In The Skin

My original track "Honey" I wrote recently


Lyrics:

Lady I'm finding out I can't live without you
Shady sweet sundress she's dazed and I'm confused
Softly caressing the thoughts beneath my skin
Shell-shock sipping time let's take a look within

I'm set up and down to lose my mind
(She says she wants to go how can you tell her no)
Fingers trace what I'll never call mine

Steady as a whisper racing through my mind
It's hard to know ones self before you turn your head and hide
When you need a distant cup of poison wine
Honey I got you don't you cry I'll keep you drinking through the night

Cold touch on my skin but it sits alright with my skin
Caged thoughts fabric ocean quickly moving in slow-motion
She's a touch of what I need takes away my suffering
Separates my thoughts from death makes me think about my breath on her skin

oh her skin sits just fine on mine

Steady as a whisper racing through my mind
It's hard to know ones self before you turn your head and hide
When you need a distant cup of poison wine
Honey I got you don't you cry I'll keep you drinking through the night

Honey

Sleep

"Lighten up" a thought for the past 
My heart is stirring like the wine in your glass
Trade glances with the risk of a smile
I really haven't felt this way in a while cause it's
Just the look in your eyes and your touch on my mind
That's been making me want you even more and more
Now I'm stuck in between what I wanted to mean
And what I always said

Take a look inside feel it all the way to your heart now darling
Face me don't you hide dig a little deeper you'll see now darling
I'm holding on to something that'll never be real
Kiss me while I sleep death is just another disease now darling

I like the girls who don't know what they like to think about 
So I can fill their heads with something they should think about
Like promises of a place in the sun so far away
Where they don't have to feel the pain of life with every day
But my heart's still healing from the brokenness
She left me weak and now it's more than only obvious
I need a break I need the sunshine
A sweet sensation Honey for the bitter tea of life

Look me in the eye
Tell me that I don't give a damn now darling
Take me far away somewhere I can really believe now darling
I'm letting go I thought together we could be real
Kiss me while I sleep death is just another disease my darling

Darling can't you see I'm afraid of running away
Gave me what I need everything is never enough for me
You're letting go another day I'll wake up and see until then
Kiss me while I sleep death is just another disease

Sleep

There's something glimmering inside
Your eyes they've caught me by surprise
Close enough to touch close is just enough to know that
Letting go isn't quite so tough
Now I know you feel everything I feel
And there's nothing left to show
I can hardly breathe when you're close to me
It seems my soul can't seem to let go

So
Take it all 2x
Take it all away from me
Take it all 2x

Let me know 2x
Let me know what's best for me
I don't know
I should know

People round here sleep in til the sun goes down
You and I never missed a chance to see the town
Days outside of the comfort of my mind
Make me scared of what I have to hide
Knowing that I'm not the one you call your own

The sun came up she shined so bright
I couldn't run she turned to me
Take it all 2x
Take it all away from me
Take it all 2x

Now I know 2x
Now I know what this really ought to be so
Let it go
I'm letting go

Breathe

Hollow

I can't find a way to let you know just what I'm thinking now
It's a fucking memory maze of walls I can't break down
All these lies that float around my head are never coming out
Cause I can't find a way to tell you what the hell I'm thinking now

Be still don't run after what I've said is done
Just hear my soul bare witness to this sorrow
Water fills your eyes but stiffness holds your lips in place
I fall right out of love before your hips start to shake

Our eyes meet one last time before I take our life
and bury it deep below the ashes of what used to be
You beg me for a sign but I can't say I want these lungs to breathe
the same air you've given me

Cause I can't find a way to let you know just what I'm thinking now
It's a fucking memory maze of walls I can't break down
All these lies that float around my head are never coming out
Cause I can't find a way to tell you what the hell I'm thinking now

You took my heart and drew a line in the sand
Said this or that and left me holding my hand
I couldn't help you see what your words did to me
I guess the blame falls on myself for never speaking my mind
There's no hope for us now I'm seeing everything you always let the light shine around

