My own version of T33G33's "Younger".

Check out the original too: https://soundcloud.com/t33g33/younger

T33G33 - Younger (Elisio Version)

It may be far from perfect, but the entire process of building this up from scratch since nearly a year ago was a truly unique experience for me. I wasn’t just making a song. I was rebuilding my desire to dream, to love, and to persevere against ugly false realities dictated by society. I literally owe my life to this song.

This was also a series of firsts for me:
1. My first melodic techno composition
2. My first compo with lyrics
3. My first compo using text-to-voice software
4. The first compo I had a long-term commitment with. I usually just finish songs in one go or leave them after a few weeks and never look back.

2020-2022 was a crazy trip for me, as it probably has been for most people. Bombarded by layers upon layers of challenges such as court hearings, debt, isolation, breakups, toxic and violent family relationships, long-term sleep deprivation, alcoholism, hallucinations, an identity crisis, hints of having mental disabilities, loss of sanity, and feeling unsafe even in my own bed, it was easier to just let everything go and fade away.

As a last ditch effort, I decided to hold on to something I know I have control over every single day - my music. No one could touch my music or change how it makes me feel. No one can take it away from me, so I started writing music as an act of rebellion against everything. Whenever I’d start being pulled away by negativity, I just tell myself again and again “it’s all in your head” as a push of desperation (or delusion?) in order to keep moving forward and continue doing what’s right. Eventually, that thought stuck as the theme of the song and became its hilariously elementary chorus.

From then onward, life’s problems just started surrendering to me. They persisted for a while, but looking forward to working on my music everyday just gave me a reason to be excited about tomorrow. It’s only been a few months, but I’m already in a completely different place and state of mind.

I think the moral of this story is that, as artists, seeing the true value and purpose of our own art is incredibly powerful. Once you see that nothing can ever change your art and the thoughts, feelings, and experiences that come with it, you will never feel defeated again.

Elisio Arts

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