fucks with that,
I know they think mad of me,
To be honest,
I don't care,
Hoes can go be mad at me

Hook:
Then go be mad at me
You can go be mad at me

Verse 2 [SHNTI]:
fuck it let it be
im just bein how i be
kiss my ass take pics with flash
u can go and suck my d
i aint petty
im just livin
i dont care how they b thinkin
talking is all that they do
stalkin hatin trippin wastin
all they time
save ur energy
actin stupid
imma be
on the rise
like my eyes
always lookin up the skies
im so fly 
they be reachin
up the clouds
i be missin
all the thoughts
slip away
cause im focused 
like a vixen

Pre-hook [SHNTI & BUENI]:
They don't wanna know whats real,
They just scared to feel and still,
They concealing true identities to let them feel it's real,
I don't wanna fucks with that,
I know they think mad of me,
To be honest,
I don't care,
Hoes can go be mad at me

VERSE 3 [BUENI]:
Sindihan ang doobie,
Lang paki sayong sinabi,
Di ko kailangan ng puri,
At makinig sa sabi-sabi,
Di ako tulad nila,
Swabe lang aking galawan,
They can go be mad at me,
Hindi 'to pangkaraniwan, nah

Hook:
You can go be mad at me
Then go be mad at me nah

BUENI

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