But you don't get a chance to say it's not what it seems
I just want you to go now get the fuck away
You don't see what I see poison sold as candy
Take a look in my eyes and tell me I'm not really alive

Cut out my tongue to feel the blood
I'm slowly dying from every reason I never said
Spill out my guts to taste the lies
I've told a hundred times over I never need closure
Show you my heart I'm bearing out
Melting off every conviction I never received from you
But in my eyes I feel the hate
I resent every word I've said sleeping until I can just wake up
Just wake up
Just wake up

Just wake up

Suffocate

STUCK

Could it be me or a dark and twisted fantasy running free
Giving too much time and patience to this disease
We call love no it's not from above there's no white feathered dove can't you see
There's no love left for you or for me

I'm lost inside my head I feel the sudden dread
Coursing through my blood like the endless flood
Killing off the sense that kept me on the fence
To push me off the edge
And now I run away from my pain
All the fear inside me boiling up to burn my throat and mind
Time after time I can't control the envy keeping my heart locked away
I wish you would stay away from the mess of a life that I call my existence
Looking in the mirror I can't see a thing I'm running off drugs and shattered dreams

Not what I seem everything I know about you begs me to scream
And the way we disconnect is proof we don't need to be here
Making fools of our lives being told by fear what to do how to live
It's not the way I pictured myself learning to give

I'm lost inside my head I feel the sudden dread
Coursing through my blood like the endless flood
Killing off the sense that kept me on the fence
To push me off the edge
And now I fight my way from my shame
Everything inside me conjuring a state of doubt without a way to get out
The prison that I've built myself it keeps my thoughts so safe without the hate
I think that I see in the whole of existence
Looking in the mirror I see my soul scream from my eyes

See the light inside before my darkness breaks your sun
Breathe the clean air today so I can use your lungs
I wanna feel your spirit break out of the chains constructed from
The fear of losing love
The fear of losing

FEAR

Don't you fake it with me. Take what I am as I am.
Burn down your walls I've helped you build so high.
Tell me everything I need to know, not just want you want me to hear.
I helped mold a person who doesn't trust because I didn't trust myself.
And now that you're here you can't look me in the eye.
You won't speak, in response or question.
You speak only to defend from my non-existent attacks.
Assume the worst and it will be the worst.
I finally finished packing my bags to find you stepping off the return ship, and although you called me to come aboard the whole journey, it was over before I was ready to start.
It was over before I was ready to start.

MORPH

Stone cold eyes pierce my chest
I won't move until the rest
The feelings shared the love we sought
Washed away with the storm you brought
And now I fear far too much
Too let you know where you touch
Inside my soul I cannot find
A reason to not leave this behind
And now I'm taking more them what's been told is mine
I don't even care just stay and pass the time

I want to say I can't let go but nothing makes me feel ok
You tell me it's not yes and no, but in-between there's just no space
And now I feel the weight of living on my own
Even though you're here I feel so alone

Stuck in the shell I call my skin this spirit yearns for another place
I fight and spread myself too thin, I'm starting to give into my self-hate

And now I can't breathe the way I used to fill my lungs
I feel complete when you're not here to squeeze my neck
I just go over the times I wish I could rewind
To the moments I said what I didn't mean and just not go so fast
You make me feel so numb I can't forget our past

Speak and say whatever you think will help me stay
I know it's hard to see things my way but I guarantee that someday
You and I will be free to roam the stars
As minds without fear of open scars
And only see who we truly are
I love with the fullness of our hearts
Until they never beat

They never beat

FADE

This cold winter knows the deepest part of me
It's grip has always shown through bare and empty sheets
Your sun it trickled in, and when it comes to show
The feelings of remorse stay locked in my soul

And when the light escapes your bones and your eyes just won't let go
I can feel my frozen heart begin to burn
That's when I empty from my chest this feeling of duress
That has kept me from your warm for far too long

