the art of being alone

home is a magical place
its where you are at the start of your fate
some search for all eternity 
and find out it was all just a dream

my soul needs a place to rest
your arms seem just like the best
choice for me who’s a lonely heart 
i’m begging, don’t leave me in the dark

you’re my comfort you’re my savior 
you’re my bed after a lifetime’s work

something about you
makes me feel so calm
even after all this chaos
you make me feel so strong

home is a magical place
its where you are at the start of your fate
some search for all eternity 
to find where they truly belong

it isn’t physical 
home is just a feeling in your soul
the universe sings a familiar song
that’s why you’re the only one i long for

there’s no words i could put together 
to describe the feeling 
it’s like i’m in the stars
but i still can’t touch the ceiling 

i know where i am
yet i still am lost
i trust myself 
and i’ll keep myself focused at any cost

home is a magical place
its where you are at the start of your fate
some search for all eternity 
and find out it was all just a dream

home is a magical place

lamplight in the bedroom 
papers on my desk
those pink walls with those posters
i’ll never forget

books on the shelf
and toys on the floor
the ladder to my bunk bed
the stuff taped to my door

i feel that one fabric 
my mom bought from the mall
and she sewed those curtains
draped on the wall

i still smell the markers
that i once used to draw
i still hear the cds
especially that one song 

that one song

mentally i’m there
you might wonder where
a magical place called home
warm and safe beyond compare

home is now nothing 
but a distant memory
but i still hold it close and
remember it clearly

mentally i'm there

i want you
and all your energy 
i love you
and how your aura’s so sweet

you do 
something to me I swear
is it something 
in the air

i just wanna 
soak up your sweetness 
you stick to me like 
the lip gloss on my lips

i just want you 
with me forever 
i crave the feeling 
you make my heart do flips

and I don’t really 
know what to say
your love is like a drug 
cause it does things to my brain

i just wanna 
have you with me 
anywhere I go
cause you take away my pain

everywhere i go 
i wear my crystal necklace 
something bout your energy 
got me obsessed yes

you make me feel better 
when i’m feeling restless
i love you and no one else
cause you’re the best yes

you’ve got 
a gravitational pull
You bring out
The colors of my soul

you feel 
just like a sunny day
i’m so in 
love with that look on your face

i don’t really 
know how it works
it attracts good things 
is that how i attracted you?

yeah your like 
a midnight rain
you soothe me, calm me
i’m stuck to you like glue

everybody 
knows that there’s something 
magical about 
the way you are

i just wanna 
feel the way i feel around you
whether 
you are near or far

everywhere i go 
i wear my crystal necklace 
something bout your energy 
got me obsessed yes

you make me feel better 
when i’m feeling restless
i love you and no one else
cause you’re the best yes 

everywhere i go 
i wear my crystal necklace 
something bout your energy 
got me obsessed yes

you make me feel better 
when i’m feeling restless
i love you and no one else
cause you’re the best yes

crystal necklace

my feelings are so deep
but you don’t have a clue
whats so hard to understand 
about the fact that i love you

why you gotta be so clueless
i always gotta take the wheel
why is it so hard to do this
to tell you how i feel

why aren’t you
able to see
how much you
mean to me

i have to 
make you believe 
but its so 
hard to be

obvious enough for you to understand 
i really just want for you to take my hand

i’ve been waiting for you to make a move
ive been tryna put myself into your shoes

there’s 3 words ive been trying to say
since I met you back in the day
but my tongue always gets so tied

i’ve waited for so long for 
the moment to arrive 
where you finally understand 
all of my signs

i just wish it was easier to
put my feelings on display 
it seems so simple but
complex to try to say

why you gotta be so clueless
i always gotta take the wheel
why is it so hard to do this
to tell you how i feel

why aren’t you
able to see
how much you
mean to me

i have to 
make you believe 
but its so 
hard to be

obvious enough for you to understand 
i really just want for you to take my hand

i’ve been waiting for you to make a move
ive been tryna put myself into your shoes

there’s 3 words ive been trying to say
since I met you back in the day
but my tongue always gets so tied

why you gotta be so clueless
i always gotta take the wheel
why is it so hard to do this
to tell you how i feel

clueless

i know 
these days

will someday 
wade away

and i know i’m in the good old days
but someday they’ll feel so far away

i know that 
time flies

and as suns set
i’ll ask myself why

i didn’t cherish what was mine
until it was done and left behind

you gotta let the future flow
and let the past fade away
cause the only thing that really matters 
is today

cause things always change
and what’s happening today
will soon be a distant memory

as time goes by 
its hard to leave things behind 
but the only thing that really matters
is the present time 

even though it seems sad
whatever you have
will soon be a distant memory

so stay in the moment

stay in the moment

even though it seems sad
whatever you have
will soon be a distant memory

good times 
gone by

it’s tempting 
to look behind

at what’s already happened before 
and to focus on already closed doors

when i look back
i cry 

and think 
of what was once mine

but i know its just a waste of time
cause the past is gone and left behind

you gotta let the future flow
and let the past fade away
cause the only thing that really matters 
is today

cause things always change
and what’s happening today
will soon be a distant memory

as time goes by 
its hard to leave things behind 
but the only thing that really matters
is the present time 

even though it seems sad
whatever you have
will soon be a distant memory

so stay in the moment

stay in the moment

even though it seems sad
whatever you have
will soon be a distant memory

in the moment

dark blue

reverie

fresh start

he makes me so sad

letter to u

2013

seven minutes

1991

i wish my soul was made of porcelain so i could wipe it clean
i wish that i'd forget the memories that keep on haunting me
sometimes i can't accept the fact that i'm no longer seventeen
sometimes i feel the other side might be a better place for me 

i wish i was an angel and i wish that i was pure
i just miss being that little girl who everyone adored
i wish i was forgiving and i wish that i was sure 
of who i am

i,
i just wanna be 
the colors in the sky
or the waves in the sea

don't worry,
you'll still hear from me
when you hear the sound of a windchime
or when you're reading poetry

i wish my soul was made of glass so I could easily look inside
i wish that all those parts of me that faded away never died
i love my mom and all i wanna do is call myself her pride and joy

but i,
i just wanna be 
the clouds in the sky
or the wind in the trees

don't worry,
you'll still hear from me
when you hear the rain on your rooftop
or when you listen to the sea

i wish i was an angel and i wish that i was pure
i just miss being that little girl who everyone adored
i wish i was forgiving and i wish that i was sure 
of who i am

2013

ella madeline

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