There's nothing more of the words we never said
You took my hand but you left me for dead
We saw it coming but we didn't have to try
I can't hide the truth when I'm out of lies
Separate the days we were stuck in haze
From the life I wanted just to be enough but
There's something more when you look into me
I feel my heart telling me just to speak

Take all of the pain deep inside my chest
Make it disappear make a place to rest
All the fears you know will soon come and pass
I will block the dark stained in our glass

And when the light escapes your bones and your eyes just won't let go
I can feel my frozen heart begin to burn
That's when I empty from my chest this feeling of duress
That has kept me from your warm for far too long

There's nothing more of the words we never said
You took my hand but you left me for dead
We saw it coming but we didn't have to try
I can't hide the truth when I'm out of lies
Separate the days we were stuck in haze
From the life I wanted just to be enough but
There's something more when you look into me
I feel my heart telling me just to speak

Just let me speak

Cut out my tongue and let me go
There's nothing here that can save our souls
We crucified our love to the sky
Left me shaking
Body is waking
Lift my head and tell me it's fine
I am broken just give me time
To disconnect these feelings from thoughts
I'm pushing them out and there's no way to stop

SPEAK

I've been growing old too fast for the peace of mind I seek
There's nothing on this earth that can satisfy my thirst
The difference between our spirits is a little small but not week
Strong enough to show me that we're stuck with this curse
That keeps us chained back afraid to be real
Fighting to just look back and show how you feel

Scratch my skin and taste the swelling blood
Feel the warm dribble down to a flood
It's the only way I'll ever be close to you
Stretch me out and make me lose my mind
Find a way to stop the passing of time
It's the only way I'll ever be close to you

You keep me there inside your heart with hope that cushions words I speak
Against the thought of you never losing my love
But my heartbeat drives me away
Helps me clear out thoughts I can't say

Scratch my skin and taste the swelling blood
Feel the warm dribble down to a flood
It's the only way I'll ever be close to you
Stretch me out and make me lose my mind
Find a way to stop the passing of time
It's the only way I'll ever be close to you

(Michael)
Things I'm afraid of.
The dark lipped kiss of some starry morning sky peeking into my chest looking for that piece of vulnerability I've been braking off to share with everyone I meet.
The sounds of rushing water penetrating sand castles made out of dried pieces of flesh I've been peeling off my body ever since I discovered the word bravery.
A warm trembling embrace that's unsure of how to hold my insecurities and a nestled head that's aware of the bent indent in my shoulder created between my neck was a sigh of relief because that is exactly what I wanted.
A quick shooting star damp with chlorine flickering aimlessly through our pre-edited stories about love and what it means to be in it.
I'm afraid of losing hope in myself just long enough for you to realize that I might be a mess your practiced hands won't be able to clean up.
A slender shadow patrolling the shores of my battlefield asking if we could learn the dance of our tiptoed ballet.
I just want to trace your goosebumps with every word I know until your skin is nothing but sheet music only I can read.
Music has been escaping my fingertips like beads of sweat.
I am malnourished and I'm afraid that loving myself isn't going to quench my thirst enough to keep sweating.
I'm sweating your name under my breath like a dusty road found hiding in the crack of some old photographs we might one day look through.
Caught in between this kingdom and some cell phone poetry I am afraid that I am far too in over my head.
But I want to scream the word love out loud until nobody can hear me drowning in my own silence.
I am afraid that this might be the best decision for me right now balancing my own body on top of myself until I cannot breath without reassurance from my pulse.
It's been drumming so loudly when I think of you here inside of my bones.
I have been breaking them on purpose just so I can get a glimpse of your magic.
The silent air between us radiating dust that has been trailing our back roads like bumpy tires learning how to manage the grip of dawn drawing our blood so it can paint the sky before the world wakes up.

WOODS

Truth be told I can't hide the way I feel about this now
Skin so cold fingers crossed and hope for a way out of this place
But it's here and happening and you fight but it wins
So you try to escape to a place you'll feel the warmth of life's embrace

Nothing burns like the sight of your sun
In my whispering eyes for one
Waking up to the sight of your face
Makes me feel like I can't relate

Away I pull my shameful skin off of my body to separate from
Hate I love the way I feel inside my body
(Nothing burns like the sight of your sun 
In my whispering eyes for one 
Waking up to the sight of your face 
Makes me feel like I can't relate
Dreams revolving around a place 
Where we never shared a space
Makes me feel like I'm flying high 
Never looking down to the sky)

Sunshine burns off my skin
taking out my pain within
There's no time left to give to the past
I'm looking forward to the crash

I never knew what to say
You always made me feel ashamed
Whenever I tried to help you pushed away
Well now I can see that I'm flying

Away I pull my shameful skin off of my body to separate from
Hate I love the way I feel inside my body
(Nothing burns like the sight of your sun 
In my whispering eyes for one 
Waking up to the sight of your face 
Makes me feel like I can't relate
Dreams revolving around a place 
Where we never shared a space
Makes me feel like I'm flying high 
Never looking down to the sky)

Sight

Take my words and you twist them all up
Bandage my wounds but there’s shit in the cut
Asked me to stay when you’re feeling so low
Push me away cause you won’t let me grow

Feels like I can’t speak without being made the enemy
You just take my love and turn it into fear
I’m not the person you see trying to pull you down again
Hiding with a knife in hand to stab you when you turn away

No matter what I did or said
You found away to call me enemy
Take every way I tried to help
you found a way to make it an attack on

You and me! We had a time when we were best friends
Now I see no matter how much I try, that person said goodbye
I never kept you in the same view, I always opened up my mind to something
New from you but we went down cause you never did the same for
Me

Call it a code but you really just lie
Don’t let me know that you had him on standby
Feel disconnect and you think it’s from me
I don’t know how to just make you see
My love

Tell me we can work this out 
Tell me this isn’t all about
What we feel when we scream and shout 
Turning our sweet love to doubt
There’s a way we can be clear
Speak your mind I want to hear
Everything you’re afraid to say
Cause fake speech gets in the way
Of our love, of our hopes, of the
Future we work so hard for
Presently you’re not the same
Can you even say my name

You can keep your reasons why
You just let us fucking die
I'm already on my way out of the
Suffocating state of mind

Use your pain to justify the means
To an end of you and I that you began when you let go
I wasn’t ever tryna hold you back.
But when I tried to help, you never let yourself see that
I was always there for you
To help hold, to help support, to love, whenever I could,
Even though you made me feel so low every time I was in your presence
You painted me as the villain to your story just to keep your sanity while you trampled all over my heart and destroyed what we had left

You can save your reasons why
You can just let us die
I’m already on my way out
Of this suffocating state of mind

Toxic Wrath

I don’t know why I do this anymore
Keeping you around just to settle the score
thought we could just make it, with a little teamwork, but that s*** don’t fly when, you just make me cave in yeah
I think it’s time to separate our souls
Screaming just to go around

Step up to the stage
Light blistering my face
Paint my heart in a race
I just need some space, just a place to rest my head now

I’ve, been inside my head thinking about all the
Times, I’ve been high and wanting just to come down
I didn’t know why thinking to run my brain around
you’re lucky lies would help me figure it out

I don’t know why I do this anymore
Keeping you around just to settle the score
thought we could just make it, with a little teamwork, but that s*** don’t fly when, you just make me cave in yeah
I think it’s time to separate our souls
Screaming just to go around

Again I’ll take the blame for when I was wrong
And never see you through a crooked
Lens I’m sorry for the things I did wrong
The least you could do is say you’re sorry too

There’s times I didn’t let go
But held on too tight
I wanted a friend to show
But that’s another life
I changed a while ago
But you don’t understand
I miss the friend that I lost
She slipped right through my hands

Nevermind The Time

<3 Rough draft of an original by me much love <3

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Eli Davidson is made up of a single soul with collaboration from others to bring the music to life. Based in Los Angeles, Eli Davidson brings a southern spiritual revival sound with a taste of holy rock.
Feel the love. Make the love. Be the love.

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